>8 months on HRT
>face hasn't changed a bit
>still the same "handsome" caveman facial features (nose, jaw, ears, brow bossing) and high germanic forehead I got from dad and his dad while I got typical fag features like DSL, long eyebrows and eyes from mom
>vomit-inducing skinny fat body with narrow waist, no hips and a Hank Hill butt
>me wearing women's clothes = literally a dude in a dress
>be scared to show my honface outside now that I have tiny misshapen breasts
>no sugar daddies will never pay for my HRT as if it even work on my long midface
I mean I must be stupid to continue taking le sugar pills and I feel that I should just stop and kill myself like any sane foreverhon person would but at the same time I am intrigued by where this is all going.
Where a sports bra and same colored undershirt, when possible wear some sort of jacket or some shit over your shirt as well. Titty problem solved for a while. Continue to present as a guy in order to make money.
Conversely, you could always conveniently cripple yourself just enough to qualify for disability.
Post a picture OP. this was me at 8 months. I was just starting to pass in some of my (bad) pictures. Now it's been 18 months and I'm 90% passing all the time.
She reminds me of Carrie Brownstein
This is why I gave up on transitioning. Once they ran that program to show me what I would look like I just gave up. I'm not going to spend all that time effort and money to not look like a girl.
Because I know I will only hate myself even more if I don't look 100% passable female.
I would rather be whole male than a half freak that doesn't look like either. I would probably kill myself if I got to the end stage and was not passable.
It was required by my hospital to do a mock up of what I will look like before they allow HRT. They took a few pics to get my jaw line and bone structure and stuff then it "aged" into what I would look like at various stages of HRT / surgery.
I know those feels. Two years on HRT and I'm still very much a man if a somewhat feminine one. My body, my face, everything. I feel cheated, because everyone was like "hurr hormones are magic" "they will fix you" and I didn't even start that late, I was 23 when I went on them. I know older girls who went on HRT even later and pass 100%.
I guess if I had the money for FFS, electrolysis, and most importantly castration, in a couple of years I MIGHT have the chance to pass, but as it stands currently, I'm looking at a very grim future as a cave troll with cone boobs. Now if you'll excuse me, I gotta find a bottle of vodka my roomie stashed somewhere.