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I can't write good greentext shit anymore. Just the facts about how shitty I feel.
>Gf cheated on me after being together for 3 years. >Don't trust anyone. Just feels. Hate women. >Meet this awesome woman. >She's got her life together, great job, emotionally stable, friends, family, involved with the community, cares about the people around her. >We hang out a few times. Open up about a lot of things to her, she opens up to me about things. >She knows my life is shit, I live in a squalid shit hole in a crappy neighborhood. >She lives in this nice apartment complex surrounded by all these upscale stores and restaurants that she can afford because she has a great job. >She knows how miserable I am at my place, doesn't stay warm during the winter, water is not clean, crime, shitty place. >Let's me stay at her place literally whenever I want, gives me a key. >Sometimes I drop by after work, sleep in her guest room that she set up for me, wake up, we go out, walk around, eat at one of those fancy restaurants, get coffee, spend the entire day together. We are able to talk about anything. >One day get really drunk. >Talk to her about my shitty childhood, how much I envy her life, how much I hate being a poorfag and lonely. >She takes my pathetic sobbing faggy self into her arms and holds me the entire night saying that we'll figure everything out. >I don't drink as much anymore. Still hang out with her but now I'm starting to get shit together don't need to spend all day with her. >Call her during the night and she'll listen to me whine about life before I fall asleep because she knows it helps me sleep. >Tfw she's the only woman I've felt anything for in a long time. >Tfw she's improving my life and doing everything for me and I can only offer her my friendship. >Why? >Tfw she's a lesbian. We're the best of friends and that's all that will ever happen. >She's a lesbian and she's going to make some woman very very fucking happy someday. >Tfw I'll go back to being alone.
I've come to the conclusion that I'm just a very desperate, 22 year old, beta. I constantly cry out for pity and play the victim card for attention and I hate that I do this. I've always had trouble with girls and I'm honestly not that bad looking, but I think it's my personality.
Girls tell me I come off very strongly or clingy and nobody likes someone who gets clingy. I feel like I cling because I'm so desperate and lonely for female attention that I just take what I can get and it ruins my chances.
I feel very lonely I have a decent number of friends, but I also feel so paranoid that I annoy them all the time We don't hang out too much because we don't really have a place to hang out I had a girl, but I dont think i loved her so i broke up with her I still dont think I loved her but I'd be lying if I said I didnt miss her She texted me the other day for the first time in 3 months, and we caught up a bit She said she was happy we caught up, I said 'yea, Ive missed talking to you', she said 'i hear ya,dude' Now i regret talking to her again
as a male in his early 20's all of my friends seem to be in relationships. all of my female friends and friends of friends are in relationships. i've been single for 2 years and haven't gotten laid in a year.. i know i shouldn't complain since some of you are kissless virgins. but i went from a steady stream of pussy to nothing. seemed to happen as soon as i turned 22. i think the last girl i was regularly sleeping with cursed me, since i broke up with her a week before my birthday.
You ever just realize that your nothing and that you'll never be anything so why even try? Why not just get some shitty job where you get to be the shitty person you've always wanted to be and drink your life away in quite happiness?
>>592316715 You sound like me though I wasn't a player or anything but I am 22 right now in college and most of the people i know are in relationships and most of the girls I know are taken or have no interest in me.
I'm actually worse off than you because this is me>>>>>>>>592315535
At least your not a desperate, beta weeaboo I mean I've been with a few girls but it's usually on and off and a lot of girls always say I'm clingy.
>>592317204 i tend to stay away from relationships because i get a bit clingy. it's better off that i just sleep with them and that's that. dating in your early 20s is weird. it's when shit gets really serious, i'm not ok with that. i miss being a teenager
>>592317802 Eh I kind of disagree because a lot of the girls i've seen aren't really acting serious. It seems just like high school dating standards to be honest you just date and fuck each other.
I wouldn't honestly know since I can't get into a relationship since I'm a loser but maybe it just depends on the girl. Some girls don't want to get serious right away and for a lot of them they are just like guys and want someone to be.
>>592318112 i guess there is that side of it. there doesn't seem to be a middle ground. i'm not even sure how relationships work as an adult since my last one started when i was a teenager. my mom passed away 3 days before my 22nd birthday. her funeral was a day before my birthday and it's a family tradition to get absolutely shit faced after a death. i spent my birthday at the drinking thing of my moms death. i really think my moms death has played a huge roll in why i've lost my game. it's actually really fucked with me. it's been a year and a half and i'm still having nightmares about her.
i don't even want a girlfriend tbh. i just want someone i can be intimate with at parties and the occasional weekend. i've got way too much baggage when i'm not drunk off my ass.
>age of 4 parents get divorced, dad cheated on my mom >had two older twin sisters, older brother, and youngest sister just born >with my mom having to deal with the baby, dealing with my twin sisters who were upset about the divorce, my brothers drug addictions, and my dad I was neglected a lot >I grew up being neglected for awhile, always felt sort of unloved and my dad never really made time to see us >mom got remarried to shitty step dad who abused the fuck out of me >she eventually gets divorced again and we lose our house >didn't really have friends growing up and was always sort of the outcast. >few years go by in the same shitty funk >get to middle school, start making friends, finally coming out of my shell >start getting in fights with other kids because I realized people would notice me then >get into highschool, start working out, end up being a pretty attractive guy >fall completely and madly in love with this girl and we start dating >first highschool relationship >start to realize she's had as shitty of a childhood as me >she has a lot of problems, anxiety disorder, panic attacks all the time, depression, and an eating disorder >she's not the prettiest girl in the entire world maybe 7/10 but it didn't matter because I loved her like no other >she helps me out a lot, she was super smart and i kinda sucked in school >end up becoming a cocky fuck and cheat on her after 2 years of dating because I decided I could do better >she never found out i cheated on her but i couldn't be with her knowing that i had >break it off with her >it's been a few years now and I've dated multiple girls >none of them compare to her >maybe it's because it was highschool and I was young and stupid that I loved someone so much >but I feel like no one will ever understand me like she did, she helped me so much with all of my problems
>>592319486 only person i know IRL who would remotely want something like that has HPV and i don't want warts on my pee pee. i guess i need to just get out more, but i already go out every weekend and get fucked up. i have no idea how else to meet people and what i'm doing now ain't workin'.
I've learned a while ago that I have no friends. It's not like I'm unapproachable or unliked like some other fedora wearing athiests on 4chan, or that I'm shy either. I just don't know anyone well. This isn't a fun fact to look at for me. At this point, loneliness has just become a state of being for me. Suicidal thoughts are something I have often. So I just wanna say thanks /b/tards. Thanks for being my friends. I'll probably never get to meet any of you, and you probably wouldn't like me because I'm a nigger, but you guys were always there for me. Whenever OP was a fag, we fucking called him out on his affinity for dicks together. Whenever a SJW was expressing her morals, we hated on her together. Whenever there were racist jokes to be made, we laughed at them together. When some autist was being completely fucking retarded, we cringed at him together. And god knows how incredible it was when that one guy got Septs. So thanks again for being my friends.
>no gf ever >lift weights >had sex once with hot girl I had huge crush on >thought she would be the one >she says it was a mistake and never talked to me again >cope with this heartbreak by lifting more weights >will continue lift weights until I become sexiest human being alive for my future girlfriend, if she exists
Man I'm so desperate and want a girl friend so bad. Today was the first day of classes for the semester and none of my classes had any potential in them. However, tomorrow I know for sure this is this one chick in my class that I have had my eye on since last semester. She was in my class before but I never ever said anything to her. What should I do guys? How do I talk to her? I'm pretty sure I'm gonna pussy out anyway but maybe I might actually grow some balls and do something.
>>592321204 Similar situation I guess >know a girl talk for a month >get in relationship >gf gets bad family shit after a week >doesn't want family shit to affect relationship >breaks up >I get serious about my body and start lifting >we talk for two months >shit settles and we go out again >two weeks pass >her Dad finds out >he doesn't want her dating anybody >family threatens to move because of me >we have to break up so she can stay in town
I'm lifting like crazy and working my ass off in boxing thinking that looking more aesthetic and being a sucessful fighter will make everything better and that she will love me again
>>592312716 I'm about to turn 20, have no job, live with parents, do household chores to help, frequently get yelled at for not doing anything while in the act of helping around the house, OCD makes me want to kill myself I feel unable to escape feelings of contamination, I have no drivers license and haven't seen any of my friends in months. The only bright spot in my life is the online friendship I recently formed with a girl in Australia who finds me really interesting.
>>592322356 You have it better than me. 18, live with family (Mom, Dad, Brother, Sister, and me). Dad can't keep a job, and he seems to be out of work more than he is in work (maybe, MAYBE, 6 months out of a year with a job). We hardly have the money to make it through. Mom can't work, she is always busy around the house, with a bit of babysitting on the side (which pays almost nothing). Sister is 7 years old. Brother is 25, lives at home, and it too fucked up mentally to do anything. And I'm completely fucked. I have something wrong with me medically. I couldn't finish High School and had to drop out because of it. I also have no energy because of it, so I can't work, I can hardly take a shower without feeling like I'm going to pass out. I have been denied disability so I have literally no way of making money. I have really bad Depression and Anxiety. Thoughts of suicide always are in mind, but then I think about how rough that would be on my family, both emotionally and financially, and talk myself out of it. These problems have been going on years. I'm always worried about loing our house.
>>592323801 Oh fuck that not learning how to drive thing, that's such a small factor in life. Yeah it has its uses, but you've got a lot of other shit to concern yourself with. That's such a small part, don't even worry about that, anon. Not dismissing your feelings, but focus on other things.
>>592314915 I had a similar experience, minus her having a better life than me. Eventually I ended up sleeping with her a few times because she was feeling adventurous. She wanted to keep doing it but ended up calling it off because friends with benefits just doesn't work. Eventually she got a girlfriend and we stopped hanging out as much - now we love completely separate lives as of we never knew each other. Life can be weird like that.
>>592312716 Gf just dumped me last week, because she "had a change of heart" and "need time to figure things out". This was after she ignored me for 3 days until I finally went to where she works to find out what was up.
I don't think she cheated on me, but she definitely found someone else. Fucking bullshit.
>>592324350 >feel like an adult That's a process and I can't say when you finally achieve that. I get anxious and afraid doing simple shit like my taxes. I know that feel. Remember to congratulate yourself for the small accomplishments and forgive yourself for the fuck-ups.
>be me as a little kid >life is pretty good >turn 4, start noticing things >parents relationship seems rocky >they fight, don't really pay attention b/c 4 >turn 5, mother takes me and my brother and leaves one day >find out father was a homosexual child predator >we move to NC and live with aunt >uncle sexually molests me, no trust left in them >mom moves in with this guy, seems really good >she has a kid with him, my sister >relationship becomes worse, guy turns out to be a massive pillhead >running out of money, dad refuses to pay child support >move to arizona to stay with other aunt >she's poor, hates us, kicks us out on the street >mom finds another guy to be with, he supports us >5 months in, he turns out to be majorly abusive >mom starts drinking, he beats her regularly >one day I come home from shitty school (3rd grade) >he's violently raping her >beats me ruthlessly, says he will hurt me >mom gets away from him, we lose everything >keep fleeing around United States >somehow land back in NC, go to high school, be in homeless shelter >ruthlessly abused by packs of niggers at school >maintain pretty good grades until junior year >come home one day >mom is passed out, she had heart attack >call police, ambulance comes >she's beyond saving, suffered from severe emotional problems from abuse >dies in hospital a week later >suffer deep depression >state takes my brother and sister, they ended up in separate foster homes, haven't seen them since >somehow manage to be valedictorian of my class, maintained grades, took AP >have a ticket written to a great college (just graduated) >tfw i'm still lonely as fuck, everybody i've ever loved has betrayed me, died, or been forced away from me >hoping college will change everything
>>592324580 m9, >Was dating qt3.14 >16th birthday waiting round the corner >a week before it she says "anon, i dont think i love you anymore" >"can i try to fix it?" >"I guess" Followed up by her ignoring me straight up for a month while i was on holiday, and then for a further 3 weeks while i was THERE WITH HER >check phone >"1 New Message" >clicketyclick.gif >"Its over"
I dated this girl for 3 years, and she flatout ignored me for a month and a half just to dump me over facebook.
>>592325067 I'm talking about taking it day-by-day, anon. When you feel useless or like you're not living up to your age or being an adult, remember what you did today. Even that stupid small shit, even taking out the trash or something, that's all part of being a responsible person. Pat yourself on the back for that. As stupid as it sounds, feel good about what you've done today. And do it tomorrow.
I moved a couple years ago. I had a horrible, toxic, emotionally abusive relationship in the town I moved away from, and the memories I had with that relationship and stayed in the town I moved away from. The relationship ended terribly.
My little sister still goes to school in the town I moved away from, and my friends are still there. Every time I go there for whatever reason, all of those memories and old emotions are stirred up and I usually have a panic attack. I don't mean to sound like a tumblr SJW cunt, but it's the closest thing I have to being "triggered". It hurts, I have no idea how to get away from those thoughts/emotions when I'm in that town. Just about everything there is a constant reminder that we're not together anymore.
I'm super quiet in school and anti social around most people. I have a girlfriend who i open up to a small group of friends but dont really hang out with them. What can i do to just talk to people and not think that everything that comes out my mouth is retarded or i should just be quiet. Help /b/
What am I even doing /b/? I have no real friends. The only people who could even remotely considered my friends are those who stick around for a quick laugh or small talk. I ask people about their life or how they're doing, but they never ask back. For any deep serious conversation they have best friends and lovers. So then, when push comes to shove, I'm just left out in the cold with no one.
Perhaps I should embrace my life of solitude. I have thought about it, but I am still in the pursuit of someone to love. That's really all I want, a brief taste of what love is like and then I will go become a hermit. What is even like to be in someone's arms, to feel the warmth and the intimacy, or whatever one feels? But perhaps it's all just not for me, life goes on anyways.
>>592325677 And I can't help but wonder, do they even give a shit? Do they feel guilty at all for doing this?
It would be one thing if this happened after we had been fighting a lot or something, but nope. I thought everything was going wonderfully. One day she woke up and decided she didn't want to be with me anymore.
>>592325677 Random guy I am 19. I drink 3 handles of vodka a week I have done this for 18 months I lost my gf I dropped out of college She is still there Fucks tons of guys Gives me details I start community college tommorow Still drinking
>>592326001 Jesus christ are you me? I'm literally in the exact same boat anon I just want intimacy with a girl and it's so tough to find it. I have no friends at all and the ones I do have don't really bother with me, or even care to talk with me.
>>592326369 Well I'm happy to start a new college and basically, alcohol is my only problem. I still miss her but I have a good family and good friends. She took me to the brink because I really loved her. So I drink to kill my thoughts
> high school was shit, I was the only non-black kid in my grade > got beat up all the time for being "little white dick" which is what everyone called me > start college > class of mostly white kids > learn how to properly socialize > make lots of friends > manage to get a gf > fast forward to junior year > have my own apartment > working at a comic book store > my place is the designated hangout spot for my close circle of friends > have cute gf > own place > job > making A's > playing violin at churches on Sundays for extra cash > good friends with head of biology department > set to go on a research trip with him over summer > life is good > but then > start hearing voices > convince myself it's residual effects from smoking a lot of weed > gets worse and worse everyday > talk to gf about it > she doesn't believe me > thinks I'm making it up > weeks pass > it's almost a constant barrage now > can't think straight anymore > voices convince me to stop going to class > become a recluse > lock my door and never leave > stay shut in alone for a month > have brief moment of clarity > call parents > get to see a doctor > diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia >gf breaks up with me over argument about it > move back in with parents > drop out of school > get fired > miss research trip > lose contact with all friends >gf convinces even my closest friends to stop talking to me Tbc
>>592326994 > fast forward to now > no longer in school > never graduated > no job > no friends > no gf > living with parents > meds barely work > still hear voices almost constantly > can only sleep with aid of meds > patents don't want the rest of the family to know I'm schizophrenic > they've made up a story how I partied too much and flunked out > everyone but parents thinks I'm a freeloading dropout > mfw I went from well adjusted, self sufficient, successfully social future marine biologist to 100 percent schizophrenic loser over the course of seven months
>>592326510 yeah. dude, im gonna greentext my experience with this.
>be me 16 >just had horrible breakup with gf see here for details>>592325241 >has new friends >one of them is called...well lets call her E >so E was pretty, smart, funny, weird, and pretty much just fucking adorable >she had never been on a date or had bf >fuck it >develops the hardest crush >mad chats with this chick >like everyday nonstop hours on end chats >"so uh hey, what are you doing new years?" -Me >"nothing why?" -her >"i was just wondering if you wanted to hang out, i dunno get some dinner or something?" >"oh...im sorry anon, im actually bi, and i dont really feel for you that way" >ceases to function for a solid year
We were together for about a year and a half, and yet I was deadset on proposing to her and in another couple years. She was someone who I really thought I could have lived the rest of my life with. Apparently she doesn't feel the same way. When we first started dating, she was the one who was far more devoted to me, rather than the other way around. We met eachother on a gliding scholarship through the air cadets, and things sort of took off from there. We made for a great pair - Our friendship was lively as fuck and it eventually tailed into a full blown relationship. Somewhere along the line, though... Things changed. She gradually lost interest sexually. I found out that she was suffering from a major depressive disorder that she struggled to find treatment for. I accepted her for who she was, and worked with her to improve. Last night she came to my room, in tears, and said that she thought our relationship had run its course. It completely blindsided me; I had thought that our relationship was still quite strong. She couldn't even put into words what she thought was wrong; after a lengthy discussion, all I could get out of her was that she started to randomly have feelings of sexual attraction for other people.
All in all, it's completely left me at a loss. I'm unwilling to move on; at present, she's simply 'on a break', but I'll be the first to admit that the odds of that actually working out are slim to none. Her leaving has fucked me up pretty hard. All I've had to eat in the past day and half is a small can of beans -- and even then, I had to force it down. Any relationship gurus here that can help me out?
>>592327196 I feel sorry for you, anon. Schizophrenia runs in my family (grandmother and aunt have it) and it destroyed my grandma's life. All I can say is try to find a med that works and get back on your feet. Wish you the best, man!
>>592327622 Bro once you realize they are whores you grow up. Literally I'm the only guy she has destroyed. But I drink a fuckload to keep her out of my thoughts. Women have a propensity to destroy men emotionally, so just remember your not alone. /B/ has got your back 24/7
>>592327671 I was diagnosed at age 20, I'm 24 now. I've tried taking classes at a local community college, but I just don't function well enough to cut it anymore. Maybe in the future if I can get meds that work and don't turn me into a lump...
>She went on a holiday to England >All was find until New Years when suddenly the x's and heart's stopped. >I could feel her slipping away and so tried everything to maintain what we had. >3 weeks of me messaging her every day about random shit going on in the world. 3 weeks of "i'm too tired, goonight", "Feeling sick, sorry". >Today I asked if I was a priority to her >Responds with how her education will always be her top priority. (No doubt her asian parents have been messing with her head again) >Says she still loves me and still wants a relationship after school is over. >Me 17, just left high-school
/b/, do I pretend i'm in a relationship with myself for the rest of the year? Do I message her pretending that she cares just so I dont find myself replacing her? Me and her were inseparable for most of high-school. It feels like the girl I dated left 3 weeks ago without a goodbye. I miss you so much.
>>592328207 People in feels threads are the best, they actually fucking understand. i feel like there needs to be this country where the other countries deport all the depressed people, we all go there, support each other and just be generally nice people.
There is ofcourse the offchance that we would use our hive mind to create some kind of mega nuke and bomb everyone that hurt us, but you know, thats just america so whatever
>>592312716 Well fuck it, since it's been on my mind since it happened I may as well vent to you guys, not like there's much to do anyway.
I just got out of what was turning into a toxic relationship with my ex. There was this girl who would always talk to me, make me smile, always super happy to be around me. And she was a real qt, redhead, blue eyes, wicked sweet. Only problem is her last relationship was abusive so she didn't want to rush into anything.
Fast forward a little while and we start growing closer; hanging out almost every day,making out, feeling up, getting pretty serious. But whenever I asked where this was going or mentioned anything about more than friends she always shut down and it became super fucking frustrating.
A while after another mutual friend and I shared what I thought was a genuine moment of cuddling and heart to heart (call me a faggot, I don't care) and she was on my mind for a while. So I thought "Well, since one isn't going anywhere why not check into this other one?"
Come Christmas time, being a genuine guy I decide to buy some presents for the holidays, a few small things for each, as friends but hoping for more. I went to spend time with girl #2 and after a while I went in for a kiss. mistake1.jpeg. Asked me why I would try and kiss her if I was interested in girl 1. Tried explaining how it felt like it wasn't going anywhere and it ended on a stale note. End up leaving.
Mildly depressed I head to see girl 1 who is noticeably worked up over a project she was working on. Tried to talk to her but instantly made things worse as she was trying to work on her project and get me to tell her what was wrong (chicken shit me couldn't muster up the truth) so she stayed in the zone and stressed. End up leaving.
>>592328295 It sounds like all your friends were assholes if they would just ditch you like that. You're still young, people turn their lives around much later on. There'll be way better people in your future
>>592328431 >being this fucking salty jesus christ dude, you're a whiny little shit aren't you? no wonder girls don't want to sleep with you. i bet you think they owe you sex, don't you? i never once said i was better than anyone up until now, i know for a fact i'm better than you 'cause i don't have this sour fuckin' attitude.
>>592327657 If it boiled down to her leaving you over sex, she didn't really love you. I wouldn't want to be in a sexless relationship, but if you really love someone to the point of spending your entire life with them it's not the highest priority.
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