How do I just accept that I'll be a kissless virgin who's never had gf now that I'm 31? This was easier to accept when I was younger because I could delude myself into believing I'd find a gf one day, but it seems completely hopeless now that I'm this old.
some advice OP.
Relationships are more trouble, then movies show you. Find a reliable source on craiglist etc whatever and just use the service when you got needs coming on. That's what I did/do.
The reason you would rather remain a virgin than sleep with a pro means you are a completely different creation compared to most men. Hold onto that because it makes you unique and more importantly it is your principles.
Enjoy being a virgin then.
A little thrill should encourage you, at least it did for me. Besides cops usually use these services too.
Sex/relationships won't solve your depression so don't think that you're missing out on the solution to all your problems. Depression and anxiety are just there and you have to accept them for what they are. Also know that many people don't care that you're a virgin at 31. I know our culture at large will tell you that but don't think you're universally hated.
>That's not the point, what's the point of sex just to get laid? It's a fucking waste of time and money.
It's good to realize that. Meaningless sex is just a cheap thrill that will make you continue to feel empty inside. People I know who have a lot of one night stands are incredibly miserable and have low self-esteem.
Idk man, meaningless sex is just to release the load. Rest of the time I'm to fucked up on different drugs and supplements to even care about. Come to think about it, it's hard to find stable relationship when 80% of you depends on what kind of shit you are on currently. I look at what you write and I get a feeling like you're really shy, self absorbed person. You shouldn't think of prostitutes like "fucking whores". They are service providers just like dominoes or your local dentist. They are there for you to resolve your problem(s)(hunger, dental, sex needs etc).
I didn't say otherwise. In fact I'm friends with some prostitutes. I would just never resort to that because it's turning to sex into a material service which doesn't give you any of the emotional satisfaction or reassurance which OP probably needs