I don't hate them but I'm disappointed. They threw me out when I was 17 and I spent 25 years trying to reconcile with them and finally gave up. If they came to me tomorrow and wanted to reconcile I would but I will no longer make the effort on my own.
I don't hate my family. I feel absolute indifference towards them. I basically use my mother for financial gain at this point.
I was abused severely and was treated as a burden to both my parents. So I use my mother for free living and utilities and leverage her former actions against her for my own benefit. My father died when I was 17.
My parents were deranged manipulative assholes and raised me to essentially be one. So I feel that my taking advantage of her is getting back what I was owed in terms of a childhood or home life or human contact.
>>7348396 Watch Christopher and his Kind https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Christopher_and_His_Kind_(film) It describes Christopher Isherwoods life in Germany during the 1930's and the gay scene there. It's a great film.
>>7348459 >>7348478 Man thats cool. I wish my grandad had been confident enough to tell us in person about his paticular 'tastes'.
Looking back its so obvious what with his flamboyant nature, flattery of other mens attire/demeanor... not to mention his love of poetry and constant wearing of cravats (which I think looked dashing on him).
Anyway, were there any other gay icons in those days? or is it one of those things thats not that well documented? My... Comment too long. Click here to view the full text.
Everyone post their favorite songs: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=55FP1LfkkVQ
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If sexuality is fluid and on a spectrum, and you can supposedly make yourself "more gay" by experimentation with porn and even sexual partners, then why can't it go the other way around? How can you reject the idea that it's even possible to make yourself "less gay" while at the same time accepting the idea that sexuality is fluid?
>>7347996 people who believe in sexuality being fluid (which is not a common belief on this board) generally do believe you can become 'less gay' -- to the point that rejecting that is a reason why some people, especially lesbians, reject the idea of fluid sexuality
>>7347996 Just because you CAN change something doesn't mean you should. There are ways to make you "less gay", like psychological torture or even just regular old torture. After all, you can't be gay if even a passing thought about your sexuality triggers intense emotional distress and causes you to completely shut down as a functioning human being. Other things that also prevent you from being gay are >Being dead >Being forced to transition to the opposite sex >Removing all capacity for higher thought
So yeah, shocking your testicles may eventually cure your homosexuality. It'll also cure your ability to function in society too, but obviously your well being is not important. All that matters is that your existence doesn't make total strangers uncomfortable due to their religious beliefs.
Oh and don't forget, there's always the possibility that it won't do anything about your sexuality, and will instead make you lie about it and then publicly take an aggressive stance promoting anti-gay politics so no one suspects that conversion therapy did nothing to make you any less gay and that you fuck 18 year old boys every week, but always wear sunglasses so they don't recognize you as Mike "Conversion Therapy Worked On Me" Pence.
I basically don't believe the trans people ever pass. I have photoshopped my masculine features out, even so, I still can't pass, sometimes to an extent even beyond what FFS could do. Even with that I still look male and I can't explain it.
>>7347456 >tfw you are a housewife, except not really because you're not married and have no boyfriend, and the people you're living with are your mother, sister and niece and you're the one who has to stay at home all day because you're an assburger who can't drive and has no job skills and your mother and sister are working 24/7 so there's no one else to watch the kid It's really not that great. There's worse lifestyles to be sure, but this is not one of the best.
>>7347486 So I'm not allowed to love my family and want to help take care of them? I mean yeah I didn't choose to be the guy in charge of all this shit, but I care about my family's well being so I do what I can.
>>7346969 I did, though I didn't really understand I was so fetishistic until like 3-4 years into it. I started to fully understand myself and then I realized I was just a freak. Then I ran out of hormones and my family life went to shit, my personal life went to shit and I made a lot of bad calls. Now I'm in a rut and off hormones for some time. Still wouldn't go back to living as a boy, but living as a weird, overweight mess isn't too great either.
>>7345062 from personal experience, they were kind of innate. for example i when i was about 6 or 7 i would always play with stuffed animals but in my head i thought of myself as their mother, and they were my babies. my parents did try and curb that behavior. after which I internalized a lot of dysphoric feelings after that, out of fear of parental disapproval. both my parents are conservative, and i was raised as male by them through childhood and adolescence. Internalizing dysphoria eventually lead to extreme emotional... Comment too long. Click here to view the full text.
You're definitely gonna need to loosen yourself up with your (lubricated) fingers, it'll feel like you're deliberately stretching yourself out but that's not really the case. One finger until you can work up to two, then three, then when you feel loose enough you can try a cock. You're gonna need to take it very slow to begin with. It'll feel strange and maybe a bit uncomfortable at first, and then it'll start feeling good and it'll actually feel right. Just *relax*, use enough lube (don't just use saliva if it's your first time), and go slow to begin with. The fun will come naturally if you do those things correctly, don't bother worrying that you won't enjoy it - the enjoyment will come on its own and you will notice it and as long as you don't rush or be physically tense then you'll really get into it.
If your top knows what he's doing I'm sure he'll be able to guide you a little bit.
Main string of advice - GO SLOW. The speed will pick up on its own when it's ready to.
>Source fucked in the ass earlier today as well as many other times before
So I'm wondering about something. I'm male right now but I guess I could be considered questioning? If I understand the terminology correctly.
One thing I like to do is play as girls in video games as a way to simulate the experience of being a girl to some degree. The way I see it, a video game is a good opportunity to be something I'm not, but perhaps something I'd like to be. So I would say I am not doing it for purely sexual reasons, unlike some men who play girls "because they want something nice to look at." I genuinely want to put myself in the shoes of a cute girl.
The issue I have is that despite what I said, I cannot deny that I am still sexually stimulated by the act of playing as a girl, and I'm wondering if that's a sign that I'm heading in the wrong direction with this. Is it possible that I can feel this way about what I'm doing, or is there a conflict of interest here?
Clearly no matter what I am, I'm still attracted to girls, but is it wrong to have a sexual attraction to the idea of being a girl? I feel like the thought of being something that I'm not is stimulating to me, but is it... acceptable, I suppose, to want to be a girl but to also receive erotic pleasure from the idea? Or is it a sign that I'm just perverted and not truly committed to it?
Is transitioning from one gender to another supposed to allow you to identify as that gender or are you supposed to join the trans caucus and hate every crippled motherfucker who mistakes your gender because it is biologically impossible to flip your voice no matter how many hormones you flood your system with.
If you're not just automatically supposed to be trans and proud, can I ask a favor? Can you trans folk whose gender I accidentally fuck up because my eyes suck maybe look at the cane and how I'm standing, recognize I'm fucking disabled, and KINDLY... Comment too long. Click here to view the full text.
>>7343330 >"it is biologically impossible to flip your voice no matter how many hormones you flood your system with." The voice of a FtM is literally changed just by taking testosterone.
>"Is transitioning from one gender to another supposed to allow you to identify as that gender" No, you are identifying as the gender you later are transitioning to before you actually transition. Otherwise you would not transition.
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Pretty cool little Australian show where various minorities answer anonymous questions in an honest, non-preachy, non-condescending way. Welcome change from the obnoxiously satirical and instructional-style videos of this format that typically flood youtube and buzzfeed. This episode features a diverse group of trans people so I thought it'd be worth sharing for discussion while it's available.
>>7343045 it's simultaneously better and worse than i thought it would be, about halfway through the trans guys weren't as retarded about bottom surgery as i was worried and the hon seems relatively smart but the other two trans girls are fucking airheaded (and i want to stab the ridiculous-looking one) and the early-transition trans guy actually believes he experiences 'male privilege' when he doesn't even fucking pass
I always assumed I hated everything about Australia but in the last year I have to admit it has some bretty good TV.
>>7343129 we have that stereotype here but hons tend to be less vapid than cute girls for the same reasson ugly girls put more effort than pretty ones. and age. There are still stupid hons and smart early transitioners, of course.
Alright YouTube, it's time to talk about Styxhexenhammer666 and whether or not he's a closeted transgender. Now if you're not familiar with Styx, he's sort of an occult-worshipping Trump supporter who recently gained popularity within the alt-right. In particular, /pol/ seems quite fixated on him. The only problem is that his supporters are transphobic and it's obvious to anyone outside of the lamestream media that Styx is a closeted transgender. Now personally, I'm a libertarian. I don't give a fuck what Styx chooses to do with his gender,... Comment too long. Click here to view the full text.
I am sick and tired of stupid delusional people who on reddit and susan's forum say that they go to the store and get ma'amed and that means they pass. No, they don't pass. People are being polite in your face and then jeering at you behind your back.
key things are demonizing what you want removed, glorrifying what you want to become. View being a subby faggot as horrible, evil, disgusting, and regularly review all risks, ect. Tell yourself, with gusto "I am NOT a damn fag!", and if you get gay impulses, very aggressively REJECT them in your mind. Eventually, your mind will change, wanting to be the more "approved of" thing in your mind.
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>>7341187 I dont think this works, at least not in all cases. Got really into like manly man philosphers, Friedrich Nietsczhe, Stefan Molyneux, ect., vew masculniity and strength and heroic and desirable, still total sub faggot. Main effect is that I guess Im a bit more self-loathing because of it (still like those guys, but it didnt have the effect on me of making me more masc at all)
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