>tfw realized the secret to ''not giving a fuck what others think'' and self-confidence isn't that i have to boost up my own self image, but rather that i have realized that 99% of people are complete retards, and their opinion about ANYTHING (including me) doesn't matter at all
Phew, just took me 25 years to come to this realization.
Time to life my life (by which i mean, harass girls until one of them gives in)
guys, what do you think is the next phase to me?
right now i did get over a phase of deep sadness, and now i'm in a phase of "feel nothing"
do you think the next is going all smug?
That, or you remain feeling nothing forever, but eventual feel comfortable within that nothingness, and start to fear and hate anything that may change your status quo, even if it would be ultimately beneficial to you.
thats how i lost my virginity at 19, i started out sad, then content and then i realised that nothing i do will ever matter in the long run and to have fun is the goal of all life. Thus i started to not give a fuck. And by not giving a fuck i started going out to bars alone, just got drunk and talked to people. Had fun, and then i got laid eventually. However after 2 months of being a smug cunt i fell back into introversion cause i lost interest in going out and having fun. And now im back at where i started. Alone and empty.
>eventual feel comfortable within that nothingness
my second transformation. not sure about my final form.