I honestly don't know for how much longer I can take it guys. I'm absolutely sure I'm going to kill myself in the near future if things go on as they are right now, and it seems like it will.
Every day is the same fucking one, with minor changes like the weather and stuff. All I do is work, shitpost and repeat. And even if I did replace shitposting with let's say lifting or something else to "better myself", I would still just be doing the same shit every single day. This is truly no way to live, the fact that some of my coworkers have been around for over 40 years, and are still not retired sends chills down my spine. Fuck this gay earth, holy fucking shit. I can't believe something as glorious as the universe itself, filled with such endless possibility would end up this bad. Life is one big cosmic joke. The ultimate kick to the nuts.
>Fuck this gay earth, holy fucking shit. I can't believe something as glorious as the universe itself, filled with such endless possibility would end up this bad. Life is one big cosmic joke. The ultimate kick to the nuts.
That feel when statistically there's a planet out there populated with a civilization where your personality and looks makes you a god
You see what you want to see OP.
Lifes changing you just gotta notice it.
Bettering yourself by jogging or whatever is nice and good for you but unless you yourself is willing to change your world will continue to remain unchanged just like you.
Yeah, sure. Life around me is changing, but my own life is not, and it won't. If I wanted to change my life I would have to save up enough to take risks and maybe escape wagekekery. But all my hard earned money dissapears almost the same day I get my paycheck. Even If I did better myself by jogging, I would just benefit from it by being more healthy at work. It's totally meaningless in the end, as It will just prolonge my suffering by prolonging my death by getting in better shape and health. I just want to be able to travel around, and absorb new experiences, but my limited free time and money stops me from being able to do so.
I feel you anon. All I really want is to find an actual career and not just a job. I wouldn't even care about how much I was making if it was a job I actually enjoyed doing. I feel like if I had that, everything else would start to fall into place.
You gotta make a change. I know it's really hard when you're depressed, since you never feel motivated to do anything, but you should try. Just add one activity to your routine that you don't normally do.
I know this is out of topic. But when I did shrooms I just could not understand why we live in houses, they just seemed like dollhouses to me. I was walking out in nature while it was pouring down, and just laying down under a tree to sleep seemed so natural and comfortable to me. All I wanted to do was just walk and walk and just see where life would take me. My perception of life was suddenly completely changed. I had tears of bliss roll down my face as I was walking through the forest and looking up to the skyes. I looked at my friend and said "Holy shit man, do you see what I do?" and he said "man, I truly do, but there are no words to explain this incredible feeling, just enjoy it". it honestly felt like I was truly living for the first time in my life.
I mean honestly, we are the most intelligent mammal on this planet, at least on the surface of the earth. So why would we not be able to thrive in nature, when other animals are perfectly capable of it.
it might be a more dangerous life, but really what is life without adventure and excitement.
The life we live in this times may be capable of making our lifespan longer. But a long life of suffering, is worse than a short life filled with exciting experiences. I truly believe we have been conditioned to believe that it's better for us to live like we do right now, than to actually live a natural life.
I'm sorry you're having a bad time at the moment. Things will get better soon, though! You just have to make some change. Do you have any friends or family you can talk to? Maybe you can take a trip abroad. That always put things in perspective for me at least.