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the fuck you even on fam?
she looks like those eastern european models
this is my goal.
it will take me a lot of thousands gold coins and a lot of time, and I already lost hope many years ago :^]
Why did lanugo (newborn baby hair) start growing everywhere on my body and face after I reduced my cypro dose?
Just got back with hanging with friends, ended up going reeeaaaallllyyyy well! Had lots of fun, ended up talking with one of my close friends and her boyfriend and our good friend about being trans (I had already come out to her though but the other two didn't know) and it was funny. They bombarded me with questions and I trolled her bf cause he's really squeemish talking about vaginoplasty and orchies and stuff like that.
We also had a long hour talk about girl stuff and it just felt good! She also recommended a good place to get my eyebrows threaded so I may go do that this weekend!
stop triggering me plz
I want to get my eyebrows done but I don't know what to ask for or how to ask for it.
I'd imagine the general guidelines for guy eyebrows and girl eyebrows are different, so I need to figure out how to ask for them to be done like a girl's too.
Anyone know how this stuff works? I could really use some advice
>tfw met two of my musical idols (brothers)
>tfw one of them writes a lot of lyrics about his social anxiety problems as a teenager / early 20s so even though I spaghettied he just nodded knowingly and they were chill about it
I think the trick is to only idolise people who are similar to you
>runway struts right past me
like, because that's her natural gait and she's trying to avoid you? or because she's making fun of you by showing off?
maybe approach her in disguise next time
No idea either but I'm just gonna yolo it. Like I said earlier I'm gonna get them threaded (which is the best way to get them done) and gonna ask them to be shaped in a more feminine way. Just gonna yolo and if I spill spaghetti w/e cause I want to look good
No way would I joke about this when facial hair is the worst thing and I used to pluck and got a lecture from the person that does my electro.
Shaving does the least and doesn't encourage growth.
Nope not messing around, they showed me some material that says what I wrote. I'm not saying it will happen, but it Can encourage that type of growth. Excuse me for phrasing it in a way that made it sound like it will 100% happen.
Let me run this by you, I've got sparse light facial hair. It grows in a stupid pattern but it's hardly noticeable unless I let it grow out for a while. Should I shelve the thing and just save up for electrolysis? I figured I could just epilate indefinitely since that + hrt would thin it even more.
I went to a butterfly enclosure once and damn near had a panic attack, and moths are worse because they leave gross dust on you and have fat bodies and crinkly wings and are faster.
>Should I shelve the thing
Just use it on your body tbh
If you don't have that much hair just save up for electrolysis, they might have a discount for transwomen and then you don't have to worry about it or waste time on it.
Just shave for now.
Yeah but most facial epilators are for very thin hair, I guess try to return it or shelve it like you said. I mean you could have asked here before
Yeah you can epilate body hair, that doesn't matter as much.
>I mean you could have asked here before
I got caught up in things, I was just excited and I guess I convinced myself I could handle this without needing to make a social thing out of it. Talking to all the electrolysis people about me being a tranny, it'll be stressful. But if it's the only way it's the only way. How bad did I mess up my electrolysis if I only epilated this once?
Don't worry, you're fine. If you kept doing it then it could be a problem.
I can see not wanting to ask but don't stress, just drop by here whenever you need help or even the trans help general. Just be glad you asked before you actually did some damage.
I still don't understand. How are Ricky and I related?
>how ya been ya basic bitch?
Kind of shitty, also I'm becoming goth/alt bitch tyvm, no basicness for me.
Also Ricky if you're about, I slaughtered a bunch of Elves on Witcher 3 and afterwards thought that would make you proud.
I used to find Japanese beetles on this raspberry bush thing that used to be in my yard. I'm pretty sure they caused it to die, and I gotta say, bros don't kill their bros' raspberry bushes
it is okay don't worry your pretty little head about it
but if you want to think about it I found similarities between you and Ricky's volatile initial temperaments
except you are funnier
Is this tape ok for tucking/using on your nipples?
>I don't want people to comment much if at all.
I don't think there's any way to stop that, even if they don't say things to you they'll talk behind your back
>it is okay don't worry your pretty little head about it
You say that like I'm some cute ditsy blonde. I'm just partially retarded.
>you and Ricky's volatile initial temperaments
Who the fuck are you calling volatile?
>how are you?
Wishing I could start my inking and piercings, but alas, I am broke, and need to pay for transition stuff and saving money to move.
Like if you just stick to people you know and places you're comfortable, you can avoid anyone confronting you mostly, but avoiding comments is nigh impossible, especially if HRT is kind to you.
I basically just avoid being in public as much as possible and stay at home or work until I'm confident enough to actually, like, tell people I'm a girl, and actually use my girl voice. Keeps the anxiety down. That and a lot of weed.
If you want dick, sure. Or top quality keks from the possible messages you'll get.
safest way would probably be to take hormones while still presenting as a guy, and when you start getting to the point that even that is hard then you move states and present as a girl
of course that would assume you know how to perfectly present female, and doing so out of nowhere would be insane
just take it step by step and accept that people will make comments, but it will go down as you pass more and more
making some dinner, playing pokemon, and thinking about tripping for good
what about you?
Just got home from work. It's relaxing time! How about you?
I'm gonna have my snakebites redone, lobes, at least one helix, and a couple people have said I would look good with a nostril piercing. I also am thinking of nipples, and hip piercings, maybe naval. And maybe Jacob's ladder.
I would say a Prince Albert, but being on the receiving end of one wasn't so great imo.
>being a little bitch
>I don't wanna wear a bra
>being a slut
YOU'RE NOT MY REAL DAD!
Just imagine a handsome young Dutch/Irish boy with pretty long red hair. That's basically my face.
>Jacobs ladders seem so weird
I kinda wish I could find a guy with one to try, I think I would enjoy them. But then again,
>tfw could never find a guy with one that isn't toally gross and would even consider sex with me
Careful, someone from Tumblr might think you're trying to make some statement, and follow suite.
Move to the queer part of town, if there is one. Mine is like an incubation chamber for new girls, a lot of trans people so you don't actually stand out, basically a pretty safe place to be while you practice presentation. Go to work or school or whatever in boy mode, if you want. Then do the moving state thing other anon said.
>Careful, someone from Tumblr might think you're trying to make some statement, and follow suite.
Is that a bad thing tho?
Shooting myself of course :^)
But seriously self defense and for show.
I can spend about five hundred dollars or so. I honestly want one that looks visually intimidating also
That's awesome how much does a gun usually run around for a pistol? I want to start collecting guns a little bit more they are so fucking cool. Don't know anything about them though.
oh my fucking god, this game...
i just finished episode 4 and... i cant even...
Well, for a price range that low, you're pretty limited. Brand new handguns usually run in the $600-800 range, depending on the make and model, of course. For a beginning shooter, which I assume you are, it'll probably be best to start with some sort of 9mm. There's the never-ending debate of 9 vs. 45 (which I'm in the 45 camp), however, for a new shooter you're going to want lower recoil and a larger magazine. I'm pretty biased when it comes to manufacturers, but I know a lot of people swear by Glock. Also, if you're big on the self defense aspect, you're going to want a compact frame. They're smaller, lighter, and easier to conceal should you get your CCW permit.
Intimidation-wise, that's all up to interpretation, I suppose. Don't buy a desert eagle.
>need to be up to start getting ready for work in like 4 hours
Sleep or just stay up?
Basically this, anon. And to throw my bias in, look at CZ75s. The weight, bore axis, and 9mm makes it easy to shoot, and it feels like pure sex in my hands. Or if looking at long guns, there's nothing wrong starting with a .22. I'm fond of Savage 64s, but 10/22s have an amazing aftermarket.
I don't have any expierence. I actually hurt myself the one timec that I did and that got me scared of guns.
Yeahs that's basically all I want is a small compact gun to carry with me. Im going to try to get my ccw. Guns are expensive holy shit
What's wrong with desert eagles are they a meme?
Yes, they're very expensive. My recommendation would be to research the big manufacturers on your own and find something you like, and then just save up for it. If you have a local range that lets you rent/try handguns, too, that'll be great for deciding.
Desert Eagles are just too large and too expensive to be anything but a novelty, I think.
I'm a fan of Sig and FN, personally. FN handguns are too big to conceal, though, and Sig is crazy expensive. I agree with Raifu, CZ has some nice handguns.
If you ever feel bad about your appearance, remember people like this exist.
looks like i'm going to have to bind with ACE bandages when my mom visits me this weekend. Not out to her. I plan to come out this thanksgiving?
How do you come out to one of those "soft" liberal types who still call Caitlyn Jenner by her birthname and thinks that the mention of me dating a boy (while she still perceives me as a boy) is "oh that's nice just don't shove it in my face/do any sort of pda"?
That's the way to be. I see so many girls just role play and do things that they hate just so it makes them feel more feminine. Its weird to me. I guess I would rather just see everyone do what they are good at
Oh we are posting Andrej.
Here's a picture from today. I handed out candy to kids with my sorority sisters. The girl I'm with is edited out for privacy, of course.
So how do you tell if it's just AGP, or if you're actually trans? I feel like I might just be cherry picking cases of not feeling like a boy from my past, when it wasn't significant enough to warrant transition really.
at first the school was like "ok" and then "no trans girls in sorority" but then my friend talked to them and they were alright with it again. really weird. also, there's a sister just about as tall as me so i don't tower over everybody
>ya im quite tired aswell tbh but I gotta stay up tonight cause i got work tomorrow night so i need to sleep most of tomorrow ;~;
I'd like to work nights, but I'd need to get like a block out curtain or a foam cutout for my window or something so I could sleep
>unironically thinking anything matters when you're dead
The world ends with you.
Yes but your family, by the virtue of being your family, is forced to put up with your crazy.
That poor hypothetical driver on the other hand is not your family and should not suffer for your wrong lifestyle choices.
You leave people behind. I know you might not care about them but others do.
I honestly can't tell if people clock me.
I rarely get "weird" looks, nobody furrows their brows at me.
I mean...I was at an indoor halloween thing wearing an outfit that showed my shoulders and I just got compliments from some girls and two guys.
>your family, by the virtue of being your family, is forced to put up with your crazy.
i mean you just gotta talk to any of the people here that were rejected and ostracised by their family to know that isn't true
>That poor hypothetical driver on the other hand is not your family and should not suffer for your wrong lifestyle choices.
i mean it's him or the conductors and passengers of an express train so better one than many right?
and if society would just institutionalise and sedate trannies that can't reasonably treat their dyshproia i wouldn't have to do anything like this
I don't understand what kind of reaction you expect after being clocked.
The cisquisition will not make you repent your tranny ways or be burned at a stake. People will not pelt you with rotten fruit. At most they'll roll their eyes.
>wisdom teeth still hurting like fuck
just kill me
>are you doing anything for halloween?
Nope, no plans. Probably gonna watch a bunch of horror films though.
Going to see Anathema on Sunday though.
I guess your working huh, you gonna dress up?
>i mean you just gotta talk to any of the people here that were rejected and ostracised by their family to know that isn't true
After seeing just how infantile some people here are, I really can't blame them. Like you right now. It's always someone else's fault for your inability to function even at the the most basic level.
>It's always someone else's fault for your inability to function even at the the most basic level.
no, it's entirely on me, i don't think i blamed anyone else (apart from suggesting i should be institutionalised). i fully own up to the fact that i'm a pathetic fuckup who screwed his own life up by being a lazy gay nerd shit
>Tfw bouncing back between crushing dysphoria one day and feeling like I'd do fine as a qt boy the next
>somtetimes, it flipflops back and forth within the same day
you've gotta stop doing this to me
yeah I know :(
still its weird because like I want to txt my mtfg friends and stuff but I'm on a different continent and its dumb
Hey you're me
Although I only feel that way like 60% of the time, and rest I'm fairly indifferent because my male features aren't that prominent
The only reason I'm considering transitioning is because I fear that if I end up aging and becoming more masculine I'll kill myself
if I could look like this forever I think I'd be fine
I feel like I'd be cool with looking like pic related, being a feminine dude (obviously fiction isn't reality but I just don't want to dig through images of dudes right now to find a good example)
This pain. I know it well.
>Not really feeling any dysphoria
>Catch a glimpse of myself in the mirror and see fem features and what could be
>Suddenly fighting off urge to cry
Being a "boy" who passes as a girl is awkward as fuck trust me
there's no way for me to get dental insurance right now
luckily my regular insurance covers operations, which wisdom teeth extraction is, and so they'll cover the actual removal to some degree.
what im gonna do is go to columbia, which charges $92 for dental checkups for uninsured people, and get the insurance codes for the wisdom teeth removal, then i'll find out how much i'll be looking at spending and THEN my parents will help me pay for it and i'll get it done.
it's retarded that i dont have dental, i wasn't aware of this until i checked about it with my mom the other day when i was gonna make an appointment and she was like "oh yeah no the obamacare thing doesnt apply to it so the coverage doesnt extend to u"
>flying to another country for a checkup
Is healthcare really that bad in the states?
No like actual cis boys, like me.
I really hate my voice a lot and get sad when people call me a guy but I think I would be fine with that for a while.
>implying ill ever be anything else
It's very unrealistic but if I was feminine enough to just change clothes and pass I would stay girl mode 90% of the time anyway.
I started right before my 20th birthday
I'm 20 and a half and it'll be months before i can get any, so. Fuck. I wish I hadn't lied to myself when I was younger. I thought I was too old when I was 18, I thought I could make it like this.
Same, but I think I was still 17 then.
>I still have an adams apple and a bit of facial hair
>I'm not gonna be some disgusting man in a dress
>Better just get away from everyone and die in peace
Turns out, I was stupid.
>tfw cooking dinner
>tfw no qt bf to cook for and he tells me its nice or something
cooking for yourself is lonely
Man, I didn't even lie to myself, I full well knew I wanted to transition at 13 when I found out it was possible. I even wrote a coming out letter at 15 but never gave it to me mum. Fucking anxiety. Though I came out at 18 anyway, my mum wasn't supportive until I started transition myself and went full time.
Though at the most even if she was accepting and i came out at 13 or 15 i would've probably only got hrt like at 18 anyway because of how it is in this country.
>non transition because fear
>debated it for long enough i'm pretty certain i don't want to change my mind
>subsequently afraid to let anyone in
>don't want a relationship
>don't even want to try
>don't want sex
>don't want anyone to know
>sorta want someone to do stupid little things with and cuddle
>can't because i gotta push people away
The ride never ends
How do you deal with this shit in between phase where you don't look like a guy or a girl? I've been on hormones for around fifteen months, starting at nineteen, and I plan on doing guy mode until I can afford FFS/VFS/whatever. Basically until I can pass as a woman without having people suspect that I'm trans.
Other trannies, friends, and my therapist have told me that I could pass if I stopped wearing guy clothes but I just don't see it at all.
Having people know I'm trans scares the crap out of me, and it's really inhibiting my social/academic/fitness life. I go to the gym at <6 AM because I'm scared that people will see me and think "oh look a tranny let's laugh at it". I haven't been to a university lecture all semester. I do my entire course from my computer and only show up if there's an exam or an assignment to hand in. I've basically become a hermit.
Fuck, how do I stop being such a little bitch.
iktf... one day I might get a boyfriend who is okay with me being an ugly hon and then I'll cook for him and everything will be okay except he will break up with me like a few days later and I'll experience my first heartbreak and I'll be inconsolable and never get another boyfriend ever
I'm about to go to bed sad because like I'm ten years older than nearly everyone here
but like, take a shower and press your boobs on the glass to make circles... its fun and cheered me up today
so I'm starting to actually get breast growth, like I looked in the mirror and they were pretty noticeably small breasts
which is weird cause it happens so slowly that I feel like nothing has changed
I'm the same but at about 8 months hrt, it's been getting harder to hide the changes to my body but since I wear a hat all the time and I'm 5ft8 people aren't usually able to tell
My problem is my GIC wants me to go full time before my next meeting in January and I'm not sure if I'll be able to do that or not, I'm really self conscious in boymode so I can't imagine how it'll be. I can't afford to miss lectures either since they check attendance
Yeah, my hair is getting pretty long and when I don't have a hat or a hoodie on I look super weird. It's also summer here in Australia and I basically have to wear layers in 30+ heat to stop my boobs from showing. I think I'm starting to get neck pains from having to hunch over constantly to stop them from being silhouetted. Life is crap.
How common is it for the penis to stop working completely? As in no erections, nothing happening down below whatsoever?
I'm pre hrt, and a little bit anxious about that. I know you are guaranteed infertile after 6~ months, but what typically happens besides that? How do different drugs and dosages affect how fast the penis loses function and what function is lost? Are there any other factors?
Bonus question, how did your feelings about your penis change after starting hrt?
I dont give a shit about my dick I just want it gone already. I haven't cum or even touched myself in like 6 months.
I hope you're at least getting or trying to get erections so the tissue doesn't atrophy. Like you don't have to touch it just let it become erect. You still want the most amount of tissue for surgery, dysphoria sucks but so does a shallow vag
I don't know when I went there they were super nice, told me they thought that I had gid and would be fine prescribing me official hormones provided I was full time when I came back for my next appointment. I find it really difficult to say no so just agreed with it, the uk system is weird as well you've got to be diagnosed by two different people with long wait times in between
Also I thought I had it bad last summer in the uk I can't imagine how it must be in Australia
Whenever you are sad just think of all the fun people are having without you.
woman the fuck up and go full time, 15 months on HRT and not full time. what you need to pass and see yourself as a girl (Assuming you really think you're a girl) is to just have practice and experience living as who you are.
Hormones in guy mode will never make you look like a girl. You don't have to do make up just get some girl jeans and a northface and a bra and get your hair styled and walk outside and observe all the fucks nobody gives. they just going to think you look like a girl. Maybe you're not the hottest sorority girl level chick, but neither are most cis girls.
And if your voice is good, once you talk to them, they'll be too much of a pansy to question you, cause if they're wrong it would be the most awkward thing. If someone says something act as if they're wrong. like, "what the fuck, did you just call me a man, what the fuck is wrong with you"
That seems pretty irrelevant to my point. Yeah being trans sucks and "you're never a 'real' girl" but I can live with not buying a tampons/having blood come out my vag for a week every month. You sound stupid but I expect nothing less in this shithole.
no I'm not I'm hip as heck I've got coffee and thick rimmed glasses
i mean, tbh, i kinda wish i could have periods, but at the same time I totally agree that not having them isn't exactly the worst thing in the world
i just don't like being perceived as different from the average girl, whether by myself or others
nah she was just angry that it had come early and was gross and its gonna ruin Halloween for her and then suddenly she stopped, realised what she was saying and said sorry and i kind of felt awkward
but yeah I talked about periods and period dysphoria with an older lady and she was pretty understanding of stuff because menopause, but some other girl butted into our conversation saying how lucky I was to not get periods. cheers fat chick with 3 kids, i'll be thankful for being sterile in the first place as well as not having ovaries, i love being born a freak that will never know any sort of biological parenthood.
>cheers fat chick with 3 kids, i'll be thankful for being sterile in the first place as well as not having ovaries, i love being born a freak that will never know any sort of biological parenthood.
my older lady friend had counseling when she started the menopause because it fucked with her idea of her own sense of womanhood, now shes just a pregnancy scare-free cougar so obv stuff worked out for her
How does one tell an ex/friend that you want them out of your life without falling back on criticism and personal attacks?
I kinda just don't care if someone tries to imitate me
recently someone put on my name and said they were detransitioning, but like, it just doesn't matter to me if some people on 4chan get fed some obvious misinfo about me
I do though
>so please dont
>having my face
You're not exactly pretty. There are lots of cis girls who aren't exactly pretty. It's not nice, but it's not worth killing yourself over.
Have you tried a hairstyle with bangs? I think it'd frame your face better.
I know you all can't really give a good estimate without pictures but I don't want to post any because I'm worried someone I'm not out to might see me, so I'll just ask, what would you say the average persons chance of passing is if they begin transition at 18?
ugh, it's so limited, don't waste it just to end your life especially if you wait long
Use nitrogen, any welding shop has it and it works just as well. There are three shops within walking distance from me where I could get it, that's how easy it is.
good, if you actually try and aren't afraid to go out in girlmode
there are a lot of uncomfortable parts to transitioning early on, but you have to do them regardless, don't put it off forever like a lot of people do
i did that myself, and I'm still kicking myself
storm wasn't so bad here, we didn't lose power but it woke me up a few times in the night
i have a laser appointment this Saturday, on Halloween
this'll be our 4th session and I feel like it's not working that well so electro is likely in my future
hide in your room until no one wants to hangout with you anymore
Is it a good idea to go fulltime when you're "andro-maleish" so that you can get SRS and get rid of the cancer between your legs ?
I'm in Canada , so for SRS , you need to have been fulltime for 1 years to get SRS ... if I start fulltime after 6 months , It'll take another year and a half before I can actually get SRS but I really don't want to wait 2 + years >.<
2 years will go by faster than you think. However going full-time as soon as you can is a good idea for more reasons than just SRS. It won't be pleasant but the sooner you get it over with the better.
at the risk of sounding really stupid how do they assess if you are actually fulltime or not? like if you needed a time period of being full time before SRS can't you just like.. say you are full time and live how you normally do and then just rock up to apointments in girlmode kinda thing? IDK but that is probably what I would do if I needed to.
i think required RLE is an incredibly stupid policy, especially when it's required before you can even GET hormones, but at the same time, I think that once people get HRT, they shouldn't put off going fulltime for very long
Here's a big secret: unless your idea of boymode is full femboy, you will always be andro when you go full time because there's a ton of things you can't really do in real boymode.
Second secret: most people go ft in that kind of timespan and manage perfectly fine.
HRT will not give you a magical understanding of fashion, and it will not fix the social cues your voice has to take on to force it into a more masculine range.
They'll ask your Psy , the school / workplace , probably people that you know ....
"The purpose of the RLE is to confirm that a given transgender person can function successfully as a member of said gender in society, as well as to confirm that they are sure they want to live as said gender for the rest of their life"
You could do that, nobody is going to be checking up on you to see if you're doing your rle. However, I think it's sort of defeating the point of rle, and transition in general. If the end goal is to be perceived as female then it's very difficult to be able to do that without doing some sort of rle, you don't pick up social cues, voice and fashion while in boymode.
Self med anon from a month ago. I haven't learned my lesson and am going back to the skittles.
I went way wrong with keeping drinking and probably eating stuff with potassium in (fuck you plums). What does mtfg eat for a balanced healthy diet?
>still having wisdom teeth
How do you even avoid them
yeah it was mostly wind but right around here there are a lot of old trees barely stubbornly standing that tend to finally come down in these sorts of storms
I was kinda waking and tossing and turning all night but I think it was more cus the storm was riling up our new kitten
I still haven't made any plans for halloween since I'm such a self-hating hermit and sure I'd fuck up anything anyway
I had like 5 laser sessions and they cleared away teh majority of my hair especially more on my face though there was still a scatting left on my lip and stuff and on my neck and my electrolysis person said that those hairs do seem to be more red, after trying both I prefer electrolysis in general
yeah the storm peaked around like 2 in the morning or something so we had power till bed and then woke up to it out but my partner called right away and they got it back pretty quickly,
congrats on the fun time!
y? that might be kinda relevant to how u should go about it
>there are people who actually do DIY dentistry
Getting wisdom teeth properly removed sounds horrible too what with all the jaw breaking
in the uk, RLE is a requirement to get on hormones, often for up to a year. the private system is more like informed consent, they'll want a psych assessment and a blood test from your GP but generally you can get mones within a few weeks... for a price. or you can self med. self med for 6+ months and your clinic will step in and give you mones because after that point, some changes become permanent and you will fuck yourself up if you stop.
oh you're super young, all trans stuff for minors is handled by some children's hospital in London idk
Good to see some orginality is still here in this part of the Internet
I guess for me I will wait a bit to see if hormones do anything tbh I'm just really nervous and shy to begin with & I am pretty meek so IDK.
I also need to fake my own death or something as so far as my parents are concerned
Because it's not a healthy friendship. I still blame him and resent him for breaking up back several months ago, and increasingly think he's a selfish prick. He's in a rough patch right now. He'll use me for emotional support but ranks seeing and talking to me as a low priority when I need it. I'm starting to get tired of it and I'm picking fights with him with little provocation.
yea we're probably not doing anything for Halloween either
we're going to my gfs office party today but I think that's gonna be it
i have a sneaking suspicion that someone there is gonna be wearing the Caitlyn Jenner costume, going off how my girlfriend describes her coworkers
also it takes practice
ah ok yea I was asleep by then and I usually sleep like a rock haha
And yea! It was kinda funny cause my friend and I just talked in the front seat about getting our eyebrows and nails done and the two boys in the back were just like uhhhhhh but it was really fun <3
Came out 26th birthday, rigorously practiced makeup and voice for 2 months and then immediately went full-time the day i started hormones.
Being an effeminate manlet with a background in singing helped.
>I also need to fake my own death or something
I used to think that would be a good idea, but it would be really shit. Just move out, write a letter (say you won't take any phone calls) and hope they write back positively.
Serially, what other people do for diets and healthy eating when medding?
because we have a cruel archaic system with no significant laws passed since 2004. hell it wasn't until 2013 the Royal College of Psychologists or whatever advised the NHS to step in with self medding after a certain time, beforehand they'd either discharge you or force you go go cold turkey before getting blood baselines and starting from scratch, after the RLE requirement.
the uk is shit.
I thought it was all of them, pretty much.
thanks erin ;~;
idk i just don't want to be a dissapointment to them. i just have this real dread about them being like "accepting" but just hugely dissapointed on the inside IDK. i have like four other siblings so its not like they would be extremely upset imo ;~; (i mean they would ofc be sad and upset but they would get over it)
Afaik CHX doesn't do that? They aren't great but no RLE required for hrt
Also afaik it's technically possible to have the NHS fund a private clinic for you but you need to have SOME private sessions first so it still costs and it's a hassle getting the funding sorted cause it needs to go through your local council and UGH
really, CHX doesn't sound that bad. my trans guy friend got discharged the other week from CHX and they gave a satisfaction survey for him to do with question number 1 being 'How likely would you be to recommend NHS gender identity clinic services or Chring Cross to friends or family?'- he wrote 'where else are they fucking meant to go' on it. its a complete joke tbh
>How likely would you be to recommend NHS gender identity clinic services or Chring Cross to friends or family?
>to friends or family
shit that's my clinic, just as well i self med and will be 8 months mones and properly fulltime by the time my clinic appt comes around, heck i said i was andro fulltime since July when i got referred. fuck how terrifying. oh my god. panic.
good luck i'm never getting it then
>you don't want to hurt him
The problem is that I kind of do, eye for an eye and all that, and I'm trying to think of how to not go there. I still harbor a lot of resentment towards him and think that he legitimately never cared that much about me even when we were dating.
I'll try to focus on putting it as a looking out for myself thing. Thanks for the advice.
I have kicked up storms but it miraculously dissapears as well.
Avoid nottingham, and selfmedding/private they cant do shit about. I'm 9 months from private meds and they just said i should go fulltime if i want them to take it over. However that was when i was like 3 months hrt. So they still trip you into RLE/fulltime even on meds.
we not said anything, although he started to call me beautiful now