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>>577080665 same here man, it's late at night and I have so much fucking work due in and I gotta apply to university and my shit's not done and the girl I like doesn't like me back and I'm overweight and all i wanna do is just curl up and watch movies but there's so much shit to do my room is such a mess there's no time
>>577079478 Fuck man. I'm on the other end of that shit. It's hell. My girlfriend loves me more than anything. She doesn't have much friends, her mom's a cunt, and life's just kicked her ass. That leaves me as one of the only things to make her happy. So she clings to me. She doesn't want anything but to marry me. Yet I don't really feel the same way. I care about her, but we just aren't compatible. It's the worst feeling. Because i know that I will never marry her, and i know that we probably will one day loose contact, and while that's for the best, It still sucks. because i know she'll go through so much pain and heartache, and I just fucking can't stand it. I needed to get that off my chest for so long.
>>577082162 sometimes your life doesn't matter in the end. it only matters how you've kept others happy and safe. Like the ending of the last dark tower book *SPOILER* he has to repeat his life due to him not saving his friends he was to selfish to get to the end of his life and only did things for his interest
going through shit right now, girl problems, parent problems, school problems, practically everything in my life is shit right now. but i keep going. i wake up knowing that everyday i feel weak, i become stronger the next day. i wake up and try to put a smile on everyone's face. i've reached the point where i realized that even though other people need to be happy to live, i don't. just be there for other people, make sure you let other's know there's someone there that knows they exist and care.
>>577080040 I feel like an asshole now... This was my brother /b/... this is how I've treated him his whole life. And now I don't even know if I'm gonna get another chance to make it right.
I'm the bigger asshole, not him. He only ever wanted to hang out, play vidya, (gears of war is his fave, it was our game together) or watch a fucking movie and I still can't go and do it; even though he's in the fucking next room, right now, ready to drop everything he's doing the moment I go in, just to hang with me.
Why am I such a bad person? How come I have the nice things, the qt3.15 gf, money, the life.
Why does he get an xbox with a second controller still clean and neat--even though it should be dusted over, even though player two hasn't joined him for a game in months and the computer has run for him for fucking months instead?
Even though comics, toys, games, godzilla! Fucking godzilla, his favorite thing-long before 2014 came and went-it was even close to his fucking birthday for goodness sake, and I still haven't gotten his opinion on it. Unless, you count the times he wakes up early enough to watch me head off to work and tries to tell me of it, or something else, in the hopes I'll respond with something other than, "cool, mhm, neato...gotta go to work soon bro, gotta get ready, talk to you later." and that slightly deflated look in his eyes when he responds "later when, tonight? tomorrow?"
"when I'm not busy."
Fuck me /b/ why am i trash?
Why do I even have to turn this post about him into something about me in the end, how I feel, why I feel bad...
Fuck me bro's... why am I so...so me?? Why can I never be there for him like he deserves. Why is Dom so fucking stupid and why does Marcus still wait for him?
>>577084502 oh fuck now i feel full of myself, tbh im an underage fag and haven't had many life experiences, but god the internet has already fucked with me and made me a horrible person. the only reason i have a gf is we were both messed up by tthe internet. i used to be so lonely that i would date girls i met online (roleplay yknow). when i was ≈8 i had an imaginary girlfriend. i have a fucking neckbeard, I'm half jewish on my biological father's side. My adopted father (my biological mother's husband) is a giant douche and im pretty sure would laugh if i died. I started crying because i thought about a game i wanted to make. i have weird mixed feelings about death and i cry over school, even if i don't really care about school.
>>57708656Normally we come to /b/ to be shitheads, and assholes, and let out our true feelings through this site, but in a feels thread, we come together as /b/ros, and we just let out the bullshit, the fears, the hate, all of it. We cry our fucking eyes out, and we put aside the assholeish wit we pride ouerselfs on, and just be true to ourselfs. . We could be across the world and never be closer. don't be ashamed man. You're with friends here.
>Be me, 14 >Mom and Dad divorced >Brother is 19 >Brother and I always going back and forth >Brother born with some kind of rare Mental Illness >Doctors said "as if there were 3 radios constantly playing in his head, all on different stations" >Bro always picking on me >not your ordinary "brother fighting" >Bro beats me, a lot of times he is drunk. >He never says anything nice to me or even apologizes >Bro goes to therapy >Tried to get better >Doesn't work >One day I come home from school >Expecting my Brother to be there >Bro not there >Bro is missing for a few days >Parents really worried >Get a call >Bro in car crash from drunk driving >Severe injuries >Doctors tell us he probably wont live through >One night my Mom is sleeping, Dad is not there >Bro calls me over in a weary-sounding voice >"Anon, I'm so sorry." >Bro starts crying >He continues >"I only did those things to you because you're the only one who actually talks to me. I really don't have any friends or anything like that." >"From Brother to Brother, if you have any friends, keep 'em. Having one is better than having none." >mfw >Bro never talked to anyone after that >Bro dies 2 weeks later
>>577087446 tfw my best friend for 7 years just moved away from me and couldn't feel more heart broken more feels is he did it to be close to the girl he may never get, I understand love to the pooint of understanding his pain but damn it's been rough dealing with this shit
>>577087324 I realized that I loved my ex when I saw that I was actively trying to convince myself that I didn't love her. Until that point, I had myself convinced that I would be unable to love anyone. Two months later she ripped out my heart.
>>577087715 Think about all the people you could disappoint. Or pets you could leave alone. Even if we are just clumps of little particles, we're the only thing that we know of that's an intelligent form of life, and that makes us special. No matter what, remember you are one of a kind, and it should take longer than the life of the universe for another exact copy of you to appear anywhere. Also, I have a fear of being reborn and having to live another life. i really don't want to go through another 13 years or more of feeling like i should remember something from before, but never finding it.
I lost her and I want her back. The only thing is: I'm not sure if that would be a good idea, we already broke up a few times and got back together.. I just don't think I can handle another breakup if I can get her back.. Should I?
>be anon >dont go for girls in highschool because you want a real relationship. >get your first gf at 19 years old >gf cheats on you >dont trust girls or anyone anymore >flash forward 1 year >meet new girl >actually start opening up again for the first time >new girl has also been cheated on >get really close >start dating new girl >new girl also cheats on anon >now I really cant trust anyone and I think its for good this time
I have a social life, I'm middle class, and I'm not that socially awkward compared to most people. But by the end of the day, I know that I won't have anyone that looks forward to me messaging them on skype or texting them, that shit. How do I overcome knowing that I'm not going to have a significant other in my life? Life has lost it's luster for me, and I don't know why. Everyday I feel like ending it, but I don't have the balls to pull through. I just don't know what's wrong with me
i met this girl a year ago at a mates party, i remember the moment i first saw her, she walked through the front room door and my jaw dropped, perfect figure and a lovely smile. at the time i was trying to get with another girl but she made a permenant mark in my mind. saw her a few times after the party and got to know her more and more. went to a gig on halloween in london with her and a few other people, the more i was around her and found out about her the more i liked her. spent most of yesterday at hers just chilling, she has a little girl from a previous relationship who's two, cutest kid you would ever meet, this was maybe the second time the kids met me and she was comfortable around me which is strange since she doesnt do strangers, even let me pick her up at one point.
sucks because i've been feeling really broody lately and playing with her made me feel dad like.....
fucking hate this because i know i'll be constantly thinking about it for ages now
>be me >16 at the time >fat, virgin, no self esteem >chronic fear of photos/mirrors >play hours and hours of video games to escape reality >one day, (after some faggot makes fun of me) change life completely >research and make plans of everything i ate in the comming year >plan exercises i will do >beggin to fine happiness in my dreams and what i hope to become >spend 2 years staying committed to my plans and goals >still no confidence >lost 65pounds and gained some muscle >still a virgin >still absolutely horrified of photos and mirror
>>577089243 i need some feels man i seriously need to let out these feels soon best friend got cancer and i had to stay strong and never let that shit out hes fine now but moved and feely but cant cry and i should probably cry soon considering i havnt in several years and have a lot to let out
I started an IRL journal when my ex left me. I wound up writing a full composition notebook page of my thoughts about myself. The big 4 were "Coward Worthless Loser Failure" I reread the page. Some barrier broke in my head. I realized that this was how I thought about myself, that that was my self image. I made a conscious decision to not think that way, to not feel that way anymore.
Fast forward a few weeks. I decided to get some buffalo wings after work one Friday evening. It was about 4 months after my ex left me. I was sitting at the bar with my drink and wings. The bartender was flirting with me and I back. She asked, "How's life?" I replied, "There's good and bad." I thought, "That doesn't sound right." Another barrier broke. I realized that I was happy.
>be me >7 years ago, 23 >have gf >move to her hometown so she can be closer to family >i don't have a family, mother dead, father gone somewhere I don't care to know >been together for 4 years at this point >get call while working 3rd shift at some shit manufacturing plant >gf's father has been in a car crash >emergency surgery to stop his brain from swelling >we camp at the hospital for 2 days >we're told he might not be himself or even remember us >he wakes up and is totally lucid >my gf and her two younger siblings are elated >later while my gf was asleep he called me over to his bedside >"anon, can you do me a solid and clean the gutters out for me, buddy? I don't think I'll be getting around to them any time soon." >I will >"promise me that you'll take care of her. she needs you more than you know" - tears roll down his face >I will >I did >she left me about a two months ago. We'd been married for 4 years.
I don't sleep, my dreams haunt me. In them I see her. She holds me, tells me she love's me - that everything will be okay. Then someone else enters, someone I don't know. they laugh, embrace each other and leave. I awake in the trows of a panic attack. When the adrenaline subsides, I cry like a child until morning... then go to work. I drink to sleep now.
I know what love is. I've held it in my hands. I've watched it dissolve into pain and loneliness.
I'm offing myself as soon as the dissolution paperwork goes through
>>577091141 That really sucks, dude, I'm sorry. I really do honestly wish I had words to convince you to stick around. I couldn't imagine life if my girl left me, or got sick and died or something. I wish I could say it gets better, but we all know that's a matter of perspective. If there's nothing that anyone can say or do to help you stay, then stay anyway. We all love you here, /b/rother.
>>577091141 That sucks anon. I know I can't really coax you into not offing yourself, but I saved your story just incase you don't change your mind and end it. At least you can live in my feels folder until it dies :(
>>577085574 you recognize your behavior doesn't align with how you want to behave. so change it. you have a wonderful gift that not everyone has right now, man. the chance to fix it.
if there is such thing as a human soul, I believe it forms when two people bond. I have a little brother almost just like that, and I know that feeling you get right after beginning to entertain them. they come off as annoying, and you question why you even started talking to them.
but do it, bro. give him some time. pick up a new game for you guys to try out. put up with the dumb things he says so he can learn to say less dumb things. have a positive impact on the guy.
I'm feeling like shit right now /b/ this is probably a good place to vent. I Just lost the only person that could make me feel like this worlds worth living in. She was my best friend and my lover. If I wasn't so fucking stupid I could have stayed in bed for 3+ more hours before leaving. But I had to leave things fucked up and in a fight. she's dead now and I'll never get the chance to tell her I loved her! That's what hurts most
>>577091141 Get yourself the sweetest revenge. Live and prosper. Be happier than you ever were with her. Make it so that when she learns about you she realizes that she's the one missing out. One day look back at the relationship and know that you are better and stronger for it. Look back on it and enjoy that it did happen, not lament that it ended.
>>577085574 This. This brought me to tears. This is exactly me and my little sister. She's only 11 and I'm 22 but I've been such a shit sister.. Never spending time with her even though she looks up to me so much. Fuck anon.. You've spoken from my soul.
>7 years old >loving life >ADD as fuck >legitimately try in school, but just not able to focus >feel bad about it all the time because i'm not at par with what my teachers say I should be. >parents reassure me >eventually get tested officially for ADD >put on meds >bad move
>always tired >always mad >no more friends for about 4 years >give up on being good at anything because I want to be happy again >move on and recover
>be 15 >grades slipping in school >trying as hard as I can to be adequate >friend at lunch suggests I go back on medicine >laugh it off and go to bathroom >cry like a bitch because I remember what the meds were like
>be 17 >develop seizures >no doctor knows why, so they just use the blanket statement "epilepsy" >put on medicine after it's established that this will make me unable to go a week without having one >medicine is good for a while >no more waking up sweating and all my muscles burning >no more falling and fucking my back >no more hyperactivity >realise that I'm getting more and more tired >this is no better than being on my other mind-altering medicine
>be me, 17 >dad is very sick, has been for 2 years, has non-stop 24/7 hiccups >at times it would cause him to choke/suffocate >we are a close family, emotionally we're all drained >had grown super close with my dad >the only period where I actually saw him cry (2-3 in total, ever) not on his condition but out of love >finally mother decides to go abroad for his treatment >financially we're in a shit position >day of flight, gives him a tight hug >me & bro (18) are left home alone cause of our exams >talked with him 1-2 over the phone >eventually exams started >mom tell's that he's recovering and feeling better in hospital >says she's coming to visit to get some loans here and take me & bro to for the summer >mother's flight is on the day of the exam >comeback home and see a giant van >see some family outside the house >enter house, climb the stairs, legs are shaking for some reason, see the room filled with a shit ton of people >mfw told dad had passed away >mfw found out his body is arriving today back to my country >mfw he had passed away 9 days ago but nobody told me & the bro because we were home alone and had exams
Not a day goes by that I don't remember him, his death shattered me completely and thankfully 5 years later I managed to built myself up.
anons, cherish your family, I would take a bullet for them and would take their place anywhere and anytime
>age 21 >can't drive because seizures sometimes happen anyway >can't drink because Kepra and alcohol should never mix >can't care about anything because seizure meds make you unable to care >friends notice big time >ask me how they can help >knowing kill me is not a valid repsonce, say it's fine and it'll subside >didn't subside last time
>stop taking medicine >seizures at night >feels like I'm dying when I try to sleep >can actually live during the day time though >Seizures get more frequent >literally have to stop going out ever because of this shit >take medicine in higher dosages than before, but nothing stops them >take different meds, but nothing works >I think i'll be dying soon for real
Not sure if I made a good choice. I think stopping my medicine caused this, but noone has answers about any of this anyway. At least this way, I had some kind of life I could care about.
>Be me 12 year old kid >Into boy scouts vidya and all that >Dad really into it too >He got me into outdoors and techy things > Early december >Just about to go on the best camp out of the year ( guns and shit) > Dad has been having stomach pains all night for weeks >Stays up late and I feel bad so I say goodnight every night >He goes to get it checked and goes with my grandma >When they come back my dad steps out of my grandma's car and walks inside without talking to me >A little weirded >Go up to grandma and ask what happened > She just hugs me and says it will be ok >I go inside and hear my mom screaming and slamming her door >Now I'm really freaking the fuck out >I'm spooked out of my mind >Grandma takes my sis and me to McDon's to get away >Come back any mom says its just a tumor and it's probably benign >Mfw it's actually pancreatic cancer and he was told that night he had 3-4 months >Every day is slow but I try to make it feel as normal as possible >He can't drive because of medication so he's stuck inside all the time >He's very techy so he messes with music and spends a lot of time in his room >Always wants to watch movies >Asks my sister and me to watch shows with him >Some nights the internal bleeding would cause him to throw up >I would stay up hearing it and not knowing what to do >In April two days before my mom's bday I wake up and talk to him >Ask him how he is and he says he's not that good >Say I'll see him after school >Come home to see uncle and grandma's car outside >Hear crying upstairs and that same feeling as before comes back >Moms friend takes us to dinner and halfway through mom calls >"Anon your dad died today do you want to see him?" >I say no >"Ok but don't tell your sister." >The worst feeling of sitting there knowing this >Come home and everyone is crying >I go up to my room and lie in my bed >Just sit and cry not wanting to believe it >/b/ros he was the one that brought me to the world of tech and gaming Continue
>>577092015 the lyrics are great and teared up a little but the instaloks league version is all i hear lol but he called up and said "how's shit holding up? said shit sucks already and he linked me a song and told me to not get upset about it, bawwed for a while
>>577092935 I'm really, really, sorry, anon. Give yourself some time to cope. Take a vacation from work/uni; do things you like. Game, art, fap, gym, who cares. Live your life as she would have wanted you to. I can't say I believe in the afterlife, but I know for a fact that she knows. She knows you love her.
>>577089250 only you can know the answer to that question.
sometimes being in solitude is the greatest gift you can have. (there is a difference between solitude and loneliness.) but we are social creatures by nature.
my personal experience suggests multiple break ups means the relationship is almost past saving, on its last legs. if you want it to work out, you may have to change the way you look at it, the way you look at her.
insanity is attempting the same thing over and over while expecting different results.
We grew up. We talked about having kids. We changed our lives, got serious about life. I never thought I wanted kids until about a year ago. Something clicked in me.
We end up trying to get pregnant, partly because we thought there may be something wrong with one of us considering how healthy our libido was and we hadn't had any pregnancy scares in out decade together.
Out of nowhere she needs to see a doctor. Tells me she needs surgury.
>for what? >"for a cyst" >what kind of cyst? >"I don't know" >how do you not know? If your pregnant you can tell me. If you don't want it, you can tell me. >"I'm pregnant. I don't want it."
I support her decision, I supported my wife 100% in everything she wanted in life. Paid for the procedure. To cheer her up I got her a dress for this wedding she was going to go to with a friend.
...stumbled on a Dear John letter on her computer when I installed a webcam for her to Skype with; wasn't snooping, the computer just woke up. Confronted her. She admitted she was going to leave.
Took the clothes on my back and my laptop, left my 2 dogs and all my other possessions. Living on a friend's couch for the remainder of my stay on this corporeal plane.
Life is cold, immutable, and random. It has teeth. It can do heinous things to the best of us, and reward the worst of us at the expense of others.
I gave it what I could. There aren't even fumes left in the tank.
>>577091994 He's sleeping now, but I'm gonna try my best to remember him and do this. Thing is, I'm scared that once this thread comes and goes, my feelings will 404 with it and I'll go back to my robot lifestyle tomorrow morning...
>>577093008 Honestly, that's about our age gap too. a few less years between, but pretty close.
>>577093381 >He brought me to my only concert "The wall" >He got me into Pink Floyd >Without him I wouldn't surf or hike or camp >He gave me the life I have now >Sometimes I still cry about it Thanks for reading this even though its probably not very well worded or told On a funny note he was alowed to smoke pot and he would keep it in his bathroom. He once convinced my mom to do it with him. Once I almost walked in the bathroom and my dad freaked out and I had no idea about the stash until my mom told me about 4 months after he died.
Okay guys, need a little advice. I put out a story on SC about my new haircut and got a response from a girl I've been talking to the past week or two almost immediately. We chatted for a bit but the conversation died with me being the last sender. This was about a half hour ago.
I want to see if she wants to grab a movie tomorrow. What's the best way to ask her?
This is relevant to feels because I've been locked inside my room as a recluse for the past day and a half and I'm finally getting out of whatever funk I was in
"I have a daughter who reminds me too much of what I used to be, full of love and joy, kissing every person she meets because everyone is good and will do her no harm. And that terrifies me to the points here I can barely function." - Kurt Cobain in his suicide note
>>577093648 Fuck dude, I feel so bad for you, but I wholeheartedly agree. Life isn't what it was back when we were kids, and honestly I don't want to live it. Sure there would be good times, but the bad outweigh the good. Everytime I'm exposed to the real world I see myself growing more angry at the fact that people have feelings. Everything ends up with death in the end, what's really the point in trying to live life? I really don't know whats more scarier, knowing you'll never love, or knowing that soon no one will even remember you
Please dont off yourself anon. Life sucks, and I understand that. It feels like it will never stop hurting either but eventually...you will get through. I broke up with my long-term gf (living together, talking about marriage, children, etc) and I can relate with you... When I sleep, I see her, when im awake I see her. I smell her on my clothes she used to wear to bed. I see her everywhere. When im not at work im not sober. If I had a choice to not sleep I would not. I hate the dreams. Ive sat staring at my loaded guns for hours anon. Please dont do it, its not worth it.
>>577093258 all we ever really want is a chance to live our lives out peacefully in the way we choose. it really sucks to hear that you have less of that chance than most, bro.
but even in your situation, I firmly believe that life is what you make of it. there has to be something that you enjoy doing and that epilepsy can't interfere with too greatly.
art, music, writing, inventing, helping others. I hate telling you to basically "get over it" when this is clearly a shittier scenario then I will probably ever be exposed to. but, man, I have to believe that even a life like yours can have tons of meaning.
I believe in you, anon. it's not your fault, and you still have time. try to make the most of it.
Life is a zero sum game. I gave it what I could. I'm good with that. I've known happiness, love, selflessness, and compassion. I seent that shit. It's real. It can give you purpose. It gave me purpose.
I am bittersweet about not getting to have kids. I would push through this for their sake if they existed. I've always said that suicide was a selfish act because those who do it don't think of the people they'll hurt by committing it.
...there's nobody left to hurt. So, I'm hanging out with the only friends I have tonight.
>>577085574 Dude, talk to him. Soon. Shit, maybe tonight even, I don't know his life. I feel like I've been such a shit to my brother since I was a teenager, and now we're both in college and he isn't near me all the time for me to make it better. The worst part is that I don't think he holds any resentment towards me. I'm just too aware that I'm an asshole and he forgives me for it all the time without thinking about it. So talk to your brother, before he's hundreds or thousands of miles away and you can't be with him when you're ready to.
>>577097959 Also, Subterranean Homesick Alien (also by Radiohead) is pretty good for feels and without as well. In fact, OK Computer, the album they're both from is one of my favorite albums of all time. I really love their stuff. Does anybody else feel fine (or "fine," I guess, definitions vary so not really that great but not horrible) during the day, but when you get home and you're at long last alone, you start wondering why your friends put up with you? Why you can never get the courage to tell her how you feel? Why you hate yourself? That's me almost every day, /b/.
"Don't depend too much on anyone in this world because even your shadow leaves you when you're in darkness" "though the fall will kill me for a moment i will fly" "I still repeat the things you said to me in my head." "Some days, I wish things had turned out differently." "My favorite time of the day is the brief moment when you wake up and you don't know who you are." "Sometimes I don't feel like continuing to live. I don't want to kill myself, I just want it to all stop or go away. I want to be calm. I want to be happy again." "I feel like I'm waiting for something that isn't going to happen" "The worst feeling isn't being lonely. It's being forgotten by someone you could never forget." "When I say I don't care, I'm not trying to convince you, I'm trying to convince myself." "This year I wished I was dead and they all clapped. Without knowing" "There's no such thing as a painless lesson." - Unknown or Anonymous
>>577091141 That's shitty anon, please don't go. I was in a semi-similar situation. Serious relationship, lasted for almost 6 years. Her parents were separated and I only ever met her dad a few times, but apparently he thought I was a great guy. He told me to take care of her with tears in his eyes. As a military man, I knew that didn't come easy.
Anyway, long story short, its been like, over two full years now since she dumped me. Most nights I dream we get back together. Or dream that we are still together. Sometimes we make love and I can feel myself inside of her, others we just cuddle and I can feel her breathing gently next to me. Every time I can hear her voice and every time I can feel that feeling of being so completely in love with someone.
Then at the end, there's something that sours it. She tells me shes been with someone else. She tells me shes been with tons of other people. Her mom gets in my face. It's always something that ruins it. Then I wake up and it takes me a moment to realize we aren't together and then that day is completely shot because I spend every moment thinking about her and wondering what shes doing or who shes fucking and it drives me insane.
Had a real shit run since she dumped me. Grandfather died a few months ago, basically my hero and my first best friend. Watched him go those last few months and held his hand and cried with him at the end.
Just please don't go anon. I know there's no way for me to know if you end up killing yourself. But it would just give me a semblance of hope. These last few months have been especially hard. I'm just a fat miserable drain on my parents. And they don't complain at all about me. And I just don't want to be here any more. Thought about killing myself on my birthday last month but couldn't do it. I don't think I'll be able to do it until they are gone, but I don't want them to go.
>be me, 20 >bipolar depression diagnosed >not really a bad life >I have some "friends" and have had a lot of girls >I'm fun and family loves me >In the end of the day, when I'm about to sleep it doesn't matter. >feeling as sad and empty as usual >I feel like nobody really cares about me >I feel like a need love, I feel like I don't deserve it and I don't like family even though they are nice to me and they show me they care >I feel like I'm going nowhere, that everything's worthless >not sad enough to try to kill myself tho, but sad enough to feel like alone every single second.
>>577084205 I know the feel. After school ended and people started to branch out with their friends, I was left behind. I've met no new people and I rarely see those I considered my best friends. The thing is, they're still my best friends, but I am not theirs. I mean so little to so many people, and I mean less to them with every passing day.
>>577099734 Welp, I've officially met my clone, because I feel exactly like you right now. Replace "bipolar disorder" with "severe depression" and remove the part about girls altogether and we're on the same page. It sucks, but at least I know that I'm not alone.
>>577098362 there are loads of successful indie games, some even made by just one person. Cave Story is a good example, if you've never heard of that game. all the art and music and coding and story were written/made by one guy, and the game is fantastic.
so, make your fucking video game. coding is a useful skill for shit tons of reasons, not just making video games. same with storytelling. art is more important to society than most people will ever realize. it'll take work, but if you do this then one day you'll be able to look back and feel a sense of accomplishment that can only stem from working yourself to the bone.
and fuck you for thinking guilt trips are okay. don't make things so that others will like you; make things so that YOU will like you. only YOU need to be truly satisfied with your work. If you are, honestly, then others will naturally be attracted to it. that's the truth behind people saying "don't worry about what others think"
>be me >move across the country for college >leave all family behind >was really close with my grandfather >try to call close family atleast once a week, siblings, parents, and grandparents >always look forward to my grandfathers call >we would tell each other fun history facts, always >we would learn something new every phone call >college and work starts to take up more time >cant call as much as i used to >its wednesday now >im at school, thinking about how im gonna call family today, after putting it off for three days >get text from my mother >asks me to call when I can >call when im out of class >she tells me my grandfather has died of a heart attack, 80 years old now. >so sudden >never had anyone close to me die >It hurts, and I miss him.
Shitty greentext, but I had to share. helps to get it off my chest.
>>577100769 Dayum, anon. We're here for you. Also on the greentext, it was good. Don't worry about it. >>577100883 Yeah, I guess we are. You know, it's strange. I have done more and spent more time with my real-life friends, but I still think of you guys here on /b/ as friends as well. You guys actually know how I feel, and can relate. Love you all <3
>>577100380 i think guilt trips are fine because if someone doesn't understand all the time it takes to do ssomething like that, and they still don't think it's interesting in the least, tgey need to rethink their piece of shit lives.
>>577101701 >>577101870 Thank you both, guys, I feel as empty as always but now I'm aware I'm not that alone, at least people in this mostly-mean image board make me feel I'm not alone and that gives me strenght, thank you, for real :)
>>577080267 Only under aged who haven't dealt with serious problems yet would get comfort from this >muh anxiety >muh low self confidence There's seriously a lot worse, pull your socks up and you'll get over a lot of problems.
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