What do you live for, /b/? I have fine life, earning decent money, have friends and stuff, but I have nothing to live for. I feel like life is needless and it's waste of time. Anyone else with feelings similar to mine?
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force yourself to fill your time up for a whole week.
there'll be something there that you'd happily go along to the week after.
if you like it enough, you will get addicted to it and spend more and more time doing it.
eventually it will give back and you'll become a leader at whatever it is (coach, fundraiser, manager etc.).
this will make you happy because people will need you to fulfill your role.
everybody needs somebody to need them.
it also helps to travel before doing this so you have some world perspective or know what's useful to spend time on.
or it will expose you to a more diverse set of activities that you could operate on in the same way.
Depressfag here. Usually keep my shit pretty under wraps. The right kind of drugs are great. Antidepressants are not (neuropharmafag also)
I like to think that I will make a significant /prog/ram one day, but until then shit is pretty bland. Some days are fun, some days make me want to die for no reason. Hell, we're already on the roller coaster, no point being a bitch now.
life is needless and it's waste of time.
get used to it or an hero
Looking forward to future then
Oh shut up you stupid little dipshit
I feel you, my /b/rethren
I have hobbies, but I don't feel any fulfilment
Broke up over half year ago, don't feel like trying to find one
exact the same thing....
i got all what u said....im not rich but i got my life solved....i dont complain must people dont have anything.
but i have always wondered a lot about this, since its a pretty shitty feeling to be all the time bored and hollow.
my guess is our jobs.
im 32, and im still trying to guess what would make me feel passion for doing it, i hope some day i will find it and ill say fuck it, leave everything i got for granted and do what i feel will make me happy and complete.
I play football two times a week with my friends and I enjoy walking in forest, but that doesn't bring any fulfilment
I'm not really depressed, I'm kinda happy actually, but I have nothing to live for. Good luck with you life /b/ro
That's shorter way of saying what I posted. I'm too pussy to an hero.
But nothing is truly meaningful in life
I feel you man, exactly same for me
welcome to the point, life is meaningless and all humanity struggles with it
some joy comes from sharing, I would suggest to contact friends and plan a trip somewhere, or share your hobbies with someone
Reevaluate what you live for, reevaluate your morals and commitments to people.
Realize that others are unless and only a extension of yourself.
Search deep in yourself for your longings and commit drastic actions (crimes) against people, gradually become just so insane that you have something to live for.
It worked for me
My reasons aren't gr8 but im only 16 and st.. Stu stutter like a retard through mid sentences while talking, i cant help it makes me more frustrated because i mumble and just cannot think, have liver problems from drinking and shit or consentrate, got shot in the foot with primer due to prolonged bad luck streaks with basically everything including girls because im probably just another retard who needs the boot from humanity. Photo is my infected foot that lead to 3 colds and the flu all in one month and for some reason im still happy with just things that i like doing in life, i dont have a good reputation or education but im picking up the pieces and fighting towards becoming a little better, i would like a change in life.
I have feelings like this, but I think I've found a solution...
I feel like once I graduate college, I'm going to go round up people who are talented but feel purposeless and give them a purpose by working to help me further my goals.
Most people who are bored and feel meaningless probably would gladly follow you if you gave them a meaningful existence, appreciation, and a goal that they can work towards with others under.
I don't know enough about people to know if it would work that way, but that's my guess.
What are your thoughts, op?
Judging from your writing you seem to stutter when you think too.
Get off this site
Sounds like you're on the verge of a nihilistic crisis. Your emotional state is a precursor to it. Surround yourself with enough people that share your feelings and smoke some herb or have a bad trip and it could push you into one. It's even more depressing, believe it or not.
But this sickness is one which is inherent in our very existence. When we have everything we need and all the time to sit around and think and no cause, no obstacles to overcome we become overwhelmed with the boredom of it all. Some people create challenge s for themselves through their hobbies, but for some of us these things are out of reach. We're either too occupied with work, or living paycheck too paycheck and unable to afford a hobby, or simply not creative and we choose to live in drudgery. It might be our fault we live the way we do, but it's still a symptom of our civilization's overall health.
I'm of the belief that if there is a God or some gods then one of their jobs is to give us something to believe in, and this is usually in the form of some war or common goal we attempt to accomplish, so we can take our minds off of the void for a little bit. What else is there to do on a rock floating in space?
Tried all of this, no success so far
I will try this, thanks /b/rother. The only thing that fulfils me atleast a little bit is listening to music while high, but that's not thing one should live for
Seems like I have better life than you, but it still sucks for me in a way
Now, for me everything is waste of time
I have goals in my life, I enjoy being with nice people etc, but it doesn't change the fact that life is waste of time. I'm not really sure when it got to that point, but last 2 years I don't have any reason to live, but I'm coward to an hero
I get that I look like a whiney bitch, but it feels nice to be able to talk about it
Happiness is a by-product of your actions and progress. Seeking happiness as a product itself does not lead to happiness so if you're staking happiness on one object, one person, you will be forever let down by the world and really only have yourself to blame.
You need to learn to control your own destiny a bit better - you seek reprisal on the world and it's follies. Better to become one of satire, than to be beaten.
>Living at home
>20 years old
>Sister has a boyfriend
>Brother is popular and have friends and girls flirting with him
>Highest grade in all my classes
>No car and no license
>Work part time at Subway
At this point I'm not even trying to find a friend or love anymore. Will just become a surgeon, work out and hope I'll get some friends and find love by 30 or something.
At this point I only live for that hope. If I don't have any friends or found any love by the age of 30, I will an hero.
1. They're already feeling meaningless and may be depressed or lethargic (obviously this is not ALWAYS the case)
2. A goal gives them a sense of direction and meaning. Uniting a few meaningless people towards a lofty goal generates some sort of team dynamic and enthusiasm
3. In my mind, I'd take these people without purpose and train them in skills that I find useful, with each person building a skill set necessary for me to eventually develop a small organization.
I know it sounds a bit arrogant to want to lead people or give them direction, but if I manage to convince someone and they're on board, no one's losing anything.
>Dur hur you doing recognize this retarded post
You sure are contributing to this site and the discussions taking part in it.
You're not some epic troll making a clever post you're just like some retarded kid pissing him self and laughing at others who are disgusted by it.
Sure a goal would help many people but why would they join you?
I mean it sounds like you want to start some sort of startup businesses or something.
I don't see why even people with meaningless lives would devote their time to this.
You gobbled that clean you silly fish, go home
>implying any thread on /b/ is pointless
Yeah, go eat a shit and die, inbred
Living your life for others from a utilitarian point of view is justifiable but pathetic and not gratifying.
As I said before embrace yourself and don't limit yourself to morals or societal taboos.
A certain degree of insanity is needed to cope with existential depression find it and cultivate it.
I'm not sure how this may work for others, i have ASPD so that maybe why it works for me.
Aspiring only to achieve is a empty existence and i say that from personal experience.
OP, you fucking suck
indeed life is worthless the only good thing of life is for you to suffer and nothing else
death is where all the suffering ends.
i suggest you to get over it and kill yourself OP.
> bribe them, they're cheap
Now why would I go and do that?
Also what's your education OP? Ever though that may give you meaning?
I'v majored in math and am currently doing med school, but nonetheless what i posed before is true.
Contemplating the meaning of life and being satisfied all but materially is almost exclusively a modern phenomenon, and only in developed countries. Everywhere else in the world, all through time, merely getting your basic physical needs met took up so much time you never had the time to contemplate the meaning of the universe.
I'd suggest selling all you have, quitting your jorb, buying some solid boots, an ax, and going to an abandoned lumbermill in Oregon and roughing it there.
>> TFW got lyme disease and IV stuck directly into my heart (PIC Line or some shit)
>> pain, anxiety, sweating, depression, arthritis, psychological symptoms, hallucinations
>> Doc gives me oxymorphone and xanax to take while I'm getting the IV's
>> MFW shoveling ground up Opanas up my nose
>> no wonder cannabis is illegal, this shit is way better
Yeah buddy! I am prescribed fentanyl 100mcg and 20mg oxy 120 of them a month.
Chewing a fentanyl patch? If it don't kill you god damn...>>551880189
I'd wager it's the most addictive thing in the world. Even if you took it like you were supposed to? Physical addiction. Opiate withdrawal is HELL.
But they are pain killers. I was in a bad car wreck.
Most of the time docs will start you off on hydrocodone, if it ain't working? They'll either up you to morphine or oxy. Pick oxy.
My best guess would be to complain of mystery back pain if you don't have any actual legitimate pain problems. Buddy scored a vicodin script at least from it. Vicodin is a brand of hydrocodone btw. Loaded with acetaminophen so you have to take it easy on them.
OP, don't listen to this fag. Grow up, fuck bitches, have no kids, travel, have no financial responsibilities outside your own needs and live an awesome life. KEY POINT: HAVE NO KIDS.
Fentanyl is 100x stronger.
I can chew on the patches due to tolerance. Two friends ODed HARD doing it though. Done goofed. Had to call 911. THEY STOLE MY FENTANYL!111
MFW then regain consciousness and say the same thing. God bless 'em for not telling the truth.
kind of in the same boat. i have like a bunch of interests and stuff, i like video games, horror, reading/writing, cooking, and just fucking around and being goofy, but i don't have any passion in my life. been out of high school for 4 years now and don't know what to do for college/university. i'm really smart but i don't want to waste money on just an interest you know? no idea how to figure out what i want to do as a career.
Pathetic anon you think short term chemical happiness will give you meaning?
On that note I recommend cocaine or heroin as a medical student, due to the dopamine.
I often have people around me unknowingly take psychedelics and to see how they react, it beautiful how they open up.
Tried heroin once, even speedballed it. Felt so good it terrified me into ever doing it again. Slippery slope. I'll stick with being hooked on pain pills.
I use a cane too! Dr. House, MD. Except I have way better pills than fucking vicodin.
Drugs my young friend. I fell into them hard 5 years ago. Changed my life. Sure there's still downs (sobriety) but while on them? Happier than I ever thought possible.
free of all doubts. worries. sadness. questioning... just happy.
Yeah, kids sound like nowhere near fun
Might as well in few years
Meh, I don't really like addicting stuff though
Escape reality? No, I want to get rid of feeling that life is needless waste of time
Same as me, except I already have job
Actually no, drugs can give you meaning, hell, anything can
I live too look a person in the eyes when he screams for mercy. I had a wife and kids, and she was put in asylumn and i served time in prison. Im 2000km from home, 1000km from them, oh how i await that day.
Oxymorphone is the sexiest opiate I have ever stuffed up my nose.
It is literally heroines slutty sister. It blows morphine and fent out of the water in terms of sheer euphoria. It's ridiculous.
I've had the pleasure of Opanna a few times. I agree. I see a new pain clinic Friday for the first time. I am going to say the fentanyl isn't really working but the oxy is really well.
Hoping they'll drop fent and upgrade my oxy to oxymorphine to compensate.
Or hell, I'm at 20, at least mark it up to 30. Max dose where still snortable.
Never did heroine myself, I did do cocaine and extacy though. I don't see the allure of doing painkillers or drugs.
Don't you want to get away with it, you seem sloppy...
Although I agree peoples finally moments in life are beautiful and give meaning to their pathetic existence.
Heroin is incredible. Got china white for the first time. Did it with my friend. He shot up. After seeing how fucking hard that hit him I declined. we mostly snorted it.
Then I threw out a bag of coke I had saved for the occasion. oh man speedballing... I'M GONNA DO EVERY... Nah I'm sitting down.
We free based it too. Talk about feeling like a junkie.
I don't care about your shitty, empty, junkie existence.
What a waste, do it right so that you may enjoy more of it.
Also from? I'm travailing the world this summer and may stop by.
Opiates are short-term fixes. Psychedelics can have long-term benefits in your life. I was faced with pretty bad depression. So I got some acid (a lot of it), went to a place where I felt comfortable, and tripped through the night with a friend. When you see all that beauty in the world, nothing else matters. Really helps you process what's going on in your life, very therapeutic. Was the single most life-affirming experience I've had. If you choose to do it though, just be safe and make sure you get good shit. Do you research to ensure you don't end up on a bad trip. And remember: set & setting.
To be a famous comic actor writer all that shit. Change the us goverment. Help the homeless. Help Africa. Spark a wave of love and peace through the world that will dawn an age of calm serenity and science.
I do, but theyre to help me get there, just in case. I have planned everything down to the details. Theres not much else to do in prison. First the kids, then the wife, then him. He will see everything. Oh how i wait that moment. You got my heart fired up again, in a good way. Find yourself a loved one op, and leave as far as possible, settle there, and live happily ever after. That was our plan.. was
I have nothing, know nothing. I want to travel but i'm kinda tied to my land atm.
Not him. But holy fuck you're ignorant. No existence is "empty".
Experience is experience. Whether or not his was natural or induced by a needle doesn't matter. He's still probably experienced bliss unparalleled by you. And if that brings him fulfillment, so be it. So shut the fuck up. All our lives are equally worthless. Putting someone else down for how they decide to get off makes no fucking sense. You could probably benefit from some drugs. You never know what the world's about until you experience it through a different lens.
>used to live for collecting weapons, hunting, planning and going on trips to mountains and other interesting places, studying, reading about science, etc.
>one time made a mistake: I trusted my country's customs department's web pages information about what was legal to import
>bought a couple of fireworks online
>got into trouble with the police
>got treated like a fucking terrorist for a couple of firecrackers
>all my firearms licenses revoked
>all my computers etc. confiscated
>permanent police file, i.e. zero chance of firearms licenses, any jobs that require any kind of background check, any chance of immigrating to another country, nothing that I hoped to do in my life, ever. EVER.
>when I got my computers back, all of the OS's were fucked to the point that I couldn't even retrieve my thesis from them... 100+ pages and 3+ years worth of academic work destroyed by the cops
>never graduated because of that
>no job, because fuck that... not going to work at some fucking fast food restaurant just so I could pay taxes to the government that lied to me and took away everything I valued in life
>court's ruling in my case was a really minor fine (largely due to the false information provided by the customs authorities regarding the legality of my purchases), but the records are permanent, and my life is ruined until the day I die
>now the only thing I do is live off of welfare, drink alcohol, feel sorry for my girlfriend and family (because I just don't feel like existing is worth anything anymore and I know my eventual suicide, slow or fast, will break their hearts), and hope I'll die soon
(I live in a European "welfare state".)