>tfw you will never be teen in 90s with few rare black metal cassetes and barely functioning walkman
>tfw everytime you have been to visit your dad throughout your life it's been a half hour or so of awkward silence & as such you've developed an irrational fear of silence that you're constantly filling with music playing all the time
I can't say for sure because I don't really keep track but I think the last time I can vaguely remember, I was walking to work in the middle of winter (I'm thinking it was Christmas week of 2013) and I had my glasses off because they were fogging up so I couldn't really recognize this vehicle that had stopped clearly to talk to me.
I thought it was my boss or something giving me a last minute message so I approached it and instead it was my biological parents (I guess they had bought a new vehicle?) and I immediately became disgusted and they asked if they could see me and I said no, I had to work.
same here man. The worst part is that I thought this would hit me like a brick, but I seem to be just fine without him caring about me.
He was always talking about how his whole life he lived for nothing but his children, but all the stuff he always brings up were things he did before I was born. He never really did any "fatherly" stuff for me, but I respected him because he and my mother always told me what he did. A few months ago I just started thinking what I'd actually miss if the guy died the next day, and then it struck me that we don't have jack shit in common and if he wasn't my father I'd probably hate his guts.
We often had fights, but the one we had after I realised that was the last, because I don't really feel the need to make up.
Jesus fuck this hit me close to home. I know that feel, just for a different reason.
>tfw you will never be a teen who is going to see Fugazi in live
>not being a college student in midwest/chicago in the 90's for REAL EMO
>not being a college student in san diego in the 90's for REAL SCREAMO
>only ever find out about this stuff second hand
>never get to see RentAmerica humiliate themselves over a bunch of dried out fucking worms
>tfw you will never be part of the 90's black metal scene in Norway.
>tfw you'll never burn down a church.
>tfw you'll never be swept into Euronymous' weird-ass cult of personality with all the other faintly pathetic depressives in Bergen and end up doing something dumb as a teenager that fucks up the entire rest of your life over your commitment to tremolo-picked guitars being "more ideologically pure" than someone else's
>you will never be part of the Tampa death metal scene in the late 80's making heavy, evil, chaotic music even though nobody knows that they're giving birth to a new genre
Amazon says my helium will be here any day now.
>tfw I have to have music playing or else I get anxiety to the point of crying
>tfw you'll never have a picture of ian curtis's toes nevermind one where you can make out the tone & shape of each toe nail
>Tfw you will never live the life of cocaine and bitches
>tfw you've listened to your favourite album so many times that now you don't even notice it when you try and listen to it
>tfw you will never hear alien music
>tfw you will never have music beamed directly into your brain
July 14 was the last time I spoked to my pops. I we'll never forget this date it was the World Cup final also it was he's last day on earth. Died of a stroke I was 19 at the time scared, alone didn't know what to do. I just played wish you where here all day crying my self to sleep in he's bed.
>tfw you will never be a derelict in nyc when no wave was at its peak
>tfw no sex with non-fat lydia lunch
too many feels at once
>tfw use wireless headset
>tfw moving too far away from the receiver
>tfw can listen to legit glitch any time
Tfw spent middle/high school in my room alone playing guitar and missed out on teenage love.
>tfw want to watch the mortal kombat movie but my torrent program is being a little bitch
what is life where the fuck is the point in breathing anymore i hate everything fuck everyone
>TFW you will never be growing up in a crazy Midwestern town with Steve Albini listening to the Ramones, Stooges, and Suicide while having kids in class who murder cows on the weekends.
This is what you missed
>Fall in love with girl
>Get into a pink bubble
>Bubble get popped
>It's one of the worst feelings in your entire life
>You start fucking bitches with your bro's while you're secretly insecure and just want to be loved but you're too scared to be hurt again
>you will never be a part of the late 80s/early 90s British rave scene
>you will never be a college student in the early to mid 2000s and going to shows and seeing the cool new indie bands like Animal Collective and Black Dice and Ratatat
>you will never be truly happy no matter what cool music you discover
I'm sick of it all, /mu/. I'm just so fucking sick and tired of everything. I can't even describe how unhappy I am.
Please recommend me some music that will make me feel better. I can't go on like this.
>tfw you will never dance with your gf to ballroom music in 1925
>tfw even if you weren't closeted and you got in a relationship you'd fuck something up by being such a judgmental douche
>tfw too scared to even try and start a relationship again
>tfw you know it's your own fault that you're lonely but you don't have the balls to change it
Shush we're trying to whine about our lives here
>tfw You'll never be a teen in England in the early 80s listening to shoegaze and indie pop
>tfw you'll never be this casually hip
>tfw no qt shoegaze gf
>tfw you'll never date Morrissey as he's starting his music career