What is wrong with me, i've always had fleeting feelings of this but lately i've had a lot of feelings of what i can only describe as vagina envy. this can't be normal
Well, many chicks have penis envy, as cis as they may be. Look beyond it; do you want anything else other than having a cunt? Would you be able to live the rest of your life as a man?
And being able to put stuff inside it. And having your crotch naturally smell like pussy, even if you wish it didn't. And having to sit to pee, or at least squat awkwardly, without some sort of helper.
God thank you, someone who gets me.
It's the mundane, everyday shit, you know? That's what's really hot. Like knowing that, on average, you'll take a few more seconds to pee than guys. And that you have to spend a little more money on toilet paper in the long run, because you need to wipe the remaining pee off your labia. And that's just the way your body is built, there's not a damn thing you can do about it.
I don't have a count either, and never will I thought I might be trans for a few years, got pretty anxious over it in college, but finally realized I'm not trans. I'm not going to cut my dick off for a fetish. The mystery is part of what keeps it hot anyway, if I actually had a pussy I wouldn't be surprised if I got bored after a little while.
I completely support anyone doing whatever they want with their body. But at the same time, transitioning is a big deal, and you should have a better reason than "fuck it" before you do it. It's a long, stressful, expensive process that might give you imperfect results. Don't think of the decision as "do I want to be a qt grill with a smelly woman pussy" (as much as you may want that), but rather "do I want to go through the specific, concrete process that is transition today, with all the attendant side effects and drawbacks."