Anyone else realise they were a horrible person?
I was sat alone on a bench on my campus this morning, feeling sorry for myself. I hoped in a way that someone would talk to me, take pity on someone looking sad.
Out of my block came a girl I had seen occasionally. I straightened up, smiled and waved at her. I didn't want her to see I was feeling down. Didn't want her to comfort me, not that she came close to it.
And I realised why, all at once. She was ugly and I didn't want to talk to an ugly girl. I didn't want to risk it - a friendship, a relationship. I wanted a beautiful girl.
How could I do that to another person, when I feel so lonely, telling myself I needed someone.. I passed from self-pity to disgust. I wasn't a good person, I didn't deserve anything. I wanted sex and comfort because I was sad.
I try to be nice to others online, but often times I get so annoyed or so hurt that I lash out at others. After I realize what I've done I feel incredibly bad.
I dread when people are like that to me, so why do I sometimes do it to others?
you're just like every other robot on this board
the only reason youre lonely is because you have high as fuck unrealistic standards for women even though you're worthless and bring nothing to the table
so you just blame chad and hate women for treating you the same way you treat them.
Your doing anonymity wrong. One of the prime motivators for coming here is that users can say exactly what they are thinking no matter how vile or mean-spirited. If you want an over-moderated hugbox, go to r/foreveralone.
This is a good sign. You're on the verge of an Awakening, anon. You're realizing that you have the power to change, it's just that change is fucking terrifying and humans are obsessed with their Comfort Zones to the point that they'll stay miserable forever. Know you can change, that the real you isn't horrible. Start reading some Wayne Dyer or something, focus on positive things.
Kek'd very heartily desu. wares my mischief bros at?