What fuels your alcoholism?
I find it hard to be creative and emotionally expressive unless I am drunk.
/general alcoholism thread
Just like me, same reason. Same for my wife. I had been drinking for more than 15 years every days... To sleep
Relocated to a small and calm town in Vietnam and stopped drinking overnight .
First days was rough and now sober for few months.
This, i'm one of those that keeps thinking about everything and can't shut my brain off.
also the fact I really enjoy the feeling of being drunk, something about the dumbed down state and the lack of anxiety to do stupid stuff is fun.
>drunk as fuck
>text girl I met 2 days ago: You + me, let's fuck
>she answers: oh yes!
>proceed to be fuckbuddy's for 3 months
I used to smoke pot for this.. I would sleep so insanely good. But I quit smoking pot, every time I did my eyes would start to itch like there's no tomorrow..
Anyway lately I drink about one glass of rum each day but that's not really alcoholism as far as I'm considered, I really enjoy the taste I don't care for the buzz..
Op the reason this is happening is because you drink every day. You get to a certain point where you do need the drink to achieve this. You are obviously an alcoholic and justifying your drinking with any ridiculous excuse. You will find that if you get sober and stay sober your brain over time rememberhoew long youve been drinking now will go back to normal.
BUt for an alcoholic it is very hard to stop drinking. Especially when in denial like yourself. It is possible but takes a lot of work. You will realize one day that what im saying is true. However you wont my post.
>crippling ptsd from military
>all my exes left me or cheated on me except one
>orphan. my own parents didnt want me.
>found them a few years back. they tried to poison me.
>dont even have a dog
>horribly disfigured on left side. all cuz the military shit.
>fucking 105 morters man
>mothers literally hide their children from me at the store.
>"can it get any worse?" yes you can be me
im a broken toy soldier with noone and nothing to live for anymore. and im not a coward enough to take my own life.
This. Most of the time when I'm done with work I count down the hours. When 7 or 8 rolls around I go out and buy a six pack with a 16oz of whatever else looks good at the time. Generally it's a Blue Moon or Shocktop. I rarely have a drink in the afternoon with a meal. Usually that's only done when I go out and have lunch or dinner with a friend. Lately, though, I've been taking a Benadryl while drinking as I've found I get tired before I want to go and buy more beer, or excessively eat.
My alcoholism is very routine now that I type it down. Anyone else starting to find it effecting your memory or general intelligence?
Lol thats alcoholism.
Thats like me saying yeh i only shoot up heroin a few times a week but im not addicted! I just like heroin.
No non addict alcoholic uses or drinks on a set schedule especially not daily. Can you go a whole year without drinking. Try for a year no drinking. See if you can make it.
I regularly drink at one day of the weekend up to 5 Liter beer and some shots (between 20% and 40% alkohol). Or i drink some beer and then jack daniels with coke and some shots.
From Sunday to Friday i drink 2 up to 6-7 beer.
I make at the beginning of the year a break with 1,5 month up to 2 month without alcohol.
But i am still worried that i am an alcoholic or at the edge.
Yes to the general intelligence, sort of. Used to be quick witted and hyperactive freshman year of college, then gradually I just leveled out and feel 'sluggish'. I just always chalk it up as being hungover, but I feel dumber almost.
>cant sleep with no alcohol
>gf left me 5 hours ago - need to drink to drown pain
>gf left partly because drink to sleep
>now getting pissed
> will get very drunk and an hero probs
Do i have a drinking problem?
Are you sure you don't just have a certain protein allergy? I smoke daily but as soon as I get some bud on my skin(non hand palms) it starts itching, with my eyes it's even worse, even after rolling a doobie I have to wash my hands before I touch my face or my eyes will start itching like a motherfucker.
I have no intention to quit drinking for a year because it does not provide any problems at all. Drinking a glass of rum is not the same as shooting heroin.
I don't drink a glass of rum to forget anything or to help me fall asleep.
When I'm not home and I can't drink a glass I don't even think about it because it's not an addiction.
I lead a good social life with a decent job, study and apprenticeship.
I'm not addicted to alcohol.
The opposite happened to me. My gf left me a few months ago and I stopped drinking due to the heartbreak I felt knowing the reason was me. She was the best thing that could have happened to me, but I took it all for granted.
I have a high-pressure job that demands perfection every day or people die. I work 14 hours a day at said job.
I need alcohol to relax. If i close my eyes without being drunk everything that happened during the day flashes before my eyes and fear of tomorrow keeps me awake.
I'm single. No one to relieve my stress. So i drink until i fall asleep. When i have a day off, i drink until i'm relaxed and then i just sleep. On my vacations i travel to some warm country and then i drink and sleep. On christmas i work. On new years i drink. I haven had sex in five years.
If i didnt have alcohol i would probably kill myself.
I always suspected it is some sort of allergy but I never tested anything. Whenever I ground the weed I had to sneeze many times and when I smoked it my skin would get dry and my eyes were just the worst. It wasn't like that when I started smoking pot but several years later..
Do you still enjoy using it?
Oh, absolutely. She set the bar for a person I look for now. If I were a smarter man when I was younger, I'd be married with children and wouldn't find myself ever setting the bar.
Keeps my mind completely clear and stable. It helps me maintain a depressing figure. That's the only way to maintain a sort of control, and intelligence. It keeps me stable, my depression. Helps me see everything so much more clearly. I just wish I could have that with happiness thrown in..
Yes I love it, it's my substitude for all the chemical crap and booze I used to do and also helps me sleep (indica strains).
Even invested in a volcano vaporizer a while ago, so I can spare my lungs a bit.
I just have to be careful with my skin because of the allergy, although I don't even have it consistently (sometimes I am more sensitive to it)
Its a form of suicide. We want to die.
We're just too cowardly to act on it.
>awkward as fuck
>probably some sort of autism
>start drinking at parties to socialize
>kind of works
>keep at it
>a few months later in starting to turn up drunk at school
>sober up for a year
>started getting drunk all the time
>takes me 6 years to finish a 4 year program
>didn't learn anything because drunk half the time
>get shitty job
>still need alcohol to socialize
>still sabotaging my life
>I'm just waking up right now with a hungover
Being an alcoholic fueled my alcoholism. Having a seizure from ~18 hour not drinking made me realize I may have a problem.
Few months after that I started going to AA.
Sober 9 months. Life is decent, hell of a lot better than it was.
Good luck to all you alcoholics still drinking. There's hope out there when you're ready.
Not an alcohol, but drink socially
>Not good at conversation
>Able to talk freely
Be the change you want to see in the world.
Started drinking heavily when i stopped smoking weed heavily cause I was getting paranoid.
(still smoke once in a while, feels good).
At first it was at parties, over the years I started to get smashed alone at home.
That's when I guessed I had to reduce. (I find the idea of stopping completely completely ridiculous, unless it's a fucking matter of life and death)
I still drink with friends now, bars or parties whatever. I usually drink more than them (that's because they all smoke weed alot) but I'm totally okay not spending days without drinking.
I really find it funny when they call me alcoholic because of one sad period, while i'm perfectly ok not drinking, they all get nervous/angry/party's ruined when they don't get their daily weed.
I drink about a pint of 100 proof vodka every night. Started out as relieving stress from work then my daughters mom left me because I lost my job. I get to pay alimony and child support for a kid I never get to see after she moved a few states over. Now I have to drown all my thoughts at the end of the day so I don't an hero.
I'm a smart guy. Probably smarter than 95% of people. I also have a brain that finds it hard to focus on one thing at a time, so I get a little frustrated unless my current task involves clear steps, otherwise I see too many things at once and get frustrated I can't do them all or follow them all through to their natural conclusions.
Alcohol helps me be dumber, and that makes me happier. I don't let a lot of things bother me when I'm buzzed. I take the time to have some fun and talk to people that I care about (family), but don't really find that interesting anymore.
I'm not saying I'm more productive, because I'm not. But I'm more cog-like, which makes me a better worker in some ways.
I drink because I don't always want to be smarter than 95% of people. It's really really frustrating.
Used to drink and smoke (weed too) heavily for several month, but my body can't handle too much caffeine, alcohol or weed, in fact I barely wash with soap or eat junk food because all of this shit messes with my stomach or my skin.
>But I'm more cog-like, which makes me a better worker in some ways
Well, don't be worker, be a leader. There're many ways to strain your intellectual potential.
If you keep your brain busy, you won't even feel the need to be dumber than anyone.
is it good to get drunk at parties? I dont usually drink, like never, but im a bit shy so last week i tried and took 10 shoots of jager, and all went good i wasnt even drunk (ate a pizza B4) and had a rly good time. Is it going to become an addiction?