I've just about lost all will to live.
Does anyone feel like this?
Yes OP, I feel your pain. The funny part is that I'm thinking more clean and rationale now then ever before, and through all this new insight I realize how far behind I am.
There is no improving anymore, no reason to to look out the window and see hope in the air.
My life ended a long time ago, it's just unfortunate I'm still hear watching others live their life.