Any sad anons on tonight? There isn't a baww thread tonight so let's fix that.
why don't you take your life in your hands and change whats making everything so miserable for you, but instead you decide to fall further down the hole by wanting to be even more sad
bump. Girl i'm in love with goes out with my friend. And she knows i love her.
Contributing a screencap of properly set up 4changold acc
make sure its strong enough to kill you in one shot, you dont wanna end up blind or deaf because of a piece of shit
man theres something about dogs that makes me so sad
GOD DAMMIT FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU
I'm moving away from my parents for school in a few weeks and it scares the fuck out of me. my parents are basically my best friends and I can't even imagine now being around them every day.
I just needed to get this out. ive been crying on and off all day. it's like I got hit by a freight train.
So my gf has been working at a National Park all summer, many states away.
Yesterday I learned that she went to a party and got drunk and got a hickey from some other girl.
A small thing I know, but it still hurts.
Am I wrong to let it bother me?
take it from someone who was in the exact same position as you a few years ago. moving away for school, new place to live, living away from parents for the first time. shit's scary at first, and it's gonna be scary the first few days or so. but once you're there and adjusted to the neighborhood or wherever the fuck you're living, you'll be fine. i thought i would hate it and be miserable and lonely, but that wasn't the case at all.
you got this.
the posts are dated 10/28/11
But the article is dated 7/08/11
When was the last time someone said that they loved you.
Someone, looked deep into your eyes, and said "Anon, You're the world to me. I love you" and planted their soft lips upon yours, making all the problems, all the bad things, just go away. How long ago was it? How recent did it happen?
Where is she now?
Does she still think of you?
Do you still think of her?
Does anything remind you of her anymore?
Why does it hurt thinking about her?
i havent but i know alcohol will kill me faster
I think it's a sign of my instability how drastically I can change in such a short amount of time. I'm surprised I haven't been more volatile in the past, honestly.
At some point last night, or today, I mentally decided that I was done. Just done with all of it. I began forming a plan in my head that I will execute tomorrow. I guess all that remains is how much damage I will do on my way out.
Tomorrow instead of going to work, I will drive West. I think I will just drive as long as the car will go, so I expect I will end up somewhere in the middle of nowhere when I finally run out of gas. I was looking at a map, and past A****** there are some pretty big wide open spaces.
crying its so hard anon it hurts so much im only able to cry like one a year
It is in one of these spaces that I will leave my car, and the road, and walk off into the wilderness. I'm not bringing anything with me, no food, or water. No tent. I am just going to get out, and walk away from the road, and walk until I cannot anymore, and then I will sit, and I will die.
I considered briefly that I might find a lake or something, and swim out to the middle and drown myself. I may still do that, but it largely depends on where I end up stopping the car.
All day today I have been preoccupied with these thoughts, yet still managed to have a normal day. X****** and I saw a movie, we went to B****** and B******'s and saw the other B******. And I just read to C****** tonight.
What will it be like for them tomorrow, and the following days, I wonder? And what does it say about me that I really don't care? They will be worried, J****** will suspect that I am hiding out..somewhere I guess. If she talks to S******, they will learn I have been suicidal.
Work will also be a clusterfuck. There is the big audit to do, and M****** will be left holding the bag. I am sorry I won't get to see A****** just one last time. I am considering sending her the letter I wrote months ago, but I don't know if I should.
It will be bad enough when everyone finds out what I've done. Everyone will question me and what's been going on. I don't want to put any more discomfort on her or make her think she had something to do with it. I would have loved to kiss her just once…
2 yrs and 3 months ago... She wanted me to propose to her.
We had dated for 3 years. But I was getting really busy applying for medical school. Too many things to keep up with, and she, too often, was the thing I put on hold.. Eventually, btw junior and senior yr of college, she decided to leave.
She used to say the fucking sweetest things to me. Things nobody has ever told me before, or since...
I tried emailing her almost a year later. She told me she has a new bf now, and that my contacting her was pretty much not welcomed.
I believe they live together now, two years on.
Not coincidentally, I've been a regular here for a little over two years.. Nobody to tell me all those sweet things. All I hear nowadays is that i'm a faggot newfagg nigger summerfagg..
It gets old, but this is home for me now. Sometimes it feels like it always will be. It's been so long.. I remember at first, this would all feel so unreal to me, but now, it's like my life with her almost seems unreal to me, and this, the normal.
Another sob-story in yet another feelz thread. Cheers, friends.
J****** will be okay. She will be strong for the kids and for herself. And people will gather around her, guide her, help her, and love her out of sadness for what I've done to all of them. In that way, I will help her and do the only thing I can for our children.
I was sad earlier at my decision. On the verge of tears in the theater, and driving home. Gradually that burden has lifted, and I feel better about it. I wonder if I'll go through with it tomorrow or if I will chicken out, again? I guess we will see.
kinda sad that I don't have any booze. But I just finished my homework and can fuck about for hours on the web, so things are looking up.
man the how can people deal with the death of their parents, first was my father and now my mom it just hurts so much
I'm gonna jump that gap anon, I appear missing can get some feels out of me.
I used to believe in a god. Any god. Some kind of powerful creature that could make the pain go away in my life. I though it helped. Then my grandma gets diagnosed with lung cancer. Spreads incredibly fast. One week its cancer. Then its in her bones. Then her brain. During the course of all this she had knee surgery and could barely walk. Then she brakes her hip. She went to fucking hell and back before it finally fucking took her. What did i do during all this time. I prayed. and what happened when i prayed? She got worse, and worse, and worse. Now shes gone and she had to fucking suffer til the very end. She didnt even get to say goodbye to the people that she loved. Where the fuck was god during all this.
I don't know what you mean by that, anon-san.
I just wanted to know if you felt me brother. Dog, listening to a7x smoking a Marlboro menthol light 100 rn, feel with me. Ride the high as my emotions soar into the universe. Also high.
Fast forward 2 months. Depressed every day always feel like there is a gap in my life since grandma died. Meet girl at friends grad party. Amazing girl. We liked the same stuff and i figured that we might have something special going on. Then i guess i fucked up somewhere because she just stops talking to me. So what do i do? I try praying again. I prayed every goddamn night and nothing. Once again i get no answer from what the members of a church call their savior. Well now i need saving /b/ and im not getting any help.
This your first time having an orgasm or something?
Same. I'm not even a "dog-person". Must have been close to a year since I can remember crying before I saw that tonight. Weird, huh?
Well, anons. My girlfriend of 4 years just broke up with me. Like just now.
I don't have any friends left, my family hate me, I don't have a job, no money and live in a shit country. She was all that I had.
What to do now? It really really hurt.
I wish i could tell you it will get better but i'm a month in and it doesn't get better. It still hurts just as much when you see her get a new profile picture on facebook. You just learn to forget about it.
Did you suck your own dick in your emotional ride across the universe?
Approaching bampo limiting.
Wanted to unload these bad boys for everyone before that happens. Like it or not, we're all here. For now, that's a large part of all that some of us have. I know I feel that way.
We won't always have each other, though. Nothing lasts forever.
For now, though, we still have this place. So if nothing else makes me happy tonight, the fact that I can still rot in purgatory with you faggots will
i'm fuckin in tears /b/ro cause i had all these yuengling /b/ro and my main girl (she bitch slut) no sucky cocky
WHAT THE FUCK/
no pic cause i can't figure out the mac sorry /b/oys!!!!
4 years of an abusive relationship. Then 3 more years to undo all the psychological damage that occurred and learn not to repeat it. Lost all interest in sex or dating at this time.
Finally meet a qt that I'm attracted to. We date for a bit, but she finally says "anon, you're too fucked up for me, I don't want to do this. " Fall bsck into another pit of depression that looks like it won't be ending any time soon.
I'm looking for jobs and also studying. She left because her family and her friends make her happy. What hurt the most is knowing she'll be happy and forget me soon enough.
I'll probably be homeless soon, but I don't even care.
I'm in the same boat. It gets worse everyday. I am seriously considering suicide, I just cant see myself pull the trigger yet. But I hope I can overcome the reflex to hold back soon. Like when you jumped into water from a height the first time as a kid and you kept turning back, rethinking, but eventually you say fuck it close your eyes and jump. And it was the best decision you made that day because it wasnt as bad as you throught.
guys I don't understand
things are going extremely well with her and I. She wants to take things slowly, that's fine. I shouldn't be hurt that she doesn't want me to spend the night just because its happened once. It shouldn't hurt that she doesn't want to spend all her time with me like I do with her. It shouldn't hurt that she doesn't have feelings as strong as mine.
But it does.
It's just before I started hanging out with her, I was miserable. And when I was with her, I actually felt happiness, instead of numbness or misery. I haven't been happy like that in what feels like eons.
I want to leave. I feel so purposeless and restless. I can't join the navy, can't join the peace corps. Working a shitty job, depressed, and no matter who I hang out with, I always feel apart from them...like I don't fit in.
I hate all this pain I feel. I want to just pack a light bag, and just start walking and hitchhiking and wandering, get away from all this.
tfw need booze but no booze to be found
thanks for listening
Life is like trying to grasp a handful of sand. You can try all you want but in the end you can never grasp all of it but you keep trying anyways though. When you're in love though it is like someone poured water on the sand and it is suddenly easy to hold more sand. Everything is better. Slowly though the water will dry up and you will be left wondering when it all dissipated and how you managed without it.
Talking shit to some random guy in a feelz thread because he used the term, "bad boys".
I guess you must have gotten a shitty deal, /b/ro. I'm sorry.
Nah, that's a fucking retarded analogy. When you jump into the water, you realized it was fun. You realized only when your alive. You won't know if pulling the trigger will be a good decision or not. You'll be dead.
You're a fucking retard.
It was 4 years ago (recent but they don't count since it doesn't mean anything)
Yes but only when I get lonely (which is almost always)
Random couples/objects just remind us of the time we spent together
It hurts because it reminds me of what it could have been
Ehh, you know, you're probably right.
But it's made me overcompensate in ways that others haven't had to. It's gotten me out of a warehouse, through college, into medical school, and I'm still fucking shit up to this day.
It gets old, sure. But if I ever make anything of myself, it'll only be because I fucked up everything I've ever had, and everything I will get.
Now, what brings you to /b/, new-friend?
man fuck being drunk it amplifies my feels so much
Don't give a shit if no one cares.
I had this dream once about a girl I was in love with. We were basically just hanging out at like a farm or something with her dad of all people. Anyway, we get a moment alone and we sit real close, like her on my lap, and I sort of rested my head on hers and I suddenly came to the realization that we could never be together, ever. It crushed me, and I started gripping her hand kinda tight in a futile effort to save the moment we had together, and in response she flips her hand around so that our fingers are locked together. And I just sit there for a moment, and then I get up and leave and then it's over.
I wish I could escape feeling like shit in my dreams, at the very least.
My hands are high my feet are low and this is how i feelio
Sometimes i want to get into a coma or make a serious accident to myself just so when i get out of it i'll see how everyone really cared about me the entire time and i was just crazy. I'm worried what happens if i do and then no one was worried about me.
wtf i wrote the captcha for some reason fucking alcohol