>what you're currently listening to
>you're current feels
>made plans with friend (who is also qt)
>she stood me up to go to Germany
Winterfylleth/Divination of Antiquity.
Worried I have a lot to do tomorrow that I should have done earlier this week. I could be working on it now but I'm not. Weirdly this is tinged with optimism that I won't be forever alone and NEET, although other than an offer of interview at a job I don't really want there's no reason to think that.
>what you're currently listening to
>you're current feels
Feeling bretty good. I just bought a quadraverb, now all I need to do is find a tape recorder so I can start recording my BOC knock off tracks.
Recondite - On Acid
I'm studying so I'm not actually feeling anything
Stayed late in work today, so I don't have to go in tomorrow. Feeling pretty chill.
>tfw qt I was chasing got a bf
>tfw ex gf is doing weird sex shit with her new bf (according to a mutual friend) and for some reason it's really bothering me
>animal collective - summertime clothes
>feels somewhat optimistic and confused
Started dated a girl and not sure it was the right choice. Like her alot, enjoy hanging out with her. but also enjoy being alone. been a while since I have had a girlfriend so I am not use to it I guess
>Wasn't sure if I could handle just being friends with this girl and not even sure if she wanted to even be that, even though she said she'd like to
>Decided to let her prove it, otherwise I'd just let it all fade, since nothing good would ever come of it for neither of us
>She actually does show she wants me around
Feels decent, I suppose
>carefully optimistic about 2015
>hoping I've been reading the signs correctly, and that this older qt at my university is interested in me
not really relevant to my feels, but it's still good:
Looking for a full-time job in my field. Hoping to hear back from a few places soon but I have a feeling when/if I do it won't be good news. I've been acting stranger than normal the last few days. Just want to isolate myself from everybody for a while.
>My exgf wanted to get back together but now she's acting weird as fuck and she got high off mdma for some reason even though she barely drinks and im depressed
>belong perfect life
>got a script for a weeks amount of 7.5mg zopiclone & ate all seven in the space of two days
>thinking back to how great two months of heroin was but my friend's sober & back on his meds now so i'm off doing heroin too
>in the depths of severe depression & bad anxeity
>trying to plan a constructive & ultimately healthy 2015 around worsening drug habits
>qt irish girl who was going to come visit me hasn't spoken to me in weeks and weeks but being respectful of this
>having to sort out therapy again
everything will probably be ok
Similar situation, except we aren't really friends anymore and she's dating one of my friends
I feel the exact way. I've been out of school for a year and haven't had a job or experience in my field. I feel like I'm not good enough. I know I need to get a job because I have student loans to pay but I am just scared of going out and not being accepted. I'm 22 now and wasting my life.
I have a year experience and had an interview back in November but didn't get the job. It's just frustrating not hearing anything back from jobs I'm definitely qualified for.
Just make to keep trying. We'll make it.
When I was 19 I dated a girl who had never been with a guy.
She had just graduated high school and her gf had just moved away from home to go to college on the other side of the country on a soccer scholarship.
I told her friend that I was interested in her, and he arranged a group date thing, and we just really hit it off. Same taste in music and politics(freegans).
We stayed together for 2 years, but in the end she didn't want to be straight, and have a straight lifestyle.
It was the most successful and fulfilling relationship I have ever been in with anyone.
That was 6 years ago.
Fuck you for bringing it up.
My sister hasn't returned my calls or messages in two months. She was the last actual person that i talked to, and who gave enough of a shit about me to talk to me every week.
My parents are both dead. I don't have any friends. I've never had a gf. I've now finally got no-one who'd give a shit if i killed myself, and i'm losing reasons myself
i don't even care anymore about being a virgin, i just want to someone to talk to me and to care about me. the only person who i loved no longer cares about me
Feel like im just not cut out for anything anymore
>have a cold
>it's ruining my winter break
Currently stressed out over having to take an important test on Saturday
i've been alone for so long
i don't want to be alone anymore
I feel like reading
Might buy some books tomorrow
im just hearing it before i hate it, none of that prejudgment shit nawmean
>tfw no gf
Excited to see them in a few weeks live with Less Than Jake.
nah bud, it's ok, She's fat now Haahaahaha
I'm okay with it, lesbians are trouble though man.
Being gay is like a cultural Identity thing, they have to have that shit to be themselves.
Obviously I'm generalizing, but if she's like a gay activist type, just stay away.
I like this album. I can understand why someone might not like this album, but I cannot understand why so many people hate it. I think they resent it, but I don't understand why.
I'm listening to my interface mic preamp make this horrible unacceptible fucking noise that's prevented me from recording all - fucking - week. I'm frustrated and a lilbit fuckem pissed off.
nightcore rock feller street
i feel like shit, i am in a shitty university and ive been trying tests for better unis for 3 years and still nothing, i feel like i will never trully archive anything in my life
>tfw I get to hear new music of hers a month on Friday
IDGAF if it's all Didney covers, she's a goddamn angel
>tfw no qt chanteuse gf
Also I'm starting to realize just how much more money I have now I'm working, which means I can buy shit now, did a bit of window shopping and I can feel the things calling me, I must have the things, I will have them soon.
I saw them in August, enjoy it man.
I'm having strong feels at this because I used to blast it on the happiest days of my life
God damn it stop randomly sending texts, that would help both of us a lot asshole
post a fit fuccboi
btw is this your gey fucking sqwuad since ur a fuccboi listening 2 asap rocky
gf broke up with me, no friends, nobody in my life
I have had enough of my current job. It has become too monotonous, focused on paperwork and is void of any challenging aspects. I hate my routine in daily life.
>overwhelmed with choices
>would rather just stay in bed
>would rather just be alone than take on someone else's bagage.
>I have enough of my own
>the rest of the world just brings me down
im not asap guy
i haven't browsed /fa/ in like 2 years
how is it?
oh, fair enough. righto then.
>the cover art
m8 you must be shrooming
Mmmm no way bro I think he's yummy as furk ^_^
Listening to a song I wrote and recorded on a whim yesterday about my drinking family.
Feeling kinda low and emotionally confused.
If anyone wants to hear the song I'll gladly share it.
Boards of Canada - Music Has The Right To Children
Eh. I don't really know what I want to do in just about every aspect in my life. I think a like 7/10 is into me, not really sure if I should should try my luck, I might be completely wrong. I really wanna date this qt3.14 that I'm friends with, but we're pretty long distance and she's taken. I'll be able to see her a lot more often in like a year, maybe her and her bf will break up by then.
it usually used to be like that but then everything went george clooney after a large influx of twitter stars (that came out of FUCKING NOWHERE¿¿) started shitting the board with their fake egos (sons of a bitch) and stupid fashion sense
i guess its still bad
>best friend I was supposed to move in with has been missing for 10+ days and the police are still looking for him
>can never seem to hang out with the girl I'm talking to cause she's "busy" apparently, but I'm such an angry person that I really think she's just a fucking bitch
>really just want to know if my friend is dead
>terrified that if I just keep drinking all of this stress off my manic depression and serious panic disorder that I just spent 3 years getting rid of will get triggered again
I don't have time for lying whores. I don't have the heart for more people dying
Pop. 1280 - The Horror
feelin' less lonely than usual, dreading the end of winter break and going back to college
Currently listening to 'The Notwist" hehe did you guys like their album
Feelin ok just got back from a trip w/ my dad where I had no internet and that is why I couldn't talk to my best friend kazak speaking of which hey is kazak around here??
i just have some innate angst towards those kinds of british accents, like some are tolerable to me but i just can't take it when it's like his. maybe ill get past it at some point
and after reading this again it really makes me think he is dead, cause nothing else really does make sense. Hasn't gone to work in 10 days and no one has heard anything from him
>Buzzbomb by: Dead Kennedys
Pissed off at my Jew boss, my annoying co-workers, and it's fucking -6 fahrenheit. Chicago is an awesome place to live, but fuck warehouse work in the winter. Depressing as shit. At least I'm finally home.
I'm too much of a nihilist to care about myself or anything ever.
I found an Olympic skier on tinder this weekend. But we didn't match. That would have been funny. I would have been happy
Now I'm listening to Benji. I haven't listened to it yet for whatever reason. Have been a big fan of Mark Kozelek's work for ~5 years I think. This sounds just like the last Sun Kil Moon album but with less mean lyrics which is good
>Hey I saw you on Tinder.
>What do you think of it?
>I'm a little skeptical of it, but I've met some nice people.
>Sadly, No Fireworks yet.
>How's you're luck been?
>Oh yeah? Guess we're in the same boat huh? (laughs)
>Want sum fuc?
I know those feels man, my dad's a "recovered" alcoholic (he just binge drinks in hiding, he thinks we don't know but we do.). It probably sucks even more for you since it's not just one person. Best of luck with it, man.
Duuuuuuude fuckin dead on. Me too breh.
>Teen Suicide - Waste Yrself
>ok, i guess. very disappointed with myself for where i am in life right now.
Listening to Alvvays.
Been going through a cycle of writing music, then not knowing if it actually sounds good or if I'm so used to it after working on it for several hours a day. Then I just get frustrated and move onto something new. Recorded about 2 hours of improvising on the piano and came up with some pretty cool ideas. So kind of a mixed feel right now but this album is very comforting for me right now.
In between shit, was ramshakle glory, but that made me go into an existential crises. Then tried the front bottoms, but they are so obsessed with girls it's sickening.
Now I'm just listening to w/e they played at Sasquatch last year, but most of it is either pop punk about a revolution, aka existential crises maker 9000, or guys being beta and complaining about losing, not talking to, and not finding girls.
My mood is influenced by the shit I listen to, so I'd like to find some happy basic bitch music to make myself like. Preferably not the pop hip hop that marginalizes girls and makes the human race into a rat race for drugs, sex, and money, and preferably not this indie bullshit that turns live into great adventure for love, freedom, and fulfillment.
Is there no living life music?
>tfw you've always had a distant father because of his alcoholism & you're now 22 & he recently got sober & along with it stopped talking to you completely
i guess the recovery groups or whatever told him to take the hint because he was always the one calling me up to arrange shit but it's still weird
>I broke up with my (abusive) ex boyfriend about a month ago
>Was feeling pretty good about it, but a few days ago he found a bunch of my personal information
>He's sharing it with friends and they've been harassing me
>Calling me an ugly slut, threatening to rape me, pressuring me to get back together with him, telling me to kill myself, etc
>On top of my piece of shit ex, I'm stressed about college and work
Listening to Built to Spill -- I Would Hurt a Fly
Drake - Succesful
hate my job, few good friends left the country for half a year, not doing anything meaningful lately. tired, but don't wanna go to sleep because work tomorrow, so might stay up and watch some more tv.
Glassjaw: worship and tribute
>a qt from my childhood started talking to me again
>she seems super interested in hanging out
>she seems vastly different from when I used to be friends with her but at the same time there are things that I like and hate about her now.
>she used to be the kind of girl to like anime OSTs and vocaloid but now has a better social life and romantic life than me and is also interested in music but at the same time she drinks heavier, has way worse grades, and the last time I spoke to her she carried some mental baggage.
>interested and also aroused by how
she morally decayed and changed as a person
>tfw no gf since freshman year
>sorta am semi interested in banging her but not having a relationship since shed probably be shit at it.
I nabbed this off a share thread a long time ago and just got around to listening to it. I kind of regret that I didn't do it sooner as it's really good. Might listen to some Slimegirls later as well. Nice, upbeat chip-pop stuff.
Feeling good too, I guess. I have a few shitty problems that I need to deal with, but I'm feeling optimistic about them for some reason. Other than that, hoarding money at my parents house until I find a better job or feel ready to go to college or something.
Pretty much this sans the co workers. I work at a lumber yard, but I'm pretty much either outside freezing or inside dying of boredom constantly. Depressing is exactly what it feels like. Hope things get better anon.
Head High- Megatrap (Real Mix)
>despite the name its one of Shed's side projects. its pretty much straight-up techno like everything he does.
I'm feelin alright. Got my teeth cleaned, my dad and i got a ton of emotional baggage off our chests a couple days ago, and I feel like I'm making progress in my mild social anxiety and shitty posture.
just hate being in that weird zone between living the good live where you still have emotions that are as extreme as someone starving to death would have, but I'm not starving to death so shit like
becomes as important as starving to death.
i hate all my friends, i hate pretending to be something im not just to keep people around because i need others
i dont like myself
thats fucking terrible
my stepdad used to get drunk and just go on these yelling tirades with my mom taking most of the heat. for years i felt guilty about not defending her but I was in elementary/middle school and you can imagine how scared I was. even though that's in the past, my mom and I are still scared to disagree with him on anything, and he still drinks everyday. really happy that some /mu/tans know all the fucked up shit alcholism brings. much love.
> Toto - Africa
I feel like exploring the African plains in search for undiscovered civilisations.