Holy fuck... The most sad thing about this is that I've broken up with my girlfriend 2 weeks ago for no reason. and she didn't believe it till now, she keep texting me good morning and goodnight as we used to, I just ignore her texts... I'm a fucking heartless asshole
You could shave your neckbeard with all that edge.
My cat died about 6 months ago hit by a car he was calm as shit and the guys that hit him put a coat over him to keep him warm as he laid there in the street he died in the vet a hour later or so ..
I hooked up with a really hot girl last night I normally would baww with you guys but I'm in a good place right now :)
Its ok Brah's, glad i could make you feel
Dont worry, he's already forgotten
>Been depressed for 5-6 years, suicidal for 3.
>Things were actually going okay for me at the start of the year.
>Had a casual thing going with a girl; would have probably escalated, uni was going pretty good as well.
>Had other issues, but my social life and education were okay.
>Cracked at the start of February, completely broke down, even tried to kill myself.
>Failed, obviously, this isn't a M. Night Shyamalan film.
>Shut down after this, isolated myself from everyone, treated my only two friends/flatmate (previously mentioned girl included) like shit, only way I could get through the day was to start drinking as soon as I got up.
That girl got me to stop drinking to solve my problems, and start counselling, but I can tell she still feels uncomfortable around me, and would prefer if I wasn't around a lot of the time, same goes for the other flatmate. And university is going to shit as well. I've got two assignments due in tomorrow that I just don't want to do, I can't even force myself to sit down and start. All I want to do is sit here and do literally nothing.
I just want things to go back to how they were before. I was so close to actually getting something I wanted. I could have been happy, but I had to fuck everything up for myself again.
Sorry for the long post. The length was probably a little unnecessary, I just wanted to vent for a bit.
How much of a faggot Iam for doing that? I mean from a guy's perspective. I knew something was wrong when she started being so distant... but I kept doing this "routine" I actually liked. So I messaged her every day and then finally snapped and asked her what the fuck and she broke up with me...
Shit, when 4chan dies one day...
I'll be destroyed by the fact that I won't get to talk to you all bunch of amazing motherfuckers...
And I'll miss each and every single anon...
I... Don't want to move on... Even though it's not the time yet...
I can't say much but I was exactly like you:
>Girl gets distant
>Kept with this "routine" I'd message her with every day
>She eventually says "I want to be your friend but I'm not ok with any physical contact or you calling me "sweetheart."
>I've never even touched her anywhere at all my whole life, not even a hug
>I tell her that shit
>Goes on facebook and tells everyone else about it (doesn't mention my name of course)
>Stops talking to me.
You get mah feelz right?
We all have those feelings but we hide them,let's talk psychology. humans have something called : Destructive behaviors. The more you miss something or you don't have it enough the more that feeling increase. Just like when you get too much horny you think about kinky and BDSM things. It's totally normal
It feels like a countdown.
From the moment I wake up that clock starts ticking. I can't wait to sleep again but my body wont let me. I've got to force myself out of bed or else I start to feel sick to my stomach - (still don't know why this happens).
The day begins. Not like I've got much to do. No job, no school, some money saved up. My day consists of sitting around trying to find some sort of escape from this mental hell I've been in since I was 12. I see a phsycologist and I'm on a 10 month waiting list for a phsyciatrist who is just gonna talk to me for a few minutes and hand me some pills that will make me emotionally numb and nearly impossible for me to masturbatee. Which sadly, is one of the only things I have to look forward too these days.
I wont get a girlfriend. I don't want to bring someone else down with me. Plus no one could love me. I don't have anything to offer that anyone wants. Looks are ok. Personality is horrible. Social skills practically don't exist. I'm bassically at a point where iv'e got no reason to live. But no reason to die either. So I'm just kinda riding the wave until shit hits the fan or the clouds finally part.
just had to vent
That's ok man, I'll miss you too
>be 5 years old
>both dad and i love cars
>we both want to get this porsche something hes wanted since he was a kid
>he saves up money
>i draw a picture of him and i with the porsche
>my mom calls my dad
>i soon start hearing them fight
>i ignore it and keep drawing until i doze off to sleep
>next morning i find my drawing
>in the trash and ripped to pieces
>mom tells me dad didnt like it
>i start crying
>two months later mom and dad get a divorce
>my dad keeps the house and isnt allowed to see me
>i move into a new house and i get a new dad
>12 years pass
>17 years old
>find out dad dies from heart problems
>i dont care
>go to his funeral dont shed a single tear
>2 weeks later we go to his house to get his belongings
>i head toward the garage
>inside was the same exact porsche him and i wanted
>untouched and covered in dust
>decided to inspect it
>look at the glove compartment
>its the picture with all the pieces expertly taped together
>it turns out my mom ripped it and he went thru the trash to get all the pieces to tape it back together
>i start crying my eyes out
>i dont talk to my mom anymore
i still own the porsche and i plan to never sell it
>pic related its his car
>implying 4chan will ever die
>implying we won't just migrate somewhere else IF it does
It's just an anonymous image board. There will be others, with brand new, more dank memes to be memed
Dude whatever you do dont lose that girl i've been in your place and i've ost an amazing girl like that for thinking as you do right now and i regret it everyday everyhour everyminuteyou
I am afraid of making long term connections with ppl. I just feel empty inside, like there's nothing that I can give away. Depression for 5 years now, and I am just tired. I think it's because ppl I have met in my life. But I don't know.
In the comic, its more the technology has become redudent and isn't used anymore.
Its just a feel brah
this happened last week ago
>returning back to school after being sick
>find out that teacher had a miscarrige
>brought her 4 year old daughter with her to her class room
>she looks really sad
>all the others dont care
>i go up and talk to her
>"hey whats youre name?"
>"thats a beautiful name, whats wrong?"
>"im sad i dont get a baby brother"
>she starts crying
>i then go and grab my phone and my headphones
>give her the headphones and ask her what her favorite shows are
>my little pony, sophia the first, mickey mouse clubhouse
>go onto youtube and find episodes of said shows
>she stops crying and is content
>after all work is done we have a free period
>gracie comes up to me with a book
>"i dont know how to read this can you read it to me anon?"
>voice is still shot from being sick but not bad enough where she cant hear it
>read her the book she seems very happy at this point
>teacher then asks me to take something up to the office
>before i leave to go to the office gracie tags along
>after dropping off the letter i then ask "gracie you want anything from the vending machine?"
>buy her a bag of M&Ms tell her not to open it unless her mom says so
>teacher says its ok and she eats them
>few minutes later its time for me to catch the public bus for a ride home
>gracie starts getting sad and wanted me to draw with her
>decide ill catch the next bus
>draw a pony with her
>head home after that
>come back to school
>teacher pulls me aside
>says thank you for cheering her up and gives me 10 extra credit points
>ex finds out about this and bakes me a bunch of cookies
>teacher then gives me something
>its a drawing of gracie and i with a flower
>"tell her i said thank you very much"
>head back home
>hang the drawing in my room
>TFW i've been feeling pretty good for the past few days
Can we talk about good feels for a change?
I don't want to lose her, I know I'd regret it, I already regret the fact that we're not as close as we used to be because of me. But I just don't know what to do anymore. I treated her like such shit, I really don't understand why she's still sticking around, and I don't know what I can do to ever say sorry for what a dick I was, or thank for her for trying to help me with my depression.