Hey /b/... I'm drunk, and depressed. Can i get a feels thread?
I've had only three drinks but I support OP's cause.
>tfw may-day parties going on this friday, and I will definitely be at home drinking with myself
Fuck, I just watched Forest Gump, I'm deep in the feels, but this, this is the hard stuff
Worst thing about getting drunk while depressed:
>in the very end, you wake up swimming in vomit
>you feel even worse than before, and usually weaker/more poor than before.
To overcome that shit through alcohol, the ride must never end.
i find it some-what comforting knowing that there are people experiencing the same difficulties i am
>mfw I asking out a co-worker tomorrow
She's showing as sure signs of interest as I can imagine, but there's still terror in my eyes.
It's genuinely fucked up that I'm doing this, you REALLY shouldn't even attempt to get romantically involved with your co-workers, but she's 100% wife material... I couldn't live with myself if I passed her up.
You know what? Good for them. Good for fucking them.
They're old. They're on the verge of death. They have little left to live for.
But each of them reaches out. Each of them befriends one another, and each of them puts in the effort to dress up for Halloween, to feel something with their friends.
I love these people.
tell us your story why are you depressed ?
I don't find that sad at all. If they crossed, they'd only have that moment of crossing, and then head seperate ways, never to meet again.
The parallel lines stick side by side through everything. Just like us, /b/.
We're parallel lines. We may never meet, but we go down the same path.
The implication being I'll crash and burn? Nice pep talk. I wouldn't make a feels bread though, I'd rather read up on psychology to understand what the fuck happened. I've had my missteps in interpreting social cues, but this ought to be a no-brainer.
the thing is, you can never be replaced... in the end the other person always knows it wont be like it was with you... and they will start to miss you but will never tell you.
I had a idea for a tattoo that looks like this in a way. I want the brain matter to be vibrant colorful depictions of things that make me happy (Motorcycle, family, food, etc.) As the "happy thoughts" spread down my arm, I want them to fade into dark thoughts(black and white) Possibly leading to something gay like a skull or some shit. Basically meaning that living with depression, you tend to think of suicide as a wonderful escape. But in the end, suicide is a horrible thing to accept.
But you agree with me that the underlying feeling of terror/anxiety is good, yes? I think it's there to indicate the whole thing means something to me beyond the social stigma of rejection.
Lots of reasons... It's just one of those days where i keep getting lost in my own insecurities. Keep dwelling on all of my flaws. How i'm worth absolutely nothing. How i have no value to the world or society. Just... Depressed...
I was high as shit last night and my friend played a song that just brought back every memory I had with her and it hit me like fucking train of emotions so now I'm drinking alone because fuck reality.
good luck. the thing is that you are terrible at seeing who you are. you'll only see those flaws, only see the insecurities, but beyond them, even though you can't focus on them right now, is more. better. someone that's worth something.
I agree that you feel anxious because it means something to you, yeah, but I dunno if that makes feeling it a good thing. It makes what should be quite simple much more difficult. Just make sure you don't vomit on her shoes with nerves.
forgot to post first pic
timmy's fault, that fucking mouse
It goes like this:
"First layer: skin.
Second layer: blood.
Third layer: bones.
Fourth layer: soul.
of your teeth
lies the deepest,
Anyone else feel like they only have enough energy to get up in the morning, go to work, give out a few fake smiles, to only head home and sit in your room feeling like no one will ever come along to help you feel whole again? I've been feeling stagnant for so long that I've gained trust issues, insomnia, and an overwhelming feeling that I've been living in some awful groundhogs day where everyone seems to progress and yet I live in my own little world.
i'm a fledgling musician, and i've written a song that seems relevant to this thread
but /b/ has a reputation of well and truly breaking people, so i'm really not sure if i should post or not
okay, is it because of a girl/boy ?
Or did something happen in your past what makes you feel bad now ?
>listens to this when im sad
My ex was planning to get a tattoo of a girl blowing her brains out. The blood would turn into butterflies, and the gray matter would be a sad city with all the lights off below the butterflies. I miss her so much. But I had to break up with her, because I didn't want her to be dragged down by my shit.
can we get some more greentexts?
this one fucking kills me
i hear you there /b/ro
that is my life, although this weekend is slightly different, i've got a date to go on with a friend i've loved since high school, but she's with someone else, and has two kids with him
and this is a proper date, just two people out to do stuff together and have a good time...i wish it was more...
I'm like this to dude, I feel like I need some help to see the good side to me, I've always been around assholes and they've only ever highlighted the shit side of me, I know I'm flawed and try my very best to change, see the reflection of what they're saying and become a whole person but I'm starting to wear thin.
CAPTCHA - Rotme o.0
Maybe I was overstating the case. It is a good thing, nay, a great thing. There's no spaghetti in my pockets, so I'm good on that front, but it's just the long-term effects of
>what if I read it all wrong
that are certainly dreary.
It's that god-awful line of plausible deniability that I have to cross. But sometimes a man's gotta do what a man's gotta do. Fuck my life.
>Depressed, suicidal, complete fuck up in life.
>Only two friends found out recently, has put a bit of strain on our relationship.
>Patched it up with on of them last month, and the other about a week ago.
>All was good until today: Asked friend A about something friend B told me (nothing serious).
>Sorted it out, laughed it off.
>Couple of hours later, they have an argument about it. Friend A didn't want me to know, or something.
>She's pissed at friend B, seems to have completed destroyed their friendship.
>They now hate each other because of me.
>Not only have I fucked up the only good thing in my life, I managed to drag two people I actually care about down with me and destroy a close friendship.
Seriously, I'm fucking toxic to be around, there's a reason my friends have all left me in the past. What's worse is that friend A won't even let me come talk to her to try and sort it out. I don't want them to stop talking because of me, I'd prefer to be the one on my own. Sorry for the long post, just needed to vent for a bit.
>warcraft 3 is never coming back, you will never again be a farmer in a land full of strife and the guy has no one to protect him, the leaks are unchecked and red is still a fag.
If /b/ has 20 minutes to read through this one I'd recommend it.
Well I've kinda always been like this. But it's been particularly bad this week because a girl lead me on. She said she was in to me. Then she lied right to my fucking face just so she wouldn't have to hang out with me. I'm fucking crushed. It's not even just that. There's just so much shit in my head right now and idk how to fucking deal with it. I hate myself even more because i'm being such a bitch about this. I just want to fucking cry...
Looking for a greentext:
It was fucking long, this guy moves in next door to a girl when theyre both 4, become best friends throughout childhood, there was some book they used to read under a tree, cant remember what it was though. The moms a cunt and the guy moves away from the girl. Years later he goes back, tracks her down, they get married. She gets a terminal illness and dies, but leaves a copy of the aforementioned book under the tree.
Fucking bawled over that before
i don't know whether to say thanks, but i guess i should. crying because of this and the other stories. it's been a bad couple of months, and i've told my fiancée it's been hard, but i don't know..... i don't know if she knows how hard it is. how can you tell someone you love, that loves you so fucking much, just how difficult life can be for you?
>Cute married girl from work is leaving to finish college tomorrow. At one point I was kinda obsessed with her. She just sees me as a friend. Every waking moment she was somewhere in my mind. I was a shitty sack of feels. until I looked at the facts
>she's quite thin
>I'm sorta handsome on a good day
>she's consistently gorgeous
>shes not really happy in her marriage but she's not leaving her husband for the sake of her kids
>Even if she was the type of woman to cheat I'm not willing to share her
But the biggest glaring fact that got me over her was
>SHE DOESNT LIKE ME THAT WAY
So while its going to be hard to say goodbye, its a really good thing. She's doing it to make her life better and I'm going to be able to really get over my feelings for her
why is she with someone else? honestly, figure out if she's happy there. figure out if her having to break up, get hurt, etc. etc. etc. and then getting with you will actually work. will you be happy? can she?
There's no point dude, you said it yourself she's with someone else but remember that the love you had for her isn't hers or something between you, it's actually in you and the feeling of that ache is because you're trying to stretch it too far when in fact it's for you, you hold love anon....pure passion it's a beautiful thing.
Does this fit? No idea what the resolution is for the Galaxy Note 3
How to fight the pain?
It hurts everywhere, the joints, they become swollen, painful, and stiff, it sticks with me for the rest of my life
can't lift, can't run, can't even walk properly
meds no longer work, weed doesn't work
still have college to attend to tomorrow
sometime I consider suicide
Sorry anon, I've never really even opened up to anyone. I'll give it a go though, as gay as this will sound: just be full and frank, if somethings taking a toll on you its probably affecting her too, the best thing for you both is for you to just get off your chest whatever it is. Hope I helped anon.
I don't even know anymore.
I feel empty. Like my life is just just drained out of me and I'm left as a husk running on autopilot. A NPC of real life.
I try looking for something that interest me, that I care for, something to do with my life. But not only do I find it hard to muster the motivation and willpower to do so, but it's as if I don't even want it.
And even my ability to think on a regular basis seems to be fading. It's as if I have to chose to think instead of just doing so.
And so life goes on for me. In this robotic lifecycle one interrupted every now and then by complete break-downs in tears and sad thoughts over where I'm at.
I've been thinking and meaning to seek some sort of therapist, but I'm to fucking socially anxious and so I just postpone it even though I really shouldn't.
The idea that it might go so far one day that I make an abrupt end to it really scares me.
Sorry for rant. It's the only place I feel comfortable doing so.
>tfw there's no a her
There's no a girl that deeply hurt me, there's no a sad story. it's just like I can't let myself be happy
Am I just broken?
you just dont let anyone come to near to you thats why noone can really hurt you and thats also why you cant get really happy.
>How do i win her back?
>How do i fight the pain?
>How do i ...
How do i finally lose myself, while everyone else keeps pretending to somehow care about me?
I just don't know how to fucking get over her, I've kissed other girls, but I just don't feel the same.
She was the the only girl that had some 'depth'.
Every little thing reminds me of her.
Guys, I'm searching for a greentext story:
>got gf with cancer or smth
>step mom is a bitch
>she somehow freezes my bank acount so I can't pay for treatment
>slap her, get arrseted
>gf dies while I'm away
How do you know who is the right ones to let in? I always get messed up by people, I don't blame them they're just misguided and I expose myself to it but how do you know who's the right ones? whether it be friends or partner?
>How do i win her back?
Do you even want her back? Think about it anon; if you get her back, you'll be happy for a time. But then you'll start to wonder whether you'll break up again. You'll be looking for any sign of it. You'll be guarding yourself against it, distancing yourself, over time, from her, until it happens again. And even if it doesn't, you'll always think to yourself "What if? She's going to leave me again." And the second time will be much, much harder to cope with.
I don't know how you guys broke up. But you guys broke up because something wasn't right. Getting back with her won't fix it. Two wrongs don't make a right.
Source - another anon going through the exact same feels.
>be kissless virgin
>be on my way to wizardry
>meet qt grill
>we become friends
>i think she likes me
>her cousin thinks she likes me
>tell her how i feel
>she doesnt want to ruin our friendship
>still be friends because im beta
>we become best friends
>she is a rock for me when dad passes
>she tells me that we are really good friends
>she tells her cousin that im her best friend
>cousin asks her why we are not dating
>says she thinks im good looking and im a great person but she doesnt want to ruin our friendship
>known each other for about two years now
>texts me saying sorry if it seemed like she was leading me on
>she doesnt want to hurt me
>convo ends with her telling me that i need to get over her
>hurts so bad
>she becomes distant
>find out she just got a bf
>hang with friend and his gf
>his gf has a friend that comes over
>way out of my league
>hang at his house
>she comes and sits next to me when scary part of a movie was playing
>she makes contact with legs
>try not to spill spaghetti and tease her about something
>she gets mad but ends up laughing
>everyone is in kitchen area
>just me on the couch playing guitar
>friends gfs 5 year old kid sits by me and starts talking vidya
>she is in the kitchen and keeps looking over at us every minute or so
>finally decide to look at her when she does it again
>make eye contact
>she gives me the warmest smile
>next day she follows me on instagram
>day after she direct messages me
>she teases me a bit
>mutual friend asks if i want to hang again
>we all hangout again
>just try and have fun
>dont spill spaghetti
>get text from mutual friend
>she told them that she likes me after i left
>not sure what to do with this info since im so beta
>next day i direct message her on instagram
>ask for her number
>she gives it to me
>says she is happy i asked for it
>we text a for a while then more later until she goes to bed
>she texts me again in the morning
>we text while she is at work
>she texts me more at night
>we make plans to do something soon
>talk to our mutual friend
>he has known her since they were seven
>tells me he thinks i have a shot with her
>mfw he doesnt realize that nothing good happens to me
>mfw im going to fuck this up somehow
>mfw she will probably just end up wanting to be friends
>mfw this is how my life is going to continue to be over and over
>mfw i dont know what im doing
im sure no one will read this. getting it off my chest helps though. at least i know she did have feelings at one point even if it was really early on.
I wish I were more social..
I would love to get calls and texts from friends asking me to hang out
I wish I had nice stories to tell
I wish someone recognized me on the streets and shake my hand
I just fucking want to make somebody smile while they're texting me and they're watching their fucking cellphone screens
I don't want to be "that guy" anymore.
And the only person that's dragging me under is no one but myself
what i would do, get all the stuff you have from her cry as much as you can and then if you cried enough... go to a lost place and burn the stuff... thats how i always got over a girl....
the most important thing is that you know their friends and then you can mostly figure out how people think. I can't say more to it now my head is also full of minds you guys made me feel damn.
so now what? what's your plan? Don't fuck it up by thinking it'll go wrong, cause then it will. of course there's a chance, but whatever. fuck that. try it, do your best. no one knows what they're doing.
I know what I must do.
I know it's just to take that fucking phone call.
But it's not "just" to do something. Well, actualy it is, but then again it's not....
This is the sort of process that takes place in my head. Like being prisoner and prison at the same time.
But I know I just need to call them.
Until then, my plan is to let this tumor grow on me until I'm at the point were I put a gun to the forehead. Maby then I'll find insentive enough to do something about it.
>tfw dad died when i was 5
>tfw his parents died when he was younger
>moms father died 6 months after my dad
>my only grandparent left hates my mom
>mom gets on drugs
>i'm the middle child so my older brother was coddled by my great grandmother and my younger sister was obsessively spoiled by my grandmother
>while i sit in solitude
>never invited to anything by any of them
>no one ever talks to me during family gatherings
>cant get a ride to a job because of where i live (the middle of nowhere)
>slowly withering away at 21
I found someone who really cared about me once, it felt amazing to be actually seen for who you are and not just an idea still picking myself up afterwards. Just not managed to fully recover...not too sure if I will but I don't want to give up it just has it's extreme downs sometimes.
No matter how close to the edge I get I've never lurked feels threads. I don't think I've ever been sadder, so I guess I wilk stay here this time.
try bath in hot water, it will offer temporary relieve
also lol at no reply
but you wanna stick with these things if you want advice, having to deal with constant physical pain is just too much for common folks:
1) break ups, especially if you are immature about it
2) being a spergelord and no gf, or low self-esteem
3) mental illness and depression or an hero tendency (not due to your kind of reason)
4) friend/family having mental illness and depression
5) lost in life, can't get job/education
6) pet dies
yep, we care much more about these
I'm really sad today, I haven't slept in 3 days, I lost my wallet (with 500$ in it), and I can't remember the last time I felt this lonely.
I don't really feel like crying about it, just thought I'll share and contribute a little bit.
At least I'm not alone. Thank you, guys,
Last bump for greentext:
>anon meets awesome girl
>girl gets terminally ill
>anon starts to pay for treatment
>anons stepmom convinces his dad to freeze anons bank acount because god is the only thing that can save her (or some bullshit like that)
>anon falcon punches stepmom and gets arrested
>gf (or wife at this point) dies without him
Pls /b/ I'd really like to feel once again
Anon from what i read it sounds like you really do have a great chance with this girl like seriously and when you say you don't know what you're doing... just do you man! I'm sure this will work out for you anon. Everyone has something good happen to them at one point or another in their life.
im going to try. but i know how its going to end.
>you might get a chance to fall in love with her, don't let it pass
thats what im scared of. im going to fall in love and she will end up seeing me as a friend just like everyone else.
>Everyone has something good happen to them at one point or another in their life.
fuck, i dont feel like im going to get to that point. i think its going to be continual disapointment. but thanks for the words.
anyone else sometimes feel like, even though they have good friends, and are generally happy with their lives on a day to day business, they have so many regrets, and wish their life was so much more, something just out of reach
"The pieces of everything I wish to be
are floating scattered around my head.
..But I've never had the patience for puzzles.
Because I believe I truly hate myself,
I glimpse the piece
that is my ambition
Hovering right outside my reach
Just as it drifts away
back into the cloud of me."
Does anyone else here always struggle to empathise with others' plights because yours are so much worse.
Whenever anyone's told me recently about their ill relative or some other misfortune I just feel jealous that that's all that's wrong with them.
candle is still burning.....
>last stop on the feels train
You know the sad thing? In a few minutes/seconds this thread will 404. All the feels we've had will be gone, and we may never have a moment like this with each other again. Fuck, life is tough. Thanks anons
>100+ Contacts on Skype
>not a single one responds
>regular group I spend time with
>not one of them care
>disappear for days on end
>Noone asks where I went
I could probably die tomorrow and Noone would care.
Trips would be truth, however, i've never heard such things.
I've tried a bunch of thing.
Sadly, the only times i feel real alive, or real important at all, is when i wake up from slumber, where i've dreamt of dying, or having the choice to do so.
I usually just wake up after that, thinking, hey, i can try.
Call my mother, or a good friend, ask how they are, and wish them a further good day i.e, then hang up, and return to my self.
Been told, building a 'norm' for empathy, could be as easy as making someone else feel good for no reason.
Do you guys think we all have some sort of disease?
I don't know anybody in real life who is "like me" but only on /b/ I finally see people with similiar problems and thoughts.
I don't really think i suffer from depression, I'm just sad all the time, especially on the weekends.
listen to this when threads 404
It's alright to cry,
Even my dad does sometimes
So don't wipe your eyes,
Tears remind you you're alive
It's alright to die,
'Cause death's the only thing you haven't tried
But just for tonight
So live life like you're giving up,
'Cause you act like you are
Go ahead and just live it up
Go on and tear me apart
It's alright to shake,
Even my hand does sometimes
So inside we'll rage,
Against the dying of the light
It's alright to say,
That that's the only thing you haven't tried
But just for today
So live life like you're giving up,
'Cause you act like you are
Go ahead and just live it up
Go on and tear me apart
These threads come back. Although you may never talk to the same anons again, you find similar people again. People who knows who you are and are hence willing to show some sympathy, because they know you too well.
>thinking feel thread is anywhere different from tumblr bitchin
sperge be trippin on that superiority
Being sad all the time, and being chronically depressed, isnt the same thing, even if it could be explained as the same, in both cases.
i'm no expert, so i wont start a AMD/INTEL fight over it, but i do hope whatever it is you suffer from, you will manage!
Whateverthefuck is basically what i do nowadays.
I try to fill it with constructive shit - mostly webdev and what not, as a side-job (right now i get paid by gob'ment as i'm in treatment), just to get a different daily routine.
Being able to "do whatever the fuck" gets so god damn boring, so fast, it's ridonkulous, especially when all your friends are in normal jobs and shit, 9-5 stuff.