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Does anyone here have experience(or at least resources on) trying to stealth transition while in the military? I'm not sure if I actually want to transition(or if I want to joing the military), but I could really use the benefits and the pay(also I feel it's the only thing that'd make my dad proud enough of me that he could forgive me for being trans)
What are my chances of being able to sneak unprescribed meds in to bootcamp?
everything is so dark outside, nothing feels comfortable, look like shit.
I don't know if I made it clear but it's not just for my dad. There's a variety of reasons I'd like to join. Good pay for someone with no substantial job experience/education, future legislation might mean I could use military insurance to transition if I decide to, it seems like a pretty good deal but with a few hiccups that currently keep me away.
Also y'all do know not everyone who joins the military kills someone or fights right?
yes but I'm also not a masochist, the reason I want to kill myself is to not feel anything, the pain is why I don't just drown myself which would be easy to do here
in a carrier bag, though. only one of them has seen me take them out and she thought it was for acne.
btw turns out they weren't allocating the rooms for presentations thank god so the module organiser dude didn't ask people about their projects
just snuck out quietly at the end before the general Q&A
also I took tea to try and calm down, one sip and blistered my bottom lip, fml
my sister calls me a fag all the time and breaks my things
she's 16 and very much my father's child
Don't do this. I want to enlist too but this will get you in so much trouble. You could get a dishonorable discharge and jail sentence for that.
Just wait like I do and hope the military's trans policy will change.
i think im about 6'1'' or 2 , seriously consider killing myself *-*
phew, i'm gonna make it brah's
>I bet you actually are tho ^^ there are no pure people here, especially not people who fantasize about sinful things like holding hands
but its not likee I would actually do it tho !! it's just something i like to think about.. so it's not really that bad, right????
Who wouldn't want to wear the uniform ;_;
It's also a great career option for people without much money/background. I swear y'all must not have any military family, you guys remind me of a high school girlfriend I brought home who was surprised to see my family wasn't composed of vicious killers because they were military.
>mfw one of my cats drinks from his water dish by scooping water into his paw and licking it out
Friendly reminder flecktarn is the best camo.
Because my life was already at a depressed standstill and I always wished I could have been a girl so after reaching the point of suicide I figure I may as well try transition. Life is still at a standstill but at least I'm girly now.
Holy shit, I'm liberal af but really, you are a hippy ass piece of shit. The US military exists for a good reason, the founding fathers didn't just group up like "lol lets start a murder club". Sure it'd be great if militaries/war didn't exist but that really can't happen, at least not now and not for a long time.
Wanted to be a girl. Then puberty started and I felt like shit like my body was mutating and turning against me.
Most things about being a boy felt wrong. I cried for a week when facial hair started happening, having sex as a boy felt wrong (which the first guy I had sex with noticed enough to comment on).
And when I learned the word transsexual at 12, it resonated with something that had been on the back of my head for a bit already.
Marines a shit anyway.
>tfw mtfg will never form a unit, shoot funs, and form an unbreakable bond of sisterhood
I joined (Canadian though) but quit not long after. Up here it's a bit different, trans can serve but transitioning mtf is hard, not so much because of homo/transphobia but because you can't live as your desired gender unless you get the SRS surgery. Also a lot of reserve units are old boys clubs that hate everything and anything that can't do the job at their top ability which means constant workouts. The CF is great in regards to their openness towards minority groups but still hard and awkward to transition on the job. Also they won't pay for SRS. My recommendation is to transition first and get everything out of the way before joining (in Canada at least). For you yanks I'd say the same unless you can handle a contract for 5 years or whatever your contract lengths are. Pick a good trade too, and don't go infantry unless you can handle the mental abuse you're surely to receive. Infantry us the coolest trade by far but everyone is an egotistical dick who hates weakness.
>The US military exists for a good reason
imperialization and the betterment of the us economy isnt a good reason
>founding fathers didn't just group up like "lol lets start a murder club"
intentions dont count for anything, results do. plus lol founding fathers is a fucking terrible argument
>I cried for a week when facial hair started happening
UGH it was such a fucking happy thing for my parents when my stache came in since my dad is super in to facial hair with like.. waxes and combs and all. It made me feel like shit and they're all like "omg he's going to have such a thick beard just like you"
Thank you electro for destroying something so disgusting.
Isn't hating weakness in the infantry kinda fair? I mean, on the off chance you actually do end up in combat do you really want some weak little shit to be pulling your wounded ass to safety?
>Also they won't pay for SRS.
Unless you're stationed in NB (my condolences in this case), it shouldn't even be relevant at this point.
I will take my unbreakable bonds of sisterhood in a way that doesn't make me a tool of the oligarchs, tyvm.
>tfw only became a degenerate after transitioning
Basically from the moment the first hair appeared to the moment I started doing some electro at 20 (one day I hope lasering dirty blonde hair is an option) I basically kept my small amount of facial hair mostly plucked clean.
I came out to my grandmother basically the same week.
There's a difference between not liking weakness and macho bravado and overexercizing.
The latter actually makes you weaker in the long term because you're straining your body and not actually confronting your fears instead of putting up a facade which will melt away the moment you're in deep shit.
The courageous thing is to keep going when you're scared.
I'm not saying the founding fathers opinions mattered worth shit, they made the AoC which was a huge fuck up, I don't put faith in their politics, that's not the point I was trying to make. It was that there's a good reason for militaries. At the time they were a small country that just rebelled and they needed an army to protect themselves because they were an easy target, now we're (as egotistically patriotic as it sounds)one of the most important countries in the world. We're not a small easy target anymore but we're quite a big one. I don't like the way the military is ran but acting like it's a coalition of evil grunts working for the horrid government villains is just as dumb as acting like the military can do no wrong and is full of Proud American Heroes(tm).
I mean if I could get insurance and hormones while saving money for future surgeries that'd be good enough for me even if I couldn't go full-time.
I always hated myself and never knew why, didn't care about my body, was scared about death yet was fine with being dead. I ate what I wanted and didn't give a fuck about being healthy. I also always hated my body, hated my voice, my hair, and anything that reminded me I was a guy (although I didn't know that was the reason why). I actually believed it was normal for everyone to hate themselves haha.
I also always knew I wanted to be a girl and want daydream frequently about some kind of weird magic or curse happening and I woke up as a girl the next day and loved the thought, didn't realize I could actually transition until recently though and instantly knew it was what was right.
>Thinking about sin leads to sin ;~~; it's OK to be a lewd tho
>< ugh but i wanna be a purrree girl ; ~ ;
i'll never get boys if they think i'm not pure ._.;;
Because there was something deeply wrong with being a boy, and it was impossible to really put my finger on what it was until I knew what being trans actually was, and that transitioning was possible. I hated my body, I hated that it was masculinising, and I wanted to be a girl and could literally never see myself being comfortable with myself unless I took the plunge.
I didn't want to be trans, and still tried to deny it up until I had already been on HRT for a while.
I repressed to the point of breaking entirely and flipped my shit at 17. Then I went from looking like maki to looking like a beardless Ronnie. I was told that I could repress until I broke again or just do it so I did. Feels bretty gud now.
>tfw the armed forces are tied to more political murders in Quebec than even the FLQ
Like, I get it, bad apples, but I've known some army guys and they definitely do not look for mentally stable guys in the canadian army, even at officer ranks.
It's not particularly bold. The FLQ killed one.
Denis Lortie killed 3 wounded 13, and planned to shoot up the National Assembly, only failing because it was in recess, and only being talked down because the Sergeant-at-Arms is usually a Vandoos vet. On top of that the Polytechnique shooter was a copycat by his own admission.
I mean, the ones I knew were at least thankfully not serial killers, but there was a bunch who liked to glorify fascism, some who were deeply into occult shit, etc. Like I said, maybe I just knew the bad apples because who but the bad apples would hang out at Montreal punk clubs, but I'm not entirely sure.
Navy > Army desu
>there were a bunch who like to glorify fascism
I've also known a disturbing number of people who are openly racist and unstable that join the military. I don't know if it's bad apples, the military just sort of attracts gun nuts.
On the other hand I know military people who are incredibly selfless people and who did it to serve their country. There doesn't seem to be much in between.
I'm so fucking happy right now girls, pic related finally made a full version of Firework, and I'm crying from how good it is.
I know a disturbing number of people who are openly racist and unstable that are in college. No matter where you go you find groups of people with issues. We just like to rationalize to ourselves why people are the way they are in order to feel comfortable that we understand and are in control of the situation at hand. I know a lot of great people, and a lot of shitheads from all walks of life, in a number of different settings. Please do not blame an organization for a few nutters.
>implying liking weapons is a bad thing
I have autism so I made a template version of this so people can fill it out
>no money left at all
>pverdrafted at mcdonalds
>owe rent money its late
>have a seven hundred dollar check and a two hundred dollar check not cashed
>have to work an eight hour shift completely with no food in me all day and three hours of sleep and overdraft fee and poor
Honestly worst I've felt in a while
It was a joke at maki too be truthful
Never seen one desu. Plus, putting trigger warnings doesn't mean you're an sjw, it means you don't want to piss them off. Plus Arin doesn't edit episodes anyways.
True, there's bad apples in every walk of life. There's something a bit more disturbing about giving them the tools and means to kill however.
>people who like guns
Don't confuse the two. You should know better than to confuse hobbyists with people like Timothy McVeigh.
>Don't confuse the two.
The term "gun nut" is often used to dehumanize gun owners by people who hate them.
>giving them the tools and means to kill
Take trades courses at college. The fact most of the people there own guns will be one of the least concerning things you run into. The people who leave the chuck key in the lathe, those who fuck around near machinery, the guys who cannot keep track of where they are pointing the foot long flame off their cutting torch, and that one guy who always shows up stoned are far scarier.
>tfw six of us sat around looking at schematics of automatic weapons in machine shop and joking about how we should have a competition to see who could build the best one
i have no idea what religious devotion level i want my ideal bf to have this is ridiculous im not doing this
im serious, i want to talk to you about this and just let you vent about the whole situation
if you aren't somebody i already have on skype my skype is erinccake, add me and talk to me bout this
I just had my teeth whitened. It was very fucking pain full and was more labor intensive than I thought but when they showed me I started crying. I never smiled because my teeth were so shit but now I can. I would show them but they put a blue coating on them for sensitivity and they hurt like fuck.
Hug me sis, I too know those feels
Except I like my hair, props to my mom for letting me grow it out long at 14 and unleashed a fury when my dad said he was going to sneak into my room at night with clippers to cut if off. Based mom. My hair is the only thing I like about myself, salt and pepper and wavy and tempermental about humidity.
At the same time gun nut gets used in weird increments. Like, raifu would definitely be a lot of people's idea of a gun nut.
And on the extremes you have people who think gun nut starts the moment you have a gun at all.
You, for example, are probably fat enough to be a group of people who qualifies.
it's flannel tho
also i have an appointment with my gay hairdresser on friday to unfuck my bangs but idk what to go with considering normal straight bangs look like shit on me.
Stop trying to make this happen. Its not going to happen.
You're going to look like a hon no matter what you try, so why not kill yourself you faggot?
Heya heya. Um things could be slightly better desu senpai
I hereby designate this new meme in hoonour of lgbt (mtf). Check 'em.
for some reason hair metal leaked into the music scene and got in with some punk bands at the time so the aesthetic flourished, we all had long hair and bangs teased up with hair spray so I was super happy I got to be so girly during HS.
Going on my 3rd concsccutive day of being drunk/retarded and I just wanna be sober again lol. I'm too old to party hard like I could as a teenager. What about you friendo? How goes things? ^_^
I'm sorry for the mean spirited bait at the military anons (well not the part about not wanting to be a tool but the rest). I've been feeling shitty and mean spirited all day.
I need to find a way to get my dad out of my life that doesn't involve fleeing the country desu.
Aww anything wrong Maddie? D:
Mhm shit sux sis x.x but it'll be a gud lesson next time I try to go ham lol. Oh nice! Where r u goin if u don't mind me asking? ^_^
At school pretending to be sober and failing hahaha. In the past 3 days I've gotten like 6 hrs if sleep tops x.x
This template was fucking awful let's never use ti again.
Anyone got a guide for what to do with hair?
My natural hair looks exactly like pic related (picture isn't actually of me lol) and I'm kind of stuck for how to actually make it look nice.
i wouldn't even say she's andro, passes well to me in that pic
i dont have bangs and people still treat me weird
so it depends on the individual really i guess
really though i'd do it, i'm just too chicken rn, youre going to look weird at some point anyways
If this is Avery ur hairs perfect and u don't need advice from me desu
If it's not then haha xD
Ok so like how much do you know about curly hair rn..
Do you know about plopping, the CG method, using sulfate free products. co-washing, no-poo , etc?
Yo lemme move in w/ u thnx.....
I want those SPEEDS
I don't work it I look BAD......
Any time I try to dress more fem the more masculine I look. Plus I really only get to choose from summer clothes or light fall clothes (If it manages to hit the 50s during winter) because Florida has shit seasons and I hate it.
Pretty sure it's staring. Nobody ever hits on me, or like, smiles at me. That could be from the bad RBF I got.
>tfw cap out at 10mb download to a server that's basically right on me
Can I move in too?
You should try to smile more. Smiling illuminates the face.
Also my condolences on living in Florida.
Oh hr gonna have a blast!
Frog I'm sorry pls forgive me for we I done ;-; bb pls take me back
Uhhh remember Saturday night how u went rave?? Well I did something realllllly similar and I'm still suffering the after effects >< my shitty grammar or spelling errors aren't a meme unfortunately I'm only at about 70% today
Honestly I feel like she was probably adding the cost of everything else ot that, being at Uni with no job I still manage to pay for literally everything thanks to loans, I'm not sure why she struggled Manchester is a cheap city as well
it'd be better if you had gotten dubs
i think i do
my legs are constantly
bitten up and stuff
your skin is so pretty and prefect im jelly
it's a line that Eninem uses
in several songs
"and Dr. Dree said...nothing you idiots, Dr.Dre's dead he's locked in my basement!"
hi my earrings broke so i bought new ones
theyre huge rings
no idea how they look like yet cause i never looked into the mirror or took pictures....
i'm not a ghoul! i just have natural resistance to radiation!
>cool cats or naughty cats?
its a mixture
like I mean, theres even some cats like mr scruffleface who are cool as heck but is also into some form of organised crime but not murders or nothin.
but then there are some who are just bad eggs and try to influence the group into doing bad things but I just get angry at them and tell them to leave us alone but they never do and then there are the cool cats who just sit around wearing sunglasses and miaowing a lot
i tried to take a pic but they just blend into my hair so yeahhhh
>thats so cool
I don't actually hang out with any cats, I'm not allowed to have a cat as its part of the lease agreement to not have any pets but once a neighbour cat almost didn't run away when I tried to pat it ._.
Just had the power nap of my life senpaitachi.
everything is my boymode, i don't pass at all lmao
You could do with some lipstick in that pic rawr.
>slept for 8 hours
>still feel tired and have a stomachache
o here's mineee
shannon the masks will get rid of redness, brighten your skin, moisturize etc but it's pretty temporary. it's like magic but doesn't last long. if you want more permanent effects the lotion mask method helps the most :o
how many of you still fap with your dong?
who /nakedRN/ here
Best part of finishing classes is taking off my bra
Happy birthday senpai. You can have a virtual hug.
Oh shit it's your birthday? Happy burfday bexe :3
happy birthday bexe!
I only really said it cause it rhymed senpai. Thats kind of cute.
>tfw your waifu was the first happy bday
I steal literally all her images so she puts her name to let everyone know its her OC that I'm shamelessly stealing and reposting
the lotion mask method is extremely common in japan and like it's basically a pearl mask you can do once or twice a day easily and cheaply! um if you want i can send you some info over facebook?
o-oh okie! g-good to know i guess i was like 'drat i missed it'
i just woke up, so
not as much recentlyy. what's been going on there?
>all these birthday sentiments
thank you all of you desu, i feel weird making a giant mass of replies about my stupid birthday so just know i appreciate it a lot <3
Ayyy lmao thanks anon I literally laughed out loud like a retard
>the lotion mask method is extremely common in japan and like it's basically a pearl mask you can do once or twice a day easily and cheaply! um if you want i can send you some info over facebook?
okay, yes good.
OK, I will share my body with the whole class tbqh
my neighbors are rude they are making a lot of noise and woke me up ;~;
>its p cool to come here after bunch of months break and see ppl using my crops still
I prefer your translations desu
>tfw you look totally diff with and without makeup/contacts etc
makeup is magic senpai desu ne
>go to message you
>we're no longer friends on fb
I SEE HOW IT IS ;__;
h-hi oh gosh, t-thanks
:( wow that blows. do you still go there regularly? like why would pol mess with fa of all places?
*fist pumps* the besttt, aROOOUNDDD, NOTHINS GONNa EVER KEEP U DOWN
>still drunk out of my mind
>at school about to operate dangerous and life threatening g power tools and blow torches
Yeah sure I do n t see what could possibly go wrong
>ive never been so proud of myself in my life than when i created this
I would be too tbqh relative
lol at straight white men catching so many feels from being told about white/male privilege and guilt that you go and invent this bullshit "identity" so you can pretend to cry "no, look, i'm marginalised too"
s-still crawly ;-;
that's what I was trying to do cause my roommate likes spiders but NO IT HAD TO ATTACK
exactly and I also got to learn about you all creepy like >:^) (lol jk I don't remember anything)
horray it's ok
I'm like completely upset cause I used to be able handle my alcohol and I've had ONE DRINK AND ALREADY I'M VERY TIPSY WTF HAPPENED
This bitch is a hulking 6'2" freak. I'm not jealous, I'm just pissed off that she posts a selfie every time she posts, forcing me to look at her disgusting visage and buck, gap teeth several times a day because she's a sociopathic attention whore.
yeah my partner is afraid of bugs but doesn't rlly mind spiders and I'm afraid of spiders but don't rlly mind bugs
Um so I'm gunna try to draw some hentai on my metal today to meme and shitpost irl. Can some of u girls post a few simple lewd crops for me to see? I'll try and do it when I have time and repost it lel
this is probably your magnum opus tbqh family
I'm pretty good thanks, how are things with your boy?
I talked to the cute guy at my work briefly but totally messed it up. its ok tho I'm getting over it, it wasn't anything major i just got my words all messed up and was really embarrassed.
How do I stop being so desperate and thirsty and just focus on bettering myself instead of looking to a relationship for self worth and validation?
This is gonna sound strange but read a book. Invest in yourself and your hobbies and try to enjoy your life in general. Somewhere down the line love will come on its own, like a wonderful little surprise.