>on /b/ instead of hanging with friends
>depression, alcoholism, woman troubles and long work week
>texted my mom and called her a "cunt who should have never shot me out of her cum shoot"
>Felt bad immediately
>Just not a good day.
>Only things in life I have are my whiskey, my dog, and /b/.
This isn't a baww thread, it's basically getting shit off my chest, ITT.
If you can make me laugh, dump cool art, or (especially) get some dirty/offensive jokes in here would be appreciated though, it would be welcome.
Even get some shit off of YOUR chest.
I'll be here all fucking night...
Check dat 14 get.
Forgot to put this in.
What I'm listening to right now.
Shameless self bamp.
>None of you faggots are gonna cheer me up?
Why are you nigs on /b/ on a Saturday night?
I guess this is what I get for reaching out to...
>At least I tried.
Lonely /b/ro reporting in.
What brings you in this thread?
Turned 31 today.
I want kids someday, I want to have a woman at my side that ISN'T thirsting for money, and I just want to be happy.
I've been happy before, and I know that I can be happy again, but Jesus Fuck, is it hard.
Stop being such a faggot and actually try to do something about it, op. I love you man but we cant just sit here being depressed all day without trying to change.
That sounds rather negative.
Hey Op you know what, I can relate to you, even though these times are past me. I'm gonna stick around for a while.
Fucking hard, right???
>On one hand,
>Booze never leaves you, yells at you, or makes you feel bad because you were late on this month's bills
>It can and will kill you...
I know what you're saying man, and I love you too. It's just hard when you're scared of... well... life I guess.
Thanks /b/rother. All you guys/gals. Shit. Sometimes /b/ is the most loyal team on the fucking planet.
>Sweet pic, btw.
Happiness never comes around when you are holding on to it like this.
It is like breathing, you know.
If you let it go it will return to you. However, if you try to hold it you will lose it.
If you want to be happy, then do what makes you happy. But you will have to do it, not just imitate it with half a heart.
If you would put the same amount of effort into doing what makes you happy than you put into drinking you would escape from this naturaly without any extra effort.
You just gotta know when and whom to call.
Know what? I wanna recommend a song to you.
It may or may not be to your liking, but I want you to listen to it.
This song means a whole lot to me and not many people know of it.
This song has powers.
I know I'll make a really good dad someday.
A lot of harsh shit has come my way through the years (mostly why I'm an alkie).
But whenever someone asks me what my take on the meaning of life is, and I never change my mind:
>To learn to love
>To teach to love
Yeah, I understand your standpoint. However, in your words,
That's the thing people like us NEED well grounded people. Not for the sake of neediness, or making you or us feel better about ourselves, but it's just the motion of the ocean.
>Don't be so easy to give up on someone.
"And where ever he went, Love followed like his own shadow"
Just cued it up.
>Not Bloodbath, but so far so good.
I pride myself on being open minded.
That's big of you, man.
>Made me smile.
I have been big into Metal too. That was me being just like you are now.
I have said I can relate greatly to you. It must not stay like this. A man can only wish to lead a better life tomorrow, and then he can begin to work for it today. But first, tomorrow must die, for it is no good in your eyes.
I really like that.
>inb4 this thread gets flooded by bananas
But seriously, I really like that.
Whom is it by?
Man, I am grooving on this song so hard right now. Thank you.
It's by myself. I write alot. Books and other Texts, Music, Stories and Dances.
I want to thank you because we both made it. You are a good man, I can tell.
A true warrior of love. And I appreciate it when I meet one.
Did you make that up just now?
That is a real insightful message you just put on the table.
And I am not taking this wisdom with a grain of salt either. Know that you helped a fellow human being today.
>AWESOME fucking pic.
>Fucking saved man.
I dunno, I found this webm a while back and liked it.
>Watching it now, and reading you kind Anon's words...
>I Know I can do and be better.
I mean however much I know that Op is a good guy, I approve, that you, dear OP, are in the position to change your life forever now.
If you can, with a clean heart, apologize to her you will know what I mean.
But there is no need to trample him for this. We all make mistakes. We can only learn from them to become better.
I told you the song has powers beyond measure. It is from a Man who understands quite well the Man who listens to it.
You feel the love. How this beautiful Ney Flute tells a beautiful story of Love and Life to the listener.
I am here to help.
Here to give what I needed so dearly in those times that you encounter now.
Someone who takes his time for me.
But lets not drag this out here. Maybe you wanna talk a little bit about yourself?
Tell me are You aware what graphic this is?
Man, you are wise.
>A true warrior of love.
>You are a good man, I can tell.
I really needed to hear that.
From the bottom of my heart,
I love you, Anon.
I love reading and writing as well.
I'm not sure or care if it's Pleb-tier to anyone, but my favorite author of all time is Hunter Stockton Thompson.
But your dubs say otherwise...
>I apologized immediately to her and she immediately forgave me because she KNOWS I'm going through a really hard time with, believe it, REALLY hard times in the past. She knows I didn't mean it. That's why she's the best mother evar.
It is a calender. Scandinavian touch.
Hunter S. Thompson. A remarkable Man.
Very strong soul this one. Honesty with charme.
One can't just take life serious and get away with it without a bruise, likewise, if one takes it too loose one will become washed away.
Hunter S. always found the golden mid in his writings.
Please enjoy some more good music with me.
Yeah it is but I should claryfie that I am really asking for symbolism that was used in it.
and I am asking (that is my mistake also) for Your picture.
My is not scandinavian, mine is slavic
I mean it when I say,
I/we/us people, no matter what race, creed, or color, need to uplift each other.
Everyday in the news you always hear about atrocious bullshit, be it accidental or intentional, and the only thing I can really think of day to day is
>Life is hard enough.
>Why do we put ourselves, brothers sisters and sons and daughters down?
>Life is fucking hard enough, god damnit.
Here's a song that reminded me of that masterpiece.
>Opeth is metal on so many levels.
>and most of all
>FUCKING METAL AS ALL MOTHERFUCK!!!
I'm sure you know what I'm saying.
Go with this:
Give it a fair chance and You will understand WHY we are in such shitty condition.
Yes slavic, I always keep them close together for some reason. This I have realized.
Specificaly what I can tell you, is that it is an eternal wheel of reoccuring events, celebrations done across the year.
"It is for him to know who has set to remember, I do not remember what I have never started, therefor I may know one day or may never know."
We can talk more about this one or symbolism in general if you wish to. But I must be honest by saying that at this very moment I would not know how to answer you in any other way.
Yeah, sorry man. Taking forever to type.
>Got that demon on my shoulder.
>Whiskey, the white man's burden
I had to drink to even bring up the courage to even start a thread on /b/ for Christ sakes.
Sounds like a plan man.
Here are the doggie commandments for great justice!
Also, Doctor Thompson has that same essence about life that I try to hold and follow.
Dirty, salty, do what you think is right, and most of all,
"Call upon God, but row away from the rocks."
I even have the Blackwater Album here in my home. Great one I must say. I really like remembering the time I have had with it.
And see, I knew you were one of those who just can't give up on love and life.
Even though it may drag you under here and there, you just have to get it, it is inside you.
T' is the love of your life. Hard to get but well earned by heroic efforts of the divine kind.
You keep them close because in fack slavs and nords are from the same root. It is not accident that there are Aryan-Slavic Vedas out there.
However currently our blood is so much mixed up that in reality this doesnt matter. But we all can learn a lot from our Ancestrors.
I learned that alle ancient civilizations - and BTW we as humans are much, much older that "official version" is stating - called their time in different ways but is was in fact the same model, based in knowledge and understanding, strong morality and following Spirit.
Right now we are dummed down and we are slaves to lets say Dark Ones. All is part of learning process, but right now we have a little time before "slap from the Father" will come.
Im sorry for any spell errors. English is not mine native language.
I'm always up for research on why I'm such a fuckup sometimes.
This is fucking awesome.
I did, and you know what? He prefers eating kibbles and bits off of my dick anyway.
kek, just Joshin' ya. I love you anyway, you fucking prick,
That is funny as fuck. I'm surprised I've never seen it before, but glad I have. Kudos.
Blackwater Park is a REAL goodun'.
You seem like the type of person that I could really get along with in real life.
Keep doing what you're doing man, you're doing God's work.
I can sense there a little bit of German.
Wir sind Brüder, dies rieche ich von hier aus.
The little slap has occured, the great slap will follow.
But we will rise up from this. People like you and I will always rise from any depths.
Heil og sæl
Not German, a little bit to east. You, Germans "favourited" land, reporting in.
But that doesnt matter. The great slap is coming but I really dont want to come back to this place. More research I do more I am convinced that this world is actuall hell. It is for me from several years.
Sometimes I envy the ignorant, dummed down people. But I know that because of this ignorance and lack of care we are in this shit we call "reality".
We are so far from The Spirit that It is hard to imagine that there is a hope.
Maybe one day we will meet.
I am on my way there. Silently you already know what I mean. Maybe you want to read a book that has just now fallen into my lap once again in our time.
"In search of the Miraculous"
God told me to to take a particularly good look at you and now I find myself closer than ever. What a charming fellow.
"To lose ones boredom is to lose ones sense of emptiness.
Not that gnawing emptiness that depression delivers. Productive emtpiness.
Boredom, every once in a while and even just for a short moment, can lead to the most fantastic endeavours.
But boredom has been lost. Locked out from a society that seeks for valuable pleasure in every moment.
And thus is happened, that genuine virtue became a rarity among Man."
There are two kinds of people in the world.
People who realize life is fairly shitty and hard and you have to build things if you want a half decent existence. Build your body/charm to get a good girl, build a solid relationship with her, be nice to other people because it will come back to you (thats not a bullshit saying, if you call your mother a cunt, shes gonna feel shit in turn and give it back to you). And work towards something, whether its having a stable job and a family or traveling the world.
And then there are people who just exist and whinge and moan that their surroundings are shit when they treat people like shit around them and make no effort. Life is what you make it to be, only limitations you're placing on it are your own.
Also don't drink alcohol...ever. It honestly doesn't do a single positive thing for you life. Worst drug to ever become such a big part of our culture. You can function better mentally and physically being a stoner than an alcoholic.
Again, that pic is awesome.
>The little slap has occured, the great slap will follow.
But we will rise up from this. People like you and I will always rise from any depths.
You really need to be an established author. Seriously, man.
I get what you're saying, but I've always hated the whole "Sins of the Father" mentality.
I get that things are hereditary, but I think that the spark of being able to do things your own way is a great motivator, for the lack of a better term.
Thank you, Anon. I really do appreciate it.
It is the wholy Planet Purgatory.
And I will forget not but a single moment of its utter beauty.
All the ups and its downs.
Yes indeed we are far from home. But then again a man can go even a notch further before falling from the edges of our earth. I have traveled all about it.
Marvelous places and beings to be found.
We are far from home, but those who have made good use of their time will not return with empty hands.
See, even a Map that I can present to you.
It's mostly for looking, but people from all places and ages always want to fondle with it in a funny way.
>You really need to be an established author. Seriously, man.
I haven't been for a long time. But I want to get around being one again. Just for old times sake.
As of now, I am completely unknown. And I am loving every moment of it.
I always been nice. Then I started to learn more about "life" and become even nicer, more honest with myself and others, thinking positive, been nice and trying to help other people. SHITSTORM TORNADO came ino my life and wiped out EVERYTHING.
So I have my moments of doubts. Forgive me I sometimes become dark minded. I sometimes feel like John Coffe from Green Mile.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NcTxf8zoErc exacly like this
>Only things In life I have is my whiskey my dog and /b/
Well fuck nigger that is still more than 90% of people. Stop being such a faggot.
But as long as we here to talking about shit
>get internship at super company
>still feel shit cuz the pay is meh
OP I do not even know of another name by which I can identify you. OP is not the name to your liking I can imagine.
I know of a trick that a great Woman showed me one time.
We should try it.
It is a little game, but if you play it sincerely you can find something that I have prepared for you.
You may not understand right away now, but later, if you can manage not to forget about our game you can realize the trick for yourself.
That does not seem like something that would be impossible. Birds of a feather, for the lack of a better term, anyway.
That quote really resonated in my soul. My soul that I've been trying to numb for all this time because I'm afraid to feel again. I need to be braver, more caring, and most of all, MYSELF.
Here's a little chestnut for you that usually calms my fevered soul in a pinch,
I think like that too sometimes, man.
But you know what? Life is really too hard and beautiful to just give up on it. I know I made this thread to hope some Anon would cheer me up. And you know what?
There is good, and evil.
There is always going to be good and evil.
There never will be anything that is not good, nor evil.
How we all deal with it is what makes up our outlooks, etc...
I am grateful to all of you motherfuckers out there in internet land.
>And I mean that.
Op, look into aa. You sound like an alcoholic. If you want to stay in contact I can give you contact information. But I was in your exact spot. My dad left at nine. I got into alcohol. Got sober at 17ish. About to get a year sober. And I'm not depressed anymore.
It is not about sins. It is about learning. What we can and should learn from our past, not just recent but whole. But in this Age of Disinformation it is like running throught forrest, during night with blinded eyes.
Yeah, I know our Mother loves us despite what we are doing Her almost all the time. And I know that She cares a lot, but there is limit to this, there is limit to allowing us doing what we do. And we, as species, dont care... Too many of us simply dont care...
And I am tired of this. Dog tired.
>As of now, I am completely unknown. And I am loving every moment of it.
That is awesome, man. If that's you, than do you.
KNOWING what you want, want to be, and waiting to happen is a blessing that some people never experience. I know what I want too.
I want to be a firefighter and save AT LEAST one person's life before I die. That is me, and I am unapologetic about it.
I get what you're saying.
>EVERYONE'S GOT PROBLEMS!
>YOU'RE NOT A SPECIAL SNOWFLAKE!
I fucking know man.
We ARE all special, none better than the other, but special nonetheless.
And also, I fucking LOVE my doggie, so fuck you.
Yeah You know... I always knew, deep inside myself, that there are such things as "good" and "evil". Not always agreed with others definitions of it, but I always knew when I done something evil and when I didnt. I always tried to live in matter that I could sleep well and calm, without any burden from my guts.
Later I understood what good and evil are and I see our human world, system that bound us is evil to the core. Just that. And because I dont want to be the another person who steps on other people and their dreams, I am the one who is stepped on.
The most time I am positive, but in this moments, like this, it is very, very hard, You know? But fuck it, I will never agree to do evil, and I will never allow to evil be forced unto me or peoples around me.
Because I really know some things that matter more than everything.
Im not saint and Im not perfect. This world is not about perfection.
Good God you are a brother of mine.
But you see, mother is already about to understand.
Show your understanding, and all wrongs will turn into learned lessons, all sins forgiven.
Too much so that I would not be allowed by anyone to even begin to explain.
Besides that, whatever I may tell you would fill you up to your neck with words only to make a knot into it afterwards.
I can hint you a little closer towards your very own understanding of it if you feel like it.
Up until now, I have been known to strike chords in a particular manner. Some people can sing hymns about it.
(Oh how I hear them sing at this very moment. Amusingly. More music.)
Important is, that we allow it to take place in our hearts. The gentle will hear.
Those of you human can still feel their human-ness.
It is a question of allowing it.
Exactly, having a dog is awesome you fucking cunt so go show him some love instead of saying "hur hur all I have is this fucking mut". And what is up this the special attitude? Words of advice, rather than saying that we are special but different say that we are different and none of us are quite special since our triumph comes when we work together - alone we are nothing. at least you drink whiskey so that is aight, I just hope it is like +60 prec. wild turkey 101 and not some water quality shit like jack daniels etc.
Are you me?
And Jesus Creeping God I haven't seen that movie in a long time, but that got me DIRECTLY in the feels. I too, can relate.
Both of those guys are not only great actors, but GOD DAMN, they have that spark that hits the feels in the bullseye.
I know I started this thread seeming like a bitch, but Anon's have turned my viewpoint and I couldn't be more thankful.
Having that said, keep your chin up, bucko.
However unfortunate your declination clings with me I can accept this.
But I don't understand the depressed part.
Care to explain? Or do you want to keep the devil inside?
Oh She understands more and fully than us. I will use allegory - we are in class. Someone, teacher, is trying teach us somethings, important things. But we act like badn of douchbags that do everything exept learning. So teacher become more severe and some of us starts to worship him instead of learning. Rest just acting worse. And severity - also known as The Left Hand Pillar or Path (different names from different Traditions) is growing. But in one time we will be slapt, hard as hell. And this slap is coming. After this slap we will beback in classroom and be teached the same things. Over, and over and over. And we will learn.
But some of us, few, You my brother, and others, want to learn. But small group of fuckers on purpouse acting the way that create more distraction for us and lead the stupid rest into that slap.
Ech... I could write books about it, preferably in my own language (I actually did wrote a book about it), eng is not my native.And also there is a lot of source material in english (this is the main reason whhy i learned it).
I understand what you're saying better now.
Sorry for getting all edgy on 'ya.
And yes, I love my dog to pieces. He always greets me the second I get in from work and he always licks my hand before I go to bed. I really lucked out with him.
I just want life to luck out like that.
BUT, even if it doesn't, it did that ONE TIME I found my little old man-dog. That's enough for me.
Also, I would have been playing with him already, except he is really old and he's sleeping the good sleep. Probably dreaming about the newest toys I bought him and the new PuppyChow that I got (I like to surprise him).
And o yeah, I so understan how people are lost in word. Instead on focusing on them they should try at least see what words TRYING to describe. Because it cannot be described properly.
With you, my friend, I want to meet.
One way or another.
I will be the man arranging the dancers, the music and the people in places that resonate so well with our souls.
Coffee is well.
Yes I am You and You are me, because We ALL are ONE. But with different perspective.
Since this is a baww thread I used the depressed part in order to emphasise the point that you didn't explain the picture to me (what the author wanted to say) cuz that shi is pretty dank.
I know what you mean dogs are the bomb. I used to have dogs while I was living with my parents. Apartment seems quite empty without animal around and I ain't gonna buy a cat cuz fuck cats they don't even cuddle the right way. Thinking of getting one of those syberian dogs that are used to hunt down wolfs and stuff.
It would be great, my friend. It would be great.
I really feel that something good is approaching, maby it is just the waiting part so hard to endure? Maby this is the lesson? But... So many things, so many words - they doesnt matter and they all matter.
Im from eastern europe but currently in UK. For some time but dunno how long.
Firstly, that was a great analogy.
I'm GOING to see my mom tomorrow and get her flowers and tell her how much I love her and that I'm sorry I fucked up, but I WILL fuck up again.
Secondly, That is an awesome pic.
Thirdly, sweet dubs get.
Very true, my fellow /b/rother. We are all humans with wants, needs, and desires.
Check out this little ditty that basically sums it up.
>"Take care of me, 'cause I might be YOU!"
>"One big mob! Oh yeah, oh yeah."
>"I am you are me!"
I am totally game, man. I'll bring the food and dice, you bring that beautiful fucking soul of yours.
Hell, I'll even have the beers covered.
One day, my newfound Anonymous friend...
I read that comic. It is kinda interesting. But I wasnt rejected during any part of my growing years. People always came to me for advice, asking questions about feelings, about decisions and many other stuff. And I always could find appriopriate words to help them find the way. One of my friends from high school told me "always, when you told me that i will regret that i always regreted that".
problem is I dont know whom i could ask for such guidance. And currently I am lost.
I need shaman. Good that I have Kambo on the way :)
Nope, not nowadays. The girl that I was with decided that money being spent on bills and booze and not on her was a reason to throw away a (what I thought) a good relationship.
>Oh well, looks like I dodged a bullet I guess.
I am happy for You brother :) I trully am :)
Thanks for the song, man :)
Have one from me: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wvwL7NNct3g
Although I am not from Germany, I feel it will be Germany.
You see, I cannot explain this picture to you like I could explain a Hammer or a Toolbox to you.
I can tell you that this picture is a memory of myself and a journey that I have made some time ago.
To you it could be quite different. Why do you want my explanation when I tell you that you could have your own?
It can be understood intellectualy. But that would defile it in my eyes.
Arrangements are made as we speak.
You know what they say when you go look for the party. Just follow the music. And by now you have heard it once. Keep it with you, you will hear it again if you want to.
Yes You did. I had too many very different relationships. I learned from every each of them something. Not always pleasnt lessons but very good ones. I also learned to trust my intuitions (always, and I mean ALWAYS when there was something wrong there was something wrong, despite the words i heard and was spoken to me). So right now I am waiting for the right one, even if I have to wait a lifetime.
Poisonous relationships are not worth it.
David Lester, a psychology professor at Richard Stockton College in New Jersey, has likely thought about suicide longer, harder, and from more angles than any other human. In more than twenty-five-hundred academic publications, he has explored the relationship between suicide and, among other things, alcohol, anger, antidepressants, astrological signs, biochemistry, blood type, body type, depression, drug abuse, gun control, happiness, holidays, Internet use, IQ, mental illness, migraines, the moon, music, national-anthem lyrics, personality type, sexuality, smoking, spirituality, TV watching, and wide-open spaces.
Has all this study led Lester to some grand unified theory of suicide? Hardly. So far he has one compelling notion. It’s what might be called the “no one left to blame” theory of suicide. While one might expect that suicide is highest among people whose lives are the hardest, research by Lester and others suggests the opposite: suicide is more common among people with a higher quality of life.
“If you’re unhappy and you have something to blame your unhappiness on—if it’s the government, or the economy, or something—then that kind of immunizes you against committing suicide,” he says. “It’s when you have no external cause to blame for your unhappiness that suicide becomes more likely. I’ve used this idea to explain why African-Americans have lower suicide rates, why blind people whose sight is restored often become suicidal, and why adolescent suicide rates often rise as their quality of life gets better.
Happy /b/irthday Anon!
Here is some birthday teens
Interesing that is. A year ago I had one of mine OOBE experiences during which I recived information that I have to go to Dusseldorf.
Coincidence? I dont think so :)
You cannot give you experience or force it. And True Knowledge comes from experience, so everyone have to build their own understanding.
Ah ya my friend I see where we are headed.
If you hold dear to the prescious gift that has been given to you from her we might be able to solve a good puzzle together.
"And let it guide your hand. You know what I mean by it.
It is love. This one kind of love that you know from very young age.
A kind of a naive love. Love that makes you do things that are not always agreeable, but turn out to be lovely in the end.
They call it Qi, Prana, Life energy. It flows through you only then when you are.
A good man honors Mankind by giving up to this Love in order to radiate it like the sun and the light that it gives to us."