so close to killing myself, but lack motivaiton.
I have a full time IT job that pays $24\hr and I'm half way through my IT degree @ age 19.
I'm from Aus, my life is quite good, but I cannot be fucked anymore.
Some would say I'm successful, but I can't deal with the pressure.
How can I end it all? And best method?
don't like them, and I already smoke pot.
I have work\uni 54 hours a week and my parents still hate me. I used to have so many friends but ever since working so much I've ignored them, but now regret it.
Hey anons, I'm in a very dark place right now. I fucked up things with the love of my life, just because I though I wasn't good enough for her, I said some pretty bad things to her and I think she hates me now. She is with another guy now, who manipulates her in the worst kind possible. I want her back so bad, every time I have sex with a woman I feel empty, I feel empty all the time. I can't stop thinking about her, and it hurts like hell. I feel like I'm in a pit, I've been diagnosed with depression a year ago, when I met her I felt like all the bad shit that happens in my head didn't matter, now I'm completely lost. I stop taking my medications and I'm strongly considering taking the easy way out.
You dont even have to like em
get some damn connections going and talk to somebody who youre cool with thats all it takes to get yourself pulled up out of a slump sometimes no joke
Hey man i in a almost identical situation, from Adelaide I do a job everyday i hate the thought of "i can't be bothered anymore" goes through my head a lot and i want to kick the bucket, but there's two things that stop me 1 is my family and fiends can you imagine how much that would fuck them up and 2 whatever shittyness you're going through right now is only temporary man one day you will be free to do whatever you want you have so much life left don't throw it away for nothing.
glad you know how it feels, every hour I'm not at home I hate, then when I get home I'm so burnt out that my temper is unleashed on my family and I always emotionally abuse them...
I can't control my temper, but if I end my life it'll be controlled.
I think people will get over it quite quickly, as lately I've kept too myself.
Don't an hero you fucking faggot. You have a degree, that puts you quite a few steps ahead of many US born fuckwits like me, and apparently you have a job too. Maybe it seems dead-end or shitty and you feel like shit isn't working out for you at this particular juncture. But you are prime in the middle of one of those situations where, I'm fairly certain that it holds true... Keep plugging away and good things will happen. Don't be an hero, and especially not for the fucking retards that inhabit this hellhole.
Damn dude you are basically doing what I want to do with my life, and I'm 25 now. I'm not happy with where I'm at in life right now because I'm a loser.
I'm trying to be Gordon Freeman, but shit just isn't working out yet.
I thought about an hero the other day. Don't do it man it's not worth it.
That actually felt quite good to read.
Thanks for that.
But I've seriously made the decision and feel like a fucking faggot, but I wake up every day and the first thing I feel is stress.
I can't even go out with people on fridays, or saturdays, or even do anything sundays.
not to mention, both of my parents are sick and it seems they'll have <three years left to live.
I'm kinda over it. Pay checks are good, but all I do is save the money. I don't even fucking spend it.
I also have 3 siblings older than me, and they all managed uni\work, so why can't I? Am I weak?
I don't know what I am, but I'm a failure.
And that's totally normal BTW.. life is nothing but fucking pressure.. from our friends/peers/associates .. whatever we wish to call them.
The world wishes to get what it can from each and every one of us, Believe me .. you faggot, I've thought about an heroing more times than I can count on both hands and toes, but it gets better.. it fucking has to if we just keep at it. We only get one run at this bullshit anyways, we may was well make it counts. I'm >>604337606
.. just for clarity
Anon is right, you are set for SOME fucking success so now you just have to play the waiting game while you ride out some school and work. I work 2 fucking shitty kitchen jobs and am driving to some low end midwestern college just to try and eventually teach. All I think about is putting up with it until I see some kind of end to this tunnel, good or bad. You might feel like you made a decision but your still stalling because you haven't so just keep waking up and feeling like shit and stress until you get there. Shit try and maybe get a girl along for the ride to keep your mind off it, no harm done in asking some one here and there out to a lunch or dinner.
Wow man are you me? this is uncanny, I think if it's really gotten to this point you should maybe reevaluate what's going on in your life this might be your best option because the further you go down a path you don't like the harder it is to get out of that rut and hop to something else, im not sure if you're into philosophy at all but something that helped me through really rough patches was something that Bruce Lee talks about which is how most people when they want to make their life "better" they try and add things to their life to improve like getting a better job or education or a gf but in reality the best way to improve your life is to remove the negative things from it first get yourself to a level you're happy with and work up from there
Sounds like you are just bored with life now that you got all the hot dogs. I'm dealing with the death of a parent too man. I was 19 when I lost my dad.
Things are just going to get rough, and you probably feel like there is nothing left to experience, but there is.
You got all of that money so financially support a family. Go find yourself a waifu.
Imagine your biggest obstacles, as a giant fucking block of wood.. yes, a giant block of wood, seems stupid, I know. As a solid ass giant block of wood, that shit is impregnable, but if you just chip away at it, little by little.. eventually its fucking dust.
I agree though, I mean, 15 months ago I was begging to be where I was 3 months ago, and 3 months ago I was begging to be where I am now.
I've alreday gotten used to the money, used to the lifestyle.
I AM SICK OF MY TEMPER.
and anger management is 1) too expensive and 2) when would I even have time to take it?
My 3 sisters are all older than me, and doing their own thing.
The problem is you are just like me. You are the baby so you are weak.
You need to find something in your life that makes you complete, and don't try to bite the bullet while you make an attempt to get what you feel you deserve out of life.
Tomorrow brings a new day. There is always something new to experience. Tragic or not you are part of this universe experiencing it all with us.
Find somebody who can tame the beast inside, or just seek professional help. The people who hang out here are not professional help.
Jump through a moving CPU fan. But seriously, don't do it. Life gets better in IT. Yeah it's thankless, and you don't get the girls, but there are far worse lives to live. I should know I'm the fucking adobe reader IT guy awake at 3:50 in the morning because my life fucking sucks and I have to be up in 2 hours so I can get yelled at while I play games--but I'm not giving up man because as bad as it gets, and as much as life sucks, I honestly believe it's all about perspective and making the best out of a situation. So look at why you're so sad, and use that as a way to make your life better. Hope that helps. Don't an hero or some shit, you're too good for that brother.
I'm actually fucking amazed at you fuckers and your responses.
Seriously, I'll continue trying to find a way.
Will post an update tomorrow at 8:45-9:15, will use this picture again.
I'll remember you anons when I'm feelin down.
Then change your life dude. No one says you have to keep doing the things that are making you miserable. Success doesn't = happiness. Work on a fucking fish boat or something if it gets you out of this funk.
Do it faggot. I - and I'm sure 95% of people reading this see through this bait. I'm responding because of beer anyway.
Do it. Prove to the world you're a big ol' bitch.
Don't fucking end yourself. It seems like a good thing when you're down, sure, but don't. You get one life. There's NOTHING afterwards. Absolutely nothing. Something good WILL come along. Keep sticking with the grind at the moment, improve yourself, start lifting and life WILL GET BETTER.
Do any of you /b/ros have the irish bro suicide, im drunk and cant find it on google. Also this is now a bawww thread.
Hi op i know what you are going through, most great people at your age tried or wanted to commit suicide, myself included, you know, after so many years (and a couple of failed attempts) now i love life more than ever, not only that, every day is better, and sometimes my future looks extremely fucked up but you know what? I'm happy by myself, living alone, doing only what i want when i want it, i dont need friends or anything i'm just extremely happy, and sometime, when i have time and money, in the future, i will make new friends and get a girl.
also, If you really want to suicide, do it, but before, take a look at some videos in youtube of people with extreme deformities, always makes me feel extremely lucky.
was in a similar situation. figured, since i'm going to kill myself anyway, might as well get into drugs.
best decision i could have ever made
let me save you some time and steer you into the direction of stimulants
say goodbye to feeling crappy and hello to euphoria, confidence, and a huge cock
my favorite chemical is totally legal everywhere, and cheap as fuck
I always say, I wish someone else had my opportunity, or even body parts, organs, etc.
because I know how unlucky some people are out there.
what makes your life better now than before?
I'm 20, making $8.50 an hour, didn't graduate high-school, have a huge dependency on drugs/alcohol and have 0 friends who I can relate to; they're all whiny drunk idiots and I'm probably just a druggy misanthrope.
But killing myself would be giving up, and giving up those shitty people I can still say I love. If there's one thing I learned is if life wants to take me out I'll go down fucking fighting. You have a hell of a future ahead of you, please for fuck's sake don't waste it, you probably have a better chance at changing the world than I but I still value and love every day to the best of my ability.
I'm just a dirty goddamn leecher that won't quit, that's why I love myself. That's a huge part of it too, love yourself no matter what, because if you don't then who will? You probably won't get what I'm saying until the string of insane ego-deaths and recovery programs but hey, we all gotta go through it someday.
Long story short if you are really serious about killing yourself, do it right the first time. I'd hate for you to try and pick up the pieces of a botched attempt.
everything, the only thing a lil worse is that as i'm older now i have to work and study all the fucking day so i dont have time for friends or girls, but life is fucking amazing really, i love it, wish i were rich so i could do all the shit i want, you know most of my unhappiness came from not feeling good enough for other people, and now after years i dont give a single fuck anymore, its hard and might take a lot of time but once you don't give a fucking anymore and start living for yourself it feels better and better.
Also, the more you know who you want to be the less it bothers you what other people think about you, because there will always be someone that doesn't like you, now matter who or what you are.
Dude all of us wage slaves feel exactly the same, very few people like their jobs.
They key is to have something to look forward to or a goal you want to achieve.
Best thing about IT is once you get a few years experience you can usually upgrade to a cushy job and spend your days fucking around on the internet
If you are seriously considering offing yourself I'd recommend a trip to Thailand first. It will definitely change your mind
dat some nic epay at 19 bro
neet at 21 here uk,
find yourself a hobbby you enjoy, start exercising once a day, take up playing the guitar, (you cans ink hour into this)
(easily spend a whole day learning and practasing also if smoking weed time flies, and fingers dont hurt at much in beginning)
also buy a vape, i have dabuddha
there is some things to take your mind off of the zshitness of life,
i can confirm that playing the guitar helps with this kind of thing op,
a year ago i wanted to kill myself took up guitar as a hobby,
made new friends
people think i am epic playing guitar haha
literally exetrsize and guitar improved my life 1000%
it's a white powder that feels way better than coke, lasts longer, quite cheap, legal, mild comedown, and best of all...it changes who you actually are as a person
fun fact: it's not an amphetamine, so it's not racy or rushy, that's good
and if it turns out that this was a bad idea at some point in the future..........
2) helium tank
This technique helped me and I hope it helps you:
If I wake up in the morning and I feel stressed I rate the stress level lowest to highest from 1 to 10. Let's say I wake up one morning and I'm a 9. I'll do something that I know helps relieve stress, like enjoy something good to eat. That'll remove a little bit of stress and take my 9 down to an 8 and a half. Playing video games helps calm me down so I'd play some and it would bring my stress level down to an 8.
If I keep removing negative things I can take that 9 and go all the way down to 1. You can also apply it to your overall stress level. If work, school, family life, ect. stress you out then alter or remove one and see how it affects your 1 to 10 scale. Maybe fixing one thing is just what you need. You could always find a new job or reduce your school hours, that'll definitely bring your number down a bit.
See where I'm going with this? I used to have panic attacks everyday through out the day. Now I haven't had one in five years.
I hope this helped. Also: No one is going to love you until you learn to love yourself.
>wants to an hero
I'm an ausfag too OP, just get drunk and lose your V plates to some slut. It's easy. After that you can do whatever and look people in the eyes and say ur not a virgin. Suicide might be tempting but it's literal nothingness unless ur a christfag. Don't throw your life away, at least waste it on something. Think of all the unlucky buggers who get born with no limbs and shit. At least go on a massive bank robbery spree and get killed by cops or something.
>YOU ARE SMARTER THAN NORMAL LIFE WILL ALLOW BUT NOT SMART ENOUGH TO LIVE AN EXTRAORDINARY LIFE
>STOCK MARKET PLAN IS BETTER THAN SUICIDE, BUT IF YOUR LIVING WONT ABSOLVE THE FUTILITY NOW I DOUBT MORE OF IT IS THE SOLUTION
>MUST COME TO TERMS WITH THE FACT THAT YOU MUST CREATE MEANING IN YOUR LIFE.
>OTHERWISE I RECOMMEND SHOOTING YOURSELF IN THE HEAD. SCIENCE AGREES WITH ME
Do something different. Drive 2 towns over, walk into a hole in the wall restaurant, eat something you wouldn't normally order, then walk to a drink shop, get a coffee or smoothie or bubble tea and go wander. Engage in conversation with a passing stranger. Kidnap someone. Get a different haircut, get tattoos, grow a mustache, build some muscle, become a detective, solve crimes, write a book, make a movie, fuck Lindsey Logan, die.