I read /fa/ all day and I just feel ugly and insecure.
>go on omegle
>start talking to qt andro azn chick
>compliments me, I compliment her
>she seems to like me
>the whole time im conscious of how I look, which angle is more pleasant
>talk for like 20 mins
>she ends up stripping for me
I'm so lonely.
I live in Texas, so most of the girls here don't compare. She was at least an 8.5. If I go out, chances are I won't meet anyone higher than a 7.
I feel cheated. Why'd she disconnect?
nigga she disconnected because there was no way you would ever meet up and fucking marry each other/fall in love. 7's aren't that bad, especially if you're that insecure. Just go out and practice meeting/talking to people until you find someone higher than a 7. Waiting around for this kind of shit to fall into your lap will never, ever work.
>go to lecture
>everyone already seems to know each other
I'm not saying I wanted to fall in love and get married. I hate being so lonely that I pathetically "fall" for someone when I know how unrealistic and impossible it is. It's happened before, with girls I went to school with.
Look, man. That's just a part of life. You start meeting people, get your heart broken a few times (not necessary, btw) and you'll realize this shit isn't that big of a deal. Getting a gf won't magically get rid of the problems that I'm fairly sure you have. Plus if you're that lonely you should set your standards a little lower, bro.
i know this feel
im 19 and im only just starting to make friends and talk to girls, sometimes it just feels so fucking hopeless and like the ship has sailed, but ive managed to make friends with my flatmates and im becoming pretty good at making girls laugh, i finally understand what 'just be yourself' means, if i go in full steam and just talk, while still being my slightly jittery weird self, i dont need to be some regular loud alpha, i can still make them laugh and have them inviting me out to social occasions
what do you mean?
i looked at guys being all loud and brash and realised i was never going to develop those skills, even though thats the conventional idea of a man who gets girls attention, i just got desperate and tried talking to girls without trying to put on that facade and realised they actually liked me somewhat
>tfw haven't copped anything in forever
>tfw if I cop things it's only for school
>tfw have to save all my money for college
Feels bad I'm working so much less now because of school so it's just this vicious cycle of having no money
As a side note:
>tfw came out to my dad today and it went better than I could've dreamed
>tfw everyone important to me knows I'm gay now
>mfw everything is finally looking better guys
>see no value in self
>perceive compliments as mockery, only stimulated by criticism
>see value and forgive the shortcomings of others but cannot forgive my own, even if they overlap
>virgin, never have had a relationship or kiss, and will probably remain that way for time
>can't look people in the eye, or I feel repugnantly transparent- wear sunglasses at all times when outside to stave the fear or being noticed
>can make small talk and have a modicum of charm, but it not without further self-disdain
>find no value in a relationship, feel as though it would be too selfish of me, and that I don't deserve a woman's heart
nah man, lowering you standards out of loneliness is one of the most autistic things to do.
people look at everyone of the down syndrome guys with wildebeast girlfriends, and think "hes probably a spergie."
Obviously don't try and pull a 3 or something, but that guy was looking for an 8 or above. If he's all insecure and doesn't know how to talk to people then it'll be easier for him to start off with 7s or something to practice. Then build up to an 8 or above.
>start wearing makeup
>start dressing better
>own a few women's clothes (just sweaters and a shirt though)
>get more pale, fall is here so hair gets darker
>girls are all fucking over me suddenly
>keep fingernails neat as a pin
>start talking more and realize holy shit I'm funny
>tweeze my eyebrows and shit
why do girls like pretty boys wtf
why why why
>tfw get flamed in WAYWT
>tfw don't know if i really look that bad or if i just look bad by /fa/ standards
>tfw realize there are way more people talking shit than posting fits, so i shouldn't value their opinions so much
>tfw still crave validation on chinese cartoon board
mfw I never learned to do small talk
I have quite a few friends tho, but it gets hard to make new ones because I don't really know how to talk to people unless I have something specific to say
>Used to have crush on this girl
>She never seemed interested in me (never flirted with me and referred to me as her friend) so I went on to pursue other girls (would still talk with her here and there)
>Have a little fling with this random twat
>The girl finds out and texts me
>"wow anon I really thought something would happen between us I really liked you"
>A few months later
>Starting to talk and hanging out with the girl again
>She is starting to be a little more flirty with me
>I'm starting to have feelings for her again
>Hopefully this works out this time
>first date in my life
>chick is getting more open
>get some food
>cashier compliments you on your game when the chick is in the toilet
>safe bruv ayy
>shit, what should i do
>lets get another beer gril
>start discussing sex
>gril says shes traditional (she from asia) and would make a guy wait 6 months til sex
>u aint gon make me wait 6 months bish are ya
>go to club
>third and forth beer
>get all touchy feely i want it i need it
>she lets me hold that ass for the rest of the day
>dont score but she open for the next time
>muh game on point niggas
>clothes always look funny on the midsection
>no money for clothes anyway
>own like 4 solid colour tshirts, 2 pants, 1 shorts, 2 shoes
>social life flourishing
>going out with friends most days
>been talking to this girl
>super nice, intelligent, really good looking
>she's into me
>find her kinda boring
>no longer find people interesting at all
>dont really find anything interesting at all
>slowly starting to hate everything
>dont even enjoy sleeping
>people just make me angry
>people are terrible
>starting to not enjoy anything that i do
>all of my hobbies bore me
>buy new pair of sneakers
>feel childish/immature for wearing them because I'm a collegefag already
>look at friends' shoes
>oversized bulky sports sneakers, chunky DC and jordans, ugly square-toed dress shoes
>be so disappointed with me because i cant get a gf because of my high as fuck standards (thx /fa/)
>watch latest SLP collection
>standards rise higher wanting a qt exotic faced tall slim gf in full slutcore to hang out everynight
>realize i will die alone
>tfw no heroinchic or slutcore gf draped in full SLP
kill me nao
Depends on what kind of drugs.
Try and eighth of shrooms. I used to do em and it really helps you feel comfortable with yourself. It sounds dumb, but your brain has a nice...reset, I guess. Afterwards it forces you to put yourself back together in a good way. I've gotten over a lot of my anxieties through drugs, actually.