There is no other word to best describe myself than "freak" and I hate my body more the further I am into transitioning. I can't stand seeing myself in the mirror, first because my penis confuses the hell out of me now that I have breasts and second that I virtually made no progress yet because I'm skinnyfat and haven't gained a single pound in 6 months so I look exactly the same as I did 6 months ago. I won't say hormones did nothing to me, in fact I would say hormones did everything what they could and I was simply born unlucky. I just don't know long I can keep on until I give up on life completely.
trans body image insecurities are like 10 times worse then what most cis women go through. It's like trans body dysphoria with body image insecurities all mix together which is a living hell tbqh.
At least you are into hormones bro, my parents still insult me and I'm poor and can't even get a job that allows me to get a place to live, food and hormones.
Also you are skinny fat, I will assume you are 115lbs which still will give you a decent look. I also bet you are white.
6 months is nothing anon, I felt the same.
1 year in I feel like my body is still shitty, but a kinda satisfying level of shitty, where it's starting to look okay-ish.
Don't give up until you're at least two years in, and even then changes happen for 6 years from memory, even if they're more subtle/slower.
>trans body image insecurities are like 10 times worse then what most cis women go through
>The things that make pregnant women "crazy" and is often described as the most unpleasant thing about pregnancy
>Oh I know, I'm feeling terrible about myself, let's mess up my hormones!
Get real help, psychiatric treatment is available in most countries, chemical treatment is a fucking placebo and will only make your problem worse.
The only thing hormone treatment will help is the practitioners wallets as you'll be stuck for life.
I have a nice butt, so that's cool.
Everything else though is bad. I'm gonna be starting mones soon but honestly I'm 190 pounds, I'm 5'10 and very broad shouldered. I have a manly as fuck face. If I didn't want to transition, I'd probably be really happy with my body. As it is though I'm desperately trying to lose weight and see if I can get FFS sometime in the future, cause I fear I'll never pass without it.
Did you think you were fat? I was 185 at the same height, and I didn't even have much of a belly. Now I'm 165 and I don't even note the difference, really. If I had to say, my rib cage is what lost the fat. So my hips look just a tiny bit larger. Though a family member came over and told me I had lost weight, so some must have come from more prominent areas.