Blacked out drunk, I kissed another girl that wasn't my gf at a party. Didn't remember any of it, had to be told about it the next morning. I have always been a moralfag and valued loyalty above all. I feel such guilt that it's physically wrecking my body, giving me rashes, migraines, horrid nausea and diarrhea. I have no appetite and I seriously hate myself. I'm obviously going to tell her, but I need to do it in person and won't see her till next week.
What do /b/, this guilt is absolutely maddening.
>Didn't remember any of it, had to be told about it the next morning
Do you remember it now? Are you sure that it actually happened?
>I need to do it in person and won't see her till next week.
Why can't you see her sooner?
Now I remember it very little. She had left the party a while ago, and I kissed this other girl, and I remember some sort of resentment towards current gf, my drunk thoughts using it as justification for my wrongdoing. She's just very independent, while I'm a relationship person, and it's just that slight disparity in personalities that has troubled me a bit. She's leaving for a school related trip, tomorrow. Couldn't see me today, couldn't see me yesterday.
Well I respect her and it's the right thing to do. She wouldn't know otherwise but I cannot bear this shit anymore
I have, I love getting so fucking wasted. Never been this drunk, to the point I forgot parts of the night. I was blackout drunk as fuck
Claims to be a moral fag, lurks in /b lolz was had. Nothing to see here, move along.
South USA, she's going North East for a couple of days.
Yes, she has gone through much, and takes time to accustom to a different relationship. Difference is, all her previous bfs have been horrid scum, and I've gathered that info from sources that barely relate to her, and she's shown me proof as well
Don't participate in nefarious shit, stick mostly to x or g. I should've posted this in adv, but there is wider and more response here, usually from a broader variety of mindsets.
No rape, and yes. I came looking for advice on how to relieve the guilt. Many here know how to deal with morally sound feelings to the point of repressing them, I just want some respite from my own morality
>lel just finished a clockwork orange, the irony is delicious
You can find a way to see her prior to her trip. 90% sure you don't want to tell her ahead of time because you don't want her to find someone else to console her while she's away. Waiting will generally make it worse.
I have no transportation myself, and she's leaving early in the morning. Currently have little funds, and she had been busy all this time. It's either waiting or calling her, texting wont do, but I am not keen on calling. And also, telling her right before a trip would ruin it, she's been waiting for this a long time ago
Honestly bro don't tell her, she doesn't need to know, and you didn't mean to do it. Bury that shit deep in the back of your mind until it turns into a nice tumour in 40 years time and kills you, like the rest of us.
Told her best friend already in a panic, she'll keep it quiet for now. I knew it was the stupidest thing to do but she knows her best, and her advice is what I needed at the time. She approves of me telling her and if I don't, she will
I think she does care, and I know it wasn't that bad of a fuck up, but I demand complete honesty from her, and she expects the same. I will hold my own end up of the relationship, otherwise shit wouldn't work.
Out should probably talk to a therapist about your fucked up guilt issue in the mean time. That's pretty unhealthy OP, in fact this smells a little like bait wearing a fedora.
Most people would not feel bad about this at all
No, not fedora wearing fag, I despise that shit. I was just raised in a very different culture, and any form of cheating is very despicable in my eyes. My moral compass is too fucking strong, and I hate that shit