wat up /b/,
I'm bored of this shit. I had enough. I used to be among the best, now I'm a shadow of what I was.
69 decides how I kill myself, I will deliver
I really was, I was in the top 1% of my university, then had to abandon because my family had health problems.
But if you believe me or not is not important, I wouldn't say it would be better if I was in that place again with my family still diseased.
You sound like a giant pussy.
Your university must be full of idiots if you're the top....which I highly doubt.
Seriously...choke yourself to death on a dick, and do the gene pool a favor.
I'm not from a poor family and went to a prestigious uni. I know it's not as much as saying "I have a job", "I have a family", but it was something.
People cared for me, even if for superficial reasons.
so you're now saying that people who pretended to care no longer care because you're poor and that makes you contemplate suicide? lol you're so hollow inside
instead of raise awareness you will only look pathetic like the faggot who killed himself over for an ipod
Oh wow now that i think of it this could be awesome alright listen:
You gonna start a youtube account and do some videos on how magnificient you are and that grills owe you sex. these videos get more and more radical. after this you will go and kill as many people as possible and make sure they find your youtube account after you are dead
dude it doesn't matter if my uni was good or not. There are life circumstances. I know that I should fight and shit, but I have been fighting for 2 years and the situation got only worse. I don't care if you think that I am beta or my uni was stupid, I do wish you can have a richer life with more people than me
Kill yourself figuratively. Redefine your character and let the old, injured one "die".
Create a new you.
Stand proud and fearless in the face of adversity.
I will think of that, maybe I could auto-upload something, or upload just the beginning, or ask a "friend" to do it (I don't have friends in the sense of somebody whom I meet on a regular basis, but maybe someone will help me with that from a publix computer or even from mine)
Just don't do it. I know it sounds like cliche, but seriously it will get better. You're not only hurting yourself, but also your entire surrounding if you proceed. Just try some other path in your life. Failed uni? The take a normal job that requires no edu, doesn't have to be a shitty one. Then get your life on track.
Not qt 3.14
Desperate as fuck tho
Death by spending your whole life dating me
it's actually really messed up, I know your line of thought is rational but my psychology is really shitty.
To be very very brief, I grew with unrealistic expectations and I was somehow "lucky or gifted", but now not anymore. i know it sounds like showing off but it's the truth: it's like I was on cocaine until yesterday and everything was phenomenal, and not I have difficulties calculating a second partial derivative
Despite the bullshit he is a bit right. Ask yourself how is it possible that you are here now. Why you? Couldn't there be infinite other choices but it is you. Or are you all not even real and I'm the only existing beeing?
OP, your pic looks like a slightly younger Regina Spektor.
This is Richard Dawkins, I hve read some books of him. He's cute, but I don't see it as positively as he when he says that life is a gift in contrast to those to whom it has not been given.
Take a shit ton of speed and acid. Go to a black people filled neighborhood. Yell "COME AT ME, NIGGERS" at the top of your lungs. Try to fight the niggers off.
If the niggers don't kill you, the drugs will.
I also was always very intelligent but then i became lazy i spent more and more time at the computer doing nothing and now i'm just average with a major computer addiction.
I could be better but shit how can one be so lazy fuck it.
But dont you think a conciousness can not come out of nothing? I'm mean how is this supposed to work? If you are unlucky you damage something even deeper with your suicide something that goes beyond life as we know it.
I wouldn't be so fast to say that what we experience is real. If we trust our senses, we should trust our logic, which says that we shouldn't exist. Same goes for the laws of physics.
Every discovery in science and physics belittles us even more.
The consciousness might be an illusion.
We are not at the center as we thought.
I can understand your feelings about loosing the grasp on your studies. I used to be a top student, usually not even needed to study for tests. now I'm having real trouble getting through the courses in uni but I'm hanging in there. That said, just don't take the "easy" way out, it's really stupid when there is so much to do out there. Just give it time, and I promise you it will be worth it. Life is ups and downs so you can appreciate the ups. It would be unwise to end in a down when there is ups ahead.
op = 0 posts since begin
8/8 gr8 b8
where's ur dick OP?
Well but then is it smart to try and alter (suicide) a system that we can't even begin to understand? Maybe it has no consequences who knows but i wouldnt take that risk probably just like i wouldnt modify my tv's internals if i have no knowledge of the electric.
Fuck you I wanted to see some action. Not like OP was gonna deliver anyways though.
OP if you become immortal make sure you make people infertile as well so the earth doesn't flood.
death via alcohol poisoning. no other intoxicants allowed. you can smoke cigarettes all you want though.
related story: buddy of mine just made an attempt via this method. ended up WALKING into hospital with a BAC of .43...... fucking gnarly shit. op you better go hard if youre gonna make it work
You sound like things are bad. Sorry anon.Considering this myself. If you do an hero, ask yourself this question, do i really wanna? Because if you half arse it, take pills then call an ambulance, you could fuck your liver, brain, and cling to life a brain damaged disabled nigger.
So think it thru proper, and if u do it. fucking do it. Dont live and fuck your mind and body.
ALSO sorry anon, i know life is shit and full of cunts, niggers and heartless psychos. But also your reasons in op sound like bitch arse reasons, so you used to feel invulnerable but life fucked you up the arse....so wat cunt, its done that to us all.
Half the man u used to be? so wat, we all fuckin are. Life bends u over and rapes u sometimes....repeatedly.
Maybe it will get better, maybe it wont, but failing uni and not being liked by peers is a cunty tumblr reason to an hero.
My fucking rage is building, i had sympathy initially. But watch a loved one die u cunt, then get back to me. fucking uni bitch.
do it cunt.
Life is endurance. What is frustrating me is that i probably will never understand jack shit about life. I dont know why. If you honestly think about it things could be way different the whole universes existence is so fucking weird.
Alright OP this man actually has a point if you really want to die PLEASE do us a favour and take on the upper 1%. These fucking assholes need to go for the sake of everyone else.
He can just work his way up through plans. Like take a job as a carer and feed whatever poor sap he gets stuck with nothing but sawdust. Then slowly work up the ladder until you're trying to snipe a governor from inside a laundromat.
None of your loved ones are dead? Just all mangled up with disease? What disease? Ok, your aspirations are fucked now?
Simple choice take care of them, grieve for the life you thought u may have had, and crack on. Or an hero.
Teenage chinese girls deal with that too, they carry on, u should too op, sorry for my rage, but i lost someone fucking loved recently (not the first).and am considering the self kill. No offence your reasons sound a bit weak.
I think that some people are born with this natural endurance. They do Physics, go through harship. You sound like one of them. I tried to be this kind of guy, but I'm starting to believe that I'm not, genetically. I'm the depressed weirdo archetype.
I actually agree on this and I think that many many peoblems can be reduced to this (even mine).
However, the 1% is too entrenched and the only way to proceed os either to collectively stop paying taxes, or to do a revolution, or emigrate.
I understand your point. Sorry for considering suicide for problems less serious, I know it might sound offensive.
If you are sure I won't deliver, why do you ask for stream? However I was considering the idea, sadly (or fortunately) I have come to decision to postpone everything and wait to see if it gets better (thanks to the 69 roll above)
Idk if it might be beneficial to you but I thought the same three years ago and couldn't cope with the fact that I'll die in about 50-60 years at best. Then, after almost a year of desperation, every single night I spent at home I had this recurrent thought of the fear of death and the nothingness, it vanished. Maybe that's where the depression started, but now I wouldn't care much about dying, although I'd be scared at the moment of death (because of biology).
But maybe it won't happen to you since the moment I started having death thoughts is the same when my mother started feeling worse and my father developed a bad disease.
Not offensive op, just surmountable. I actually think i'm as close as you (if not troll, good chance u are).
To use a quote " every man thinks his burden is the heaviest", so no worries.
If it's real and u dont an hero....just be fucking nice to people who are fucked...empaphise...don't follow the shallow niggers to fit in.....and remember how it feels to feel this fucking bad, and offer a cunt a bit of support if they feel this bad. Unlike me who goaded you to do it, because i am a bitter cunt.
I'll do it. Thank you and sorry to hear that you are going through serious stuff. I wish that you have a better attitude toeards life than I do, the attitude is everything, the problems are not what defeats us... It's the lack of willingness to fight.
Can you promise that if you don't achieve something medically spectacular by 2069 you'll kill yourself in a big spectacular way that'll make the news? And leave a note or something saying why you did it, that'd make me happy seeing that and remembering this since 4chan probably won't still be around then.
Yes. I don't think I'll still remember 4chan, if I'll be alive at all, but I can tell you that I get bored easily and I cannot imagine myself aging on a home or with family. So going out by stepping out of a skyscraper or by going rodger on somebody's ass (I'd prefer to do it on people I repute bad, like niggers, which are not all black men but a subgroup, sorry for the racism but this thought is very entrenched in myself) is a possibility
It's useful to know the basic mechanisms for perceiving well being/happiness.
You have to make the effort to enjoy things, enjoyment isn't intrinsic to an action. Make the effort to enjoy a taste/sound/anus/feeling. Appreciation comes with practice, love must be learned. A new piece of music may not sound good until you are familiar with it, so don't dismiss things after trying them once.
Happiness is relative. Things seem good until you see something better, so try to only compare yourself/situation to worse. Schadenfreude is important, as is an occasional good deed. Don't expect to be happy for long after obtaining what you wanted. Even lottery winners and people that become crippled end up at an average level of well being after a few months, as humans are built to adapt to situations. It's the positive CHANGE that makes us happy, the sense of acquiring or progress. Always learning something new is a good way to sustain this feeling, as well as taking breaks from the things you love. We stop emotionally responding to things that we become accustomed to, and because this takes far longer with negative things we often stop noticing the good things in our lives while pain, irritation and disappointment is easily remembered. It's easy to focus on a single positive or negative aspect of a memory or an imagined future, ignoring the small details and idealising what we want or no longer have. Hence the grass always seems greener.
Idealising the past or future can make your current situation seem worse by comparison or lead to disappointment when you achieve what you wanted. Likewise, the anticipation of upcoming unpleasantness is often worse than the thing you were dreading. If you have to do something unpleasant, don't dwell on how awful it will be, just get it over with quickly without thought.
There is no value in life unless you give it value (or just adopt the values of others like most people do). Choose achievable goals and value what is abundant to you.
When your body exists as a series of cells periodically replaced by a hierarchy of stem cells all kept in working order by their machinery and the signals of nearby cells all overlaid on various non cellular matrices, you realize that everything leads to cancer. Cells go out of place (and thus no more signals) Cancer. Stem cells go whack? Cancer. Cells stop responding to neighboring cells? Cancer. Mutation in progenitor cells? Cancer. Neighboring cells no longer making signals? Cancer. Cell stops responsing to itself? Cancer.
It was my idea to live forever, but then I realized cancer is all.
You should tell us your name so we can keep a lookout for you when cancer is cured or lifespans are greatly elongated or something close to immortality becomes possible. Don't let us down man.
Cancer is by far my biggest fear, I don't mind dying in a rather quick and even painful way but I can't stand the thought of knowing I have a disease that can't be cured and my life will relatively quickly get worse as it's artificially prolonged. The day there's a cure is the day I can finally rest easy and stop worrying about feeling tumors on myself or finding a new mole. I guess thinking about it getting worse then dying is the natural way anyways and people usually get it when they're older anyways but my heart still starts pounding whenever I think about it.
Be sure to become an organ donor first. And call the paramedics just before you are going to die. And don't use drugs. You could save the lives of a bunch of people who actually want to live. Also don't kill yourself, it's probably going to be super not fun and then you are going to be a karmic tard and end up somewhere random in your next life.
Cancer isn't a disease in the way you're thinking of diseases. It's not a virus, or a simple mutation. It's millions of ways your body starts growing out of control through it's own natural repair mechanisms. Cancer is an imevitability. We could cure heart disease and everything known to man. We are cancer waiting to happen. Aging is the natural result of your body suppressing its own repair mechanisms to stave off cancer. Enjoy dying of cancer.
just out of curiosity, would it be possible to just repeatedly eliminating the cancers through treatment for the rest of your life allowing you to theoretically live forever?
Hide under your bed and light a toaster on fire in your room. Stream it.
Do you plan to die of something else first or just fill your body will sucrose solution and freeze yourself while still alive? Huehuehue checkmate cancer.
Alternately, St. Paul tells us life is in the blood, and it is the Lord's. I bet if you start chugging the lifeblood of people satan will grant you immortality.
Captcha: His armmeal
Or die of natural causes at an old age with a large happy family.