/b/, I know you're NPYA, but I come to you with a serious request. I'm not sure I'm going to live to see the end of the year due to the fact my health has gone to hell over the last few months, add to that I've always believed I'm going to die before my 32nd birthday.
Back to my request, which needs a little explaining. About 8 years ago, a very good friend of mine disappeared off the face of the planet. No goodbye, no nothing. Eventually I tried to put it behind me, and it worked for a very long time.
Fast forward to this year, and I get a nasty comment on my old blog. It accused me of causing her to kill herself and to watch myself because they were coming. Again, I managed to mostly get over it. Then the weirdest things involving my social media profiles happened - someone who I happen to know is her father went through everything they could find on me. So much time had passed I'd almost gotten rid of the memories. It's frustrating to have this shit dredged up with my current mental and physical health, it's almost threatening to push me over the top.
Pic related, Gwen. Help me find out if she did kill herself, or an accident. I'd spent years looking without success, but now my time is running out I don't have the option but to ask for help.
Alright OP, I'm not telling you who I am but I have experience in this, I'll need:
>Date of Birth
>Area Born in
>Siblings and Family info
>and anything else
It's been so long I can't remember the exact day, but the year was 1987. Ethnicity: Caucasian. Last known location: Centreville, VA. Born in Toronto. Siblings: Callentha, Alejandro, Bendek, Fiachra, Hamlen.
I know her biological father is a belgian named "Christophe Louis", but that's all the information I had there. Schooling was pretty much non existant, some home schooling from what I knew. Religion: Wicca. Had been planning to move to either Canada or Saarbruecken, Germany.
I'll try to dig up more, but there are huge holes in my records for some reason.
Alright OP, did she by any chance meet a friend named Jason Sycamore? Right before she disappeared. Try and remember, you won't remember the name most likely, but try and remember the face.
>Handsome, toned face.
>Spoke Arabic a bit.
>Seemed to be really into her even though he was wayyy above her league.
If not, then try and tell me more about the circumstances of her disappearance.
Not that I know of. She'd been desperately keeping in touch with me after her sister Callentha Killinger (a.k.a Rowyn Louis) died on the 2nd december 2004 (Rowyn's birthdate was 11-11-1981)
One day no more calls or emails came. Phone line was disconnected and she was nowhere to be found. Around the time she disappeared I had a bit of a paranoid stretch, constantly feeling watched - so clichee, I would see nondescript black cars with tinted windows.
OP, it's best if you let this go. If you want, we can continue. But, if my suspicions are correct, she was 'kidnapped' in a way.
The death of a sibling, the reason I specifically asked for any, was the nail in the coffin. The fact that you saw 'things' as well proves it even further.
I recommend that you delete this thread and go back to sleep. Her dad is just a little 'troubled'. Of course, if you want to continue, I have more questions.
Recently, I also found her name popping up as someone living in belgium, very close to the biological father's address, but the lead ends with merely an address that I can't find out any more information on.
I need the information for closure. Hell, I'd even accept she's dead, but I just want to know for sure.
Not sure if this helps much, I know her brother Alejandro supposedly had some sort of job at the White House, and another brother (Bendek) was a pilot for Air Canada
A bit far from Czechoslovakia but viable, you mind linking me her facebook or anything that contains more information about her.
Also, were her parents divorced and did she have a stepfather. If yes, then I'm more or less convinced on my theory.
She only ever had a myspace, she disappeared before Facebook was a thing. The myspace also appears to have been deleted recently, and the livejournal/deviantart accounts were wiped out when they did their cleanups.
Spot on with the parents though, her mother was a total bitch and the biological father and her were divorced. Yes to the stepdad also.
I'm certainly alone in my apartment, apart from my wife. I can't help but get the feeling the father's watching me again. For what possible reason, not a fucking clue.
This thread is too much for me.
Its like a god damn Liam Neeson movie in here.
OP, I'm sorry to keep coming back to this but are you 100% sure you checked the toilet.
And just do me a favour, I know this will sound weird but trust me on this.
Go up to your wife and just ask her something to prove it's really her. I know this sounds gay as fuck but just trust me on this.
Also the mother died about 18 months before she disappeared. I do know that Callentha had been the victim of a violent crime in the year 2000, and was still very screwed up because of it. Here's a kicker though, it caused multiple dissociated personalities.
Gwen had been involved in some pretty weird/heavy shit as well. Especially the Wicca thing that often took on... weird forms.
Just checked the toilet and shat in it. Seems fine. The wife test was successful too,
Well thank fucking God, please do me a favour and stay out of the toilet. Also, was the violent crime a mugging/armed robbery?
Also, I'm going to describe your friend Gwen:
>After the death of her sister, she became involved in some mumbojumbo spiritual shit.
>She kept in constant contact with you, infact her attempts to keep in touch grew in strength before she vanished.
>She described herself as being depressed at times and horribly happy at times.
>She seemed to have no idea of what she wanted.
I always refer to the Czech Republic as Czechoslovakia. A force of habit from my teaching days.
Thank you. This is very helpful, do you have any idea who disconnected it?
Well people tend to get manic depressive and spiritual after such a tragedy so i see your logic.
The fuck are you, an FBI profiler who later got a desk job as a teacher for more stability?
I have a feeling shit's about to go down in this thread, good show.
he knows too much
Where is Gwen?
Then you're a psychology teacher/psychologist who helps the coppers track missing people.
I'l keep going untill i run outta ideas, even though i realise i'm being a dick. I am intrigued s'all...
It was rape and attempted murder, she'd been the guy's fourth victim and the only one to survive.
Your description's pretty spot on actually, but her goal seemed to be to move to europe. If you count things like telepathic communication as mumbojumbo then yes.
Also sent me a postcard from Disneyland at some point mentioning being followed. What pisses me off is I'm missing three years of emails, emails that I'm sure also had her emails in. Her sister Fiachra died in mysterious circumstances, apparently buried by a truckload of gravel.
This record leads me to believe she made it to belgium.
Gwen Louis, Congostraat 27, Hasselt, Belgium, 117-437.
Haha. Nah, I'm nothing that special. In fact, I've barely worked with the cops.
Did she ever mention Czechoslovakia. Ever? And, did she ever mention moving with someone? Also, about the emails. Don't concern yourself with them, I'm afraid they're gone.
Also, I'm 100% sure the police never recovered a body, am I right?
Not from Gwen, no. She mentioned moving, or at least she lived together with a guy named Isaac for quite a bit. CZ was never mentioned, only Saarbruecken, Germany and Belgium.
God no. I don't believe in psychics.
This 'Issac' person. Did he seem to be slightly middle eastern or very old cultured. Like, the kind of man who acts as if he lives in the 19 or 1800's?
Alright OP, one more question. Did Issac leave Gwen or did she leave him. This is very important so be VERY specific regarding the terms of their breakup.
Also, I'm sure there was a breakup, am I right?
I know what cold reading is, I was just inquiring as to how I was displaying signs of cold reading.
she did wicca? what if she joined some secret occult requiring her to disappear. Have you considered it. And I hope you get well soon OP. she sounds like she did it on purpose. It's her right. If you really need to find her. You should hack into the FBI or IRS or NSA computer system. I know they developed cross reference system to find faggot doers. But you should pay some one to look her up on her aliases. None of us here aren't ballsy enough to hack into those system. So maybe just let it go OP.
> inb4 vsauce fag
I'm afraid that even if OP did hack those servers, he wouldn't find anything there. They keep that info on a separate hard drive. Not one that's available through the internet, if memory serves right, its a CSS system.
If you live in the US, get a CCW permit and get fucking strapped. I'm talking gun on IWB holster, shoulder holster, ankle holster, and one in your asshole. Barely even joking about that last one. Spend a lot of money on ammo and time at the range. Practice walking and going about your routing without printing. PRACTICE DRAWING AND FIRING QUICKLY.
Trust me, you're going to need this.
>"You should hack into the FBI or IRS or NSA computer system"
sounds like the whole family made some very serious enemies, and she fled.
How do we know you aren't trying to track her down to finish the job you started on her family.
After all, someone who was worried about her wouldn't risk putting her information back out into the publis, and would have fully considered that she wanted to remian hidden.
tl;dr OP is the danger
Is anyone willing to infiltrate a government building and use their computers?
Regardless CSS system can be hacked through the other software not just the internet. To bad they stopped playing video games to find terrorist. I think OP needs to ask for the cops involvement and gradually get more help as the case go by
As far as I know, Callentha.
... you know what, I have no proof to the contrary, but I don't even care to know where she is, I just want to know if she killed herself like the ominous messages on my blog, and why the fuck the father's still watching me.
>let's hack fbi databenkz guise
>ANONYMOUSE IZ LEGUN!
I'll try to find it, but Xanga's wiped my blog. I don't think the father wrote that one, it was far too... well basically written by someone with the brain of a 12 year old. It's the biological dad that keeps wandering in and out of my field of view.
Do you have the biological dad's name?
Now, OP. Listen carefully please. And make sure you answer the question VERY honestly.
Was her biological dad normal at first but,later on became very strange, paranoid and abusive. Did he at some point experience an incidence that caused this change. And, was she constantly at odds with her step father about her real father?
Biological father's name: Christophe Louis.
He seemed mostly like your standard overbearing father but with ties to more sinister operations (could have even been law enforcement) that scared off most people.
Stepfather also died about 13 months before her disappearance. It was a fucking weird family.
it's pretty obvious that you have a theory that people are being replaced by imposters, or at least having their personalities controlled remotely.
Earlier you asked him to test his wife.
Why not just tell us your theory?
I'd rather not post it here. Although my ultimate goal is to give OP closure. Posting it here would be problematic.
You seem to be under the illusion that the law enforcement can help.
How did the stepfather die? Did they recover a body?
The theory that would make the most sense to me would be Witsec, which would not surprise me in those circles.
You know what, he did really really want her to come to Belgium, but he seemed to try to convey the message it was for safety.
Also, these captchas are getting more and more illegible.
And they gonna fuck you up, even if you'd get in. Just look at what they did to solo... Being grey is not any better than black to them, they won't care what reasons you had.
Do you have any details about the step fathers death? If the death was criminal related or accidental, my theory becomes more solid.
It's possible but highly unlikely, she was in Belgium at the time.
witsec is for family members of witnesses too
can you prove that she was in Belgium? posst on the internet are easy to fake, could be a cover story "I'm going to Belgium for a while, that's why you won;t be seeing me"
It used to be much worse when I was still "with" her, I couldn't go anywhere without something seeming quite off in the "we're watching you" sense.
Ok it just hit me, I was never told the cause of death of Rowyn/Callentha. She'd been suffering from cancer so I kinda assumed that that was what killed her. Stepfather died in a tanker truck explosion, as did the "secret service" brother.
I guess you are an edgy fuck the government teen, you see there are these things called detectives that solve murder cases for a living
stepfather died before her disappearance >>548279294
and if you know anything about alibis instead of oversimplifying everything, if the biological father doesn't have a solid alibi for where he was around the time she disappeared then he could have killed her
The plan was for her to move to belgium to be closer to me, as I'd moved to germany at that point.
Our relationship was ... complicated. Considering I'd initially been with the sister Callentha and then with both of them.
However if Callie was murdered, that would put witness protection certainly into the realm of possibility.
I know the two guys here are just friends making a thread to fuck with/entertain people, but it's the best read I've had on /b/ for quite some time. 8.5/10, only a few parts that make it too obvious
OP said so himself. She had pictures.
Alright OP, thats enough. I think we've all gotten the picture. Did she ever say she was being followed?
I might as well tell you a limited version of my theory.
The stepfather and brother were taken care of. The younger sister was about to die anyway and they determined that she had no knowledge.
All they had to do was determine what she knew and didn't know. The father isn't as important as you think and neither is the government. Nor is it some shady men-in-black group. I'll tell you all once I have more evidence.
Op...this is important information. You should tell us more about your relationship.
Huh? Oh no, the detectives and the feds are enormously helpful. But a case this old and of this range, it would be shelved by them.
Where to start... well, I was the first person to be able to be intimate with Callie after her attack two years prior. Jacinda/Gwen got in a lot of trouble because, supposedly, she hung out with drug dealers.
About a year in, Gwen moved in with Callentha just after the mother died. One thing led to another while comforting her one night and well, then I was doing two girls.
I wish this were made up, at least it wouldn't have been fucking gnawing on me for years. From one day to the next still rattles me to this day. I'm fairly sure the neighbour would have told me anything out of the ordinary, but not even he noticed anything.
Appears so. However, I'm not inclided to belive that. We all do drugs here but do we use an alias?
This would be helpful. Please include the deaths, attacks, trips, locations and ANYTHING you can remember from the time you became intimate to the time she vanished.
After, and the remaining sister took a new name also. They claimed it was because they were leaving the mess behind that their lives had once been. I didn't really look into it anywhere near as much as I did. I can understand why Callentha wanted to dump her name, her mental stability hinged on it (due to the whole Dissociated Identity Disorder she was eventually cured of.... let me tell you though, the "switch" between personalities was fascinating but terrifying, often fucking inconvienient)
I'm trying to construct a timeline, but my memory is very fuzzy nowadays because of the medications I'm on. The only way I'll be able to have a vague one is by going through the emails/messages I do still have from 2001-2006
I'll get right on that. A few key dates should jump out at me if they jolt anything.
Well, I'm married to a half-italian Long Islander whose grandmother apparently often had dinner with some sort of big deal person. Also the grandparents live well above what one would think their means are. But that's all an entirely different story.
You misunderstood, not because of newfags. Because of other....elements.
Surprisingly yes. I was hired to find the son of a mob boss. However, I was only able to locate the body.
I..... did not think that through.
Do you know what SKUN.1 is?
I don't know if this is true or not. But even if it is, re-posting it somewhere doesn't give me any personal gain.
SN: Not everyone who lurks in /b/ Does stupid shit because someone tells them not to. But a great majority of them do. Even if you tell me not to show this off, someone else probably will.
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Are you referring to Joseph Charles Palmentere?
I know, and that's why I was ok with you saving it, but if you don't mind, please don't upload it to reddit or 9gag or evern 4chan. Not because of newfags but if this spreads, it would attract unsavory elements.
Not that I know of, I think they'd lived in canada for a long time before moving to VA.
All her stuff was gone, but it had been a "from one day to the next" thing. Even Max (the neighbour) was taken aback by the whole thing. It was pretty much traceless. What's even weirder is that the she lived directly next to the neighbour, sharing a wall, and he and his family heard nothing at all.
On her siblings, I've tried to get information from Air Canada about her brother Bendek Killinger - they, of course, were not cooperative. He's one of the only truly solid leads I had/have.
Absolutely nothing at all, sorry.
I'm going to see if the wayback machine can help me a bit or not
Hey OP, i had a similar situation.
Sometimes it's better to let it go, whoever you find might not be the same person you remember. People change, you've changed, and sometimes we can't get through that changes. That's why we always end up sticking with new friends, making others seem so outdated.
Leave it behind and live/die with the good memories from the person you really liked because the new person you'll find might even blur those good memories to the point you hate both and yourself.
OP, please listen to me. Give me the brother's contact info. I have a certain talent from obtaining information.
Don't you worry, I'll get everything he knows.
True, but the fact is this person is dead/kidnapped/missing. It's his right to know.
...... You're a fed aren't you?
Something in the back of my mind is yelling something about Ireland in connection with all this, but it's dark and murky in there - will try my best to make more sense of it.
I HAD let it go, until shit went batshit with the threats and the father watching me again.
I had that idea a long time ago, it's a completely nondescript bland townhouse - boring as hell.
I don't have any more than his name and occupation sadly, I never actually met him face to face.
I know Gwen owned a 90s Altima at some point. Sorry for the vagueness, I'm dredging shit up in my brain I wanted to forget forever.
Sadly, I'm afraid this will hurt Op. Trust me, go in the toilet, sit there and try and remember.
Please, if you've heard me out for so long just trust me on this. Do not let this go, remember.
Not copypasta freind. I checked multiple times.
Want a coke-zero?
the police should of been able to get the info from Air Canada that's weird, and can you clarify this a bit for me, so the neighbor and the family who supposedly shares a wall with her was home at the same time here stuff disappeared am I right?
I'm shooting myself in the foot here, but please don't let this become copypasta, it would be undignified towards the dead.
Correct. They heard nothing.
Found the message from my blog. All praise the wayback machine.
you sack of shit
you don't know me but i know you
i am gwens best freind
finally i found you
you broke gwens heart when you married that bitch
you need to fucking die
she killed herself becaus of you
i will fine you and kill you
Posted 5/29/2013 2:01 PM by youwillnotseemecoming
God dammed auto correct!
Just forget I said anything.
Now thats a good question.
Another excellent question.
Trust me, go in the toilet, sit there and try and remember.
Please, if you've heard me out for so long just trust me on this. Do not let this go, remember.
OP, trust me on this.
Sometimes people will pretend to look stupid when they type.
This looks like a genuine stupid person though.
Also seems male, as "sack of shit" and "shithead" aren't used by females too often. There are exceptions, of course, but it's rare.
It's also odd not to capitalize the first name of someone you cared so deeply about. It happens almost unconsciously. This person might be a product of the texting generation, or perhaps just a troll who doesnt like you and is using this as an angle to get in your head.
All speculations, of course.
They had no problem with either of them. Max is the one who "saved" Callentha from her captor. He also bought the house off her when the mother died and left it to Callie.
It's complicated. I've lived in a lot of different places (growing up in the 90s chasing oil took you to some really weird places), I've never really considered myself "from" anywhere.
OP sit on the toilet and breathe. Regardless of what happens next, it will lead to another clue.
You..... Why do I feel like I've been chasing what you're doing my whole life? Trying to learn it but not getting the why, just the how..... I need to talk to you more later. Even though it will probably kill me. Back to OPs girl hunt though.
No, no. 100% male. Females would not act in this manner towards him. Trust me, I do this for a living.
It's most likely that this was intentionally spelled badly, in order to make OP reply and lure him into a false sense of security.
The father leaked sensitive information. Protocols dictate that all who hear it must die. It's no surprise the family was wiped out. It is a surprise that this exact subject was brought about on /b/ and by someone with the skills to deduce information at this level. Be careful friend.
That would show what lengths whoever it is would go to to somehow throw me off track.
He was already married with children when the incident occured.
I wondered when Heavens would start clocking in.
Thank you. But trust me, I'll be fine.
OP, must I ask you again. At least attempt the toilet.
Thats a bit too friendly.
That is a good question. What do you think I'm doing?
Exactly, but OP. Why have you not heeded my advice?
>lure him into a false sense of security
if he wanted to do that, he wouldnt have posted on his blog out of nowhere in the first place.
He obviously wanted him to feel insecure, that was the whole point.
How would you feel if some 13 year old kid threatened you and stuff?
OP, no computer.
Leave for five minutes and then come back. But, while you're there. Simply Concenterate.
a married man doesn't necessarily mean a loyal man, my theory is that the neighbor was secretly obsessed with her and may have approached her and maybe asked her out on a date and when she refused he got mad and made her disappear, he probably has his family scared into helping him
Backtracking the information given using context clues, and heavy searching on the remaining subnet, for names, addresses, any details to help OP because he's not lying you can tell. As I know you know I am lying about what you're doing. I have no idea. But the possibility is enticing, I want to be able to do what you're doing. But I think I'd learn more listening than anything else, the toilet and the wife, spilled knowledge spills blood. And privacy is the best reflection. As for how you know what's going on around him.... No clue. But I've been waiting for one of you to come by anywhere I look, so I can ask you to teach me.
I don't believe that OP could have any unconscious memories if that's something your taking into account. I only base this on the fact that he claims to have been away from the family for 8 years. If she disappeared after that time there might not be a connection to make with him.
And the girl herself might have contacted OP. If they were close before she could have developed an intricate plan to screw with his sanity. It's a long shot, more information is needed.
You're quite the smart one aren't you? You've figured out, partially, my methods and are putting it in my face. Nicely done for someone who hasn't found their path in life yet.
Oh no, there's no special magic or anything in the toilet that unlocks memories. But, you'll see if you pay attention that what I did is something 'else'.
There is no power in the toilet, but the mind itself. What i've done is simply help OP... remember.
You're leaning towards spiritual. We must keep a level head. Consider both the physical and spiritual equally.
well I feel the text message creates another theory, it was obviously written by someone who was very passionate about this situation, if I had to guess this quite could possibly be the killer trying to cover up his tracks I would guess whoever sent that email could quite possibly be the killer and he made his typing look young so maybe people would just think it's a troll, he probably wants people to think it's a suicide
You misunderstood, he bought the house FROM her. Being on the loo has, however, reminded me of how I acted towards her in the final weeks/months... It's a wonder nobody had me killed, I really did fuck her over in pretty much every possible way.
I've also remembered an adress fragment, 234 was the house number, in Centreville, VA
Jesus christ you've just made me even more fucking paranoid.
THERE WE GO! Nicely done OP. Thats just what I needed. I'll be back in a second.
Thats a good question.
Or it was used in order to make op not take it seriously and think of it as a childish useless threat.
So you do believe that OP has repressed memories. It's possible that he caused her suicide in someway I'll agree. But if nothing turns up you might have to jump to another theory.
that's what I said, it could of been the killer maybe testing his luck for fun possibly, but just made the message look like some kid wrote it so she would dismiss it as a troll
You have to be either CIA or a government psychological investigator. NSA wouldn't disclose information and FBI would not have the personnel trained for this. I get the feeling you might live in Maryland or Virginia, just a hunch but i figured i'd throw it out there.
..... You had him remember his actions by putting him in a calm space. More so you had him try to think of some sort of information, street, state, he'll even country where she was last seen. Give you a root to use as a foothold to climb.
OP, I'm close. But, I need you to describe the memories you 'unlocked'.
Describe how you nearly forced into depression.
Describe how she only wanted your support in her broken life.
Describe how you threw her away like an old toy.
And above all, don't feel bad.
I was simply agreeing with you.
I'm here to help. Nothing else, honestly.
Thats a good hunch.
Thats a good guess, but not close enough.
It seemed like a good place to "meditate" and try to access the locked off portions of my brain. It helped, too.
Indeed, I dismissed it for the most part as some bullshit, my wife freaked the fuck out and asked me why I'd not told her, going on about crazed murderers tracking me down and shit.
If I really did cause it... I'm not sure what that would do to me.
More information just popped in, not sure how useful. One of Callentha's "personalities" used the name "Lilian deCosimo" which happens to be a gynecologist close to Centreville, VA.
Don't feel bad? God fucking damnit that's a fucking guilt trip right there. Fuuuuuuck.
The ireland thing is still bugging me, I'm going to try the loo again to see what pops into my mind
This guy look familiar? I found it from the "youwillnotseemecoming" lead...
Not really, simply read the old posts.
I'm sorry OP. But I need to make you feel the worst things you've done, only then can we bring you peace and find out what happened to this poor girl.
You didn't do this OP. It's not your fault. You were horrid to her, but times change and man's will is iron, bendable but strong. Humanity is one thing that can always preserve.
Do not let emotions cloud your memory.
Thats a good question.
I try to stay away from people who look like douchebags even across the room. I'm still not sure the message was left by a male though, Gwen didn't really have many of them.
More fragments, an AIM screen name, "Storm Royale", will see where I can go with that.
CIA is based around Langley Virginia with select offices in DC. As far as I'm aware you could have had today off, gotten up early due to the usual commute you must take daily (and force of habit), saw OP's problem, and decided to help.
Though your clearence must be either a grade 2 or higher, though not above a 6. You might be in your 20's, not 30 or above. And based on your psychological insight you must have a degree in either Psychology or some other social science.
Just another hunch.
You need to find her too..... The address fragment and the city give you another point to run off of. How many 234's as houses can there honestly be in a small town..... past owners, missing persons..... No wrong..... who she sold it too, more over where she could have gone, no forwarded addresses, wouldn't want to be followed. Probably just left but.... No trail ends when she still has to use data..... How though. ... How do you find her from there....
Because it's better than yet another faproll or YLYL thread, which seems to be par for the course around here.
Somehow this post has gotten "Everybody hurts" by REM on permaloop in my brain.
The main problem I encountered was that Centreville's street numbers have changed to four digits.
God damnit man, you really know how to make someone feel guilty. I suppose I do deserve it, sometimes I'd not talk to her for weeks, even though we'd been about as close are you can get....
It all came down to the fact I married someone else - that got to her and contact after that date was even sporadic from her end. I didn't care at the time, she'd become a nuisance in my mind back then.
I abandoned her in her hour of need. If I'd only listened to her for a bit instead of having my head up my arse, being happily married and all.
I remember one thing Gwen said over and over again. "What does your wife have that I don't?"
I never really could explain, and that can't have helped.
Nope, the hell man. i just want him to get a weight off his shoulders.
Good, the sin has come and gone. Now, go in the toilet again and remember.
Nope, you're concenterating on OP too much. Decenteralize my friend.
I doubt I did it, unless I took a flight while sleepwalking. I'd moved to Germany by this time.
Fuck, I just realised also, by abandoning her, screwed her chances at ever having another trusting relationship.
No.... wait.... he didn't kill her he broke her heart twice, possibly more. And then left with the other woman and married her. Only now is he worried about her because he's been threatened. She had family with dangerous knowledge and dangerous psyches as a near hereditary link. Then she disappears, claims of her being dead surface. Now this you won't see it coming..... He's not doing it for.... but wants to protect.... OP Did more than that though..... he knows something else entirely.
I wish it had been GwenSux or something along those lines, but beggars can't be choosers.
So how much time does he need to spend in the toilet to open up his third eye?
the problem with this is her stuff disappearing, it all disappeared with a whole family of people who shared a wall with her and didn't even hear it, no one noticing anything is highly unlikely
You're not thinking clearly, decentralize men.
OP did not kill her, but, to find out her fate. I need knowledge OP has forgotten.
No. I consider psychology the most pathetic of the medical arts. I once made a psychology student change his major in fourteen minutes.
Psychiatry on the other hand is a legitimate science, although i am not one.
I'm afraid that I'm not an /x/phile, I am an occasional visitor though.
Thanks for that fucking vote of confidence.
Another small fragment: Callentha worked at some sort of electronics store a la Best Buy or some shit. She was also anorexic when I first met her. Not sure how useful this is, but I think it might help me in a mental bridge, will keep trying.
1 has anyone checked the dark net yet? can anyone get TOR running with this. next did you notice her name had the word killinger in the alias? the name can be said Jac inda killing er ( jus kinda killing her) maybe the girl herself was a killer and was really smart about hiding herself away, she might be somewhere where our social media can reach. also i dont get how Belgium and a sibling working in the amarican white house link. next you can add email me at Meishmedia@gmail.com for a private convo and for hacker support to find her. once again ALL info you know is needed
Its like I am watching some kind of mystery/thriller movie in this thread. Shits interesting as fuck.
I gave that shit up after my lifelong best friend went too far and lost his mind. He spent 3 months in an institution and it destroyed our friendship. Some people cant handle demons others can. He was an idiot.
I used to believe in that sort of stuff, but either I don't care anymore or just can't be bothered, seeing how magick/wicca and all that shit seem to be a lot of fuss for little reward. Hell, I even had my own wand at the time, a bare pinebranch that had been washed up on a river's shore, with a solid copper core.
Ugh, looking back at that paragraph I feel like an idiot. It's odd, the whole concept of magic and so on reviles me now.
God I was naiive. I even did proper "rituals" using what a large rock we'd considered as Altar. I could also, at least in my at the time clouded brain, "feel the surrounding's natural magick"
This isn't the only world. Not even the only dimension. Dreams can reach back in time through memories but when they stop swaying back they pull forward. And as the universe turns so does the mind. Quite frankly I haven't done anything of consequence in years. Last thing was pass beyond the viel and see the court of mad creatures. Signed in blood and now I can't dream. Dangerous to the mind. I can't feel whole.... I feel missing almost. Dangerous to the spirit. Wiccans, are not going far enough, shamans knew. True druids knew.
Suddenly, I remember the last ever phonecall I had with her - fairly vividly. I'd spent months treating Gwen as an annoyance... I said something along the lines of "Man the fuck up, stop whining."
This escalated a bit, at some point I blurted "With all your damn complaints you'd probably be better off dead."
That was the last I ever heard of her.
He's putting on an act. I may sound cynical but /b/tards often talk different when they want to sound all serious and stuff.
Check out all the "...."s he uses to sound dramatic.
If this shit is all true and anon is actually experienced AND trying to help then I apologise. But it sounds kinda gimmicky.
Close... but not exactly.
I see OP. I think I have what i need to know. OP, I have reached a conclusion.
The overwhelming majority of my brain believes that she commited suicide due to your cruelty.
But, a small part of me thinks that she could not have possibly done it. The conclusions that she exhibits alongside her odd behaviour and coincidental events.
No, no. I'm sorry for my rudeness.
I am a bit dramatic...
Quite possible OP
L, easy choice.
>Suddenly, I remember the last ever phonecall I had with her
>"With all your damn complaints you'd probably be better off dead."
I dunno man, this shit has been getting intense for the past hour. If this is a ruse then good fucking job I have been had. If not I am heading out before something real bad happens.
you may not be who you say you are.
you clearly do not work for a publicly known government organisation.
Even if any of what your saying about yourself is true (why would it be when you are clearly trying to mislead your identity) my guess is that you are somewhere in the 30s.
if you do this with for a living, then I believe you would have too be some privatised organisation. possibly doing some level of government work in a fashion but maybe not directly for you.
either way you seem purposely misleading to create a vague identity of yourself.
Well i do have one question. You don't have to be specific or give away details. This is the internet after all so i understand anonymity. But i honestly need to know, what are you? How can you deduce information like this? Is it just a hobby? Your job? Were you trained? I'm at a loss.
It's funny you point the dotdotodot thing out to me, I sort of do that naturally. I must love causing suspense or something. I'll try to do less dots.
I can guarantee it's not going to turn into something retarded, like spaghetti.
More fragments: Gwen was quite the gamer, she played NWN and NWN2 religiously.
I don't really wander into any of the other boards, for the night is dark and full of terrors.
The 15 year olds in this thread are enjoying story time I see. The way anon writes makes me cringe
>"Oh don't worry..I've taken care of that"
>"All I need to do..is remember his cruelty"
Once again no hard feelings anon but holy shit balls