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goddamnit I overdrew my lips because they're thin and shitty and now i look like a drag queen
I did but it caused such a major shitstorm in my family I had to "take it back" and tell them it was just a momentary confused phase. Things are good again since then did but it does have a bad side effect of having to lie and play pretend around them.
>someone is getting me into wow arena esports
>now i'm starting to want to play wow
Anyone else thinking
>oh well yeah i kinda pass today
then browsing through the internet, seeing the delusional people on reddit and thinking
>god damnit i'm just as delusional i'm a hon fugg
life is suffering
One eventual Halloween I'll have friends and get to go to a party all cute and dressed up. I mean it hasnt happened for the last 20 years but it will. R-Right? ;~;
Oh I already did. Pic related. Family sized pizza and family sized pack of sweets. Plus coke. And some unidentified mushrooms made by my lil' bro.
I am still burned out from last week.
And don't apologize for encountering a rough patch. The worst news are no news at all. You'll be through in no time.
Its super crap but its the hand ive been dealt. Its either this or be excommunicate d from the entire family and disowned. So I just put up with the bad feels that it sometimes causes since I'd rather a non accepting but otherwise gr8 family rather than none at all. But yeah sometimes it sucks knowing I can't be myself around them.
ok girls im actually going to sleep like rn cause i have work really early today
gngn everyone please all be safe
Oh those are a variation on meringue. It's that fluffy, puffy cream made of milk and sugar covered in chocolate. Pic related.
And now you made me eat another one.
hmm i think im gonna go to sleep about now too
i love you all a whooole lot, please do your best and if you have any epiphanies while i'm sleeping about how to make boys like you and want to cuddle with you, i want to know literally as soon as i wake up and not a minute later
Esports is fine . . . . but wow?? I was addicted to it for like 3 years ;_; pls no doto is better.
>playing life is strange
>game feels a bit like my life minus the weird supernatural shit
Also I've noticed a pattern. I like characters with blue hair. Emma from BitW, Aoba from DmmD and as it seems Chloe from this...
Happy halloweenis fellow shut ins. Hope you have a great night and dont kill yourself.
anon whos lurked for years but almost never posts
I'm a walking red flag too just by being trans.
And I can't help it being attracted to alternative girls.
I don't want to trip anymore, it's just not for me.
But yeah, it's fun so far. Been thinking why there ain't a lot of games like this. I don't see the appeal of the same re-garbaged bs franchises we see milked every year/month.
so I had an orchi on Tuesday of this week
I'm still bleeding a couple of drops at a time whenever I pee from the top of the incision, and still have a little yellow drainage at the bottom where the drainage tubes were until the day after
Is this normal from anyone elses experiences? I'm worried I might be healing slow.
It's always good to finish a 26 mile run. Especially in a group of 10.000 other runners. I actually ran a circle around a city.
I would post pictures but least time I triggered angie or some other anons.
You do know I dye my hair and listen to alt music too right? And I have huge daddy issues, like stuff I think I can't ever resolve.
As for crazy girls, they're kind of my weakness. I have a soft spot for emotionally broken people.. maybe because I think can connect with them a lot better. I don't see the point in having a relationship with someone who isn't kind of fucked up too and won't ever really relate to what I say.
I had the drain removed on the second day
its not like a lot of blood or anything. its literally two spots in my pantyliner, a red one where the top of the incision is and a yellow one where the drainage spot was
so I think its just from being too active maybe. I guess Ill see how much Ive bled by morning.
O-okay as long as I can still shitpost with you I guess it's OK . . . . I don't wanna be an autistic weeb alone ^_^
Nah, not in the group but I do use steam regularly so I could look it up. What's the group called?
Of course I know that. That doesn't make you less of a person.
And this might not be as fun as hanging out with emotionally broken people but you actually need as much as stability as possible in your life. Friends, loved ones, family - as stable as possible.
what the fuck, how young are you that HRT is changing the shape of your jawbone?
the movie adaptation of Sphere is waaaaay underrated, it's ridiculous, pic related
kek iktf, no time for good feelings when you're a hon
omg hello cat
why would you even use that angle, use a mirror, like I do
That rings true. My mom is helping me out a lot ever since we made up for past mistakes. I also love my current gf even if I am a complete ungrateful bitch to her. They both shower me with love I don't deserve.
It's one of the reasons I want to enlist. I think the army would help teach me how to commit and not chase after my own ego for once. And you can argue it provides stability...
Same here. Shit Adri, I need to add you on steam friends besides the group. I think we play a lot of similar games. Aaand we're both hyped for Fallout 4...
Who else getting ready to head out tonight!?
No costume but my friends are bugging me and won't let me say no practically, so 2 hours till I head out. Mostly ready already cause.. nervous? IDK. Might grab some bunny or cat ears on the way or something silly.
Loving the wordfilters btw senpai
Also do your worst all, lets see how bad I look today.
Glad to see you at least trying to get out for the night, I'm doing the same. Part of me wanted to stay and be safe but gotta get out there myself.
I'm at the boys house. He's cooking. When he let me in two women were coming out of the apartment downstairs and they looked at me and then looked at each other and then didn't say anything but were kinda grinning and started whispering when I got a bit up the stairs. I hate this reality
Don't worry dear some cis girls are just gossipy bitches that are SO boring they love to look for the next scandle to fill their time with. So fuck them and their shitty opinions it a cute and a wonderful girl with shining personality. Don't let some random cunts ruin your night ^^ <3
Anything above 26 miles.
50K, 50 miles, 100K, 100 miles, the list goes on.
Like the Western States endurance run. 100 miles of ever climbing wilderness. To quote one runner - "the most beautiful place on Earth where I vomited".
Honestly I did the whole Army schtick (and I mean actually lugging around a weapon in shitty weather, being yelled at and doing physical labor kind of soldiering) and it taught me absolutely nothing.
Fuck that. My life goal *is* to be as cute as korrasami and I'm not giving up till I achieve it (or very close to it)
>room is tidy and cleaned up
>girl clothes gone
>they are folded and stacked somewhere else
>vitamin drops that need prescription on my desk
at this point why doesn't she just get me the skittles already.
she has the access. I'm surprised she hasn't figured me out yet.
>keep these clothes
>refuse to cut my hair
>refuse to grow a bear
I'm so embarrassed. I bet she'll act like nothing happened.
This tbqh anons belong in the recycle bin
Not really. I kinda volunteered. Not my smartest move. All I got from that was that I can sleep under almost any conditions short of artillery barrage.
It wasn't even all that dangerous, just mind numbingly boring.
She probably thinks you're a gay guy with a crossdressing fetish. Being trans isn't much of a "real" thing to a lot of older people, they think it's just a punchline in a comedy or the occasional irl freakshow. You can't just wait around for people to realize you're trans if you want to be out to them you gotta tell them.
It depends really. If they're cool and wanted to be friends then cool. But if not id continue on as always. Besides I already have a waifu lol so an asami flirty anon wouldn't change much
Why the fuck am I watching scary movies right now? I hate scary movies.
>tfw Glen died
If Glenn didn't die then how do you explain THIS?
been chillin wit bae all day and saw how spoopy 4chins is rn?? idk if i like it. too scare. hope yall are having a great halloween!
He's a boy and I'm at his apartment and we're gonna get drunk and watch a spooky movie
Everyone said I looked ok even though I feel like I look like a drag queen, it's Halloween so I felt a little more comfortable wearing a dress, and also not presenting female makes me want to die. Hearing my voice every time I open my mouth is already killing me
>tfw friend gets phone call from brother and get left to your lonesome for a bit
How's everyone's Halloween going?
Maddie just know you'll always have a fangirl rooting for you in your corner ^^
>How's everyone's Halloween going?
Halloween was yesterday silly
>Tfw the only person to ever actually love you didn't love you in the right way and it made you feel so horrible that you sabotaged your relationship with them so that you wouldn't have to be around them anymore
>tfw drunk playing video games with no idea what's going on
I thought my sister bf hated me too because he was a country boy and hated gays and blacks but when I moved in with them for a week while looking for a new place I realized he had a thing for trannys.
>be passing mtf 2 years on hrt
>sitting on the couch watching my late night shows
>sisters bf comes home from work late
>he smells like alcohol
>sister is fast asleep up stairs
>he comes in and grabs a beer and sits down to watch tv with me
>I'm covered up in a blanket wearing only a long t-shirt and panties
>he starts making small talk and keeps giving me looks
>he says "I like your hair, it's beautiful"
>I smile and blush then say "haha t-thanks"
>we watch tv for awhile then he works his arm around me
>almost cuddling at this point
>suddenly I feel him run his hand down my leg then back up to my tummy
>he remarks how smooth my skin is
>takes his shirt off, he's ripped
>end up laying my head against his chest watching the rest of the show talking the whole time
>when it's over I turn around and say "i-i'm gonna go to bed now"
>he grabs me by my wrist and says "wait..."
>he kisses me and I kiss back
>making out pretty hard at this point
>have sex right on the couch
>both go to bed like nothing happened
>we keep having sex like this for a while
>then I move into my place and we stop talking
Now at thanksgiving dinners he gives me looks like he's checking me out.
>mom tells me to set back clocks at 2 AM
>i do it right now
halloween is truly the evening of mischief
>tfw anons on /b/ called your body disgusting and posted reaction images with people vomiting
well if you observe certain dietary habits its a little bit easier++ you can clean regularly and use a condom, so
i mean i could probably have spontaneous sex since i enema like every day sometimes
get ready/stay ready i guess
People think I am gross, I don't have a boyfriend and I have no one to talk to.
I am so alone and ugly.
Someone please punch me in the gut.
Why would that trigger me?
I'm impressed that you that much dedication.
I really need to get back to running but have to stick to light exercise still.
>tfw a masculine waistless brick body that would make even the most desperate gay man without standards puke
Everyone from the fittest of the fit bros to local trap experts tell me about squats and deadlifts but I am too weak to lift anything. I barely can raise my body from bed every morning even.
>tfw only know mine over the internet
>tfw she lives 5h away by plane
I will never be brave enough to jump in front of a train
Tfw in China for 9 months... At least I have a cis male bf in the states...
Ikr? It's the cheapest method but it fucks up everything and can't do it whenever you want. On the other hand guns are a bit pricey but ultimately the best.
>guns are a bit pricey but ultimately the best.
Nah, you'd ruin it for people that use guns for things other than robbing people.
Just use nitrogen, it's available everywhere and isn't running out like helium.
I'm nervous and about to leave for a party c-can I have a few (you)s to feel better? ;~;
>log into okc
>offers for the craziest shit including sugar daddies, expensive treats and bisex threesomes on lsd
>somehow none of it seems exciting
>want to light up a cig
>don't want to give into vice too often
>tfw you will never know this feel
Also who /drunkasfuck/ here?
Go someplace with hotter guys like the gym or some hot guy's shower.
There's actually a group of ex-pat foreigners that are all going to college in Beijing called Gender Blender. They're all super friendly whats your wechat? i'll add you if you want and we can talk. But like for clubs, they gay bars are okay, but idk, I just went to like Vix and otherplaces in Sanlitun, or Windows in wudaokou. desu I feel like just going to bars in nanluoguxiang is best though. i think its pretty easy to pass in China.
have fun and dont forget to do it in the name of making sheen happy
okay would a ghoul have an acoustic guitar she can't play?
>not replying to me
>replying to posts after mine
you think i'm a fucking ghoul or something?
why would u even think i would challenge u you know ud win easily @___________@
i can't make a gif of me playing the keyboard though, otherwise i would challenge u desu
well I got back, in crowds of people I felt very alone, I wish I had friends, everything seems so bleak being alone.
I don't think I can go out girl mode anymore for a while. I have so much shit to do to straighten out my life.
Nothing. I was in traffic for an hour going there and I walked around a bit and just felt out of place totally, with no one to be with I might as well been alone. I left early and went to a panda express and ate there. im so lonely
i have not and even if i had the only real sin is being a smoothskin
Why doesn't anyone talk about Cliffy B?
The todd posting never ends
i'm sorry for accidentally shilling fallout 4
don't buy it
paid mods might come post-release too
i've been talking to this mulatto guy, he's really nice and looks good from an unopinionated standpoint, and we have a lot of similar interests and he lives right in town, but i'm scared of dating black people, it's intimidating
This is why I store my clothes with friends when I'm living with my parents
Also, hide your skittles in a laptop case or something else technological old people won't ever touch
cheating is bad but also omfg that's toe-curlingly hot
no, just use wet wipes when you shit, jesus
if you use paper you are literally no better than an animal desu
yeah I used to have that feel as a teen but I ended up realising nobody talks to me unless I talk to them first, you make people be your friends
it helps if I write down topics on my hand because I'm bad at small talk so I'll just talk on and on about the same things at different people until somebody doesn't walk off and seems interested
it was the same at the last bdsm party I was at, I barely knew anyone there so I started telling everyone about the 1965 Indonesian massacre (which was backed by the US and the UK as an anti-communist purge but was actually mostly an ethnic cleansing of chinese immigrants and their descendants) and everyone was bored with me except this one guy who was way older than everyone else, who seemed interested and glad somebody was talking about something mature instead of alcohol and nightclubs like all the youngsters around him, and in the end we ended up talking about loads of stuff and it was good, I think we both had the same feel, so yeah that's how I solve it
>tfw best friend is the stingiest cuddler and you're tired of the flirting game
I spent it nursing a sore jaw, and watching F1 practice sessions & qualifying. I had a couple cracked teeth pulled yesterday. Kinda funny how much I've been noticing what the women are wearing.
Hahaha what are you, some kind of sissy? Who cares what girls wear, it's all about getting them out of it
>Thx high school
Just got home from drinkin and i'm still blaste but omg there was one of my friend's friends there and I know him but I never reealized how hot he was and all I wanted to do was kiss him but my friend told me he's not into gay/trans and it sjust made me cry CAUSE I WANT IT SO BAD AND NOW I'M GONNA DIE
It was a good night tho
>he's not into gay/trans
Well that's rude
I'm not into gays and especially not bears but when my enormous teddy bear friend(not best friend) got tipsy at a birthday party and sat down touching me on a wide open couch I was down for some cuddles
god damn iis that you?
you look great!!! also haen're raved since like 5 years ago so no haha but idk some doods were dressed like they were tonight
although also we had some flamboyant gay guy come up and talk withu s and show us his thong and we were like "ok" but he was very sassy and just kinda ugh so I kept looking at my manmeat I wanted
idk its' been a long night and im pretty destroyed i hope you have fun
There's no such thing as too drunk for edm (:
That sounds like a good evening apart from the contemplating suicide. Please don't forget that you have a lot to live for.
Me too but I'm all out of molly, I just have amt :(
Thanks ^^ Fuck that sounds fun and sorta awkward, but I wouldn't miss an opportunity to stare at man meat. Hope that you had fun ^^
I think its end of the line for me. I cant handle this anymore.
Im fucking sick and tired of living in this shithole of a country. Why do I have to get born in some fucking latinamerican shithole? At least in some african country i would have recieved the gift of death, but nooooo, I had to get born in the tranny limbo, where things arent bad enough to get killed but they arent good enough to have a decent life.
Fuck this, fuck everything, Im tired of this shit. Fuck FUUUUUUUUUUUCK.
hell yea it was super fun! i juts was very upset cause I wanted to do lewd stuff or at least kiss him but it would have made everything awkward and fuck
and I also learned he's like really rich but like I would be fine if he was poor but god damn fuuuuuuck
I'm guessing u haven't gone out yet in your neck of the wood?
That's hard, ;~; I don't know if I'd have that kind of self control desu. Still sounds great. What did you dress up as?
And yeah, I'm just killing time until the afterhours opens, doors at 1 AM ^^
yea it was hell, my girl friend there I told her and I'd get real bad and then look at her and she'd give me this "it's gonna be ok" look
and I went as Napstablook from Undertale, the costume was so hot and uncomgortable I ended up taking it off after a while lol so I was just some fag with makeup and nails done
and that sounds gooood although is that with daylight savings or not
Next edition should be everybody post timelines edition
Also I'm gonna go have burgers at GBK again tomorrow 'cause I'm a fat shit, want to see if they've got their winter menu on yet and I've built up 2 free burgers and 1 free side on the app... might have a persian lamb burger, it's been a while since I had that... or the goan-style indian one...
Awe well this is the night to have shitloads of makeup and nails done and stuff, truth be told I'm not even going in costume tonight ;~;
Its without DST given that officially starts at 2, but thanks for the reminder. ^^ Fuck this is going to be confusing to be on drugs during a time change.
Oh good evening.
How's the day been?
I saw 0 trick or treaters somehow.
AND TIME IS ABOUT TO RESET AND THROW ME IN THE PAST.
Where are you?
I made an appointment with mine and they did Informed Consent (IC) so I just asked her how quickly I could get on hormones after telling her how I felt and I left with the script the same day.
we only met like once a month some times, but i went from march to november iirc
but i was pretty clear from the start that i was only interested in a referral letter and i was certain that i was trans and wanted to transition
First session, "I'm trans here's my story bla bla bla"
Second session, "Here's your letter and an endo I know is cool with shit" (ended up with a different endo that sucks a little cause the one she recommended doesn't take my insurance)