Do you have any mental health issues, /lgbt/?
I have pretty severe ADHD and it makes my life really difficult. I can't understand the passage of time, I forget what I'm saying mid sentence, and it takes me an extra 15-20 minutes every time I want to leave the house because I have to find all my things and end up misplacing things I already found in the process of looking for other things.
Bipolar type II and SAD
Its painful to interact in active customer facing roles and engage in mundane interpersonal tasks. I prefer e-mail and avoid phones and direct communication. If I could reasonably get every essential item delivered and work from home I would probably never leave again.
During upward bipolar cycles I will be somewhat more outgoing, but I've also done completely dangerous things and have spent recklessly on shit I don't need. I also find myself unable to concentrate on most things. Ill start books that I can't barely even get a few chapters into because I can't keep myself focused.
I was diagnosed years ago but not medicated. Can't afford currently and I'm not sure where I need to go to get help.
adhd but not as bad as you
also gender dysphoria :)
OCD w/poor insight, PTSD, and social anxiety disorder.
Meds are awesome. Me + my meds, sitting in a tree.
I have dyspraxia and hypotonia which has left me with both mental and physical disabilities. My shit is currently just fucked right up.
No personality disorders or anything like that though.
MtF here, was diagnosed with ADHD when I was like 9 or so, then with GID at 18. More recently, I got diagnosed with avoidant personality disorder, and i suspect i have BPD given all my self-destructive tendencies.
Side note, I actually have a theory that AvPD is incredibly common in MtFs due to judgement from society, etc. but I've yet to find anybody else who has been formally diagnosed.
i wouldn't be surprised in the slightest, I mean, pds are hilariously common in trans people in general, we're fucked
if i had a dollar for every trans girl i met that told me they were borderline within like 10 minutes
OP here, I didn't get diagnosed ADHD until 19 because I was smart enough/good enough at taking tests that never doing homework didn't reflect badly on my grades. I don't even know how I could be functional in my daily life now without stimulants (which I don't even like taking).
Then I got diagnosed GD at 21. Whoops!
>ADD, anxiety, depression, PTSD, BPD
Surprisingly I am a fully functional human being and at most people only know that I get 'anxious'. I was diagnosed with these when I was in a very shitty situation, and since I've left home it's all been very good.
The only thing I really struggle with is juggling relationships/friends and being alone/getting my responsibilities done(excluding work, which already takes up most of my time). I just can't seem to reassure people that I do care about them, and even when I'm constantly sacrificing my alone time(its really important to me) - I just can't seem to keep up with them. Everyone I know just seems to live in a world where if I'm not with them or texting them for a minimum of 14 hours a day then I'm 'too distant'. This is so exhausting and I don't know what to do because I don't want to hurt anyone, but I also don't want to lose my shit from the overload.
I don't know. I'm functioning. But I have very low self esteem and a problem with emotional stability.
I am also addicted to self harm.
That's some crazy shit. It fits the threads narrative so I guess good for you.
For reals though I feel real bad for you anon. Suicide seems saner than what you're doing.
Get some help.
I used to have really bad panic attacks for about 10 years. Like wanting to kill myself just to stop them. Was treated with every pill in the book. Too many hard drugs as a teen. I haven't had a full blown attack in years but still get anxious from time to time. Drug free now though. Seriously kids, don't fuck around with acid. I would rank it above heroin, crack, and meth for the lasting effects it can have on your life. At least those other hard drugs you can get into recovery and lead a normal life. I honestly thought my brain would never return to normal, and after ten years of hell, it's still not quite right. Others aren't so lucky.
I've done loads of psychedelics. Lot's of DMT, acid, mushrooms, mdma.
From 13 to about 19/20. I still partake occasionally.
The worst drug I've ever done was Datura. Absolutely terrible. That's one to avoid. Seriously.
All in all, I'm basically fine. My problems stem from being trans and low self-esteem.
I've got a good job, a few good friends, a good family, a partner and basically a life.
Not everyone who fucks around will end up like you.
It's a shame that it happened but IMO some people shouldn't do drugs. You being one of them.
That's just it. You never know when or if it will affect you like that. It's literally a roll of the dice. DMT and shrooms are fine. Acid is a totally different story. You can take a ton and be fine then a bad dose comes along and that's it. I'm 45 now and did everything from grade school until my early thirties. You just never know.
Nah, just done a lot of tripping. Let me elaborate.
If you normally have a good time on acid, unless you've got some bad shit going on in your head, you're going to have a good time on acid.
If you suddenly have a bad time, it is not because you got a "bad" tab of LSD. Odds are either your brain wasn't ready, or even more likely, you didn't get acid.
You're right though. The one and only drug ever put on blotters is acid. Also, dealers are the most trustworthy and honest people on the planet - they'd never sell another chemical as acid. Even if it was a chemical the average person has no knowledge of.
I've got to ask though.
It's not possible that had a predisposition to psychosis/anxiety before the drugs?
It's generally Ill advised to drugs if you a serious history of mental illness.
What triggers you?
Have you read the studies about lsd and MDMA helping cure/work through those issues under care of a psychologist?
How the fuck do so many of you have PTSD? Is it just some tumblerina shit like getting diddled as a kid? That's probably happened to most people on this board. Hell that was my crackhead mom's only source of income for a while was drunk dudes paying to come in my room in the middle of the night and get a piece of my ass. But I grew up and got over it. Unless you served 2 tours or watched your dad get decapitated or some shit like that, get over yourselves.
These are exactly the drugs I was talking about. Both often put on blotters, both very different from acid - for the unprepared it can be really easy to have a bad time.
Especially on the nbome series.
Back in the day I got a gram of 2C-I, and later a gram of 2C-E.
The 2C-I was pretty manageable in terms of the stimulant effect, for me. However it was a little pushy at points. I had a good time, for sure - but I probably will never do it again, after all those times.
2C-E was much more pushy with the stimulant effect - it was kind of annoying at times. However, I kept myself together pretty well, and enjoyed myself. Still will never do it again. I shared those grams with friends, and tripped a great many times on both. Shrooms and acid are really all I'm interested now, after trying a bunch of different drugs.
Never actually got out to get a fancy shmancy diagnosis, but the way I always feel depressed and totally worthless & inferior straight up tells me there's something wrong. I can relate pretty strongly to symptoms associated with BPD and AvPD but like heck am I gonna self diagnose.
I'm transgender to boot though, and isn't that generally considered a mental illness?
>mental health issues
Officially I only have Asperger, but I'm also pretty paranoid, suffer delusions, an inferiority complex and I have some pent up anger and frustrations.
That's about it not much special.
borderline personality disorder
avoidant personality disorder
obsessive compulsive personality disorder
post traumatic stress disorder
bipolar type I
about a year ago i was somewhat high functioning but i overdosed on ritalin (i dont have ADHD) and something traumatic happened, and it took me about 8 months to recover, i guess im still recovering but things aren't really that difficult anymore, and im oddly happier than i was when i was a repressed and insecure about myself
How many pills do you people take daily?
I take 1x Concerta 18mg in the mornings plus 10mg IR Ritalin as needed, plus 2x Wellbutrin 150mg and 1x Lamictal 150mg (I don't know if I'm actually bipolar or not but I had an SSRI induced manic episode when I tried Prozac once and there's a sensitization theory of manic episodes that the more you have, the more likely you are to have more in the future, so at the very least I take it as a precaution).
I also take all my hormones (3x2mg Estradiol, 2x100mg Spironolactone, and 1x10mg Provera) for a grand total of 10 pills every morning plus whatever else I want to take daily. I also take Aleve pretty regularly, and Sudafed for about half the year.
Depressive episodes with social anxiety throughout all my life until I got my ADHD diagnosis and meds a year ago at 22. More stable and sociable than ever, got some residue from that resulting lag in social development and discontinuing antidepressants but improving every day and I view myself as functioning as any normal person my age
Also a sleep disorder of some heritable kind since childhood, most likely delayed sleep phase, but I haven't been evaluated for that
Vyvanse 50 mg mornings 30 mg afternoon
My cis contraceptive hormones because periods suck
Melatonin for sleep
At most I've taken 9 in the morning of which 5 were vitamins.
I quit my daily 200 mg of sertraline this summer after two years, was briefly on lamotrigine for withdrawal symptoms which I probably still experience (at that time, rebound depression and anxiety - now disrupted sleep, affect lability, lack of motivationl/interest) but I think they're finally starting to dissappear completely. If I were to become depressed again, I'm going for lamotrigine and maybe just some SSRI in the acute phase, no way I'm doing SSRI for anything but acute phase treatment again - it was very effective but I'm obviously sensitive to long-term withdrawal symptoms and lamotrigine was comparatively much more tolerable
>borderline personality disorder
>avoidant personality disorder
>obsessive compulsive personality disorder
>post traumatic stress disorder
>bipolar type I
This my friends, is a classical presentation of a phenomenon called self-diagnosis
I don't know. Don't think so but I feel like I have a way harder time getting to to people compared to others. I don't like strangers and making new friends is hard despite the fact that I crave and need attention and friendship. I'm 23 and I've never been in a relationship or had sex. Maybe im just shy.
Bipolar type 2 and mild ASD (apparently they got rid of "Aspergers" as a diagnosis, now they just call it mild ASD. I'm not always completely socially terrible, but whenever I'm around people I know but aren't good friends with, I get incredibly nervous. "What if I say something wrong and this person hates me forever, or thinks I'm awful", etc. In general though, I don't really have high self-esteem, regardless of who I'm talking to.
I'm also incredibly slow to finish schoolwork, and I hate myself for it. I'll sleep like 2-3 hours sometimes just to work longer on schoolwork, only to not finish, go to school, and see the disappointment in my teacher's eyes when they give me extra time. It makes me feel awful, I don't want to be given special treatment, but without that time my grades would be even shittier than they already are. The only thing that keeps me from failing every class are my decent test scores.
I have 2 friends, one of which is the only person who knows I'm bi, because I don't want my conservative parents to think I'm an even bigger degenerate.
There's also the depressive and maniac mood swings, though I'm good enough at acting like I'm happy to keep people from thinking I'm depressed.
There's an adorable gay twink in my history class I have a crush on, but I'll never be able to say anything, because I'm fucking pathetic.
In the end, if I could be given just one thing, it'd be someone to hug at night. Someone to talk to, someone to tell you no matter how shitty stuff may seem, it will always get better.
I have a friend who has bipolar/ASD (he still says Asperger's, but then again, I still say I have ADD). Super duper cool guy, he moved across the country to do a grad program but I got to see him over the summer.
What meds do you take, if any? He takes Lamictal and I think Abilify?
I used to take Abilify, which made me insanely anxious, but at least I could finish my work. I was going to therapy for a while, and just starting to calm down on Abilify, when they pretty much had to completely cut me off, due to some shitty CA law that basically says that unless I'm suicidal or potentially a danger to others, I can only get treatment for 15 months.
Your friend sounds like a neat guy, anon.
Absence seizure disorder
Are my mental ones although i dont know if seizure disorder would count,
I have also been getting some neurological issues lately which i need to see a doctor about but procrastinating partially out of fear
Depression and social anxiety. Also I might have light autism. I'm currently taking citalopram (an SSRI), it seems to be helping but I'm still basically a NEET. I'm trying to force myself out more but it's hard, playing video games is so much easier.
I'm autistic and have ptsd, various anxiety issues and possibly seasonal defective disorder,
I'm currently self medicating by burning frankincense because it has mild anti-anxiety properties and I like incense.
That just means they got diagnosed before the DSM-V like me just read it as ASD.
Depression and anxiety. I'm gonna try and get a diagnosis of ADHD as I've had symptoms all my life and really need to do something about it or I'm never gonna amount to anything, but I've heard it's such a pain in the ass to get it dealt with in the UK. Welp.