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My gf is in love with another guy and we're pretty much trough. Thats a bunch of baww for me since we were together for 5 years and I'm still in love with her besides actually loving her. Leaving the thread now not feeling too much for bawwing. Just wanted to share and up the baww since love is dead.
>>563502041 I feel exactly the same way. There's no fucking draft anymore. You CHOOSE to become a soldier, and if you're genuinely so fucking stupid that you think nothing bad is ever going to happen to you ever because you a supar spechul snowflake, then you deserve it when you get your balls cut off by some fucking shaved ape in some godforsken country in the middle of nowhere. God damn it bugs me to see people sucking soldier's dicks when the literal job description for a soldier is "Go here and get killed for us."
This one right fucking here. Every time. Gets me in the feels.
I'm probably wrong but I remember reading about this old boy. He was a WW2 vet who went to the same place every year to meet his comrades. As the years went by, the numbers steadily dropped. Then one year, he was the only one left.
This other picture that gets me so hard is the old boy kneeling at a tank and crying. I don't know why, but I just feel so sick. I cannot understand the horrors that guy must have seen which he has carried with him until his frail old age.
And then we get fucking tumblr faggots who believe they are really a dragon. What happened to our society man.
Tonight on a different thread I poured my heart out about my life, developing drug and gambling addictions, and the horrible moment when my mum had a heart attack and I found out at a pub. I got one reply and then they started talking about skyrim. Thread 404 before I ctrl c and now I'm too emotional to rewrite it. It was the first time I've opened up in 3 years. Since my fiancé and I split up. I fucking hate my life but not a coward to an hero
>She was right next to me >after all this time >it was worth it >she had become more beautiful than before >time treated her well >I was still a bit haggard after all my hard work to create cartoons and learn to play music >we were in my old room >packing my things up to move in together >she smiled and we were happy >I leave to go to the bathroom >I come back and she’s sitting at my old computer with lots of pictures opened up >she seems cross >asks me to explain all these things >I sit down next to her on the floor and look at the screen >I read over the words and explain to her that in her absence I flocked to the internet >with reckless abandon I threw all my hate to the anonymous users >it was a cool game kinda thing >she accepts it and we look through all my old caches of photographs together >as I explain to her all the things I did in her absence >I practiced film, made a few short films >I played synthesizer, released an album >I became a graffiti artist, painted walls >I became a programmer to make video games >I was a coder and did some web design >I was a cartoonist, and released a comic series >all these things had a harsh undertone that I had missed my love >I didn’t need to tell her what was in my heart >she looked over at me with tearful eyes and said >I love you >seconds later the room collapses and she’s screaming my name reaching out to me as she is being yanked away >I’m waking up >my parents bursting into my room >shrieking at the top of their lungs holding the empty bottle of liquor >telling me I’m such a loser, wasting my life, will never be happy >they didn’t know that I was happy >until they woke me up The dream was a couple weeks ago, but it was her birthday this week I texted her this picture and said happy birthday her reply was 'thanks doll, cool doodle' the two words say "lonely Cybertrash." Cybertrash was always my nickname I don't feel angry or depressed, I don't really feel anything at all
>be 14yr old me >go to church every Sunday >Hate every second of it >most of all, hate annoying ass bitch girl >keep hating for years until >girls become a thing >boobs.jpg >Realize that annoying arse bitch (we shall call her AAB) turns out prettty well >me 14 her 13 >start to be friends with her >Our parents were friends since forever >such close friends that we were both delivered by the same doctor >featusfriends.png >end up liking almost exact same things after talking >one night church dance >sit out on carpark all night talking >both love same books, same movies even same vidyas >both think the same, holy shit this girl >fast forward one year >big youth convention >time to make a move
Just to clarify some things, I was mormon and she is and still is, so we have church every sunday and seminary (scripture class) every morning and youth nights Tuesdays
>Big youth convention >dance on the last night >still only think we are friends >havent realized that I like AAB >dance comes ground >everybody get on the floor >slow dance >ask AAB to dance >Romantic as shit /b/ros >just stare into her eyes, holy shit >I like her >I might've only been 14 but damn >Never actually felt anything until now (diagnosed with low emotional capacity or some shit) >Beta as fuck >don't say anything to her >youth convention ends >Start thinking about her all the time >go over her house, and chill >Make lego shit >watch harry potter >best time of my life >cuteasshit >however, still no moves made >still beta >get invited to dads friends birthday at the beach >ash if I can take AAB >dad says yes (was rare because relationships before 16 in mormon world is seen as bad) >Shit yes!!! >actually had dream the night before of AAB of holding her hand >actually woke up crying because I was so happy >Dont know what it is but damn I smile >decide to make move on beach night
>>563506895 >>563507054 Typing in bed on iPad so it will be a long reply. Since 2003 I have dealt with "manic chronic psychoactive depression" (doctor says but what does that cunt know). Ever since I was a teen I have always been neurotic, whether it was cheating on a girlfriend with her sister cos I liked to see when they cried from the heart, or slicing my leg to watch the crimson beads fall to the floor. Then in 2007 (year 11) I met this girl. She was gorgeous, funny and we got along in every way. We had a relationship for 5 years, and I asked her to marry me. Wt didn't set a date but I knew that it would be some time in 2013, and for the first few years things went pretty good. We had fun, got fat together, swore to lose the weight. You know typical relationship BS. then one night she came to me crying, and I will always remember this as the day that alcohol began to rule my life. She told me in tears that she had been fucking my best friend for 6 months and she planned to move in with him, that I was too "boring". Not knowing what to do or how to act I slapped her. Not hard, like a swift tap. Then I walked out of the room and got a bottle of black label from the cupboard and started swigging out of it. We lived in an apartment complex on the 9th floor and when I had finished 2/3 of the bottle straight I went on to the balcony to admire the view to the pavement. That was the first time I ever legitimately considered suicide. Cont?
>Beach night comes round >nowsmychance.gif >Get in car >sit in back seat with her, talk, laugh and enjoy the ride >get to the beach >only two kids there >rest are adults >no distractions, nothing holding me back >Start playing on park with her, just messing around >laughing the whole night >dinner is here >fish and chips on the beach >sitting at table >sunset >chips >AAB >slide hand over to hers >holy shit, heart beating, thought I was going to die >hand on top of hers >she notices!!! >chips >she turn it over and holds my hand back >holy shit holy shit holy shit >chips >this is the first time i've ever even touched a girl in a romantic way >sunset holding hands, just us two >chips >so romantic >actually just start smiling >cant stop holy crap >scooch a little closer >just sit there and look at her, my god she's gorgeous >So happy, time to go, get in the car >taking someone home >sit in back seat >either side >to far to hold hands without noticing >stop at hungry jacks and get icecream >person in back wants to put seat down >means AAB has to sit next to me >winrar >hold her hand again, just to make sure >holds it back >holy shit >dont talk >just sit there and appreciate the moment >I can still remember everything about it now >Drop her home >lie in bed dont even sleep that night >so happy next day >ask to have her over to chill
>>563509678 After that night, I bunked with my parents for a few days, trying to sort myself out. I bought a two way ticket to melbourne (ausfag) to see how it went, rented some long term holiday accom and looked for work. What I found was some old highschool 'friends' living in the same complex as me. That was a pretty good thing I thought. Oh how I was wrong. Every. Fucking. Drug. You could think of was there and in 3 weeks I found myself a shell of a man who would wake up, do a line, drink and smoke all day. I stole from woollies, I stole from people, I even stole from friends. And the worst thing was I would call my mum every second day and beg her for money, without explanation. About 2 months into this I realised I probably wasn't doing myself any good and found a way to get back to my home town to clean up. Easier said than done. I was worse there, and through it all my mother stood by me. When I came home at 4 am a boozed up cocktail of whiskey and cocaine she would be there, to hug me and let me cry. So what did I do? I pawned her jewellery to get more drug money. I gambled at the casino with her credit card. And I basically made her life hell. Eventually shit got out onto the table and I broke down, realised what a fucking piece of shit I am and attempted to take my own life. (Kitchen knife down the road on the wrists). Over the next 6 months I got myself completely clean and got myself back into cheffing which has always been my life's dream. I paid back 200 every pay to my mother, and still didn't feel it was enough so I upped it to 400 and I actually did myself some good for once. Then March 24 this year I was sitting in a local pub turned club when I got the news. 'Mums had a heart attack, we don't know what's going to happen'. So I did what any clever recovering drug abuser would do, I got FUCKED. And I mean blackout. I woke up in a park at 4pm.
This is one of the only place in my life i've ever been able to come to and laugh, have a good time, joke around, give serious advice, get advice, be as ridiculous as possible, and even cry. I often wonder what /b/ must have been like in it's glory days... Maybe I'm just a newfag or a shallow pathetic person, but I I have a lot of love for it and what is has given to me in such a short time...
Sent this to my fiance after things ended... adjusted it slightly from something I saw online:
>Hey - I know you're out with Beth right now, but I've been doing a lot of thinking >and I want you to know that I miss you.
>I don't regret what happened, but I miss you. Most of the time, I try to brush off >my feelings and not deal with how much it hurts because that's easier...but >when I find something...like a note, or a picture of us...or something that >reminds me of you... the weight of what happened comes down. I like being >reminded of how much you mean to me - that is why I have the picture of us in >my car.
>I know our reasons for our decision are valid...but back when we first started >this, we didn't need reasons for anything. It just happened. We didn't always >have common interests....our personal goals weren't always the same..and >sometimes we didn't get along that well. But we love each other and we didn't >need a reason to fall in love - we just did.
>Part of me misses just being around you and loving you, and knowing you love >me back. I am sorry I show my love sometimes in ways that weren't clear - >and I'm sorry that that was a source of our issues or caused a struggle.
>You said you were wondering what the point of all this was... I just want to go >back to what it was like before we needed a point, or reasons.
>she comes over and we build hogwarts out of lego >No moves made, just chilling >fast forward two weeks, youth night >Activity was serving the girls dinner >dressed in suit, fancy as fuck >Serve AAB all night, laughing and smiling >love life >take her to the courtyard after the night is done >tell her how I feel, tell her I love her >heart beating like shit >not sure what she was going to say >says she feels the same and has for a few years now >Immediately proceeds with, do you want to hear a hufflepuff joke, god i love this woman >Chill rest of night >go to activity, no girlfriend, come home, girlfriend >fast forward a few months, everything is awesome >love her she loves me >begin a little thing where I call her everynight to tell her I love her and goodnight visa verca >have to keep relationship a secret because mormons >First kiss, just finished movies, driving home, dark car >whisper I love her, give her a little kiss while her mum was driving >riskyshit.png >go home, cant believe I kissed AAB (first kiss) >Fast forward a few more months, been dating for a year and a half now >christmas goes by, she gets me a harry potter paino music book, I get her all sorts of shit, pillow pet, DR who posters, and clothes >1 year anniversery goes by >get her flowers and chocolate, romantic as shit >1 year 6 months go by, we have our arguments every now and then, who doesn't >things start to get bad
>>563512173 >Just usual arguments, usually over small stuff >we work it out, like a new couple again >we do EVERYTHING together >literally made for each other, dates included but not exclusive to, harry potter marathons, ice skating, beach days, drives up the mountain for picnics, teaching her to mountain bike, workouts together, everything
Depressing starts now
>suddenly she gets weird >around the time of my graduation (last November) >doesnt talk to me much on FB >never seems to want to hang round with me when we are together >call her and asks whats wrong >blames it on me >says I dont make time for her >says that it seems like I dont love her anymore >I ask why it seems that why >so confused, I gave my life for her, everything I did was for her >I even called her at my graduation party just to say goodnight to her >never missed a night >phone bill was once 200 dollars over because she needed to talk >happily payed it >was a sucker for her >continues arguing saying its me >so confused
This is something i wrote for the love of my life it was hard but i had to leave her i was dragging her into hell, somewhere you should never take your loved ones.
Her long dark hair And lovely lips She breathes so softly No more than a whisper I smell he scent I watch her sleep One last time My bag at my feet, i sigh i lug it over my shoulder Goodbye beauty Goodbye love It hurts but i turn Goodbye life Goodbye forever Its hard but i walk Goodbye my precious darling I'll love you forever But i must leave I'm just no good
>>563511817 >>563509678 When I got home and showered I went straight to the hospital to see my mum, and she was in a room by herself, tubes everywhere and you could hear sharp breathing. I said hello to her and she opened her eyes and I swear, I'd never seen her smile as big as she did. 'I hoped I'd see you before I went' she said as tears streamed down my face. Look at you, everything life has put you throug and you're still here, my baby boy. By now I was in tears and confessed what had happened the night before. She just stroked my hair and said it's okay, we all make mistakes. She kissed me on the forehead and then whispered in my ear 'I don't have much time left, but there's a secret I want to tell you'. 'Out of you and your brother, you were always my favourite'. Then she laughed for what felt like an eternity, I never wanted this to end, me and my mother, together for one last time, smiling through masked tears. We were told that I would have to leave soon, that she needed her rest. Mum handed me an envelope and told me don't open it until after she had gone, and made me promise. As I left I heard her say I will always be there for you...
2 days later she was gone and I cried and cried. But I didn't do drugs. I finally felt I was strong enough not to. I opened the envelope and out fell a bank card and a note. It said as follows.
Dan, my baby, my son. I always knew you would be great in life and that you would make people smile wherever you went. When you started paying me back for what happened in the past I didn't spend it, I saved it for you, for when I knew you were ready, and I know now that the time is right. Know that I'm always here for you and that I love you. Yours truly in heart and soul, mum.
Thanks for listening guys. It helps to know someone cares to hear. I love you all
>>563512801 Sorry for taking so long, hard remembering this shit
>apologize for if I did anything promise that I will work harder >did everything for her >still a bit distant but things get slightly better >Suddenly, church night >I get to the chapel and she's sitting at the end of the pew, ask her to scooch down so i can sit next to her >tell me to just sit in front not enough room >some other guys comes in and AAB sees him >jumps out of the seat gives him hug, gets whole row to move down so he can sit next to her >whatever >start to begin not to care >start to begin to doubt myself >maybe the whole thing was a joke >push thoughts aside >This was January >2 year anniversary in a few weeks >anniversary comes round >flash flooding and heavy rain where I live >shit aint gonna stop me >get on bike >ride 30km (round trip) to get to a jewellers to get a hand crafted saphire pendant, her birthstone >Ride back to her house ( no lisence yet) >Give her present >she opens it, "It's so pretty!" gives me hug/pat on back "you better leave now, you're wet!" >wait what >ummm, okay, ride home, ponder what happened >re evaluating my life
>>563513406 >Few weeks later >driving her sister home from the beach >got her and other church girl in the car >AAB couldnt go, got "sick" >driving home >some girls in the car next to us start playing road games >blocking us off, nothing dangerous >AAB's sister starts to draw and hold up signs >long story short agreed to meet the grills at hungry jacks for a slurpee >Australia so no one has guns and no shootings, safe >have slurpees exchange names and whatnot, no harm done >get home >pretty fun day surfing at beach >get message from AAB's mum >still have it saved somewhere, will post if you want >tl;dr version of it, she called me stupid and unsafe and dangerous for allowing her daughter to meet the girls and AAbs sister had said she felt "uncomfortable" >wait what, it was her idea >just send back "K" >AAB's mum was a bitch anyway, arrogant and rude >girls post photos of meeting at hungry Jacks >AABS sister smiling and laughing, show AABS mum the photo, yeah she looks really umcofortable, deletes and blocks me on fb >burn.jpg >get call from AAB.....
>>563514032 >Explain to her what happened >she sort of takes my side, doesnt really care >Howevver, AABS mum said I could no longer drive her anywhere or hang out with her >no more camps, no more movies, no more lego, no more workouts, no more chips >chips >What the fuck >still date AAB >stone cold motherfucker >2 more weeks pass >Teaching a church class with AAB in it >ask her to read something out >She loses it at me >like Loses it >"IM NOT EVEN THERE YET, LET ME GET THE PAGE WHY ARE YOU PICKING ON ME LEAVE ME ALONE YOU IDIOT!" >dafuq levels 10/10 >ignore and keep teaching >get home >call her ASAP >ask her if everythings okay, she loses it again >realization that she's been treating me like shit for a few months now >dont want to end it >I still love her >she tells me to end it >she doesnt care any more >This was on valentines day >holy shit my heart >church dance that night >meet her there >she brought a guy from her school >end it >done >she dances all night with the guy >wow >my heart >I just go sit in my car and cry
I told this story before but now there are some updates
>Be me >Fell in love with a girl freshman year >She kept rejecting me but still hung out with me and my best friend >I knew that she liked my best friend but he had a gf for 3 years at the time >We all became best friends and inseparable >Sophomore year at winter break he breaks up with his gf >He knows that I love her but asks me if he can date her anyway >I suck it up and say sure after a while >they promised me that we would all still hang out and still be best friends >The second I gave them the go ahead I pretty much never saw them again >The guy was my fucking roommate and she lived right down the hall and I NEVER saw them since they were always together alone >FF this summer going into junior year >I lived in our new apartment all summer >Same dude is gonna be my roommate but he didn't move in yet >She moved in a few days ago >We hung out barely but it was nice cause I missed her >One night we hand out and end up staying up till like 6am talking >SHe tells me how she missed me and is sad that we don't hang out and that she was worried I hated her >I point out that I really don't want to hang out with her that much anymore (lie but kinda true cause it hurts) >She says that we should at least try to hang out a little more especially while the guy isn't here >I say sure but secretly I got excited cause I did miss her >Wake up the next afternoon and guess who motherfucking decided to move in early >He moves in and it immediately gets weird >She wants me to hang with them and he does too sometimes but they are really intimate in front of me and it creeps me out >I try to distance myself but now it really fucking sucks >They both keep asking me how I feel about everything and I just keep lying >He slept at her place last night but I know that at some point I will be exiled from our room so she can "sleep" over DAFUQ do I do?!?!?!?
>she has time of her life with guy from school >see her smiling and laughing all night >Never made her smile or laugh like that recently >holy crap it hurts >fast forward a month >another dance >same guy with AAB >sitting there >good friend Jasmine comes up >asks what happened to me and AAB why don't we talk anymore >tell her the story >Jasmine goes "Wait, then why did she have that fling with (boy who sat next to her that she got) dicklord like 3 months ago >holy shit >my heart again >so different hearing it actually happened >AAB had apparently gone on a few dates with him and whatnot >shit >go cry >fuck this >night and week ruined >fast forward another week >talking to one of her schoolfriends who I met >she's pretty cool
>ask her how things are >she asks how things with AAB and I are, she knew >tell her we broke up >she said she knows, because she started dating guy from school in December, (2 weeks after fling with dicklord) >wait what >tell her we didnt break up till Feb >oh shit, she dun goofed >Ask AAB about it >no reply >try to talk in person >ignored >turns out she cheated on me twice and was dating me and school guy for a solid 3 months towards end of relationship >holy shit cant I get a break >2 weeks, 2 cheating I have heard about >dont go to church anymore because she's there >can't even look at her without getting upset >fast forward to current morning
>>563514845 Geto over her & get new friends. World doesn't end on those two ppl. Find yourself some new people to hang out with, once you do you'll feel much easier to feel happy for two of your friends being happy. I know it's hard, bro.
>>563515273 don't let that shit stand. You fo yo fucking church you motherfucker and you teach those classes and you let her know without saying anything that even though you fucked me over you will not control me and you will not take away from my life. She's just a slutty whore. It's happened to me too /b/ro. You think you know a bitch and all of the sudden they are slutty whores. don't sweat it. don't let them change you. and DON'T let them change what you do
>3.am in the morning in australia >almost never have had a night sleep without thinking about her >dream of her all the time, just the memories we had >tried to still have a friendship with her, no reply >Not a day goes by where I am reminded of her or think about her somehow >Nothing really gets my mind off of it >she lives literally 500m down the street >cant go anywhere without memories of her >When I go to sleep at night my only wish is that I don't wake up >I gave my life to her >no more phone calls >no more hugs >no more hand holding >no more camping trips together >Completely cut off >2 years wasted, 2 years gone and I am so angry at myself > I honestly just don't want to wake up >I know its over a girl but it hurts, she was the only person I really cared about >life just seems pointless now
I loved her /b/ros I really loved her
Pic related, us co splaying steam punk, god it hurts
Well. I hope you enjoyed my story, fucking first time I ever told it, thanks for listening /b/ros you really are the best people in my life, feel too accepted here knowing everyone is faggot no matter who you are, thanks for listening guys and hopefully I can find some way to keep living, if not, farewell shitlords, it's been nice knowing you
>>563515883 Great story bro. Sorry shit went down that way. I know that feel though. 3 of my last 4 girlfriends cheated on me and all of them ended it with me. I feel like a beta piece of shit. I just want someone to hold me and watch netflix with.
>>563516704 Okay, my question is, it's been 6 months, and I still think about it, what the fuck am I supposed to do, I don't even look at girls and think to date them anymore because I'm too stuck up on the past, what the hell do I do, how do I forget and move on
>>563516937 You don't forget my friend. You move forward. It will always be a part of you. However you now have the opportunity of learning from the negative parts of that relationship. Whatever you didn't like. Or however you which she was. You can try and incorporate that into the next one. Gain control or at least equivalent exchange in the next one. Better yourself anon. Better your relationships as well.....
Some of my biggest fears involving girls. I have other fears but for now I just wanna say these. I have an idea of what my perfect girlfriend would be for me but it'd be hard to find and I am pretty beta so who knows if I'll ever find her. But my fears are I can be anywhere like walking down the street or at a store or something and I'll see a cute/beautiful girl (which happens a lot) and she could be the one, my perfect girl, the one I dream about, but I'll never know because we're just passing by each other or I'm too pussy to talk to a cute girl I see. So we just go on never knowing, all my opportunities. Gone. Another huge fear (which I see happen all the time on here) is I do the the one. Everything is perfect, and then she leaves me for another, better guy. This fear is so big to me because I'm a manlet and beta, and just so insecure that's what I think will happen. I'm relatively young so I probably shouldn't even need to worry about this but I'm so fucking insecure.. I've had a girlfriend so I'm not hopeless but still...
>>563521690 God damn it anon. Fuck this gif. Im sitting here watching a movie, lurking this thread and this shit pops up. And it brought a tear in my eye because I do this all the time. I know it wasn't your intention but fuck you man. Just fuck you.
>>563512031 I sent something similar to my ex after she said we should end things. I didn't even get a response and she deleted/blocked me from everything a week later even though I didn't bother her. What the fuck did I do to deserve that?
>>563525418 Well good for you being able to move on like that. I can't really relate to what happened cause when my last girlfriend broke up with me I was already wanting to end it. We had our problems that made it hard for us and I got over it quickly. But.. now that I'm remembering.. she was great and I miss her sometimes... fuck.
story about my only friend >unpopular kid at highschool >no friends >not talented at anything except playing drums >one day a new student transfers in >got to know him by chance, turns out he played guitar >he got popular real quick but still talked to me on a regular basis >soon he became my first friend >we start out first band together (we were pretty shit, but it was still a lot of fun compared to staying at home at all day). >2 years later he drops out of school, but is still popular and we continue to chill >goes to a ghetto school and picks up drugs and heavy alcohol >he introduces me to his friends who were heavily into drugs (one of them even took his virginity) >bad crowd, but he still took care of me and made sure I was never peer pressured into doing anything stupid >one day he tells me he hears voices and sees things
>>563527253 pt 2 >turns out to be schizophrenia >"I see him everywhere," he tells me, as the tears trickle down from beneath his sun glasses. "He points a gun at me in the mirror." >every time he passes something reflective, he'd see a man trying to kill him or an image of himself committing suicide >whenever we were walking and he suddenly stopped in front of a reflective surface, I had to block his view and act normally. >fought regularly with his parents and felt neglected since his older brother did well in school and he didn't. >tried to overdose himself on sleeping tablets and told a friend about it on chat. His friend messaged me and I managed to call his mom. >mom lied about it and said everything was all right (he had to get his stomach pumped) >I was doing relatively well at school and had friends because of him >He moves to another country, and I talked to him online >few months later, his brother messages me and tells me he hung himself in his room. >left a note that said "I'm sorry" >go back to school horrified >everyone that was ever a "friend" at school started to turn away from me >turns out I reminded them of too much >found out it was assisted suicide from someone I knew >she thought it was completely fine and well justified >funeral on another continent, couldn’t go because of exams
That was three years ago, and I've never had another friend to this day.
>>563526835 We've been broken up for almost 3 months now. Right after we broke up, friend of mine took my side and bitched at her. She unblocked me from fb less than a week after we broke up. Still loved her, forced myself to talk to her because she was doing everything to piss me off. Ff to 2nd week of july, loses her shit when I say I don't want to skype, says 'fuck you' 4 times then blocked me from everything. Have had no contact with her since then. Still love her. And no, if anything she was the one 'pestering' me. I dealt with barely talking to her by going on /b/ all the time. Sorry if that was too long..
>>563527864 Shit, I can relate to that >>563527387 That sucks man.. but friends aren't all what they're said to be. Even a really good friend won't always stick up to you. Don't value friends too much m8
>>563527580 So she kept talking to you? She clearly wasn't over you either and just wanted a reaction out of you. It's ok that you still love her dude, that makes sense. Like I said to someone else earlier I can't relate too much (still young and had 1 serious gf) but just find girls to talk to, not even like flirting just be friends and that might help. Going to /b/ helps too I guess, there's people just like you here you just gotta look. And no it wasn't too long at all.. its a real conversation for me..
>>563528643 Yeah, a 'friend' just turned down hanging out with me today. Last time I asked. I give up. >>563528518 Been talking to another girl lately, met her on an online game, was surprised that she's the same age as me, even more surprised that she lives about an hour away from me. Talked to her a bit, but she has like 1200 friends on fb, doubt she would want me..
if you don't watch anime, there's a fair chance this will do nothing for you, if you do, it should at least give some feels, if you are a fan of this specific show and you didn't cry your eyes out, you should kill yourself
>>563530060 You're not alone, /b/rother. Wanna share your story? >>563530063 I wouldn't mind dating that new girl, but she's just way out of my league. I guess staying friends is the only option >made this screencap myself, this fucking story man
Hold on guys.... No matter how hard life is there will always be light at the end of the tunnel... Think of no matter how hard you think you have it someone out in the world has is much worse.... Just look at me i'm a 16 almost 17 y/o New fag from Denmark, i broke up with my gf of 8 months about 2 months ago..... The things i have been trough with all feels i can't handle them anymore (The GF things was the last drop)... i come here to 4chan as my last hope because some of my sadnesss... disappears when i hear that some of you poor guys out there is haveing a rough time just like myself.... Be strong guys! The good days can be seen in the horizon!
>>563530505 >>563530592 >have crush on girl A >get rejected >stay friends >meet girl B, FWB ensues >girl A falls for me >girl B falls for me >decide for A >A is hesitant coz Ive been fucking around lately >lose it, cut it with A >get with B >miss A, fuck things with B the hard way >A meanwhile has something with a close friend of mine >mfw I loved them both >mfw I fucked both chances
fast forward to now
>half hartedly got over it >dream of B constantly >contact her >only friends, no sex, no love >mfw
Im crying like the little bitch I am. To worsen things my chest hurts like fuck since two weeks and Ive got some pains all over the body. Exams are closing in again, got some papers to write. I cant. I just cant.
>>563531696 It wasnt my fault completely. Shes a difficult person, but I lost it twice completely and insulted her. The problem was, she knew I decided for A. They both knew of each other, and that worsened things with B.
So, in the end, its completely my fault. Ive did so much wrong, its ridiculous.
>>563530505 Who knows man just be yourself and show you're interested. But fuck if I know about life.. >>563531297 Sounds rough... How did you fuck things with B? And the pains could just be stress I think.
>>563531437 Really? Works fine for me. Whatever try these instead. If none of them work just look up my cherry crush office slut. http://kitty-kats.net/showthread.php?2055081-My-Cherry-Crush-Videos-2 k2s cc/file/c3ee678f668df/MCC_-_Office_Slut.rar%3Cbr%20/%3E
>>563515883 i know the feels all to well i was probably never hurt as hard as you but i bet one day down the road she will want you back i loved a girl for over two years and we dated and shit she broke up with me 2 months before i joined the military. i was going to ask her to marry me 2 days after we broke up she started to date some other guy 2 years later, she still wants me back but i know she would just do it again remember, to get over a girl, you have to get under another
>>563532296 >stress its not. I have an appointment tomorrow, so I hope that it gets better soon. Its unbarable.
>how For starters, she knew about me and A from the beginning, so it was hard to gain her trust naturally. Then, at a party where we shouldve gotten together (officially) because we kissed publicly etc, I wanted to talk to her about A and that I loved her (B). She didnt wanna talk about this though, since we were both drunk (Backstory, A was at that party and saw us kissing - which B realized. I didnt). She only said she was horny. I got pretty butthurt since Im a whiny bitch. Tried to force the topic, but she kept answering she wanted to fuck and talk tomorrow. So I lost it, went home alone. Then again, I couldnt sleep so I went to her. When she opened, I asked her to walk with me so we could talk. But she just shrugged it off and was like nah. Then I completely lost it and insulted her badly. Along the lines of
>if your parents behave the same way you do, then Im not surprised they divorced
And well, we kept going for weeks, but it stuck in her head and hurt her. She was often in a bad mood and eventually I ended things with her. Which I now regret, even though it wouldve gotten to that point anyway.
>inb4 you fucked it up Ya, I know. Sometimes I feel like a retarded piece of shit, especially since I managed to fuck up things with TWO awesome girls at the same time. If I had been a bit more patient with A...
>>563532104 Well, shit man. Sounds like B wasn't good gf material though. Be happy you didn't get in anything serious with either of them >>563532296 Yeah, guess I'm gonna ask her to hang out once I get a job. I literally have no money left, no license, no car. Should be like 15$ for a one-way train ticket to her city. Not too bad..
>>563533359 I dont know. I feel like that its true for B, not for A though. She was the reluctant and careful type of person, but man, I had a good time with her. She was always chill, we never had arguments, I was always happy around her and all that lovely loveshit. I mean, I know why I decided for her. And I know I shouldnt have chosen B, and I shouldnt have contacted her few days ago. I know all of that, but still I do love both of them.
Its si hard to accept I managed to fuck up the first true love I ever had.
>inb4 new will come I know that. But even tho I had relationships before, I never fell as hard as for A.
>>563533357 Yeah not really sure what to say except you got us to talk to.. >>563533359 Well go for it dude. I'd give anything to at least have a girl to go for. I did for a little but I said fuck that very quickly.
Shit /b/, all I think about is spending one more day as a 13 year old kid. Before responsibilty, before stress, before expectations. When all I cared about was playing video games and what was for dinner. Now everything I used to love makes me want to cry, and I feel emptier inside every time I realise that these things don't help. Every time I enjoy them a little less. I can't think of anything that makes me happy anymore. And I am crying so goddamn hard because I just can't find the words to express how the fuck I feel right now. Goddammit /b/, I need to get out of here.
>>563536716 Well me and her started snapchatting through my friends since she already sc'ed them. So we snapchatted for a while and she was the type to sc a lot of guys and sent half nudes to like all of them so I knew I wasn't special. I did snapchat more than anyone else but I still probably wasn't anything more than just another guy to her. I started to like her though. But then she would send me snaps of her with other guys or her ex and I knew I needed to stop so I just stopped. She asked me once why I was ignoring her, I told he I wasn't and we snappchatted for a couple of days when I stopped again and she hasn't said anything an probably doesn't care at all.. sorry this was so long and seems really stupid but I have no one to talk to about this stuff. I have no confidence at all anon so I feel you there. My self confidence is awful.. I wrote this earlier if you care...>>563519242. But yeah it seems stupid but that's it
So I never really post in these threads, I lurk all the time, checking for new pics and the like. I read the stories and I feel the feels because it helps to know there are people with problems of their own.
I got prescribed anti-depressants today. I never thought I'd be on them. Not that I'm against pills or anything, people gotta do what they gotta do, but I just assumed depression is what other people went through. I haven't left my room in a month apart from to get beer and cigarettes. I've lost a stone and a half (when I was ten to begin with so I look like a bloody twig). I can't sleep, can't eat, can't even leave the house. I've been taking quite a lot of codeine lately and last night I went outside in the pouring rain and stood outside semi-naked for about an hour. After that, I called the Samaritans and they essentially told me to book an appointment with my doctor (they're not really allowed to say it outright but he heavily implied it).
So, this morning I went to the doctors and ended up being prescribed Citalopram, plus some therapy in a couple of weeks.
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