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Howdy. I dunno if I wanna get out of bed yet or go back to sleep for another hour
ive never understood why you people use "delusional" as an insult though. living in some kind of falsehood, if you can control it, is sometimes just the more logical thing than having to face an otherwise soul crushing reality.
perhaps im speaking from a position of privilege, but everyone has the ability to become someone bigger than the environment they grew up in, im pathetic, yes, but i never even thought who i am today was even possible for me many years ago
Good morning mtfg ~ how is your morning going?
>perhaps im speaking from a position of privilege
To call someone delusional is to imply they can't control the falsehood they live in
No one lives in the real world, it's filthy and miserable and full of humans
Some people just think that their fantasy bubble is real
I woke up having a panic attack after exceptionally vivid dreams
>have a dream Im living as a woman and passing
I'm just horribly damaged and even if I forget them quickly, I alway have vivid dreams
Sometimes the broken parts dream and sometimes it's more vivid
I almost threw up when I woke I was so terrified
okay well clearly you have a greater understanding about the real world than i do, it just seems disproportionate to me, how much negativity im experiencing versus how much negativity im consciously placing in the external world
Iktf. Is that something that happens often? : (
Don't let ur dreams be memea Maddie. Heck I know u can pass if you can get that fit. U certainly don't lack the drive and determination so keep on trying bb I believe in u!
I'm trying to say ur extremely ugly irl and no one wants to be seen with you in a nice way : |
fuck I wanna dream like that
so many of my friends can lucid dream, too, it's not fair
all the dreams I have are nightmares
the ones I remember at least
last night I dreamt I was caught in a school shooting (not at any school I've known in real life)
idk why we get such shit for posting w/o angles, I thought people would prefer it to trips who fuck around and ask how they look using pics what are totally un-representative of reality
Somebody should put together a big chart of unangled pics attached to each trip's name
Not to be bitchy or spiteful, just so people (especially n00bs) know who they're talking to when they're posting in the general, and also just for anybody who's curious.
do people think this is a good idea y/n?
It reminds them of their own inadequacies that they aren't as pretty as they try to appear to be that they are so cowardly they hide behind the veil of annomity to poke fun at others who bring out their own insecurities.
But then you wouldn't be able to pretend you were a girl?
here's the thing though, generally my brain sides with people who think im fat (or at least have weight to lose)
so im gonna keep on keepin on until i hit my weight goal, hopefully
thanks , im kind of not though? my ribcage is definitely larger than u might think, which is why i was corseting so hard for a while. havent had the time or the fortitude to do it recently though
Do you even post fullbody shots round here, though? I've only seen face pictures. You certainly don'tlook fat, anyway, but if there's places where you want to lose some weight then I guess you will need to continue. But in general you aren't fat.
literally 95% of my posts to date are me complaining about how bad I look and how terrible that makes me feel
I think I know
I'm all for facing up to the reality of the situation, anon, why do you think my first trip was literally Ol' Rapey Face?
well I guess you must be good at hiding it in your pics, at least. I need to get a corset for myself, it's a hassle sharing w/ my friend and I think I need one a size or two smaller.
First time drinking while on hrt was horrific. Bought a rose for my roommate and I and could only drink a glass and a half before having to go to bed. Had a nightmare that my teeth were all mangled and broken and my mouth was bleeding blue and green. and shouting please take me to the hospital. Was a gril when I looked in the mirror though so thats pretty cool I guess
N-no I'd probably kill myself you can't fit that in pants either.
Aww thanks madi I didn't used to hurray injections.
This people would do better to just leave at some people need extra help others don't let's stop making this place some vapid popularity contest. When I posted those pictures I was asking for advice not trying to be uggguuu look at me senpai stupid.
Lol who cares that's like saying I'm the most intelligent kid in a class of retards.
Not saying all posters are retarded here just saying being popular on 4chan means Jack shit at the end of the day it's really pathetic.
not recently, but yes, i do occasionally. it seems unnecessary rn because ive been losing weight
i think this is the last one i did post and ive lost about ~12 pounds since then
thanks holic ;w;
also the one u posted isnt steel-boned, right?
u need a steel-boned one to really make a difference
>real sad as normal
i been sad and kind of crazy-feeling lately
>obviously they both cancel out and you actually are about average, it's simple mathematics
yeah thats kind of my thought process too
>So my date canceled on me again starting to remember why I date men now. Why can't I just be asexual?
I responded really nicely with this
And u were like what????? So I clarified it and you fly off on a rage on me? Like ok dude whatever. And you wonder why ppl are tired of your shit. Wcome to my filter list. You are *truely* insufferable and impossible to be civil with. Have a nice life!
REEEEEE it doesn't mater how much I exfoliate before and after or what kind of shaving cream/gel/etc I use, my legs always itch and get rashy whenever I shave them.
Can anyone recommend any alternatives to shaving??
honestly to me I think you look really good considering you are 12 pounds lighter then that pic I think you don't need to lose any more weight at all but saying that I also understand what's its like to not be happy with yourself.
so my advicce is just stop listening to other poeple in general and if you are happy with yourself just be happy and try and acheive the goals you want personally for yourself.
>tfw super tired boy says nice things about me
maybe he'll make me less jaded who knowssss. now i am even more excited for this date tho for reasons other than food and movies!!
like i said, 10-12 pounds ago
ya probly ur right
hey how has transitioning been going for u sluggy?
hey thanks. and no, not really, i hate my job pretty much lol. but OH WELL
ok thats good advice i think
my goals and what i think will make me happy are me being skinnier. so i think ill keep doing that.
Because sometimes you have to call a spade a spade anon-chan. I was legit trying to offer meaningful advice in a civil and polite way at first and then they got confused. So I was blunt with the clarification since using coded language with politeness ended up being misunderstood. And then for me trying to help and just be blunt for a second instead of hugboxxing they fly off the handle and start name calling?? Ok that's when I'm done trying to help that particular indivial.
Things have been okay I guess I got promoted and start my new shift tomorrow so I'm kind of nervous about that. Haven't really been doing to great in the dating game but that's understandable. Back on hrt tho it's on aas right now.
For what it's worth I think you look really good, but don't let others bully you into warping your goals around what they think you should go after. just be yourself and do what you want to do ufufu you are quite a lovely girl tbqh
It helps to actually practice it irl. If you fake it then eventually you're gonna drop the facade. I guess what I'm saying is work on you for a bit till you're truly happy (or happish) and it'll start to shine thru in your actions!
Exactly how does saying no one will want to be with you, help anyone? God your bitch welcome to my fucking filter you cunt. You help people about as well as hitler helped the Jews.
>hey how has transitioning been going for u sluggy?
should hopefully be able to get money for FFS in the next year, so i'm just kind of trying to forget i exist until then.
though I actually started gaining weight and my body is looking a lot better
>tfw boobes only start growing properly 3 years into HRT
I don't think create is the right word, but you can of course improve your personality over time
yeeee it is. he's a mega sweetie. so i am going to try not to be a cunt
idk i mean guys tell me they love my personality a lot, constantly in fact, but everyone here says i'm horrible and vain and evil. so i guess it's more about having the right personality to the right person lol
i kind of doubt that lol
God I'm a fucking moron and I'm soooo sorry. I mistook you for someone else COMPLETELY different (Edgar) since his new name is similar to yours a bit. I 100% apologize and fully accept anything you say about me as true. I was completely out of line and I'm stupid as hell to boot. Again, I'm legit sorry for being a retardes vapid cunt. Mistaken identity is no excuse for how I acted. Sorry u.u I'll post this as anon you can see it u.u (I'm so fucking stupid)
u may be over-exfoliating so that the shaving more easily irritates your skin
there's always epilating/waxing/chemical hair removal if you can't/don't want to go with more permanent removal
just be healthy pls
Idk about creating an attractive personality but you can try to be less of a dick and stuff and confidence is generally attractive
You seem to have made a bit of a mistake in your post. Luckily, the users of 4chan are always willing to help you clear this problem right up! You appear to have used a tripcode when posting, but your identity has nothing at all to do with the conversation! Whoops! You should always remember to stop using your tripcode when the thread it was used for is gone, unless another one is started! Posting with a tripcode when it isn't necessary is poor form. You should always try to post anonymously, unless your identity is absolutely vital to the post that you're making!
Now, there's no need to thank me - I'm just doing my bit to help you get used to the anonymous image-board culture!
lol ye pretty much. i mean when i like a guy i am really attentive, i always try to be sweet....i try really hard to make him happy at all times, i compliment him constantly so he knows how lucky i am to be spending time with him. i try to be the best girl for him ever. but it's hard for me to get to that point sometimes and lately i've felt more like every guy i get excited about ends up not being as great as i thought they were and then i lose interest and start to doubt even more that i will find another guy who will make me feel like my ex did.
so ya. kind of jaded tranny trying to put herself out there!!!
The only way to make amends is to drown Edgar is his bath water.
Yeah, yeah, I'm super sorry about that because I actually HATE being mean to ppl bc it plagues my concious if I do. I don't know a thing about you and I'm sure you're a great girl. I'm very sorry I inadvertantly was a huge vapid retarded unwarranted cunt to you. I hope you can find it in your heart to forgive me one day for offending u like that . u.u;
Well you say that, but as an anon I'm just going to ignore and pretend you're all about leeching money from him, ok?
idk desu, I see where you're coming from, but you will find someone - don't give up! out of curiosity, where did you meet your ex?
> but as an anon I'm just going to ignore and pretend you're all about leeching money from him, ok?
Go get hit by a bus, you sycophantic faggot.
Its not hard to lucid dream focus before you sleep on what it is you want to dream about then as soon as you wake up try writing what you dreamt down.
If you can remember something you did it and it gets better the more you do it.
Its np I'd rather be friends with everybody if at all possible. As for Edgar, she whines on for days and days about the same stuff, doesn't take advise/help well or at all, posts her face alot while claiming to hate it, blames alot of her problems on everything else (thoni do admit her situation is FUBAR), and her constant self depreciating humor is very grating on nerves after reading it for the 100th time. I do t mean to shit on her bc we all have our issuse to work out, but damn sometimes it gets hard to terate the constant bullshit with a smile if the person refuses to accept help while begging for it. . . . . sorry u.u
i might want him for more than that tho
lmao! it's just in ur nature anon i understand.
i'm tryinggggg. i mean i just get so over it, but i miss having that connection. like i'm ok being by myself, but i would like a nice man to be with who is everything i want and who i love. i met my ex on okcupid like 3 years ago and he was the love of my life, destroyed me when we broke up etc.........i've dated a bajillion men since him but it's not the same. which is prob bad cause who knows if i can even love another man if i'm still in love with him but hey i'm tryin
Part of me thinks your joking and did mean what you said but I don't know what's going on between you and Edgar nor do I want to. Cute image BTW.
Also I'm the most hated trip here if you don't hate me now you probably will I speak my mind and I don't hold back so I'm probably not the best person to talk to unless you hit it off with me.
Oh did you meet him there too, didn't know!
I ain't got no answers but it sounds like you're going to need to sort up this still being in love with your ex thing...you're never going to get something like what you had with someone else. It'll be different - but not goodor bad different, just different - but if you're still thinking about your ex it may always put you off that it's never going to be exactly the same, you know
I kind if used to do the same tho I did at least ask for advice a do stuff anyways let's start over I'm holic.
And all these pictures are me I kind of have a fucked scenario too but I'm trying to work on it.
It definitely is senpai
So cute OMG why can't anime girls be real.
haha I get back from visiting relatives, my mom makes fun of me using an exaggerated retarded sounding man voice, I say I'm not tolerating this and I'm going back out, go out for a bit, come back after buying chocolate and eating it, feeling less upset, dad ends up whining at me for upsetting my mother as shes now shut in her room crying.
the histrionics here, and i'm the one going through a third fucking puberty, jesus christ, i'm moving out asap so long as moving doesn't cut into my FFS fund, goddamn
Or maybe I made a mistake by going off on someone that didn't diserve if bx I'm retarded then did the adult thing and apologized and admitted my fault? Ok I guess we aren't allowed to make mistakes and present ourselves as perfect. My mistake. :v
The apology was real. And nothing is really going on between us, I just find her annoying and loud. But that's w/e not every personality type is gunna mesh 100%. But I'd like to try and be friends with u. Idk anything about ur past and I dont really care, its in the past. And it's OK to speak ur mind sometimes. Its better than constantly bullshitting someone. I just try to make my posts helpful and constructive to curb all the drama ya know?
wow I watched my first anime from beginning to end, wft has hrt done to me...
just be charming, it makes things much easier. and be yourself!!!!
i'll be a big strong man for u if u want
t-thanks bby ilu2 gosh
yeahh i didd. you're probably right as well, but idk. the truth of the matter is every time i get into a relationship with a guy who really cares about me i'm just reminded of the fact that i'm not still with my ex and then i think about everything the guy doesn't do that he did. idek how i'm supposed to fix that. we talked about getting married, he went ring shopping, all of his family and friends met me and loved me. i literally went to bed every night looking over at him thanking every deity in every book that i was with him. i wanted to spend the rest of my life with him. like in my head whenever i picture myself with a husband it's him, and he wasn't perfect or anything but he was to me. i've been trying for a long time to erase that image but i've been unsuccessful. so i end things and use boys for stuff and then run. whenever it's different it's always bad and not good. so ya i need a therapist lmao
wow normally my skin is super super sensitive but I've never had any problem with it, weird
that looks bizarre
I know ;-; it really fucking sucks, I wish I'd never been born, my brother should have survived instead instead of dying of the flu as a baby
>get literally whole threads devoted almost entirely to bitching about my trip telling me to change it to a girl name
>change trip to girl name
>everyone refers to me by old trip
what the fuck is this, am I too aspergers to understand or does it make no sense?
anyway ffs korra I stopped posting pics like everyone asked, the only people posting my pics now are people trying to troll me as if I don't know how shit I look
I take the advice I can actually exercise, but a lot of avenues for changing things about my wider living situation are blocked off by either lack of $$$ or by me being disabled, which in turn makes it harder to progress with transition.
>I'm the most hated trip here
you gotta be kidding me there's no way it isn't me
people rate me beneath fucking LILY.
Why did you get banned?
What anime I need something good to watch crunchyroll has a shit selection lately.
oh its cool i accept your appology That's true I mean to honestly I don't really know that many of the new trips so I can't say anything but it dies personally irk me when I'm compared to the new trips probably the same way it irked Kayla when people did it to her. I try to be nice but this place can get to me you know what I mean.
I felt the same after I left my ex, only thing I can say is to keep looking and you WILL find someone better than your ex, just by shear numbers there is someone out there that knows how to push everyone of your feels and everything you do does the same to them, its basic math.
you're not going to be a loser to the right person tho. like i'm a loser but guys think i'm not fo some reason lmao that's just how it is.
uhhh well... in the span of a year after initially breaking up we broke up like 3 more times, i had to block him on all my social media, he blew up on me, called me twisted and psychotic, we were fucking like rabbits the entire time as he was introducing me to even more new people in his life and acting like i was his gf..... we kept dating cause we couldn't stay away from each other. but then i finally ended everything with him a month ago cause i couldn't do the on and off thing anymore and i just wanted to be on...forever. and he was too unsure about that cause of mistakes we made in the past so i told him i understood and i've been trying to move on ever since. he keeps in touch tho. in the sense that he texts or calls me a handful of times every month telling me shit like pic related which he told me a week ago.
r u feelin frisky anna?
i don't really believe that though tbqh as sad as that is. it's not about finding better, for me it's about ...him. uniquely him. no one else is him. he was actually irreplaceable to me. one of a kind. i mean i do hope i find someone else i feel like that way about tho but i've tried for awhile and it hasn't happened so idk. this is why i need to move 500 miles in any direction away from where i live now. i can't keep thinking about him and seeing our friends and living here anymore
Hi nice to meet you! I'm Korra! Yeah I think life is made up of lots of ppl going thru issues, we just gotta try to work thru them as best we can and lend an ear and helpful hand when we can. Pay it forward and the world gets a little happier and nicer you know? I try not to give in to the constant bitching and drama but this week has been really emotional for me. Ha
Kayla so cute and moe ^,^ which amimes? I'm happy for you! <3
Look in sorry ok. I'm going thru a crazy week and I was a bitch. Even if u can be annoying sometimes that doesnt make it on for me to critisze you when I have issues of my own to work out. Let's try to move past this u.u
Oh yeah yeah this place can be alot to deal with on top of irl stuff if you have ppl maliciously fucking with u so I understand. That's why I'm trying to start a little nice/helpful clique to turn this place around a little at a time with quality meanful posts that are helpful and not too hugboxxy (bc its hard enough being trans and depressed then come here and get relentlessly shit on)
>walk into room after going to the bathroom
>partner is watching some porn with a girl shaking her ass with some colorful stuff dripping off
>as I sit down she explains "she just started dipping her titties into icecream at some point, I have no idea what's going on"
ur not gonna shred surrounded by filth with ur NUDETEENASS out?
Idk, people can differ with how they respond to stuff in general or even specific chemicals
Making a mistake doesn't take anything away from you being a hugboxing hon, like... you're 26 years old and act like a 14 year old. Like... fuck off to susan's already, you fake bitch.
Damn, seeing your thoughts on noelle is nice, you'll learn in time hollic is x10 worse.
you dumb fucking basic bitch.
Maybe you wanna change your number, it'll be best for you and him if you can just get on with it - being able to pick up that phone when you are feeling down can't be constructive 2bh
They are awesome twintails is definitely on crunchy roll tho.
Is this you oryx?
I don't know it's not that I dislike you it's that I hate being compared to you I wasn't aware that you we're Edgar sorry.
Until you spend a night in jail cause someone from this site hated your appearance so much they got you arrested you can't have the most hated award lol people hate me so much they bring their hate to the real world.
I wish it was senpai
But sadly girls like that don't exsist.
>tfw never going to have a gf bring me a bento box while awkwardly stuttering and looking away bashfully.
>everyone refers to me by old trip
You shouldn't have had those other trips in the first place. I know it's your autism so no offense, but with your style of humor on a mostly american thread doesn't work. You're the autist trying to fit in with new people making rape jokes before you get to know if people are down with that or not. Just ignore the people that keep using your old names, don't reply to them and move on.
Ilu too. But not everyone thinks the same as you or sees life like u do. Ilu 2 anon
>article on facebook feed about some FtM's transition timeline video
>dumb stupid me clicks on it and proceeds to get all the worst feels
it looks so goddamn easy to pass if you're FtM
>filled all the cliches from that post a few threads back about taking ages to reach actual hrt start date etc.
alright but you could try not misgendering me in your apology next time
Ohh its only been a month and you still talk?
It took me months with zero contact to start to feel normal.
Trust me your judgement is clouded because its still fresh, you'll see the relationship differently after 6 or more months without contact, moving on is easy after that.
it wasn't a rape joke really I mean girls IRL literally think I have a rapey face, some get upset and others are weirdly into that
even my fucking sister says so
reckon you're right about british humour on a mostly american site though
i want to dip my titties into ice cream wtf
choke you and fuck u hard while i cover ur mouth and tell u to be a good girl
u into it?
>ps edie he is creeping me out yikes
IKR LIKE WTF AM I SUPPOSED TO DO WITH THAT
YET HE STILL WON'T JUST LOVE ME
i know i know. lol my mom wants to get new iphones together (6S?) when i go to see her in california for thanksgiving and my first thought was how i would lose all of our old text messages. you'd think it'd be easier for me because of everything that's happened but the only thing that's like worse than him coming in and out of my life crushing my soul is making it so he can't. which is why i'm a mess and dating for me is ridic. i swear this has been goin on forever lmfao
that's probably true, but idk. he told me he was gonna leave me alone now and wished me luck with everything but idk if that's what will happen. maybe if it does i will finally move on?
If your going to insult me at least spell my trip right senpai its
I feel you on that this has been pretty rough too but thankfully I'm trying to work on my issues even saw a therapist about the incident that happened on Halloween. He's a really cool guy let me talk for like hours and he even recommended I watch steins gate been there and done that but how awesome is it to find a therapist that watches anime. He said he could treat me and get me a referral for hrt. So even with the stress I'd a new promotion things are going well.
never heard of it, does it have trans themes? I only want to stick to animes that have trans themes.
oh wow haha
>it's a "panic attack as it sinks in again that I actually have to come out to my family at some point and actually have that conversation with them in the real world not just in my head" kind of feel
guess I should avoid any and all stories about people getting a positive reception from coming out from now on because this is not a nice feeling shit fuck shit
I feel like I shouldn't have used rape jokes to compare it with since I know why you used that name but still. It's like talking about murdering babies in front of a girl you didn't know had a miscarriage. Is that better?
I reckon I am right mate, I feel it's just best to ease into shit here and try to to step on any toes when you first trip because people vendetta post so often.
Also, congrats on getting to the
>ftm is easy mode
stage in your transition
>choke you and fuck u hard while i cover ur mouth and tell u to be a good girl
>u into it?
yeah that sounds about just like what i need.
>IKR LIKE WTF AM I SUPPOSED TO DO WITH THAT
>YET HE STILL WON'T JUST LOVE ME
ugggh the fukken feels
LIKE WHAT DOES HE WANT
i think what you said earlier about moving 500 miles away would help tbqhwu, but yeah....
Shinji is pretty much a closeted mtf and she's the protagonist so yeah.
Steins;gate is another amazing anime with a trans character in it tho she's a minor character to the story.
Wandering son is your best bet but it will make you feel like bad.
Its gonna take a little time to associate this new name with you but I feel u that's a shitty feeling to have and even worse to put on someone else. I also apologize for the misgendering I honestly thought u were wondering yourself as male still(?) Let's just start brand new and forget everything i won't hold anything against u and do my best to be a less shitty basic bitch when I get mood swings. (I secretly hold back a shitload of insanity and sometimes like today it leaks out and I'm seeking professional psychiatric help)
Hi I'm Korra, Noelle! Nice to meet you!
Holy crackers! That is awesome! I'm glad you have help. That's for the best I think. I'm doing the same starting tomorrow but through my local church until I can book an appointment in January at a separate facility.
Ur fun and cute post what's not to like? ^,^
be right over bby
i honestly don't even know what he wants tho other than not to date me. he told me he was like 'trying to get over me' too and i'm just like k well you could like not get over me and we could be together but i guess not. i def need to move it's happening
w-what? dry welll? :o
woof... I got a little ridiculous on here last night. I guess this is me apologizing if I need to.
I got a date tomorrow though! It was kind of in a pathetic way because I asked him why he hasn't asked me out yet after talking to me for like a week and he was like "oh... let's get dinner then. How's Monday?"
Odds are it won't end well but that's okay. He seems like a nice guy, just a bit timid but after all the bullshit on OKC I could probably use someone who's reserved and nervous.
>. maybe if it does i will finally move on?
Yes it will, all the things you're saying are what I thought/felt for awhile after, looking back I'm glad it happened, it made me stronger now.
Now I've gone all lesbo for this girl >>5195214 I'm fucking glad that relationship ended, this one's one in a billion.
I'm just a big lumpy ball of sad today
I don't want to look like shit I can't take my mind of it, nothing I try to enjoy works and I'm supposed to be working on my dissertation but I can't take my mind off how gross I look
Oh I didn't mean the board, lol, I'm just bored this morning, I guess I've actually been having a real life this week so a day off is bleh.
I am glad that boogers at least calming down a bit.
I really don't know why I come here but then I realize it's 9am on a sunday what is there even to do. Waiting til friends wake up to hang out later is all.
I'm happy having shatter again today.. I'm sure this post has no coherency.
Pretty good I guess just kind of upset I can't seem to fund a cute girl that's into me. you look pretty that top really flatters your body and your make up looks good why are you making such a silly face tho.
Wow your church is cool with you being trans that's awesome my church said they we're then they ended up saying that fags we're responsible for all that ails the world today. And always referred to me as a guy but until ffs I think that's just how it is. Either way in happy for you too it's always nice to have a place to vent your issues.
I havent watched it is it that bad I do live the manga.
Well your awesome and adorable duh.
also i know everyone thinks i'm a homosexual as it is so it should come as no surprise that i just bought one of jeffree star's limited edition velour liquid lipsticks. it's suchhhh a pretttyyy color tho i'm so exciteddd ; 3;
i think so!!!!!!!! idk for sure tho. i mean i'm gettin to the point where i could rly live anywhere and i want to be in nyc but it's also kind of anxiety inducing being there 24/7 lol
it might end ok you don't know!!
d'aw ahaha well ok i'm gonna trust you then. i mean like i said he told me he was finally leavin me be so maybe this time everything will be ok. plus i got a date with this handsome super sweet 36 yo man and he's rly qt and cool and seems to want to treat me well so that's a start
>room party gets busted by RAs
>I quickly place myself in the closet
>I hear the RA clearing house inside
>All the alcohol has to be poured out, etc
>hear everyone getting booked
>Come out of the closet and throw myself into one of the overhead compartments before the RAs come back
>RAs and police sweep the room, they open the closet I was in, checking for more alcohol
>they didn't check the overhead thing
>Never got booked
>Literally everyone else did
>go out to meal with dad, nan and stepmum
>not seen them since hrt
>akwardly silent at first
>my meal comes
>"heres your gammon miss"
>dad speaks up
>"wow check size of the gammon he gets"
>waitor glances at me
>wtf look on his face
>keeps glaring at me all fucking meal
>resist urge to cry in front of family
Why does family suck mtfg? ;-;
Steins gate really treats the trans character like shit though. Like, I like ruka, but the way people act towards her is kinda fucked up
>lil miss lewd
Wait til you hear what I got up to yesterday, I have a limp now ^^
I hope when I go up in flames I suddenly discover I'm a phoenix and rise from the ashes. to shred like no one has shred before.
This will happen.
I believe in the you that believes in the me.
Well I'm at church ! Ttyl mtfg ~ (holy shit do inneed prayer to get my mind right this week)
I'm trying to make a 'supportive' straight ally bingo that I can play when around some people as a sort-of-but-sort-of-not joke, what are some good phrases to use?
'well it's really hard for us too'
'pronouns are difficult sometimes'
'he's a transgender woman'
*any mention of Caitlyn Jenner*
what would be some more good ones?
I may have been hanging out with my ex/friend playing games, I may have flirted with him a bit too hard, I may have propositioned him for sex, we may have had really rough sex, and we may be fuckbuddies now.
So mtfg is yeson worth it I think in the next year I will have enough to book a surgery should I even bother dies it really help seeing as ffs is out if my reach cause of my credit I figured I'd raise my credit by getting a plan to get voice surgery and pay it back is this a good idea? Any other ideas for raising credit cause I want ffs before I'm thirty.
Like your hair too it looks good
Thats true poor ruka achieved the dream of being cis but then have it back just so okabe wouldn't be sad and she wouldn't lose her friend.
Well that sucks I guess I won't watch it I'm one of those people that hates when an anime adds shit that never happened or changes a bunch of stuff from the manga. Speaking if manga boku girl get any updates lately?
That sucks. Parents can be shit at times but give them time my homophobic parents eventually accepted me and have even gotten me to a gender therapist.
One that I regret saying back when I wasn't in the know was "Can I see a pic of you pre-transition/what was your name pre-transition"
Asked in honest curiosity but looking back it was pretty dumb
REEEEE your degenerate hampster girl card has been revoked and also ur shut in weeb one too! (Congrats bb I'm glad for u ^^)
oh man I feel so shit right now
why do we have to live in a society where such value is places on aesthetics
I feel at such a disadvantage because I look bad and also I just hate my appearance and I know I should be less shallow and not care so much how I look but I can't stop just thinking about what it looks like when I look in the mirror and what an ugly man body and man face I have urgh
and don't even get me started on my voice
send help I've got things I'm supposed to be doing but instead I'm just wallowing in my bed
I guess by that we can have
'but I call everyone dude'
'if it will make you happy then cool'
'you don't /need/ to have surgery, you're beautiful as you are'
now how about some parent specific trans phrase bingo
>that stuff about steins gate
Spoilers! I'm still watching it ;_;
I'm mostly referring to how okabe keeps on repeatedly calling her a dude, generally treating her like shit etc. I've heard she has to give up being cis though, which is heartbreaking and I expect to be very triggered.
I-i'm sorry i-it was incredibly lewd. W-we didn't hold hands or anything though >.>;
Thanks ^^ idk it should work out OK I hope, we're good friends
Well idk, is a strictly sexual kind of thing something he could handle? As long as things don't get too invested it could work ^^
Omggg can I earn those cards back? I worked so hard for those cards ;.; (also thanks ^^)
Hey son I bought you this cute girl hat cause I know you like that.
I'll live you no matter what you are.
I'm okay with you being a girl son but can you please not get surgery down there.
I know that feel I don't even look at fashion stuff fucking Google.
Sorry I didn't realize I'll shut up about anime the game has the option to date ruka in the game that inadvertently plunging the world into a dystopia. Basically dating a trans girls ends the world :/
Eh the last time he talked about transitioning but only cause he wanted to be sexy a pornstar like Bailey Jay unlike me he did not have life shattering dysphoria when I told him hrt kills your dick he said no man that don't think that happens lol. So I idk probably not the best option should I call him her now?
I mean my parents wouldn't even pretend to be supportive but I guess you can have
"I'm fine with you being trans, just don't dress, talk, act or look like a girl in the house or around us and don't ask me to refer to you as a female or use your new name or pronouns"
"I'm okay with you transitioning but pls can you not change your name?"
and also, at parties with friends of parents, family reunions etc.
"this is our son, he is a transvestite but we still love him, we're so progressive"
atm my dad literally introduces me to his friends as "this is my son, he has aspergers so he's kind of odd"
I thought we only did that on drunk Fridays?
Oh no it's OK I should probably be OK with it being spoiled, it's several years old at this point and I'm just slow ^^; that's fucked up about the visual novel though, I actually had even said "if I were playing the visual novel I would date her" ;~;
>"I'm fine with you being trans, just don't dress, talk, act or look like a girl in the house or around us and don't ask me to refer to you as a female or use your new name or pronouns"
My mom said
>I still love and support you and care about your happiness and health but I refuse to accept your transition and I will never use your name or pronouns
>this is our son, he is a transvestite but we still love him
this made me lol too
How are you Holic?
There is no reason to blame benevolent Google for your dysphoria.
'GET OFF MY BOARD GET OFF GET OFF GET OFF REEEEEEE'
Yeah it's a shit hand and I empharhize. But you have to start taking steps to better yourself and your situation while downplaying the overwhelming negatives and instead think of the positives! It'll be am uphill battle bit its with fighting for temporary happiness and a distraction from constant misery. Try hard to focus on positives and if there isn't any take steps to MAKE one. Wallowing in piry only makes u more depressed. I know. I was there for YEARS. But it can be done if you don't give up. There will still be moments of sadness vfinding someone to talk to either irl or online helps EXTREMWMLY to vent all your pent up emotions. Keep your head up and put your best foot forward! (and stop shitting on yourself that literally makes it worse)
I'm as trans as one can get, I feel the pain of dysphoria even when I do the most mundane of human activities. I can't take this feeling, on hrt my dysphoria really eased up but now seeing so many people do so much better than me on less time on hrt it makes me feel like i will be stuck as a man forever and never pass. Its not fair, at 9 months on hrt i should be dating and having fun and going out and being a girl, but i am so gross that nothing i do is helping.
no im not, don't hugbox
Ya my apointment is on the 12th. I will probably need bloodwork tho. but STUFF IS HAPPENING
>Try hard to focus on positives and if there isn't any take steps to MAKE one
but how? I have no money and unless I pass my degree idk how I'll get a job, even then it'll be hard to compete with other, non-disabled people
I wish I just felt numb, I'd prefer it to this
>atm my dad literally introduces me to his friends as "this is my son, he has aspergers so he's kind of odd"
Because he's not a normal fucking person, no matter how hard he tries to convince himself otherwise.
Such a worthless person.
Holy shit your at 9 months now Jesus how long was I detransed? Cibgrats Kayla I'm happy for you it's a ymv thing even slug was saying after three years her boobs are growing just be happy you are ended up qt thanks to effort and awesome genetics.
The only way is to be a shut in degenerate weeb for a week! You are hereby sentenced to this by the weeb convention against normie scum (WCANS)! Purge the normie from your veins! ( well get the deets on skype private chat later ^^ )
Kayla listen to me. Despite your mistrust and self hatred I legit love you (no homo) and wish the best for you. Please learn to love yourself in spite of your flaws you are so quirky and nerdy its adorable. Idc about your past so try to be happy even tho life is hard rn ok? Look around you. You may not have noticed, but a lot of ppl here like you alot when ur happy. Remember someone loves you for real. ^_^
oh my god have you seen my face
who wants that within a million lightyears of their dick
well duh even I know that, the entire reason he's so controlling and so obsessed with the fear I might be gay or something is because he wants to emulate the western ideal of success as closely as possible, regardless of if it's what makes him happiest, because he wants to fit in. hence us living in a town about two social classes upwards from our actual housing/general cost of living budget, and why he refuses to admit to his obvious mental health issues to his doctor or anyone else. pretty dumb.
No Kayla that title will be mine until I can afford ffs I bet in a year you'll be like moko is now passing and enjoy life. She said the same stuff your saying and it's not true.
Get a job girl with your credentials there has to be someone willing to hire you your like me you helped run a family business that looks awesome on a resume try call center it's really easy to move up and the work isn't stress full at all. Ditto on electro that shit ain't cheap
I was just memeing you
it's either get a shitty job you think you are too good for (I don't think this, I know your situation with your muscles) or suck a dick.
It's a tough world out there.
>>she's straight senpai
>This seems to be a recurring problem for me.
I know I have some lovely people here who want me to succeed but like its so impossible when everyone is so far away. i don't ever mean to lash out at people its just my stress and jealousy that gets the best of me. I don't know what to do anymore, no one ever has advice that fits my life, I feel like the worst off here, even with dysphoria all of you still have a life but for me it has taken everything from me
moko is short and was always a girly extrovert though, also no one has even responded back to any of my applications, when I ask anyone else for help they usually call me stupid and lazy even thought thats not true, I am shit on by everyone in my life and I can't take it anymore.
yeah I don't think I'm too good for anything, I just know I'm weak and scared of confrontational situations (thanks again dad) so if I get told to do something in an entry-level job I'll do it even if I know it's going to fuck me up for a week or more and I could possibly dislocate a shoulder drying a plate too vigorously or something fucking stupid and end up with lifelong issues because I didn't have a job that was suitable for me. these are very real concerns for somebody with health like mine. it's shitty. and I don't even have a fucking diagnosis from a GP yet despite two medical reports from private OTs saying I have it reeeeee
at least if I had a diagnosis I could explain during the application stage what I can and can't do and give medical proof I'm not just a lazy shit not worth hiring
Yeah I felt a bit bad for you when I read about them not accepting your medical reports to get a diagnosis to have something valid to show someone. I hope in the future you can get something official because I don't want you to be some homeless tranny surrounded by lads
Well that's true but height isn't really an issue unless your lumberjack tall like I am. Keep trying I should t have to tell you this but repetition is the secret to success keep applying, keep searching don't give up would you have given up when your company fell on hard times?
And once again the title of most masculine belongs to me.
I hope so too
jesus, even if I were to transition successfully into the most incredible andreja-tier supermodel type this board has ever seen, I'd still have so many problems wrt disability etc. it makes me wonder if it's all worth it a lot of the time
Kind of, yes. I'd like that.
Ooohh, I've never heard that before. I was sad posting a lot last night, and unfortunately I've just been so bored and haven't been doing anything to better myself. I'm writing though and it's really fucking me up too since I don't write about anything happy or funny or cheerful. I just spend a lot of time thinking about the past and usually I just remember and focus on the bad stuff to try to get it out there, into the world, you know? But then I usually don't feel much better until I guess a long time later but even then I don't know.
Whatever. I have a day off today and I'm going to eat a bunch of stuff like... a bagel sandwich and get a giant thing of cookies and milk and chips and salsa and...
Work's been okay too. Since that one girl got fired there's been like a really strange sense of comradery like everyone's afraid of getting fired too so we're all being super helpful and extra nice to each other. It's like a somber mourning where we just try to keep everyone's spirits up. One of my coworkers (the old man who always tells me I'm pretty :3) just really made me feel a lot better about the whole thing saying when he heard a position opened up he was like "Oh nooo! (Caddy)!?". He assumed it was me since I'm the newest and thought maybe it just didn't work out for me, so I thought his concern was really sweet.
Also I have a date tomorrow with a guy I don't really like but pretty much dared him to ask me out so fingers crossed I guess? Idk I might as well give him a shot to be more interesting in person than our conversations have been online. Worse case scenario I'll have a video game buddy I guess.
Verbose enough for you?
occasionally I'll forget what kfc actually tastes like and get a wild impulse to try some after seeing an ad or someone talking about it or something and every time without fail I get sick after a few bites
I'm the happiest one here :D
I feel like I'm constantly winning the lottery, now I remember why I stopped posting here, it's cos I constantly talk about amazing stuff while everyone's feeling down, I'm well aware this annoys most people.
I'm sorry, not sorry.
>chips and salsa
get on that guac train bb
I've been eating avocado sammies all week and I feel like a champ. Like, this tiny little thing can make me so happy I just want you to know how good it can be.
That's really nice to hear about the older guy being concerned, it's nice to know others care about you. My old boss still calls me and asks if I found a job because him and I were the ones that always stayed late and we got to be decent friends. I'm just not in a place to work where you see a ton of people per day, I don't know how you do it t b h.
Aww bby girl I know I know believe me I know so hard it hurts. The anons can be a little harsh and unforgiving because its hard to be nice to someone who is being mean while you are going through issues of your own. : ( yeah I read about how difficult your life is rn and my heart goes out to you. I can only imagine the insanity inducing bullshit you has to put up with regarding your family. I want to help you heal however I can because I've done through alot of similar stuff. I never blames or hated you for lashing out cuz I knew how broken and damages you were and secretly just wanted a friend to understand! Its hard to be nice when ur on the verge of going insane! But just know I love you, maybe evenore than you ve yourself rn. If you ever wanna talk on Skype just ask me for my Skype name and I'll add you for us to talk for hours but only if ur comfortable with that. Ignore the bully anons and don't let them get to u. They have alot of stuff they are dealing with themselves and like u they are lashing out. : ( Is it possible to find some cheap / free counciling irl maybe secretly if need be or is that not feeaiable rn? Imma wrap this post up but please know I love you like a broken sister that is desperately crying out for help <3 (I'm not here to judge u and put u down just understand your story and try to be there when u need someone)
I just need to scream but I'm scared of attracting attention to myself because then someone will figure something's wrong with me and the uni authorities will be involved and my parents might be informed
I try walking out to the forest past the lake sometimes but my legs hurt too much too quickly on uneven ground
(Its ok were both suffering the same half normie half degenerate shut in weeb disease ;_; >tfw no one )
I never had a very hairy chest and HRT is already helping with it but I do have a little happy trail and about 20 hairs around my nipples. Can I ever expect this shit to go away or am I stuck plucking forever? Nipple hair makes me feel like the grossest thing ever.
Look into your university 's counciling / therapy program. Idk what they call it in the UK, but in America they call it student services. You would be surprised how understanding they can be. I recommend it ASAP don't tarry because i can see ur on the verge of something extremely dangerous sis. I'm worried. Pls put aside ur fear and go. Bring an understanding friend if need be
Plucking forever. Those are bits of hair that aren't uncommon to find on cis women, so don't feel too terrible about it.
You can always go with some laser or electrolysis since those are small and cheap areas to do.
>Verbose enough for you?
Oh yeas. It's so pleasant to read posts not revolving around
>tfw no gf/bf/other.
Are you writing for Nanowrimo? Writing things down, for me, had a certain therapeutic quality. By writing them down I would archive them somewhere in my mind and move on. And you should try to break that constant reenforcing of a negative outlook on past events. Give yourself some slack.
I am glad to hear you are doing well at work.
>I have a day off today and I'm going to eat a bunch of stuff like... a bagel sandwich and get a giant thing of cookies and milk and chips and salsa and...
What happened with eating wholesome, healthy foods? I hope this is just a isolated incident.
>Also I have a date tomorrow with a guy I don't really like but pretty much dared him to ask me out so fingers crossed I guess?
Best of luck you temptress.
Yeah depressed people are no fun. It's a shame because I really want to help people, but I can't do that when I hate myself this much.