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>>552510302 Happy Endings and Other White Lies Rainy Days and Bright Blue Skies Glowing Rainbows and Gentle Flowing Tides Deep Thoughts and Time That I Bide Sweet Freedom and the Cell Where I Hide Green Grass and Other Plain Side Day Dreams and a Damn Good Disguise Happy Endings and Other White Lies
>be me >break up with ex >end up having a falling out and cutting her out of my life >befriend one of ex's old friends coincidentally >become really close (or atleast i thought) with said friend >exchange nudes, vent to eachother, etc etc >develop feelings >realize things are going down the friends with benefits road >confess feelings >turned down because she thinks she isnt good enough >suck it up i guess, still kinda put off by it >time goes on, slowly distancing from her >she gets a boyfriend out of the blue >i end up in an argument with her and we part ways, on somewhat bitter terms
>>552511849 >start feeling shitty and depressed after argument >cant tell if i was wrong >beat myself up for being an asshole >a few months later >she contacts me >it was only a snapchat, but i didn't really have anything against her at that point >any strong feelings i had kinda faded >we eventually start talking again >start talking almost regularly now >the one thing i tried to avoid happened >i still have feelings for her >feel like absolute shit >know that with our history i have no chance >don't have the strength to just leave again
heres to the /b/ros....ive been in this feel for a while now....though all the youll be better! just focus on something else! someone else will come along! but i dont want someone else to...ive lied...ive cheated, and ive broke all those hearts, i had two perfect women, gone...and i dont want to move on...i cant, so ill sit here and listen to my music and watch my shows...and every night...when one o'clock rolls around, ill be laying here, just thinking and remembering...i don't want anyone to see me this way, thank you for listening, im done....
>>552514656 im done trying to prove, i got what was comeing for me with my last relationship, she tore my heart out and rubbed it in the dirt and i still love her, she put up with all my bullshit...helped me get better, but the entire time she was with me she was with her ex, twards the end i knew...but i didnt want to lose her, sad thing is she figured out a way to get me to be the sorry one, she CONVINCED me that i wasent good enough and i never was, i know i know, cut her loose dont be a beta bullshit. but im truely and honestly done, im just gunna sit here, im going to hear the sirens, the drunk people walking in the dead of night and i wont matter to anyone because thats what i want, i like it this way...just a one in the morning, i remember everything...im happy noone is here to see me
well, funny thing is that my problem would probably be solved if her bf found out that she is still fucking me sometimes ... just can't find a way to make him find out since it would be my fault, therefore she's hate me. Also: I would be an asshole. oh glorious vicious cycle, where every option seems more shit than the other.
I have no friends, never had a gf before, my families only concern is my sister because shes pregnant again. Nothing has bothered me about it, I just "dwell" all day. Well the other day I was in the car with my mom and she asks me if I was okay, and how shes worried about me. For a split second I felt like someone cared. I was about to open up, tell her, maybe it might feel better. I say 2 words and she gets a phone call, my sister...conversation is over. Don't talk till we get home and when we get home, the only thing she tells me is shes taking her meds and going to sleep.
It felt like someone punched me as hard as they could in the stomach. After that I felt nothing. I don't feel nothing now.
Debating on taking some of her meds, just enough where I won't wake up in the morning.
I'm still here. And I feel like I need to get something else out there. I was at a graduation party for a friend a couple weeks ago. I met a girl there and we talked about our lives n shit while buzzing on beer. One of the things that hit me hardest was that she told me she used to think she wasn't gonna make it to graduation. It hit me so hard because she opened up to me about her problems, but yet I still can't open up about mine and get help when it's right there, until I'm behind a screen.
>>552516753 I'm not going to go all Whiteknight and scream "Don't do it!"
However, try talking to your mom again. Just the fact that she brought that up shows she cares. If you took your life now she'd probably feel guilty as fuck. Added, it wouldn't be the best to stress your sister who's pregnant.
>Be me >about a year ago >working shitty cashier job for Wal-Mart >9/10 coworker also cashier >comes up to me out of nowhere and strikes a conversation >she seems really interesting so we exchange numbers >make plans to hang out >take her to her first concert >after concert take her home >walk her to her door >hug her >she pulls back and looks at me >not sure if I should kiss or not >fuckit.jpeg >go for it >she kisses me back >make out for about 10 minutes >she stops and says goodnight >goes inside >I go home as happy as can be
>for about a week we spend more time together >first girl I've had strong feelings for in a long time >actually felt like there was a chance to be happy with someone >after days of sweating I ask her out >she says yes >take her on a few dates >introduce her to my family >they all like her >we hang out at my house >seems a little distant >shrug it off >afraid of what its about >don't see her for about a week >I text her that night >no response >next day same thing >start to worry >2 more days go by with no contact >get really depressed >have movie plans with some friends >get seats >movie starts >I finally get a response >"anon, would you be mad if we were just friends?" >feels like gravity just doubled >ask her if she didn't want to be together anymore >she says no >I ask why >"i'm in love with someone else" >ask how long she's felt this way >"A while" >I clench my teeth >realize my relationship with her was pointless >I don't respond >texts me 10 minutes later >"do you hate me anon?" >hide my anger >"no I don't, if this is what you want then I wont stop you" >say that even though we cant be together she still wants to be friends >she doesn't want to be "unfair to me"
>"what part of this is fair to me?" >stop texting her >cant concentrate >not much a crier but this really got to me for some reason >tears start rolling >leave friends without saying anything >go home >a few days go by and she texts me again >I tell myself maybe she will change her mind >keep in contact regularly >starts talking to me about the other guy >realize she isn't going to change >still text her because I don't know why >tells me about how she's never loved anyone more >start getting angry >act like it's okay >says stupidest thing ever >"sometimes we like to meet up every once in a while and "run away" and pretend we're going to be together forever" >immediately stop texting her because I can't believe she just typed that out >never talk again
I just cant stay interested in a relationship anymore because of shit like this. It's almost ruined me for the opposite sex.
I've been off my anti-depression meds for about 3 weeks now, and it's awful. I feel like I did before taking them. I've been considering suicide more than ever recently and I think I might actually do it.
Are there any inexpensive, painless ways to kill yourself?
10 years from now when you think back on that terrible night when you just got really high, and shit, maybe put things into perspective, and you're sitting next to your wife, family, and have a job, you'll thank me.
>>552521425 Let me tell you something You see, I haven't been a happy man for nearly 6 years. Subconsciously I blamed my parents, as I suppose most people do, but the reality of the matter was that my inability to adapt to a new life was my issue. I ended up isolating myself going through high school literally alone. I graduated, missing out on all the great times that could have been and I got a job. I went to my job every day at 6 in the morning and got off at 4. Every day I left tired and defeated. Every day I became even more tired and defeated than the last. Every day a voice in my head, so subtly and randomly, would just whisper "Kill yourself." I'd laugh it off at the joke I thought it was and move on with my life. But ever single day, every single mistake I made, every single conversation I had "Kill yourself." It destroyed me. It killed my confidence. It grew on me and took me over. I drowned myself in this feeling of sadness, coming to threads like this to start reading and dwelling about what could have been, what should have been. I remember the night I nearly took a razor blade to my arm. My parents were out of town and I had planned to do it and call the police as I bled out so none of my family would find the mess. I had saved money and I was planning on giving it to my mom as a thanks. But you know what happened? I got up, went asleep, woke up, and went to work. And that day was one of the most beautiful days I have ever experienced in my entire life. But the truth is this story probably doesn't matter. You're here for someone to tell you it's alright to tap out, that it's alright to leave this world behind. And it is. It really is. But it's also pointless. I don't know if there is anything after this life. If there is I don't know if it's going to be bad, good, or something in between. But why waste what you have? Even if your only living for that one sunny day, your still living for something.
>>552523297 I have two groups of friends I hang out with, one I play video games with and one I do normal stuff with.
I'm in a shitty punk band, and I play video games.
I have people to talk to and things to do. The people I know are one of the few reasons I haven't killed myself yet, but even that's starting to not be enough of a reason. >>552523551 I really appreciate that you took the time to type that out for me.
But the only time I feel happy is when I think about not existing. Not thinking anymore, never again.
I have dreams where I kill myself, and I wake up sad.
I want to hold out, but I'm running out of reasons to do so.
>>552515251 this is good, anon. right now your lingering in the past, remembering everything that made you happy and perhaps everything that made you hurt. but soon 1am will become dawn. you'll see the sun rise to a new day and you will revel to the fact that you are alive and had survived such saddening times. be happy in knowing that there are people across the country, across the globe even, that know your hurt and genuinely care about you. i know you'll meet someone someday that will treat you as you deserve to be treated. be patient anon, your sunrise will come.
>>552523774 There's others out there who have horrible lives of poverty. I'm not saying that their problems are any worse than your's. But you can help them get through theirs, and maybe some there's someone to help you get through yours.
>>552523774 We both know that's a lie, one used to make you think that apathy is as good as being content and the possibility of being happy. If you want me to tell you it's okay to tap out, I will. I have. It's your choice at the end of the day. But even a single reason, no matter how small, is worth it. We all reach the end someday. Maybe we even have a new beginning, but there's no need to rush towards it. Do what you will, just remember that sometimes the small things make all the pain worth it.
>>552506350 >party at my place >dont leave my room for the entire party >spesificly told my roomate not to inv certain people. > he invited them all >party is still happening >roomate dident wake me for the beer run.
Im stuck in my fucking room with no drugs no beer nada!.
And now i look like a social retard. Which i might be...
>>552525941 Might jerk off, and write a note apologizing for everything. I'm hoping to get a bit of money so I can pay back my friends for all the food and shit they've bought for me, so I'll mention that the money is for them in the note.
Other than that, setting up the helium exit bag. >>552525946 Why does that make you happy?
I just started the ninth grade and was still hanging out with ex that i was a sucky bf to, wanted to be with her but had no chance of getting back. Mid way September a new girl comes to school started following me around (she told me she stalked me when we were dating for quite some time) she builds up courage too make me acknowledge her existance. We start hanging out. Cont?
Why do you guys do this? Don't ask if you should continue. Just fucking do it and don't waste time. I've told many green text stories once the years and never asked if i should continue, because obviously 100% of the time, anon will say yes.
Tl;dr just continue the fucking story. Don't ask if you should
I'm the guy that suggested weed. My best friend blew his guts out a few years back. Shit was crazy. I was just too stunned to even cry, but I was just kind of lost. Started hanging out with a bad crowd, easily impressionable kid, and then full of anger. Did stupid shit, life spiraled out of control. This was all within 1 year. 6 years later I'm still recovering. I'm just a friend, and not even his family. Think of all the sorrow your death will bring to those in your life.
Near the end of the month i asked if she could be my gf and happily accepts. We see each other everyday played games napped together trying everything in my power to be the best bf for her and it was working we were both so happy. We had many moments. Cuddling under the stars kept telling each other how much we loved each other. We even made out on a mopad while driving it. October and november past many great memories thought she was gonna be the one. But than December rolled by.
Go out with a girl for a year Buy her gift for all occasions Buy daughter gifts Be nice have fun Lots of things in common Thought she was the one Knew all her favorite things Take a week off to go visit Do fun things during have fun Never hung out with me Felt like 3rd wheel Was Come home She says love you but not in love with you No feelings End it Still want to be friends? No
>>552527328 That's the number one thing stopping me from killing myself.
But I've been wondering if it's enough of a reason. I know that makes me a horrible selfish monster, but it's how I feel.
>>552527416 Normal isn't really the right word. Neutral maybe? I don't wish I was happy, but I also don't wish I was sad. I just want to be somewhere in the middle. >>552527674 I'm a bit confused. Did a girl you liked dump you?
Mid way through december going to sleep a get a phone call from gf foster parent, gf hasint come home and its late.. shes crying and i dont know where she is either. So we hung up and me and my mom searched for her. We couldint find her. Im crying cause one of the best things that happened to me disappered and i dont have a clue. Got a phone call from gf foster parent telling me she is in the hospital..
I am a failure at life. I flunked out of college. I have no friends. I have no job. I am a financial burden to my family. The only person who talks to me is only interested in cheating on their boyfriend, not interested in a relationship with me beyond that of a fucktoy (Yeah, living the dream, but it's not what I want). I have no reason to live. There is no potential here. All I am is an expense. And having done some rough estimates, a funeral's cost is much less than that of keeping me around for the 5-10 years it could take for me to get my shit together. It's time for me to do what is best for my family and for myself. But I can't seem to do it. I'm too cowardly to do what is best. I don't want pity. I don't want people to try to be friends with me, it's too late. I just want to know how to make this end.
Hey /b/, I'm depressed and I need attention. Please help? My girlfriend and I just got into a fight and she might have killed herself, and I'm really fucking scared because I love her so much. I'm waiting for her to reply to me, and everytime my phone rings I hope it's her, but it isnt.
i fucked up. i fucked up real bad. i dont know what to do. please help /b/.
i love this girl and im scared because i have a small, but not tiny, penis and im afraid to tell her or anyone my biggest fear is to be ridiculed because of it >im 7 ft tall btw im afraid to lose myself in my fears I cope sadness with anger I get that from my father I have lived 19 years with this fear
>>552530071 let's hope this thread doesn't 404. but 3:04 AM, so reply yet. she's probably sleeping. i hope she is. my phone keeps on ringing because of this stupid tweet i made on twitter because of a picture i saw here. (im one of those faggots yeah) anyways i really hope her phone is just off and she's sleeping and text me tomorrow morning.
I don't really fit in anywhere. I've been a gamer all my life. Never really gotten into anything else. I'm a bit of a loser. I'm not even all that depressed, but I try and make myself depressed because I just feel empty all the time, and felling anything is nice, and it's easier to come by sadness than happiness.
>tfw might have to go back to doctors to get more tests done to check for rheumatoid arthritis >tfw they'll come back negative and I'll have to deal with taking more pills for pain and he'll probably give me more exercises to do that don't help I'm too fucking young for this shit, god dammit. I'm 19, not 40.
Someone with genuine life experience help. Me and my ex broke up last year and she still texts me every other week. I basically told her to fuck off tonight and blocked her on everything cause I genuinely don't want to think about her anymore. I stayed in touch because I'm really afraid no one will ever want me again. I'm ugly as fuck and she's the only really pretty girl who ever showed interest in me. We were together for 3 years. My life is pretty good now but I can't keep her out of my head. I just want to forget.
>>552531334 I was just like you anon. Eventually those games will be boring and you'll do anything to get another, but that one will eventually fade like the last. It's better to take baby steps and progress toward a goal. I actually got hired yesterday. I'm not going to stop working my ass off until I'm that millionaire lonely sad old man, but until then at least I know I tried. Find beauty not love.
>>552531514 Wait what? Dude do you have any idea how fucking easy that shit is? I recently got out of navy bootcamp. You can pass it trust me. It gets easier the older you get too. If you can't pass the PFA with at least the lowest standards I suggest you start working out NOW. They don't expect much.
>>552530707 alright. anyways; >currently 16 >just failed sophomore year because spent more time head over heels about my current girlfriend and basketball >always angry, always depressed, never went to a hospital to get checked if im bipolar or if something's wrong with me >so just tell people i am because i need the attention >4 days since last argument with gf, all was fine until now
okay this part is fucking stupid now that i look back at it. and i dont mind of whatever you guys say, because i fucked up bad because of this.
>texting girlfriend and shit >joking around and stuff >post a picture of me on instagram bc i was really bored >she gets "mad" >"why did you post that" >"are you trying to look cute for other girls" >got mad myself >tells her about the shit she posts >tells me to calm down, she was joking >the rage inside me was so much that it was coming out my butthole >the more i got mad the more the argument got worse >i calm down, sad mode >"im sorry, please just break up with me im an asshole" >"no, i love you." she says >thinks that she just says that out of pity >1:36 AM, still talking >we were close to being fine again >THIS CLOSE >then she starts getting pissed at me because of the stuff i did even though i said sorry alot >got mad again (of course) >tells her that i dont care anymore, that she can do whatever she wants >she comes up with "SO YOU WONT CARE IF I DIE" >i wanted to say no, but i was so mad that i couldnt stop myself by saying "I DONT GIVE A SHIT" >"IM FUCKING DONE WITH YOU, YOU SLUT" >"FUCK YOU. IM KILLING MYSELF." >" I DONT GIVE A SHIT, DO IT YOU PUSSY." >she has a past of saying she's gonna kill herself but not really do it >so do i >she finally ends the convo with "GET READY FOR MY FUNERAL, ASSHOLE." im stopping here, im fucking tearing up because im such an asshole and im stupid. 1:50 to 2:30, i message her of how im gonna change and shit if she replies. if she doesnt reply tomorrow night, i guess she did die and im useless. cont.
>>552532010 comment too long gotta make a new one. she kept me going. she was basically the positive thing left in my life. my dad have been putting me down, i dont have time for basketball, i lost all my friends, so basically the only source of happiness i can get is from her. the fact that she might be dead right now scares me. it might sound like im using her, but i try to do anything to keep her happy. but fuck, i really fucked up this time.
im just really scared man. i dont want anyone to die because of what i said. its killing me inside right now.
>>552531928 Lol I'm just a kid, got a whole life ahead of me, however long that may be. >>552531928 They do get boring. I'm bored everyday. Nothing changes. Days blur together. I've stopped caring about most things. My girlfriend broke up with me yesterday, and I can totally see why, as should you. Love is some crazy shit.
>be me >be 7 >have best friend named Derek >Derek had mild autism, adhd, hyperactivity >had all the cool games for super nintendo >and a bunch of cool toys >would come over all the time >whenever it'd be time for me to leave >Derek would hide my shoes somewhere in his house "Anon can't leave without his shoes! why don't you spend the night?" >obviously never worked >Derek's family moves to another far off city >years go by >moms keep in touch >but Derek and I don't >I go through life >doing typical teenager stuff >making new friends >playing sports >finger banging girls >etc >be 16 >moms decide to meet up again >meet up with Derek again >can't find common ground with him "Do you still play super nintendo?" >no "oh.. well, I'd like for you to borrow one of my games that I really like." >ok.. >don't want to be rude >gives me F-Zero >I hated racing games >toss game aside >accumulates dust over the years >be 20 >moms became really close friends >Derek's mom drives out 2 hours to visit mom once a month or so >Derek comes with her each time >avoid being home while they're there >call every friend to see if they want to do something instead >sometimes I didn't have anyone to hang out with so I'd rather just go for a walk with my ipod than hang out with Derek >Derek would sit in my living room listening to our moms chat >bored and sedated out of his mind
>>552532010 Thats just wow. Hopefuly shes okay.I was in not that hard,but simmilar situation.Went in a fight with a girl I liked.Told her to fuck off and other stupid shit,but I didn't mean that,I still care about her,but I don't know where's she at now
>>552532340 Assuming you're around my age (20-23) the lowest standards are as follows: Pushups: At least 42 I think Situps: Like 50. Maybe even less. Mile and a half: 13:30. If you can't run a mile in a half in 13:30 you are dying or morbidly obese. I passed all those way above the standards and I'm not even that athletic.
>>552532662 Do you ever get tired of calling people first? Do you ever feel like you're bothering them? At some point you just give up and don't do it anymore. And slowly your friends disappear. Slowly your girlfriend falls out of love. You end up alone.
>4 years ago >shitty job but amazing girlfriend >we do everything we can together >have a small apartment in the worst neighborhood in town but it's ours >our jobs keep us apart but we push through knowing someday we'll be in better positions >she works as an EMT swing shift so sometimes her night is slow sometimes it's crazy busy >tells me horror stories of people injured, surprisingly has only seen one death >on a slow night we talk on the phone about how someone stole my wallet out of my locker at work >we meet up the next day and she's made me a wallet out of medical tape while bored at work >it's flimsy but made with care and love so it takes it's place as my new wallet >a few weeks later while I'm sleeping I'm woken by a knock at my door >"great another drunk thinking this is their apartment" >it's a cop >"great someone else got broken into again" >hello sir do you know a Jennifer? >the love of my life was in an accident on her way to help try to revive a suicide >the EMT driver sped through a light and a semi truck struck Jennifer's side of the ambulance >the anniversary of her accident is a few hours from now >I miss you Jennifer
>>552532010 >>552532685 >I remember in 2009 my sister and her boyfriend had a fight like that. They were both telling each other to kill themselves. My sister ran down the road crying. A few months later her boyfriend killed himself inside his mothers garage. He lived with us but went to party for the weekend.... Just a strange series of events. My sister and I weren't invited to the funeral but went anyway, I remember giving my condolences and his mother hugs me but when she did she whispers "never fall in love". It ripped my heart out that his mother was so cold, she didn't even cry at her own sons funeral.
>on one occasion I came home thinking they'd be gone >they were still there "Hey Anon! How've you been? Have you seen any good movies lately?" >no "Oh, well, Did you get a chance to play F-Zero?" >I never got around to it >give him back the game "Oh.. do you like -" >I have a headache, I'm going to sleep" "oh okay.. nice seeing you" >yeah, you too >this goes on for months, years >we graduate high school >I go off to an elite college >he can't get a job >I moved to a new city for college with awesome roommates >he moves in with his estrange dad because of conflict with his stepdad >I'm doing internships, meeting new people, enjoying college >he keeps failing his driver license test, can't get a job, estranged father threatening to kick him out >I get my degree from the college of my dreams >he finally gets a job as a greeter at a grocery store >apply to several master's programs >get accepted to an international one >organize huge going away party >invite everyone I know >tons of people showing up >life is fucking great >days before the party, my mom asks if I had a second to talk "Hey, is it okay if I invited Derek's mom?" >yes... but just her, right?... "... Derek's coming with her too..." >fuck, why? how the fuck am I going to deal with him being all awkward around my friends and stuff? Ugh, did you already tell them? "Yeah... I wanted to let you know something she to me Derek said..." >What? "His mom asked him if he wanted to go with her to your going away party knowing that he worked that same day" >Yeah? and? does that mean he won't come? "she said she told him she could just buy Anon a gift on Derek's behalf but Derek refused saying:
Anon is the only friend I have ever had. I don't want to miss seeing him before he leaves.
>>552532702 >i guess. hun, i dont know what to say. i wish i could make you feel better. but i cant most likely. lifes crazy, too crazy for most people to comprehend. but i do know how you feel. up until the part where i pretend everything is ok when its not. im sorry you feel how you feel and i wish i was close enough to hug you and make everything ok if only for a moment. i hope you find the happiness that life allows you to find. i, at least, love you for this time being.
hey guys, quick question. i've never been checked by a doctor so i dont know. but do i have anger problems? because every little thing gets me mad..sorta. example, >fridge door wont close because its full >pissed as fuck another, >gf doesnt reply >overthink that she's with a guy and get mad another, >for no reason at all im just mad >someone tries talking to me >"hey anon how are you?" >"shut the fuck up leave me alone" >im very social but idk is this normal?
>>552533683 I've got a bunch of stuff from my exes. Letters, photo albums, jewellery, trinkets and shit. I've got it all stashed with photosfrom my late teens and early twenties. Funny to look back at that stuff now I'm a fair bit older.
Thing is with women, especially when you're young, it feels like it's everything, they're your life and your heart is ripped when you lose them, but it's OK. Further down the line you'll look back and see it differently. They say if it's meant to be, it's meant to be. That doesn't mean fate though, sometimes circumstances make relationships impossible, but if you both want to make it work and love each other truly, you can make it happen. If they're no good for you, then man up and leave her. Kinda rambled there
>>552534363 I just graduated and moved back to my home city. I told my mom to give his mom my phone number. He's working as a busboy at a restaurant and trying to go to community college. I visited the restaurant he worked at but they didn't know who I was talking about. I figured he probably keeps to himself so not everyone knows him.
She's fine. Dude, 16? God damn, you got a whole hell of a lot to learn, obviously, and a whole hell of a lot of heartbreak, disappointment and betrayal. I'm an alcoholic heroin addict. 2 years ago, i finished my degree and has the best gf I've ever had, and I've been with quite a few girls. That should tell you a lot about how much life fucked me in my ass
I wrote this like short little poem thing. A friend of mine read it when we were drinking and she reckons its amazing can I have some opinions?
"Faint smell of cigarettes and your perfume in my sheets. Will always be a memory that will engulf my thoughts. Sunny days and warm nights are never so nice when the presence that is oh so cold stays behind. It's crippling and exhausting all at once and as you become a stranger, I'll feel nothing more than regret and hate for someone that made my heart beat at a calm pace."
My dad died when I was 15. Sure. Shit sucks. It happens, right? Mom marries a super fucking cool guy, life stabilizes, I'm happy again. They divorce when I'm 17. Shit sucks. It happens, right? I get kicked out of the house at 18 and have to live with my meth addicted aunt and uncle for a year, working a job I fucking hate for a year so I can try to go to college. Shit sucks. It happens, right? I make it to college, I lose a bunch of weight (80 lbs), and I make tons of friends. Life's good. I get a girlfriend at 20. Life's god. 2 years later. She breaks up with me and I'm no longer in contact with any of the friends I made. Shit sucks. It happens, right? I meet another girl. Fucking fantastic. Big, beautiful green eyes. A smile that could light up a room. Smart. Funny. Stunningly gorgeous. We hit it off, and we're having fun. Then BAM. Her fucking ex flies from fucking Greece to Germany to visit her out of fucking nowhere and say, 'OH MY GOD I MADE SUCH A FUCKING MISTAKE!11!!!'. We're no longer together.
Every fucking time something goo happens in my life, it's stripped away from me and I'm thrown to the ground. How many more fucking times can I take this before I just decide not to get back up? I'm fucking distraught right now.
>>552535467 Happens to all of us man, sometimes worst than others.
my dad died when I was 15 too, got evicted out of our house, had to live in a 1 bedroom house with 5 people and 4 dogs. Mom finally gets on her feet, I'm 16..about 17. She has a steady job, shits going great, boom 2008 happens. She loses her job and we get evicted. Car gets repo'd, shit sucks. We're homeless, literally homeless. Me and my mom are on the streets for 2 weeks. My sisters are back living with my grandma, I couldn't leave my mom and my mom refused to go back to grandmas. Mom finds a job at Burger King and we move into a shit trailer, shit sucks. Half the time we don't have power. No cable, no internet. Hell, I don't even have a place to lay my head, but neither does my mom, so I was alright. But, when I go to the library, I use their computers and browse /b/. Only found happiness on /b/. Go home, mom tells me my dads life insurance finally came in. We have well over 300,000 dollars sitting in the bank. Don't know what to do, speechless. But I can't look at the money, I don't want to spend it...can't even think about it. Money came in and we were all happy, but I lost my dad. My hero. It felt like I was replacing my own father with 300K. cont. sage ~ this baww thread sucks, but still contributing lolwut
>>552520710 Anon, Ive had an experience that is eerily similar to yours and I'm sure many others have as well. I feel your pain and I haven't had a relationship in just over a year now despite some people showing interest in me etc. I'm not willing to risk it any more.
There's a girl at work who kind of rejected me, not knowing my intentions, and I simply can't talk to her. I like her so much, in so many ways -- but she does not know me, and doesn't really talk all that much to me. Never did...
But not talking to her feels wrong, but when she's near, I simply can't figure out anything to say. All I feel is regret, from trying to meet up with her outside work, taking me into this situation in the first place.
>>552536386 I'm about to turn 18, been doing real well in High School and about to graduate with honors. Got a part time job and mom put 50K into my bank. Refuse to touch it, I can't even look at it without crying. Finish High School and start college. I start going to a community college and kinda drifted away from my family, they went ape with the money and it (stupidly) offended me. Felt like they traded my dad for money, don't know what I was think at the time. Well I'm doing great in school and one night I get a phone call from my sister. Mom had apparently gotten bad on Coke and Oxy and was in Rehab. Blew over 100,000 dollars on drugs. She was broke, living with my sister. My sister had money too from the insurance, dunno how much, but she had apparently been helping my mom. At this point I'm fucking pissed, I can't see straight. Hang up. Don't speak to them for months. After hearing about this shit, I start to do bad in school. Ended up finding a great job that starts pay at 15.25 an hour. Well Imma skip, because I'm tired, work 3rd. I got a phone call from my mom about a month ago saying she just hit it big. She apparently got cleaned up, took some classes on the stock market and hit it big. They're living somewhere in NYC now, extremely rich. I don't ask for help, don't even talk to them. Don't want their money. To this day, I have yet to touch that 50K. I feel like thats my dad, and my dad isn't a piece of paper. He's doesn't have a price. I make due with the money I make from working in a plant. I'm still young, but shit, I've seen the world for what it really is...
>>552540969 No. Fuck you. You're an asshole. >dont be sad about your life, there are Africans starving to death! >dont be happy about your life, there are Americans buying consoles and games to use with their flat-screen TVs!
Its relative. These people are sad relative to the life they could've/would've/should've had.
>though you are right that self-pity wont get anyone anywhere
In any case, the wisest way to find someone, is to:
1: Say your name. If that someone is here, that person can tell his or her name.
2: If names match, you can move on to location. Because, if one person thinks of another in the same area, things can get awkward if they know eachother but don't think of eachother -- that is why names must match before matching areas.
I know of a guy named Christian who knows someone who just moved to Autralia last year. It's my cousin.
Huge crush on girl in my class. We always tease us and have this sexy talks. Once at a party I hosted she asked if we could swim in the pool. I say that the water is way to cold but there was a lake nearby and we could swim there. When I asked her if she has a bikini she said no, but that didn't matter <stupid grin>. We didn't go. Another time in class someone said I was crazy. I said girls love it. She said only crazy girls do. I said: "And you are crazy" She smiles giggles and says yes. I walk out of the class and the guy who called me crazy before said "AND NOW HE LEAVES" from then on we would often stare at each others eyes for several minutes while the teacher talks. Everyone knew that we both had a huge crush on each other. But neither of us made a move. Then I went to a party to finally pick her up. I couldn't bear being alone anymore. She wasn't there. I made out with 3 girls, the 3rd one became my GF. I always treated her like shit because I loved the girl from my class. 8 Months of having a GF and seeing my crush 5 days a week. 1 month ago she made a move. Just we 2 waiting for our finals and she put out her tits and said something about getting an A with these. I told her to put them back in. Finals are over, everyone parties, my GF is there and she confesses loving me.
I am at a loss. I would leave my GF if she wouldn't go au per for a year. I love her more than my GF. Love sucks. I think I would break up with her just to have 1 week with the other girl.
Oh let me tell you about her. Her beauty is beyond compare with flaming locks of auburn hair and ivory skin and eyes of darker than a black hole, once you look into them you will be lost for ages. Her smile is like a breath of spring and her voice is soft like summer rain
The sweetest kiss I have ever got was the one I have never tasted.
Oh rejection, every night you torture me, why can't you let me be happy.
>>552546436 Confirmed for fucking aspie. I should have known better to assume you have the ability to actually understand the situation that you're in.
I never said you would be crushed, I said your gf will be. That's because she's in love with someone who doesn't love her back- someone who is only interested in easy sex and the lacks the balls to man up and admit it. You will never get with the redhead and even if you do, you will fuck it up because you're too emotionally stunted to understand how healthy relationships work. Please don't reply to me unless you can type your thoughts in a somewhat coherent manner.
>>552547429 Man. Through most of high school and my early 20s I used girls just for sex. Girls that loved me and girls that just wanted sex as well. I don't regret the fuck buddies at all but I hate going to my home town now because I know I'll eventually run into one of these girls that I led on and I won't even be able to look them in the eyes because since then, I've grown the fuck up and realized how much damage I did to those poor girls.. Now I'm 28 and I hate myself for being such a twat when I could be married to a gorgeous girl that genuinely loves me back.
>>552540969 just because someone somewhere else,some when else,has problems ,big problems huge even they dont make anyone elses problems smaller or go away ,there is nothing worse in life than telling someone you're sad and hurt and when you tell them that ,when you trust some one else with your stress you are rebuffed and made to feel even less.
>Be studying in Rome (Amerifag here) >6.5/10 being super flirty with me all semester >Say "what the hell" ask her out >Get drunk, make out >Fall hard for her >Bang the shit out of her >Tell her I love her, she says it back >Absolutely amazing feeling >Its spring in Rome and we walk around holding hands, >The semester is a week from being over >she lives in Germany, me from the US >she starts to cry when I bring this up >I promise her that I would stick through with it >she promises me the same >Duked her in the pussy that night
>>552549212 I wouldn't know how to handle it. I can't really relate to good girls anymore and even if I could, I would fuck it up because I know I don't deserve them.
Current gf has stuck around for a year and a half now but she's just as fucked up as me. Longest relationship I've ever been in that wasn't mostly(if not entirely) based on lies.
That's not really the point though. The point is that I would take all of the meaningless sex back if it meant I could undo all of the bullshit I put people through. Hell, even if it means I would have never met my current gf and would be forced to live the rest of my life as a virgin, I would still take it back. And I fucking love this girl more than I've ever loved anyone.
>>552550759 So the summer is here, semester is over. We're looking at a month of physical relationship, She lives in Germany, yeah, but she studies in the US, so I was expecting to see her in January, we gauge for about 8 months long distance. We send each other mushy messages all the time:
>"I love you" >"I need you" >"fuck me with your hard cock in, Anon" >"Im gonna cum all over your tits, babe" >"dont call me babe" >"I call you what I want"
>be about july (3 months into relationship) >That whole month she hints that she is upset about something >Couldnt get it out of her for the life of me >Starts to upset me >Think that I did something wrong >Get message from her one day > "Anon, im so sorry, I technically didnt break up with my ex, and now he loves me again > Get super pissed but understanding, >"Listen bitch, I love you, but solve this now." >She tells me that this dude sent her a $300 ring, telling her he loves him >Im pissed >Blow up on her like a man should >Hopeful that this thing will sort itself out
>Doesnt sort itself out, >Bitch drags her feet the whole time >Plead with her all the time to just tell him, >Find out who the guy is. >Find out he is in the same state as me >Message him with something along the lines of "back the fuck up buddy" >Huge altercation ensues >Gf mad, says I shouldnt be interferring in her life >Say that its part of my life now too >Tell this dude the truth about how long me and this bitch have been dating. >he's upset, but still not accepting the reality that I fucked the shit out of this girl.
I'm so tired of coming here. I'm so tired of not feeling any joy in my life. I'm so tired of drinking myself to sleep every night. I'm so tired of other people. I'm so tired of being alone. I'm so tired of hypocrisy. I'm so tired of honesty. I'm so tired of laziness. I'm so tired of motivation. I'm so tired of sad music. I'm so tired of happy music. But most of all I'm so tired of myself. Perspectives are like drugs. You can only have so many changes before you develop a resistance.
I am lurking but your story is nothing except typical.
It sounds harsh but seriously take this advice from me: I've been there before. A few years later, I really don't care. I've made new friends and whatnot.
My biggest regret? Not cutting her off completely the minute she mentioned another man.
Fuck her dude. This is only going to end badly. She's dead weight, you gotta cut that shit off nigger. It hurts, it sucks, I know, but when you see she's a trainwreck and/or comes crawling back a year later you will feel ontop of the world.
Seriously. Let the fuck go. It's over man. Time will heal you.
>She still lying to him about me >She says he dangerous and is going to kill himself >I say let him >I tell her I'll butt out, but she has to get moving on this.
So summer over, semester starts back up, she's studying in India for the semester so I gotta wait another 4 months, (currynigger here, so thats maybe why she likes the smell of my cock so much). We're still horny for each other.
>Regular back and forth >"I wanna suck your cock, I wanna make your pussy bleed" >"I miss you, why arent you here next to me" >"I miss you too, I dont have the money and you know that" >At this point we've been telling each other "I love you" everyday or every other day. >Really good at telling each other how our days were like >Halfway through the semester she stops being like that. >Figure shes just caught up in India and the rush >Find it really hurtful when I say "I love you" and she says "thanks" or "ok. >Been like this for close to a month. >Decide to break it off with her at the end of November because of all sorts of things
I still love her, but she didnt tell this "ex" about breaking up and she hasnt been putting the same effort into the relationship as I have, and I am suspicious shes fucking someone else.
>Break up with her on a saturday >No fuss >She just asks "are we still friends" > "yeah sure, just don't talk to me for a while"
>>552552516 Yeah man, it fucking sucks. Ive completely learned that the hard way.
So she friends me on facebook a week after breaking up (Bitch fucking blocks me because I was blowing up on her ex, who was posting all kinds of bullshit on her wall)
So its winter break: >See her pics with another man after she friends me again >Pissed as shit >Still in love with her >Feel like i meant nothing to her >Blow up on her >says that that's not her boyfriend >she would never do that >Foolishly go against my instinct and believe >I actually apologized like a little bitch
>Not as angry, still suspicious >We begin talking again >Normally and what not, not the same as we used to
>She'll be back in the states in a few weeks, >A few weeks pass >Semester starts >we meet up at my job, I take her out to lunch >I try to keep it just as friends >I kind of like her at this point, not crazy about her >Stop seeing her after after that first meet up
>She texts me "Do you want to get coffee: >Why the fuck not >Go for it, meet up. We like talking to each other >A few more meet ups, start getting flirty >Ask her out on an actual date
>Bitch locked out of her apartment on night of our date >Other roommate has key, wont be back tell end of the weekend >Her phone is out of batteries >She uses my phone to facebook mesage her friends that she needs a place to stay >Ok cool, date time >Take her to the theater, get comfy, put arm around her >shes awkward >ask her if this is ok, I dont want shit to be awkward >Yeah, its cool anon >alright >nights over. >Play was shitty >walk her back to her place >kiss on the cheek
>Look at my phone >Hello Bitch's facebook >Do or die moment >Do I really want to see if shes messaging this fuck? >Yes >Yes I do >See all of the messages with this indian guy shes been fucking >Actually spoke about when they fucked >angry, hurt, heartbroken in all kinds of ways >accept that its truly over
>send her a message that I dont think we should see each other any more and I enjoyed the night we had, not being a dick about it
>>552554143 Okay this is way more than a misunderstood fling. I thought the story was over.. This girl is a teasing bitch and your anger is more than justified. She's likely one of those girls that gets off on any positive attention and saw you as an easy enough source. Call her a cunt for me but don't you dare talk to her beyond that.
>>552554840 > I tell her I know that there is someone else >She denies it over and over again >Actually felt that there was some hope if shes denying this guy >Huge mess after >Hard to focus on school, job and academic clubs with this shit on my mind >Tell her that im cutting her off for good. >Says she misses being in Italy with me and cooking and being happy with me. >stfu bitch, i dont believe that bullshit >Says its unfair, threatens to walk into my job and make scene >Says that im immature >I've just stopped giving a shit at this point, the opinions of a worthless bitch dont affect me. >now her new boyfriend messages me accusing me a harassing her. >Repeat of the situation with her previous ex >Be bigger man >Assure the boyfriend that im not interested in his bitch and I have no problem with him, and that his bitch was coming on to me
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