Good evening, robots. It's Friday night and that means the Feels and Frogs is open again. Come on in, get /comfy/ and share whatever is on your mind. We've got a TV and a jukebox for the creative robots among us too.
Please keep it civil, we want the REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEs at a minimum, and if you're ordering drinks I'll need to see ID to make sure you aren't a normalfag.
Where is here, anon? If you mean this bar, in my experience, robots that come in to the F&F walk out feeling a hell of a lot better, even if only for a while. Your drinks are coming in a minute.
Mind if I put something on the jukebox?
What kind of beer do you have on tap? I just got turned down for this internship and I could really use something right now.
Local's guard here.
I'll take care of him.
*stealthy approach you*
We finally meet again, you cancerous tripfag.
*shakes energically his Samurai's toothpick contenitor and gets the most sharpest one which is going to be fulled by your bloody body fluids*
You came in my tavern, what a stupid thing to do, as it'll be the last one your going to make in your life!
*prepares to stab you with the toothpick while gets another one in the left hand*
Brace yourself, you're fucked kiddo.
*tips the black fedora he put gently on his head when you weren't watching*
SENKETSU DESTROY HIM
*you're now bleeding while not dead yet, the floor is full of your hot blood, but you can see he starts to shake his head*
*his long pony-tail catches your attenction as you keep reaching the After-life*
I was sure that this custom made Kill la Kill sword would have helped me defeating my one best enemy.
*takes some photos to upload on /r/gore while walks away leaving you thinking about your last life minutes*
I'm so happy the place is open. Here's some ID. Do you know how to make a coughee?
I successfully spoke to my oneitis this week; granted we were in a group of people, but I spoke directly to her a few times.
I don't usually join conversations; this felt pretty good.
get me drunk, mate. don't care what it is as long as i can let go of reality. as long as i can take a breath.
I feel like i'm drowning, man. I finally got a job, but it's horrible. i can barely handle the stress from my studies already. with this job i just... fuck, i can't handle it. the money isn't worth it. i don't know if i can quit. less about the money and more about the soul crushing disappointment i'd see in the eyes of my mom, dad, grandparents... I just want to forget.
EVERYONE HANDS UP
THIS IS A HEIST
DONT DO ANYTHING STUPID IF YOU DONT WANT TO DIE
*shoot the Bouncer guy*
I SAID PUT YOUR FUCKING HANDS UP
TBQH I'm. Ot really sure what to do atm. I'm at university and I despise it here. I don't talk to anyone except the person behind the reigster at the co-op. As a result I hate my course and am doing very poorly. I don't like it at home either. My mum's an angry person and gets mad whenever we talk and I think she resents me because she gave up work to have children but cant find any satisfying work now. Not sure whether to stay at university and probably hate it and fail or to try and go home. But i have no idea what I would do if I went home
Also I don't drink, so could I have water please
My girlfriend cheated on me last week. She got drunk at a party and let a guy (apparently briefly) eat her out and (apparently briefly) sucked his dick.
I'm not even mad, just sorta disappointed I guess. I haven't really spoken to her in the past week, I'm thinking I'm gonna dump her.
>mfw she calls me and asks why I'm not there for her
Such as? I can't say the same for other robots but I like hearing other peoples' stories.
Go right ahead, anon. Sorry to hear about the internship. We've got Guinness (the Europoor variety) and some other North American brands. Anything catch your eye?
Coming right up.
It'd be nice if somebody took the initiative, but I know squat about irc and the like. Maybe some other barkeep another time?
Give me a double of your cheapest whisky, and dirty it a bit for me please. I hope you don't mind me smoking.
So - cool place you got here. Not a lot of women, but that's only a plus. I've gotten a little sick of the fairer sex as of late.
Got any Tom Waits on that box?
Ayy barkeep! Gimme a warm Stella. Same as always. Had a nice happening today.
Went to my favorite hole in the wall and only order a few coffees while I read. Came time to leave and pay and I gathered my things and reminded the waiter I had three coffees. "Oh, ok, one dollar." "But I ordered three coffees." "For you I charge for one." "No, three." "No, please, you are good customer only one dollar." Made me a lot happier than it should of. But I do usually stop by once a week and get some tasty, homemade hispanic cuisine. That was my social interaction for the day.
Also the sunset on the drive home was stunning. Any nice happenings today, Barkeep?
I've got a good story for you all from when I was in high school.
> grad Facebook group; I join because why the fuck not
> normalshits talking about their parties and underage drinking, posting addresses of "secret" party spots
> I leave in disgust
> week later, I have a change of heart, realize I can crash parties, steal liquor, and go home
> rejoin, the admin wised up and turned on approved posting
> tfw never get to steal liquor from normalfags
Sucks desu senpai. Can I get a quadruple vodka?
I do now. Who needs training when you've got wifi? That's good news though and I can certainly relate. Difference is I found out my oneitis is a lesbian today.
There there, anon. Let it all out, i'll get you some bourbon.
Sure, anon. Water coming around the pass after I serve a couple others.
We do, actually. It's policy, there's an outdoor deck on the second floor if you want to smoke. Get it out of your system and your whiskey will be ready for you when you're back.
A girl once loved me deeply, and I loved her, but I pushed her away because of my depression and paranoid. She ended up losing her virginity to some asshole after I pushed her away. I feel so haunted now, and I don't know if I can go on.
I'm trying to cut way back on the alcohol, but I can pretend to drink on the internet without breaking that. I'll take some more Revolver ale, if you've got any left.
Currently I'm trying to piece together the will to cut ties to somebody. We used to date, and then in a car accident she suffered brain injuries. I was supportive for years, until it became nearly impossible to talk to her without her threatening to kill herself if I didn't immediately give in to her demands (usually showing up at the grandpa's house who took her in, which was 100 miles away, or agreeing to have sex with her). I never did comply, except once to attend her grandfather's funeral, which was painful. It's the last time I saw her, and she continued the pattern of throwing herself sexually at me until I had to get adamant about refusing, at which point she'd get incredibly emotional and talk about suicide. I haven't talked to her since. That was January, and she still sends me regular messages, to which I never reply.
It's an unusual situation, barkeep. If she was any other human I'd block her number and move on, but her brain injury and the fact that she's the girl I loved back in 2010 makes it different. I know I should drop her, not because "fuck bitches get money" or whatever, but because she's been doing this for years and at some point I have to treat her like an adult and hold her responsible for her actions, brain damage or no. On the other hand, all her other friends have already done this, and she lives with her neglectful NEET aunt while going to a part-time psychological care facility. I feel like if I really do it, it could be her last tie to sanity, although in fairness not responding to anything she says and blocking her from seeing anything on Facebook isn't really doing anything better than that.
For years I held out hope she'd recover one day, and although it's very clear now that she never will, maybe I'm still subconsciously clinging to that.
Had the same happen down at the local before coming here. One of the bartenders' a former reality tv chick, but really nice. She never charges me for the coffee. She even bought me a beer once.
If I didn't know any better, I'd say I recognized you, bratan. Interesting happening, as for me.. Well it's been an absurdly warm week and I mentioned in a previous post that I found out my latest oneitis is a lesbian. The days are getting shorter as winter approaches and I always see the sunset whenever I walk home from college, kind of /comfy/ but also foreboding.
Auch, you don't go easy, do you?
WE ARE TAKING OVER THIS PLACE
FROM HERE ON NOW
A MOVING WOLTJACK IS DED WOLTJACK
2:50 AM, drunk off my ass on cheap wine & beer listening to MRA/Atheist videos on youtube because that is the closest i'll ever get to having a friend.
shit sucks desu senpai
I've been a regular for four years down at the local. It's the only place i feel at home.
They're really good to me there and I only get the company I seek. I often just sit for a couple of hours and stare down my drink, but it's nice to not be given shit about it.
My friend's GF cut herself in my toilet, for fuck's sake. Also, my other friend looked at me when I suggested we went to a bar and said "no... Look, just... Don't take this the wrong way, but just give up. Become a wizard".
Whatever gets you the will to cut ties with her faster, anon. She might've been a great person in the past but it's clear she's become toxic and you've no reason to keep her in your corner for the time being.
Gin and tonic coming around the pass. I'll have you know i'm an accounting major and you just triggered my PTSD.
Ouch. God knows you'll need that vodka tonic. Coming around the pass.
It's a shame you're leaving. Dubs means free drinks, and you missed the part where I mentioned the second floor deck clearly.
Checking those trips, refill coming around the pass.
Sunsets really are great. Don't you worry about me, i'll get over it in due time. It really is a shame though, she's a qt with all too similar interests and the like to me.
As a couple of asides, I'm a retard and forgot to put my trip back on for a moment. I also keep forgetting on the OP to mention that dubs, trips, etc means your next drink is free.
>Such as? I can't say the same for other robots but I like hearing other peoples' stories.
Well. I've been operating heavy equipment for the last four years. My contract ends at the end of november.
It's good money but my heart just isn't in it. But what now? Should I be seeking quality of life instead of good money? One of my ladyfriends tells me I should. But I don't know what would make me happy.
I dunno. I think I want to get my commercial pilots license. I've always wanted to fly.
think i might quit. go back to just studying. can't much see the reason for supporting a life that isn't living.
sure, i'll be poorer. gonna go from 570-ish dollars a month to... shit, i dunno, 120? after rent.
but i think i'd rather be poor than stressed constantly. 5 days a week in a classroom of idiots with studies on the own time is enough already.
don't think i'll be able to come here as much then, though.
maybe i got a shot of asking the chief if i could have other hours or something. maybe that'd work. maybe it'd get me fired.
i was aiming for being a biotechnics engineer when i was younger, you know? at this rate i'll just end up hanging myself from one of the pallets in storage.
think i'm gonna hit the bed. wish i could sleep forever. have a good night mate.
Barkeep, you mind switching the channel? John Mulaney's doing his routine. I think he's pretty decent; not a cringey normalshit like most comedians.
Can you just leave the bottle of vodka with me? Here the money.
I feel like that the only reason I'm still alive is because of my family i honestly have no respect for myself which is weird in a kind of a way as i'm quite fit but that just stems from obsession from 10's at the gym i don't know what to do i've told my self give it until christmas if nothing happens just pull the trigger, i'm not trying to be edgy just honest has anyone been through this before ? I need someone to relate to as i'm totally on my own at the moment
I can't believe that you want me to haul my ass up a flight of stairs, to stand in the cold and suck down a fag, before returning to my drink, just to repeat the process 15 minutes later.
This place have a reputation of being a safe haven for the depressed and lonely.. Smoking goes hand in hand with feels.
The accounting career path is awful, man. Is there any hope for me or should I just become a bartender like you? I've done accounts payable and some other industry work and I just couldn't take it.
This special is great, glad you turned it on.
Life fucking blows, I can't deal with being a disappointment but I also can't bring myself to care about anything other than "not disappointing the people who raised me" which I've failed horribly at.
I am in hell.
Honestly an awesome feel. I'm still happy about it. I feel like a silly child being so happy that a nice immigrant lady gave me a couple free coffees. Love reading my book or hearing some dumb jokes from the waiter. Really my only social interaction and I adore it. It keeps me sane even if I do have to pay for it.
If you weren't on barkeeping duty I'd buy you a drink so my next Stella will be drank in your honor, friend. May happier times see your face.
Hey anon just wanted to say I totally know these feels. I've got a spot I roll around every other night for 3am coffee. Sit there with a book like you and just enjoy being out of the room.
Usually people working the 3am shift have some feels of their own, so it's a comfy environment.
Stay comfy family.
You can do whatever you need to do to get that license on the side while working some job to keep food on your plate. Personally i'm partial to quality of life, I've already deduced I can live somewhat humbly off of $40K a year by myself, but I still want a decent career out of principle.
..Problem is I don't know what would make me happy either.
Take care, anon. Remember that it's always darkest before dawn.
Comedy is great for coping over pretty much anything. Great choice, anon. Bottle coming around the pass, don't do anything stupid with it.
I'm a smoker just the same as you, bratan. Unfortunately i'm just a bartender, I don't make the rules around here.
I'm not doing too bad with it, I've got an internship lined up for the summer next year which i'm glad for, i'm sick of being a NEET every summer. Maybe it just isn't the path for you?
Sounds like a rum and coke kind of mood. This one is on the house, friend.
I wouldn't argue with that dose of sanity if it's cheap. Tell you what, if you can get dubs i'll get you a couple free drinks. Do you smoke?
>Shirley Temple please, I have work in the morning.
My new job is shit and I miss my old one, every single day I hate it and it's only been three months. I'm security at Worst Buy and my job is to be a door greeter who checks receipts on the way out, and ONLY check the cameras if there is someone suspicious. At Macy's it was like the CIA. A whole room with 6 flat screen monitors to watch the 87 cameras we had (which can see over 30 cameras at once), we watched them at all times and only left the office to walk the floor occasionally. We were under cover so I can wear whatever clothes I want. People were caught a few times every week, they'd put up fights so we'd handcuff them, and it never got boring. Now I stand there with my yellow polo shirt and black khakis, with my shitty desk by the door with 1 monitor so I can watch 12 cameras one at a time.
The reason I switched jobs was because I wasn't good enough, they made the mistake of hiring me with no prior experience so I didn't know what I was doing. I told everyone that they wanted me to transfer to a store too far away which they still wanted to. I'm banned from working at macy's because now I know all their security secrets and could use it to steal shit.
I go to work wanting to kill myself. Here I am, a real security guard with home land security certifications, getting paid beans to work beside people with not even a guard license. It was mandatory at Macy's to have it. I don't know what to do. It's too easy for me.
If you don't mind I'll put in some coins for the jukebox. On my last day of work this was playing and still stuck in my head.
Barkeep, I've noticed the jukebox's been jumping around a lot. If you feel like getting into a bit of a groove, here's a comfy Tom Waits album...Just a suggestion: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lndL46jiEFQ
Thanks, I know I need to, every time I hear someone tell me this insanely obvious fact it helps.
I still get full-on depressed at each new text, like seriously shut down, I'm useless for the next hour or more. I'm still attached, but I'm attached to a memory, and the most depressing thing is that it's been so long that if I consciously analyze it I can tell that many of my memories aren't even very accurate anymore. It's almost like the faggy 'waifu' trend, except in this case your waifu was actually alive and loved you several years ago, but the series got a horrible Jersey Shore-tier reboot and you can't find the original series anywhere but you're forced to see your Snooki-tier waifu's latest incarnation air multiple times a week.
Shitty attempt at weeb humor, real attempt at a thanks. I think I really am going to go downstairs and open a can now, sobriety and employment be damned.
Hey barkeep, I've been a diabetic (type1) for 8 years now and i stil cant get the hang of keeping healthy. Sometimes i just feel like theres not even a point because my life has no direction anyway. My oneitis just recently got a boyfriend too
Yeah anon. I like being outside, but I can't stand the stares. I can't help but look at everyone, and I feel like everyone is staring at me. So I like to step outside in the cool night air, keep my head down, and head to the diner. I'll sit in the back reading and sipping coffee for an hour before heading home to watch the morning news. I'll usually Sleep 7am-2pm.
Coming around the pass, anon. That's a great song by the way, fits the atmosphere of this place perfectly.
Is there anything stopping you from trading up?
Mojito coming around, i'll get you some OJ too. Sit by the fire and warm yourself up, you'll feel better.
Well, you DID get dubs. Name your drink quick before security decides to throw you out.
Hasn't really been tonight, by the time somebody makes a jukebox suggestion the previous song was already over. You weren't kidding when you said this album was /comfy/ though.
Glad I could help then, anon. From your description, if it's that bad then take a few deep breaths, sober or otherwise and block her number and the works. Get her out of your head and rebuild.
I must be uneducated, isn't type 1 the kind you're born with that won't go away? Still a shitty feel though, i'll get you some water.
Just a coke please. Cant decide whether I should go to uni or not. I'm probably going to end up as a wageslave anyway and uni will most likely be filled with fucking normies who I will grow to hate. But at the same time a degree will reduce my chances of wage slavery
I feel the same, I feel shackled to my family and friends, especially after I had an acid trip where I witnessed my family and friends being sad at my own funeral. Life is just not fun anymore for me desu.
>commercial pilots license
I'm from a pilot family, if that's your passion go for it, but be warned the pilots' profession isn't what it was even 20 years ago, much less 50. Unions are losing power, even profit margins are suffering -- schedules were better pre-9/11 simply because they didn't have to bend you over and fuck you (as a customer) to even make a profit. Now, if every seat isn't filled, they're often losing money. As a S/A (employee passrider), pre-9/11 an employee pass was almost as good as a reserved seat as long as you didn't need to get anywhere on December 23 or something. Now -- well now it's different.
Anyway, follow your dreams, I'm just making sure you don't think you'll have the same career in the skies as your 55yo neighbor did. Also, if you can, get a pilot's slot in the USAF. It's not a golden ticket to a civilian job, but it does open a lot of doors if you're up to being a dog of the military for a few years.
Coke coming round the pass. Brass tacks, depending on your degree and qualifications you might still wind up being a wageslave, but yes generally the odds of being keked are less. You should consider trade school too, probably an order of magnitude cheaper and just as valuable if the work isn't too unsavory for you.
Sounds comfie as all hell, Anon. Try going in just a bit earlier to be in there with just a straggler or two to build tolerance. I'm sure you know that people aren't really staring at you but I know the feeling. Anxiety is a bitch so I ain't gonna tell you what to do. Keep on keeping on and try to be as happy as you can, anon. Sorry if I'm rambling but I have had a few drinks irl and I feel like talking.
Give me straight regular Bacardi
I've had a shitty day with only one positive.
I left my mic on when I was out getting lunch today. My roommate was talking to this girl that I tried to go on a date with. She kept saying how boring of a person I am and uninteresting I am. My choice of date was shitty etc.
My female friend told me to make an OKCupid a few days ago. I haven't gotten any messages, only a few views from landwhales. I've sent about 25 messages, no replies to any of them. This just ruins any confidence I have; just makes me feel like the biggest piece of shit ever.
The only good thing I got going for me is that I got an interview with Al Jazeera.
Excuse the blood, but I have slit my wrists and neck. It was the intention that I would die in the woods so that it would take a few days before I was possibly found. I belong in the woods and have always done so. No one will understand the reason for this anyway. To give some semblance of an explanation I'm not a human, this is just a dream and soon I will awake. It was too cold and the blood was frozen in time, plus my new knife is too dull. If I don't succeed dying to the knife I will blow all the shit out of my skull. Yet I do not know. I left all my lyrics by "Let the good times roll" - plus the rest of the money. Whoever finds it gets the fucking thing. As a last salutation may I present "Life Eternal". Do whatever you want with the fucking thing. / Pelle.
I didn't come up with this now, but seventeen years ago.
Yeah anon it's super comfy. Step in with shoes tied tight and a warm sweater.
The thing is, when I go earlier it's full (really, full) of people who've flowed out of the bar. I live downtown by hipster bars, so it's not too comfy when they're all yelling in the diner. I need to stay calm
DO YOU FEEL?
Give me a triple espresso. NOW!
Oh. Maybe a bit later (earlier?) and catch the start of the old farts and their breakfast? They're ok company as long as you ain't actually talking to em.
Barkeep, one more please? I want my belly to pop with Stella! I feel jolly.
Ay, fellow type 1 here. 21 years now. For me, it's internalized, but I can't imagine how difficult it would be for someone who had lived a previously normal life. You can do it anon. Being healthy is the first step to making other parts of your life better, so start there.
Can I get a bottle of vodka, bartend? Could use a pick-me-up for the fact that I probably won't ever graduate college due to indecisiveness. Also tfwnogf, but that's a given I think.
I know, right? It's a depressing song but was played over the intercom at Macy's. I hung out in the dress department on my way out (targeted towards old hags so the music is oldies) because before I worked security I was in that department full time for a year.
I can't move up because I don't have enough experience for most places, they require at least a year of security experience. So far with Macy's and Worst Buy combined it's 6 months. I'm being paid beans, only $11 an hour which was a huge jump considering they only pay fifty cents over minimum. It's a dollar away from the company's maximum. Macy's started me off with $12, but now since I have all this experience under my belt my next job should be $16.
I want to put in my two weeks now because my old coworker managed to get me to work in the macy's parade as the toothless dragon balloon and Worst Buy won't let me take off or get a later shift. It's been my dream and I've patiently waited since last year (i missed the deadline reee). If I put in my two weeks I'll be off for thanksgiving, but out of work until I get a new job. Not just for the parade btw.
Same, no idea if it's as bad as yours, but if I don't take pills 4-6 times a day I die, so there's that.
What's the hardships with staying healthy, precisely? Again, I might have a lighter case than you, but even on my poor-man's diet I stay decent. Dental issues (I have a messed-up body) mean I don't eat that much sugar outside energy drinks, so hardly any chocolate or candy, so that's probably a plus.
I make sure to eat meat, even a couple slices of lunch meat, at least once a day. Beans and rice (and hot pockets) make up most of the rest of my diet. I also drink pic related, which is a HUGE help. Not to shill, but even just one cup a day goes a long way towards making me not an unhealthy piece of crap.
I also drink that brotein stuff after an intense day on the job, or if I'm doing one of my rare workouts. Putting it in a milkshake makes it actually decent and not just bearable. Don't drink it if you're not gonna put in the sweat, though, be warned.
Could you really believe you're boring? Did you like your date in any way besides a "Netflix and chill" way? Why value the opinion of someone with such low class as to blab this to your roommate?
What were you on Al Jazeera for?
Ey barkeeper!!! Yo motherfucker!!!
I've been wafing all fucking day man. Now give me some of your finest wodka, you can leave the bottle and bring a couple beers to go with that. It's time to get fucked up homie.
You don't mind if I snort a little line of some of that good shit, now do yah!?
And turn that motherfucking tv down will yah!? For fucks sake man. I'm trying to get fucked up over here.
Wtf!? Where are all the whores at!? I see one bitch sitting at the back over there but she's all fucked up. She looks like one of dem crack ho's. I aint gonna hit that shit. Fuck no!!!
Wtf is going on here? This aint no gaybar now is it!? And why is that motherfucker crying his eyes out? Da fuck is going on here?
Ey motherfucker what da fuck you looking at? You want a problem faggot!? Keep walking bitch!!!
Barkeeper!!! Watch my drinks, I'm gonna take a piss.
i have to take insulin, and somehow im very forgetful or i dont take it seriously enough, i really want to make a change but i have never been able to be motivated to do it, even though its only me im hurting
>type 1 the kind you're born with
It can also be trauma-induced. My pituitary gland was compromised and as a result my body forgot how to process sugar or seratonin or whatever, fuck if I know, it's been ages since I actually sat down with a doctor and talked about it.
I'll take an Old Fashioned. Listening to Woods of Ypres and wondering about the future. I'm going to be taking my drivers test next week, and this might be the start of getting everything back on track.
Dang, sorry I forgot to attach pic related. It's probably the single greatest thing I've done for myself, health-wise. I always make sure to buy one that says "fruit and vegetables," not just "fruit." Doesn't taste like some shitty health cocktail, either, just like any other mixed fruit drink.
Yeah I am the same anon, family - just trying to stay comfy.
I'm basically just trying to build a question/answer game that lets you get further if you solve riddles. I'm doing this because I want to practice sorting user responses and returning different paths-forward based on their response.
What did you try to study in college? I did 2 years of econ and left (4 year degree).
Being here would bring me more satisfaction than I could possibly ever express.
Slow down there, bratan. Espresso coming around the pass.
Good taste, anon. If the stars align I'll be here quite some time into the night and it's nice having folk stick around.
You're in a good mood. Stella coming around the pass, still waiting on those dubs.
Yes, kind of a given. Just don't do anything stupid with that bottle, eh?
Bit of a quandary you have there, anon. Take my 2 cents with a grain of salt but depending on how much you'll make off that parade, maybe you should get your 2 weeks notice in and start looking for a slightly less shitty job that you're qualified for. Once you've got your year of experience I'd hope you turned out fine.
Bacardi coming around the pass, sorry about the inattentiveness earlier. Don't bother with online dating to be quite honest family, it's like wading through a several foot high manure pile for something a little redeeming and even then you might not ever get there; you just end up covered in shit and your self esteem gets shot.
Check'd, vodka coming around the pass but please calm down a touch.
Hi anon, so you're anon. Haha.
I studied Computer Science. If, no, when I go back I'll probably switch to Computer Engineering. But, I haven't totally decided. And, frankly, I'm not sure I wanna do anything with computers anymore but I dunno. Life is just kind of a blur. But I want to allow myself to forget the blur right now as I drink.
well fuck me, my doctor called it Type 1 a couple times, but reading up now it seems DI is neither type 1 or 2. Fuck if I know or care, I'd just alwayas parroted "type 1" because what do I know, someone with a white coat said it to me once and they know more than I do.
I take desmopressin, it's to treat diabetes insipidus, that's about all I know and about all I care to know. I don't like learning much about medicine or my own body, reminds me of the hospital. I avoid it whenever I can.
It takes a few beers to put me in a good mood but I shouldn't think to hard about that cause that'll put me in a worse mood. "Boohoo, depressed drinking." I hate it. Just need to let go tbqh.
>trying to be musician because I love the music and cant imagine myself doing anything else
>work hard writing lyrics
>trying to get a part time job to buy labtop(18yo senior here)
>have oneitis for a girl I barely talked to three times
>trying to keep in gym because its the only thing keeping me sane
>C average in school
>praying everything in life just falls into place
Diet coke please, id leave but your bouncer looks like hes busy with a hostage situation
It's Russian street slang for "bro". It rolls off the tongue quite literally. If you spell it out in the Latin alphabet, the second a is accented but the robot has reservations against that.
Maybe the dx is diabetes insipidus then? Granted, as long as you can manage the symptoms and have a decent quality of life, the condition may as well be called faggotry and it wouldn't make a difference.
Poetic. We're not men though, we're robots.
just a soda for me, please. I don't drink.
I've been living alone for months now. my best friend is dating my ex and I've made up my mind. I'm gonna jump off a fucking bridge. I quit. I've had enough. when I walk down the street people give me looks. my classmates hate me for no reason other than that of being different. I have no friends. I'm fucking done with all this shit. why the hell would I ever have wanted to go to college. fuck everything.
Yeah anon, the tryna-stay-comfy-anon.
I'll forget the blur with you family. Drink up...
Fuck me, you got the rare form of the beetus, the types 1 and 2 are diabetes mellitus.
Sorry to hear about that brother, but it seems like you're managing it well, so good job and keep it up
Then don't think too hard about it. Whatever makes you feel better in the end to be honest family.
I don't see how that would stop you. Diet coke coming around the pass though.
Satanic trips checked, next drinks for you and the other anon you were talking to are on the house.
Nice seeing you again Wojak. Drinking straight vodka tonight, it has been a tough week. Lot of work and studying to do and not a lot of sleep. Next week is looking worse.
But for now I'll be at the bar drinking, playing vidya, and playing some American Football over the jukebox.
straight everclear please
yeah just give me the whole bottle
I got put of the mental ward yesterday. I just feel numb and I want to forget that I exist.
and you know what, fuck retail. I work at Walmart. they pay shit, they won't pay for any benefits, no unions, and the job is hell. my routine goes like this.
>work until I can't stand it
>go to bathroom
>cry until there are no more tears
if I don't get better by Christmas, I'm gonna buy myself a health care plan from Smith & Wesson.
That makes sense. Maybe look into Python if you haven't already. I don't wanna be a shill but, if I remember correctly, it is easily integrated into the web.
My interests were always more in the abstract. The theory of computation and optimization and what not. Didn't care a whole lot for the practical exercises. So, unless I took that to PhD level it's more or less useless.
I'm looking into learning C to get to grips with how the lower level system works in practice. You drinking now? Cheers.
In america im pretty sure that bars dont allow under 21 in. I dont drink so I wouldnt know. I feel like my mental state is as unstable as chernobyl but I gotta keep it together. Its tough.
Hey based barkeep, glad to see you're back, one beer please
>wants to lose weight
>cant because food and vydia are the only things that keep me alive
>have oneitis on a girl that use the same bus as me
>chad uses the same bus
>eventually see her looking at chad
>have a big project on uni
>guys of my group dont do shit and I need to do something because I really need good grades, so the gov can keep paying my uni
This shit kills me inside, I want to lose weight bad I can't because I need to eat as a fucking whale every damn time, I can't control myself
I don't have much to say about the girl situation, I'm only sad because she's into chad
Also, things have been pretty bad this week, at uni, we had this project, and it was a hell to make the research, at least it's over now
Hey I remember you from last week!
You should remember what's my go to, extra strong lagers and none of the flimsy 5% standard lager shit.
It's good to see that the bar has finally gotten stable employment.
>I want to lose weight bad I can't because I need to eat as a fucking whale every damn time
Just ride a bike. Seriously, I went from 105 to 75 kilos in like 5 months by biking every night. I had 0 cardio endurance but was able to bike 30-40 kilometers every night. It was only a 4km track so I'd do it 10 times over.
Put on some music that makes you feel like shit and get angry and just do it.
As far as food, aim for stuff that you can eat a lot of but doesn't have a lot of calories. Think any lean mean (chicken, steak etc). Potatoes are really good. 1 kilo only has like 700 calories.
I asked her out lads, the cute girl in one of my classes.
She said no
just fuck my shit up
Cheers, Satan. I'll get those scotches right quick.
I'm thankful, second half of my week wasn't very busy at all. I do have studying to do soon though but for now it's hand drinks to robots and play vidya. Straight vodka coming around the pass.
Don't do anything stupid with that bottle, bratan. Sucks that you feel the way you do though, I'm surprised there is no union though. How on earth does that come about?
Depends on the establishment if we're talking about real bars. Some ID you at the door, others ID you if you're at the counter ordering alcoholic drinks, the latter leaves you alone for stuff like what you ordered though.
Thanks, anon. Means a lot. Actually my first night bartending many weeks ago got me similar praise, hence the trip. It's a good feel.
Thanks, beer coming around the pass. Not the best choice of drink if you're looking to lose weight, but I won't judge.
As for your situation, that shit is tough. Honestly if you just ran a few numbers and ate less that's already cutting a lot of your work out for you. If you get bad hunger pangs, try to eat stuff that is more filling.
Whatever you like. It's your birthday, it's hard to take anyone's suggestion as gospel. Birthdays past my 16th stopped really meaning anything though, so I just went about them like they were completely ordinary days.
Ey Barkeeper where da fuck you going!? Did'nt I say leave the bottle!? So leave the motherfucking bottle, DAMN!!! Now go and bring me dem beers.
Wtf!? I hear you complaning and shit while I was taking a piss. I already stabbed two fucking faggots there, you want some of this you cocksucker!!??? Where tha fuck you going!?? Ey!!!!! Where tha fuck do you think your going!!!??? Oh hell no, give me your motherfucking phone, you aint calling nobody. Now give me your money, and keep it down son, make any noise and I'll stab you right here. I don't give a fuck. Now give me your wallet, WTF!?? 20 fuckin dollars and 43 cent you cheap bastard. Don't look at me, keep your eyes front you ugly ass motherfucker. What else you got!? You broke ass faggot!? Don't fucking look at me!!!!! Next time I'ma stabb the shit out of you you hear!? Oh..hell no, you aint drinking that shit, give me that...you got some smokes!? Give me dem to. What else you got man,? Don't look at him he ain't gonna help yah.
NOW GIMME THE FUCKIN' KEYS YOU FUCKIN' COCKSUCKER MOTHERFUCKER!!!!
I'd like a whiskey sour, and a shot of Jim Beam's Ghost.
I just successfully finished my first week of work in over a year. I'm exhausted, it took 60 hours of my life, and I just wanted to go home almost the entire time....
I should have probably gotten a better trade, or never given up on neetbux and neet life
Welcome back, anon. I can't say much about whenever the bar is open other days, I just work Fridays. Since you weren't specific about your drink i'll assume I have carte blanche to pick out your lager, you'll get it around the pass in a minute.
Checked, you drinking anything tonight?
I'm going to have to ask you to leave, or I'll call security. I told you to keep it civil and I only warn people once.
Thanks anon. I've had a few people recommend Python to me. One thing at a time though.
Theory is cool if you have a mind for it. If you did take it to the PhD level, silicon valley would hire you in a second, which is kinda cool if you're into that. I don't know much about C.
I can't read more than a page of abstract theory, but I can sit down and read a book of facts for a day straight without getting up. Kinda weird. So with programming (where you have to hold a lot of logic/etc in your head) I'm hopeless. But with web dev I can instantly see the product of each new thing I add, which is perfect for me.
My younger brother always talks in the abstract and I've never been able to understand him. He always wants to talk about political ideas and I just ask him to show me some data and he gets pissed.
Yeah, I'm the anon who's been ordering scotch neat. Pretty good. Warms you up.
I'll take a rum and coke, spiced if you got it.
Hopeful that i get the job at walmart that i've been after, but that's about the only good feel i'm feeling, because everything else is regret. All I can think about these days is how much better my life would be if i hadn't crashed my car, hadn't gotten my truck impounded for having no registration or insurance because i was on the way to the dmv to do just that, hadn't gotten a thousand dollar ticket and sky high insurance as a result, hadn't lost my job over a stupid mistake, hadn't moved back home to my parents who are undoubtedly ashamed of me, hadn't put my trust in the wrong people and subsequently used by them. A year ago today i had everything i wanted in the world, most importantly friends. Now i realize they only liked me for my money and my car, and maybe this was a sign from fate or god or some higher being to distance myself from society, lest i be used again. Thanks for listening, barkeep, its good to have someone to talk to, even if its not face to face.
>why would your doctor be saying that to you if it wasnt the case
We were hardly analyzing it, and I made it clear from step 1 that I wantde to know as little as I could get away with. Might've been a slip of the tongue, might've been my mishearing it, important point is the correct meds were and always were prescribed.
I'm not too upset, and DI is a pretty rare one, so it's not unbelievable that it just slipped out because he's used to dealing with Types 1 and 2. End of the day, doesn't affect me at all apart from the embarrassment today.
Yeah it's not fun, but it's not the biggest concern of mine. Like I said, without meds I die, but with meds it's only even noticeable when I'm drinking heavily.
I used to have to get weekly blood tests to make sure it was being managed right, and at first those were a pain because my family has a genetic thing with needles; my dad literally passed out after shots a few times, my brother's entire limb goes numb sometimes, etc. But now it's pretty much nailed down, god bless america I guess.
no alcohol for me bartender, I'm a hs senior. got some root beer back there somewhere?
I'm looking forward to graduating. I just wanna get out of my small shitty town and restart my life. in the morning I go to the library and pretend to sleep when really I'm crying quietly. Best years of my life, yeah right.
I look the night off to see Skyfall 2 with my only two friends but I fucked up and tried get tickets too late. They were sold out so now I'm home getting wine drunk playing Resident Evil 4. Not terrible but I hate feeling lonely.
Hey at least you tried, better than I ever did. Most I could do was muster up the courage to ask the girl I liked to prom. She said yes and then changed her mind and later went with my other more athletic friend. You start to care less and less about the rejection over time. Focus on hobbies and junk. Watch funny movies or shows. She probably didn't deserve all the love you have and the feeling goes away. It gets better.
Checked, your drinks are free. Can't say whether staying NEET or picking a different trade would've been better, but if you're going to work with what you've got even if only briefly, you'll be much more acclimated to those 60 hour work weeks. The reason you wanted to go home I think might've been a mix of boredom/working conditions but also just being used to being a NEET.
Sure thing, anon. I'm partial to spiced so I make sure we always have some when i'm on the clock.
That's a horrid story though, you're most welcome for lending an ear and I really hope you land that job and turn things around, friend.
tfw no gf in and of itself is heartbreaking too. I know this feel quite well unfortunately.
Root beer coming round the pass. Normies say college years are also the best ones of your life but I digress. Best of luck with restarting your life as you say.
So I thought I'd check out [s4s] right. And I just can't figure it out. Is it one of those boards where you don't really get it at first but after browsing for a few weeks/months you gradually come to understand what people mean and how to respond to things? It's really getting me down.
Any fampai have experience with that board?
Thread theme for the jazz inclined robots, and a rare wojak for ID. I'll take a rum and coke while i'm here.
Fcuk man, take it easy. Creative endeavors take time. Their's no forcing creativity. Maybe you're meant for performance rather than creation?
Thanks for the drink by the way! I'll have in with my next Stella cause I need a chaser.. (>>24069015 one more please?)
But that's okay, anon. Different folk excel at different things.
What bugged me the most about the other CS student at college was that they were all gaymers who wanted to make the next Call of Duty ( I game occasionally too, no hate) while I was sitting there wanting to learn more about matrix manipulation of why certain algorithms sort better in different circumstances. What drove you out of college anon?
Checked, your martini is free. Good luck getting everything sorted out.
Good taste, anon. Rum and coke coming around the pass.
Rum and coke coming around the pass. This one's on the house for being based, I love me some jazz. Think you can find something similar for blues, maybe next week?
Of course. Stella coming around, you two seem to be having a blast talking to each other.
Alright, no problem. There's no need to call somebody. I'll be going. But I'll take this >>24069015 motherfucker with me.
You got a problem with that!? Huh!? Got a problem with that!?? DOES ANYONE HERE HAS A PROBLEM WITH THAT!!!!!???
OK....Now get the fuxk out of my way, don't fucking thouch me I warn you, I'll stab the shit out of you. Yoooo!!! >>24069015 where da fuxk you think your going!? Get the fuck over here you're coming with me faggot. Don't fucking look at him, he aint gonna help yah. Now keep on moving, we out of here.
>theirs no forcing creatity
I know but I need to put in more effort. I only write in class and Ive been on a dry spell lately havent writen anything on three days
>maybe youre meant for performance rather than creation
Could you elaborate im a little slow for a musician.
There's just something about this picture, anon. I really can't put it or the feels that I feel into words.
Badass, i'll expect to see something when I'm on the clock again next week then.
Time for a quick smoke break, robots. Any smokers among you feel free to join me on the outdoor deck on the second floor.
Thanks m8, you're too kind. Seems like i've been content with being alone my whole life, it's only when i include people into my personal life that things start to go wrong. It should only be a matter of a few years or less that i can get a trade, get my own place, get a decent paying low action job and live out my quiet, peaceful life with the only person who won't stab me in the back. Which way to the smoker's deck?
I think I'm fucking up, autisim kicks in when I chat with this girl.
Wat to do
Can you make me a rusty screw barkeep?
Thanks barkeep. It is nice having a proper conversation for once. Maybe it's just the irl alcohol making me more friendly. Either way I hope these anon's remember me next time I'm in your bar and I order my same old Stella.
Anyway's you doing okay, Barkeep? Minus the qt lesbo situation, of course.
What I mean is that perhaps you are more suited for performing a prewritten piece, you are a performer, rather than a writer or creator of an original piece? You know, like actors? You can play a mean instrument but ain't the original sort. You put soul into the paper. That sort of thing.
>looking outside my open window, enjoying the late evening autumn breeze blowing on my face observing the empty street in front of me
>stand for there for a few minutes, simply enjoying the ambiance of the wind blowing through the trees and wind chimes ringing away
>all of the sudden the house across the street turns off the lights in the front room where you could see the living room and all that
>realize that the people living there probably saw me staring outside my window like a creep
>tfw they probably thought I was staring at them and looking inside their house and got spooked and turned off the lights
>job at walmart
I worked at Walmart for a year. If you have the ability to take abuse and shrug it off, not take it personally when your adult-failure supervisor yells at you for someone else's mistake, you'll probably do fine. No huge money there for anyone beneath Manager, but especially if you get late- or overnight shifts or work backroom it's steady work.
Seriously, swallow your pride, your manager's probably gonna yell at you for someone else's mistake, if you can easily and correctly do so then shift the blame, if not then just take it. He'll forget about it in 15 minutes.
>on the way to the DMV
I'm sorry anon, I've been in positions where I could've gotten that before. It's a heavy blow for anyone to lose their car, especially someone who can't afford to arbitrarily replace it. I know it's too late here, but if you haven't already heard, you can get temporary operating permits (or whatever they're called) that'll make your car street-legal long enough to drive it around to get it smogged and registered. I actually used to know a guy who owned about eight trucks and just cycled them through that temp-operation permit, so he always had a legal vehicle and never had to pay. This was Commiefornia though, no idea on other states' legislation.
>only liked for money and car
No offense, but are you fresh outta highschool? That was the culture at my HS too, and it wasn't even out of conscious selfishness, just ease. My best friend and I would never even have hung out if we didn't both love 4wheeling and Toyotas. Several people (not the hot girls, of course, it was highschool after all) fell in and out of the 'in' crowd as they gained or lost running vehicles.
What I'm saying is, it may seem like they were just using you or whatever, but it's also possible that it's just inconvenient to "hang out" with you right now. Especially for people at that income level, convenience is huge.
Is the picture a good feel or just an abstract feel? Anyway I got a question Mr. Keep, (not sure if you're the same Keep that helped me solve my last problem, is it always the same keep here?). What is it about University that changes people? I'm at my first year and I feel like all my friends have become rather dickish or self absorbed. They weren't like this in high school. Maybe it's just that I'm spending more time around them. They wanted to buy a house with me next year but I declined because I don't like what they've become. I think I'm graduating early so I can get out of this place and I pretty much have a job lined up. I don't know, maybe I should just dump all my friends or (at least distance myself) and get a dog, man's only loyal friend. What do you think Barkeep?
Being content is my plan. Humble till the end of my days tbfh.
From the entrance just go straight to your right and the stairs to the second floor over there, once you're up do a 180 and the deck is right there.
I already recognized you earlier, other robots might just follow suit.
I'm doing alright tonight, especially minus the qt lesbo. My campus is full of qt's though, maybe if I gave enough of a damn I could transcend to normiehood. I wonder how /r9k/ would feel about my possibly bartending after the fact.
Never had Spiced Gold but now I kind of want to. Are those true Scotsmen wrong? Because if they are then coke is quite tried and true, maybe you can give ginger ale a spin too but then again i'm a shill for ginger ale.
They have no meaning in your life, they may as well not even exist to you. You may as well have been staring at nothing. There are 2 types of robots: anxious, paranoid and overanalyzing, and stoic, careless and free. Be the latter, anon.
Naw son, let me put some real feels on the jukebox.
Technically Spiced Gold is supposed to be "rum essence" mixed with alcohol and thus not proper distilled rum. I've tried mising it with coke and don't get me wrong - it works great! I do however prefer to mix it with Dr. Pepper.
I don't believe I'm boring, I just feel that if I'm not some amazing comedian then I'm finished.
My date was to meet up at this place in New York City (We both worked there this summer) to get a milkshake and talk.
Because I value all criticism because it's all I know. Family, teachers, everyone is critical of me in some way.
Agreed. It's such shit, but part of me just has hope.
Girl 1000 miles away used to be pretty mutally-into me, but she started onetis-ing over another guy and actually found out I'm pretty annoying IRL.
Haven't had a decent conversation with her in weeks. Feels bad man >.> she was obsession level, 24 years old with one boyfriend/no hookups, seriously longterm materials.
Happy to have someone to share with anon.
Interesting. Jony Ive of Apple left his car-design program in college because all the other kids wanted to design big cars that made loud VROOM VROOM noises, while he wanted to design sleek and powerful cars.
How long ago did you leave college? Do you see yourself going back anytime soon? Are you good at math?
I left college because I was too anxious (hundreds of people) and embarrassed (terrible acne) to go to class. I also knew that I wouldn't be applying for any career jobs after, so the econ degree seemed useless. I left 2 years ago and since then have started up a web-startup, worked a few wagey jobs, and read a lot. I'm glad I left. I hated it so much, it's making me upset just thinking about it desu anon. I like learning, so maybe when I'm older and more comfortable I'll go to a smaller school somewhere far away.
Anonymity is comfy. What I just told you is more than I've ever told anyone ever.
Shot for everyone! I found out I passed the Texas bar exam. Asked the qt I've been texting for a while out on an actual date, and her lawyer dad offered to throw me case work till I find a full-time legal job.
This year has been terrible, so this good news is exillerating. My dad lost nearly all of his movement in one of his shoulders from a 12 foot drop, my ex girlfriend left me and I failed the first bar exam I took this year. I have been a nervous wreck for the past week, so when I found out that I passed Thursday I just cheered and felt happiness for the first time in my life. Honest to God happiness. I can't really describe it. It was the best feeling of my life. I wish this feeling for you all, I really do.
Anyways, drinks on me anons! Tonight we celebrate!!
White russian please.
Today is a good day. I finaly built a fully functional arch linix enviroment on my mac book pro, this calls for a drink.
Cheers anon! Ya made it. Here's to hoping we all get there.
Well you wouldn't say that Schubert was a ghost writer for Fischer Dieskau would you? They are two separate skills, anon. Composition is whole and separate from performance their is no shame in that at all.
But, if you insist on your way then more power too you. I am better at poetry and literary composition than I am any sort of musical composition. I tried composition and it was horrid. I accepted my fate as a performer rather than composer. I respect your choice, though. Good luck on your composition, anon. Just let it happen, don't force it.
I'd accept you after-the-fact, Barkeep. You make my Friday night enjoyable. Now, when I say what I am going to say next, take it a certain way. "Just be yourself." By that, I mean, do not settle for some twat who won't accept you for who you are, Barkeep. You deserve a proper girl who accepts the latent robot in you. Godspeed in your endeavor.
I left in at the beginning of the winter semester of 2015. I hope to return fall of 2016, next year.
I think I'm pretty solid in math. I just abhor the busy-work involved. I learn and comprehend it well but the bullshit courseload involved just drug me down. I had to leave because of finances.
And that's okay, anon. I'm here for anyone and anyone. I won't judge. And even if I wanted too I'm 6 or 7 beers deep so I probably couldn't even if I tried. Tell me more about yourself.
Dude highschool sucks for people who don't 'get' socialization. I was in marching band, almost like social-scene welfare, anyone who wasn't a literally-reeing literal-retard (even light retards are fine) could have a friend-circle. College was a shock, dropped out twice, second time stuck.
Here's a tip from a 24yo, alcohol is basically Normie: The Drug. As in, you take it, and you can socialize far more effectively with anyone similarly-inebriated. Seriously, alcohol in our culture is a lifehack. Friends, favors, even professional connections, doing it over a beer makes it far easier.
Source: Spent years as true robot, /zerofriends/, moved to another city and started drinking and going to bars and made a few good friends. Don't become an alcoholic, seriously don't, if you start drinking more than twice a week you should seriously find help because it's a dark path and I can tell you that. But alcohol in modern first-world culture is an important tool, like a cell phone or electricity. Don't pass it off as irrelevant or stupid.
23 years old virgin here. I touched a boob once in the dark tho.
I made a tinder today. I'm lonely. Girls told me it was funny and fun but so far I hate it. No matches and I feel so gross judging people by 3 shitty cell phone pics. I don't deserve a gf
I'll take an old fashioned, please
>but especially if you get late- or overnight shifts or work backroom it's steady work.
This is the position I applied for, I hate dealing with people and usually overnighters work away from the other overnighters, stocking at a different section.
>you can get temporary operating permits (or whatever they're called)
I had enough to register and insure it, but I was pulled over because me and the passenger didn't have a seatbelt on on the way to the DMV. This might sound childish, but I tossed around the idea of breaking into the impound, getting my keys from inside the building and driving through the gate. I have hopped the fence just to get one last look at it before, so I know the impound doesn't have any alarms. The inside most likely does, though, so I though about getting the keys one night and the truck another.
>No offense, but are you fresh outta highschool?
>it may seem like they were just using you or whatever, but it's also possible that it's just inconvenient to "hang out" with you right now.
I did graduate this summer (taking a free year to myself (which was a huge mistake considering I'm going out of my mind with a lack of surrogate activities)), and seeing how you guessed that right tells me that you know what you're talking about. Maybe I'm being selfish by thinking they've used me, and need to do some growing up, but overall I have learned I am happier by myself because I'm very apathetic when it comes to social situations life in general. Being young, I could grow out of this phase but it seems like this phase has been present with me my whole life.
Thanks for taking the time to respond, anon. You've given me a lot to think about. Have a drink on me.
Shrink mac partition to 50Gs. And never boot OSX. Apple cant purge my system if I never boot their proprietary software. The hardest part was configuring grub, it's such a bitch. So tell me anon what is your distro of choice?
My mom started interrogating me about my future.
>when will you get a gf
>when will you have kids
>why don't you have friends
>why are you an oddball
I'm getting sick of this. I just scored an internship with a big company and she expects more. I can't wait until I will be able to move out in the summer.
Thanks for reading a cyborg's blog
Checked, you two having anything?
Depends. Was this last Friday?
Might just be that you've spent more time around them than you're used to, there also seems to be an element of smugness to Uni students, given that they're in "higher education" and ergo as part of some kind of higher class, that's all conjecture though.
I wouldn't say distance yourself from your friends, but yes if you want loyalty then get a dog; bitches have no heart.
Sorry about the delay robots, I like to savor my smokes. Time to catch up with all of you beautiful faggots.
I'm a fedora man myself; first distro I ever tried (my older brother introduced me to it when I was like 6, way too young to understand anything significant.)
Running fedora 21 on my laptop, 22 on my VM, and Lubuntu 15 on my shitty old computer upstairs.
I've been gradually purging all closed-source software from my life. I uninstalled flash and java a few days ago and have noticed no significant issues since; open-source substitutes do the trick.
I should really get around to learning C and Rust; I want to start contributing instead of just consuming like a common windows user.
Family i know this feel..i know this feel
I'm sorry anon, I'm fairly buzzed now, but it made me laugh because it reminds me of my own time.
>be me, couple months ago
>friend used to live across the street, HIS apartment
>moved in with gf of ~4 years
>one day she dumps him to fuck Chads at bars (to be fair, my friend is pretty Chad-y himself, but still)
>big drama, lots of hate, anyway it's irrelevant just some setup to my story
>be working in my garage one evening
>look up for a second
>see neighbor (friend's ex) hop on top of someone on her bed
>topless, presumably nice tits, can't see them too well but can't see anything to criticize
>stare for probably 1-2 full minutes
>she notices, laughs, closes the curtains
Probably one of the sleaziest-feeling moments of 2015. No biggie, though, we all hate that chick. Goddamn, my friend bought a ring for her, was gonna propose but was dumped before he could do it. Christ almighty man, college fucks women up.
Long story short, dont' worry, I doubt they care too much. I leave my window open when I change a lot, not because I'm an exhibitionist, just because I'm lazy and I figure if my neighbor's wife wants to see my skinny ass without boxers for a few seconds it's his problem, not mine.
Try to adjust how far and close your matches are, and change your pictures often to see which ones work. And keep in mind Tinder isn't the best place for a long term gf, but one night stands and hookups.
Guys I lost the password to my porn folder.
It's a 4 or 5 word sequence, words that I think are in it are under, lock, tight, lid, wraps, as well as maybe the words "a" and "and".
Barkeep, can I get a cup of coffee with two shots of vodka poured in?
Yes barkeep, get me some Feels on the rocks with a side of memes. I've got a small tale to tell.
>young normie in sophmore year
>girl at my school 7.5/10, really nice
>fast forward 3 years, dating solid
>she walks up to me one day, seems sad
"Anon....you're more like a brother to me than a boyfriend...I can't date you anymore"
>one month later she gets with one of my best friends and fucks him, I never even got there
Years later I still get kinda mad about this story.
And so concludes anon's sad tale. Feel free to chat with me about it. I'll be here all night.
Got a text from an aunt today, wishing me a happy bday, and wanted me to spend hours in the car to so she could make me dinner.
She missed the date by two weeks. Why do I even bother hoping...
Throw me another bottle of Canadian whiskey barkeep, this one's getting kind of low.
I've been drinking the five hours since I got off work and I just seem to feel worse. Currently listening to melancholy accordion music and ruing the lack of intimacy in my miserable life. Just fuck my shit up.
I'm still waiting on those dubs. Keep at it.
Interesting! I'll make a note to buy Spiced Gold next time I need to refill on liquor.
I'm touched, anon. My original question still stands is if robots, even if only a few, would still accept a normie as their barkeep.
If only you rolled dubs. Good on you though, based anon.
Coming around the pass, good taste by the way.
Sounds badass. This one is on the house, since it sounds like quite an achievement you've got there.
Of course. He just has to name a drink and it's his.
Are you using the definition of latent that i'm thinking of? As an aside, I would say i'm the quintessential cyborg and plenty of robots already aren't big on those people. I really am touched though, maybe i'll find a grill like what you described one day.
Yeah it was Monday so I guess you're another Keep. Thanks for the advice, I'll keep it in mind. They're getting really involved in University junk and being pompous about being involved which I frankly don't care about. Maybe it'll go away at some point. I'm roomies with one of them but I think I'll move back home next year. Yeah I'll get a dog over a gf. It'd be less hassle and all the girls I've crushed on have let me down in some way or another. Give me whatever drink's hot tonight I guess.
>5,500 miles away
Another country? I can't rival those feels, friend. I thought I had it bad. Next drink's on me.
If you don't mind me asking, what country are you and what is she? As much as I want love to prevail, I would hate for a fellow robot to be sucked into one of those marriage-visa scams. She's not a Russian mail-order or a South African princess or anything, is she?
Name it, we've probably got it here.
Odd taste but coming around the pass. You're going to be having more vodka than coffee though, I hope you know that.
That sucks, anon. I'll get you your drink in a second, whatever you do though don't be mad, it means part of you is taking it personally.
Canadian whiskey, eh? I know the feels you're feeling too, enjoy the refill.
Yeah, I just do Fridays. I find that the bartenders who work other days are just as good though, or maybe not.
It could go away but chances are it won't. It seems rum is pretty big tonight, either spiced and straight or with coke. Either one catch your fancy or do I have carte blanche?
It was mostly out of the blue, yes. She said I was "protective" and sometimes "almost annoying in a brotherly way".
Little late to the party.
Currently smoking some bubble hash and watching whatever sitcoms are on tv atm.
C++ has way more practical use, C is what I was mostly taught in so its quite familiar to me. With C you spend alot of time "reinventing the wheel", you can certainly create more in less time in ++
>tfw im scheduled to meet up with a robot tomorrow for the first time in my 5 years of browsing r9k
Im looking forward to this, i feel like some deep spiritual connection inside of me will finally be fulfilled
I was going to learn C and then move onto C++.
I want to eventually know every language involved in making linux; I guess python, ruby, and rust are things I should learn as well.
At any rate, I'm reading through my pdf of "The C Programming Language" while drinking tonight.
Latent in the sense of "remaining in an inactive or hidden phase" I would say cyborg-dom is merely a failed-normie with "hidden" robotics. So, 'latent' roboticism. Maybe I'm just drunk rambling but it make sense to me.
I are cyborg too
How's the hash, anon. I miss smoke the devils grass.
My 3am diner and musician friend must have run off on me :(
*chugs coffka without a second thought*
Oh. Can I get another cup of coffee, this one with only one shot of vodka? I want to remember this password but I'm not not getting drunk tonight.
Nice dubs, that anon's next drink is on the house.
The night is still young and we're not even halfway to the post limit, bratan. Come on in.
Sounds interesting. Hopefully it goes well, anon.
Nope, makes perfect sense when you put it that way.
If it makes sense to you though, I trained myself to become a cyborg through lots of somewhat forced social interaction; I went from full blown robot in my younger years to being a good enough actor to pass as a normie whenever it suits me.
Straight rum it is. Enjoy.
Was that double negative intentional, bratan? I'll get you your drink while you think of an answer.
Got any vanilla coke?
Feelin pretty good tonight, just got my calc test fished, making a website for my dad's company, will get 150 out of it. Feels good mang.
'Tis; I love how it was written back in the 90's but it still is a good book for a beginner.
I took a book on C out from my library recently and I came home and my brother left a note in it saying "dangerously wrong". That book came out in 2014.
Here's my PDF, if you're interested; let's hope the copyrightfags don't ban me for posting it.
To answer your question, I don't know about the other keeps but i'm the only one I know that actually trips as Based Barkeep, and I have zero bartending experience, at least in the real world.
Checked, your drink is coming around the pass. That's some good news too, anon. 150 isn't much when you break it down but that doesn't make that feel any less nice.
>breaking into the impound
It sounds like yo ualready know how stupid this is, but just to make sure you do, that serial number's registered. Don't steal the truck. #le-dad-face don't steal the truck, son
That story sucks hardcore, anon. Honestly I rarely wear seatbelts, it started when I was suicidal and just wanted to die if anybody hit me, then the habit just sorta stuck. Thanks for the warning, I'll buckle up more now. I didn't know they actually pulled you over for that unless they literally thought your car was filled with crack.
>happier by myself
Please, I went through a "happier by myself" phase, don't go full robot. Keep at least one or two friends, even if they're not too close. You don't want to cut all ties, after doing so myself for about a year it took many more years for me to get to the point where I could even hold a conversation with someone who wasn't my mom. If you watch Watamote, that's not an exaggeration, you'll literally become this shaking human being who can't even manage a coherent reply to "Paper or plastic?". Full isolation is a dark road.
>tfw I just started watching Watamote today because I finally got fed up of not 'getting' all the robot memes with that chick, and holy shit it hits hard
After about 3 years of slaving away to make myself into a social presence, I'm finally at the point where (a very few) people actually call me up and ask me to attend social events with them. It took that long to get out of that stage where I basically had to do anything short of blackmail to get another human to spend 30 minutes with me, much less be my friend.
I don't know man, it's stupid, life sucks and I hate it and I just wanna buy all you fucking robots a drink tonight but you all live a thousand miles away.
I feel really shitty tonight.No drink for me I am not of age yetbut that doesnt stop me. I am doing pretty bad in school and it beyond salvage so my college plan is all fucked up. I just feel like a complete retard. I mean I knew I was dumb but I am doing bad in intro courses.And I want to be a professor, so basically my dreams are broken already. I feel despair for my future and stuff.I already gave up on everything else but school but now i am failing that so, yeah not good.I already typed up a note if you are wondering how I a feeling.
sorry for blog.
Where are you interning anon?I am applying to internships right now.
You already cracked open a Revolver for me, I'm almost at the bottom of a Steel Reserve now but any mark's Oktoberfest would go down awful nice right now. Pick for me.
We serve non-alcoholic stuff here, anon. No need to apologize for anything though, we're all feeling some kind of feel here.
Let me rephrase that, are you (two) having anymore to drink*? I'll get your drink around the pass in a minute though.
>implying they'd care
Think we can get to the post limit tonight, robots?
She sounds cute. Do you have a job or any way to buy a ticket out there?
Also, out of curiosity, is she fluent in English or you in Korean? Or are you both bilingual? Relationships across languages always interest me for that reason, but it's not the kind of thing you (or I, at least) ask IRL.
Fake it 'till you make it sort of mentality. I understand. I've sorta always been a cyborg but I feel myself slowly accepting more and more robotic replacements for the organic. I need to get back into school so I don't loose what little organic I have.
PS sorry for slow ass reply, my keyboard is spinning around a bit. Thank god for spellcheck
Enterprise. Most companies only hire interns that are in their junior or senior year. I've been feigning being a normie to my parents all throughout college. You don't have to be smart to get through college, you have to put in the work.
Hey fellow Robros! My band and I have been making some tracks that are very much for the feels! Any constructive criticism is appreciated.
It's pretty dank my friend. My regular guy went on vacation and only had hash left so he hooked me up with like 7gs.
Let's party :^)
You can say that again. I don't really notice the slow replies or whatever.
Actually as an aside, speaking of robotic replacements, I've a bit of a vested interest in human augmentation technology (think Deus Ex, or since it's quite relevant right now, Black Ops 3) and I draw a lot of stuff like that in my free time. Just something interesting to think about.
Is it still a waifu if she is 3D? I can't argue with that logic though, but since you rolled dubs somebody is good for one free drink.
We're a little over halfway there but the scene has been slowing down a smidge. Enjoy the refill.
Oh nice.I meant I was applying to research positions so year standing doesn't matter but gpa does.And it maybe true that just getting through school is fine, but to get into grad school you need a 3.5 gpa min to even make it into considerations.I cant afford fucking up so early.But good job on the internship anon!
>having anymore to drink
I drink until I fall asleep, barkeep. Don't worry, I've got chums to carry me out and DD for me, your bar'll be fine. I'm halfway through that Oktoberfest, but give me something that goes down easy, I can throw down a Coors Light pretty quick.
Every time I say an Americana beer's name like that, I think of the time we tried to get my cousin to go to the bars, and he replied in his thick Southern accent that he was already drunk in his trailer at the oil well on Keystone Light and wouldn't be going anywhere that night.
>you know I'm alcohol when I have to hunt around my keyboard for the '/' key
>didn't know they pulled you over for that
Well it depends on the cop. Usually in small towns there's a minimum of 1 cop (though it's usually more than one) who'll pull that shit just to feed their ego. Plus it was nearing the end of the month, so they pull over anyone for any old thing to meet their quota.
It's the pic-related chick, I know you know her face.
I've only seen 3 eps, but I have to say, so far not only do they nail the whole robot thing fairly well (albeit using a cute girl to do so, though half of that is just so it appeals to the robots it's trying to portray), but they make it easy to see the things we do that are results of our own issues and not any outside forces. I feel like this anime might actually be a good thing helping robots out of full robothood, as long as they don't go full robot and start waifu-ing her on Korean pasta-cooking forums instead of seeing her shortcomings in their own lives and seeking to get over them.
But maybe I'm just being a massive faggot. Even if so, it's still a well-animated anime with a plot that, at least 3 episodes in, hits home.
Cybernetics is an interesting field. I was thinking about having sensitive magnets implanted under my two ring fingers but then I realized that'd just make me a meme so I just forgot about it. Can I let something of my chest, anon? I've been holding it in and it hurt and I just wanna tell somebody..?
Also, another Stella mayber?
I know nothing about coding. I do know how to throw a martini together though, enjoy.
Try this Canadian beer, it's called Moosehead. In my experience it goes down quite nicely.
>you know I'm alcohol
Might be, I only do Fridays though. Unless you're suggesting I open the bar tomorrow night too?
Also really creepy when you think of all the possibilities. If I could though I'd get some augmentations for my eyes since i'm fucking blind and can't leave my house without contacts or glasses, and maybe a couple of cerebral implants.
Why magnets under your ring fingers, and how would that make you a meme? As for what's on your mind, that's what these threads are for. Let it all out while I pour your Stella.
I'm betting we're hithing post limit tonight my friends. So, I've decided to open up a Kik group for 2 reasons, one, in case we do hit the post limit, and two, to keep the F&F open all week, on a smaller scale. The group is #feelsandfrogs .All I ask is two things, one, stay on r9k if there's a thread, and two if you aren't chatting, please open up a seat for another anon. Another toast, to r9k's best thread.
I mean, I legitimately did not know they could even tell. I figured as long as, whenever I saw a copper (I do keep a fairly vigil eye) I sat hard against the seat, they couldn't tell that.
Thanks again man, I don't want to get pulled over for juvenile crap like that. Especially since one of my best bros is, as of a couple weeks ago, an official police officer. That would just be embarrassing.
It's the only anime I watched where I actually wanted to read the manga.
Had that just last night, actually, one of my chums threw a V party and had it there. It went down ok, not as easy as the Sierra Nevada I brought but I don't regret popping that bottle.
Wouldn't buy myself, but I'd drink it before any Budweiser stuff.
>girl I went to high school with is in SF, I live near Palo Alto
>haven't interacted with her since sophmore year high school
>she's fucking hot now
Should I ask her to get food in SF even though we haven't interacted in years?
Sounds like you want the moonshine I keep in the back. That'll fuck you up good to be honest family.
Well, welcome to the F&F, anon. I've taken to doing this every Friday but these threads might pop up with different barkeeps other days of the week.
Let's find out.
Wait, are you saying the group is the F&F 2.0? Also,
>r9k's best thread.
Ouch. How do you like your vodka?
Yeah, I recognize her from pic related. I'm not a huge anime guy, but I liked Welcome to the NHK because I could somewhat relate, even though I'm not fully hikikimori yet, I felt when I was watching it I was headed down that path.
It is a good one. "Welcome to the NHK" is probably the iconic robot anime but Wakamote is a close second. Watch it to the end. There is no closure and no happy resolution, just like real life.
So I could more or less sense electromagnetic fields in my two fingers. A pseudo-sixth sense. An augmented sense of touch. And, I guess, I dunno, seemed like a dumb thing to do after I read people getting ripped on for body augmentation.
But, I shaved my legs the other day and I feel so good. Not in a lewd trappy way but I just feel fresh and clean and free. I was looking at guns today and said to myself "I need to reclaim my manhood. I need to buy one of these and go squirrel hunting." while sporting shaved legs and stockings under my pants. I hate it about myself and I know it's pretty degenerate and I just wanna be normal but it's one of the few things that calms my nerves..
I got dumped by a gf of 1 year even after getting /fit/ and more socially competent during the year we dated.
She turned into an SJW and started hating me for being a #heterociswhite and, I kid you not, liking pickup trucks.
Women, man. Women.
I mean I am a faggot virgin that has never spoken to a girl so don't just go off me, but if you really want to meet her think of a good reason or try to be around her.Out of the blue only works for Chad, everyone else needs to form trust and familiarity to get to women.
>not a huge anime guy
Most of the animes I've watched, I started watching because a cute girl told me to.
And then usually proceeded to not be my waifu, truly the oppression felt by me is the worst.
I don't even know what "hikikimori" means, but I can gather from context what I'm too lazy to google.
Interesting. Have you had Steamwhistle then? Bit pricier but still decent. Also the Europoor Guinness is great in my opinion.
Tmi isn't in my vocabulary, it just took me by surprise. inb4 no such thing as fembots reeeee
Interesting idea. If you wanted a pseudo sixth sense though cerebral augmentations would work out just as well. Personally I can't wait until that tech is refined and publicly available.
Honestly, whatever floats your boat, anon. Hell, you could probably write a greentext on /k/ and they'd eat it up. Also folks who swim and the like shave their legs to improve traction in the water, just thought I'd mention it.
If an SJW rags on you for shit like that, just say you identify as the most special snowflake identity you can think of and that they're being deeply racist/sexist/ableist/????????, at the very least it'd be good for some keks.
To be fair, it's in one of your rules to not bother with the group when there's a thread currently active. I like your initiative though.
Special request, are there any NEETs at the bar tonight?
>no closure and no happy resolution
That's my favorite kind of filmography, the fact that it's so rare only makes it better when I find a good one. I don't know how normie I sound when I say that Watchmen is my favorite movie of all time, Rumble Fish coming in for a second.
I have no idea how he managed to pick out my seatbelt not covering my waist from the inside of my truck at the speed he was going past me. I guess its lesson learned and word of warning to others.
There's no reason, short of bumping into her or saying I noticed she was in SF, for me to contact her.
I mean I don't think I'm hot enough for this shit but my ego is yelling for me to do it
Yeah, I realized that about a month after we broke up.
She started off great, then started going full Tumblr about halfway through, and we're talking "we just fucked, but as soon as your dick's out I'm gonna whip out my iPhone and start browsing tumblr."
she had a cracked screen to the point where it cut her finger to browser Tumblr, and she was actually ok with this and continued to browse tumblr on her iphonewomen, man.
She actually got hyper-pissed and made a bunch of blog posts when I messaged her a few days later "blah blah blah, I agree with your dumping me, I see why you dumped me and think it was a good decision for us to split up."
>she's exaggeratedly screaming and shaking around
>not even in a sexy manner
>read room subject
What a piece of shit.
Not doing so bad myself, thanks. Laying in bed after working on an essay. Tonight I've got the house to myself so I get to watch all the animu I want on the big screen. Seen any good movies lately?
Nevre heard of it, it's on my list now (it's a slow-moving list these days, I took a semi-sobriety vow a little over a week ago to nly drink in social situations because I was getting drunk 7 days a week and it was interfering with my basic ability to live life.)
Not a huge fan, bu it's decent. Is Europoor Guiness very different from Burger Guiness? I honestly thought it was just one brew, all I've ever had is their main brew in Burgerland.
Not many normies hanging here bud. Your best bet is Weenie Hut Jrs down next to /b/.
>I want to talk to someone who is more or less a normal...
We don't take kindly to normies around here.
Hm...now that I think about it I haven't watched any movies in awhile. But if there's any film I love to recommend to everyone I meet it's Boyhood. Seriously one of my favorite movies in a long, long time.
Haha, too bad I swim and bike about as well as I fly. I don't think those gun loving fucks would want me either. I enjoy shooting but I ain't crazy about it like they are.
I'm to scared to have anybody fucking around in my brain.
I just want to be happy, barkeep. Why can't I be happy?
>If an SJW rags on you for shit like that, just say you identify as the most special snowflake identity you can think of
I hate the LGBTQUISDKLJASERFVLKJ movement nowadays which is why I don't call myself "trans," but I'm a dude who wishes he was a chick. Only told her that as a last-ditch defense against "transphobia" when I repeated a joke that she'd made earlier about a dudefriend she met at a con (yeah I know, con chicks are red flags, this is no exception) dressed in women's clothing. It didn't help, it actually made her more mad at me for having the audacity to say I, as a "trans," didn't agree with what she said about trans people.
Bonus: This dude wasn't even a transsexual, he just dressed up in women's clothing for keks, like Monty Python.
>Weenie Hut Jrs
made me lol anon.Thanks I needed that.
>mfw /b/ is 4chans Weenie Hut Jrs
Only respondin because I checked those trips. Wait for a good, quiet part when enough tension is built and go in slow. Also, sit more to the back so people don't go all "awwwww" if they see you.
Well since you got trips, I'll oblige. Your best be would be to
>why do you like pickup trucks
First off, I am a construction laborer. You can't imagine the headache caused by trying to work that job without a pickup bed, and I do, because I've done it. It's like trying to raise livestock in your living room. After two days, I had so much dust inside that I could run a finger across any fabric and raise a thick trail of dust with it.
>loud and obnoxious
I don't drive a goddamn 1968 Chevy, I have a 1986 Toyota. 22RE and 4W-low, that truck is the dream. No louder than most compact cars of the same year, either. Smaller than a minivan, for that matter.
Coming around the pass. Is a cyborg "more or less a normal" for you?
Like I said it's a little pricey but you might like it, or maybe not.
I've had both, Europoor Guinness is harder to come by and harder on the wallet for obvious reasons, but it is better.
I want to watch Drive maybe tomorrow night. Have you seen that?
>inb4 you fly like you've been doing it all your life
Is /k/ that crazy? I've only lurked a smidgeon there but like the other boards the shitposting that comes up makes me laugh something fierce.
Good point on having your brain fucked with though, that's a really scary thought. As for your question.. I couldn't tell you. Last time I was happy was maybe 10 years ago, I've been cruising by on being content at best ever since.
QUICK, SOMEBODY POST THAT ON R/4CHAN
I got no problem with folks who are actually gay, lesbian, bi or trans. Hell, i'm bi myself. It's the special snowflakes that are awfully militant about it or make up silly genders and pronouns that irk me. I'm working on an anti-SJW pasta though that will at the very least be somewhat entertaining for me.
Why are we still here? Just to shitpost?
Oh thats reasonable.I have done construction work too so I understand,I just hate all the fags that live in the suburbs driving those fucking f-250s and being a general dick you know.sorry to hate anon.
>if you liked watamote.
I'm three eps in, I have several incomplete shows in my list too. Parks and Rec is almost Always Sunny levels of beautiful, espcially for someone who does actually aspire to work for the Parks department.
And no, I'd never even heard of it before you mentioned it. I'm not a very good weeb, like I said I pretty much only watch anime when a cute girl tells me to.
And then I proceed to love it so much and think it's the best thing in the world and practically sell my soul to it, I actually love anime, I just don't go out of my way looking for it.
I love pretty much everything the director, Richard Linklater, makes, because he just captures everyday life in such an authentic, endearing, and poignant way.
Boyhood in particular is cool because it was filmed over the course of 12 years, so you literally watch this kid grow up and go through adolescence and enter adulthood over the course of two hours or so. You see all the actors age in fact. It captures the passage of time so well.
I feel like most people who like guns really really reeeeeeaallly like guns. I just enjoy guns about as well as I enjoy, say, a slice of pizza, no more no less.
That's the term I always use too "content." I'm content' not happy by any stretch, a little sad but no horrid just there. It hurts a little. Did I ever share my dream with you?
yes she speaks ok english but not the best, she is trying to learn, sometimes she send me korean and I just have to translate it
and to answer your question yes I have money to get a ticket but I dont plan on flying out to seoul just yet,
Get me something strong. Whatever you think is good.
I've been talking to a foreign girl. 8/10 and kinda a bot. She's a friend of a friend. After a while we get a lot more comfortable with each other. Talk about our lives, etc. The more we talk the more I start to fall for her. We started exchanging sexy pictures. I started to care less about my well being and more about her. Keeping her happy, making sure she doesn't get depressed again. Normally she lives away from my country but currently she's a 5-8 hour drive away because she's visiting family. We keep flirting and such, which is very confusing to me because
she told me she's really attracted to one of our mutual friends. She's not gay or anything but she goes full homo for friend. I don't know if our mutual friend likes hershe keeps making a lot of sexual jokes and goes on how we should go out and fuck or whatever, but I can't bring myself to do it knowing her heart isn't in it and I'd probably be a one time thing.
Probably can't do it because my ex pretty much ruined sex for me. I value intimate stuff like kissing and cuddling over fucking some woman senseless. But with her I just want to
protecther and hugher.
She posts here on this now and then, there's a chance she'll see it. I'll take that risk.
Wow, sounds like my kinda film. It musta has a big production cost tho yea? I'd imagine 12 years just to shoot one film would cost a buttfuck ton.
Also barkeep, another rum and coke, please :)
I know that feel, I once had a girl who I worried more about her than I worried about myself, I wored so hard that I got sick and had to stay away that snapped me out of it and I realized that I didn't even like her anymore because she never worked as hard as I did to keep me happy. So I broke up with her.
>all the fags that live in the suburbs driving those fucking f-250s
If it's kept factory-condition, I think it's cosmetically-pleasing. When it's lifted 80 feet in the air and has a modern Corvette engine under the hood is when I start to wonder how many millimeters long your penis is.
one of my good mates has that exact truck, mega-lifted 1970s Chevy with a Vette engine, I love him anyway.
>Ranger or Silverado
Rangers are good trucks for the money, in my experience, as long as you're not planning on keeping it for a long time and you make sure you're not paying too much for it. 90's Rangers, at least, no knowledge on newer ones. If you didn't already know, Mazda 90's trucks are almost exactly the same thing as Rangers, they just don't get the blue oval on the front. They might be a bit cheaper, like I said it's valuable if you didn't already know that, but there's a good chance you did.
You must be having some pretty shitty pizzas then. I'm sure you could still bring up your light interest in guns on /k/ though.
I prefer to use content over happy because if I said happy to refer to my state of mind I'd be lying. I'm so used to simply being content at this point that the pursuit of happiness that normies break their backs for doesn't really hold much appeal to me, despite the constant reassurance by my friend that it'll come.
You didn't share any dream as far as I remember. What happened?
It's from MGSV, i'll find a link in a jiff.
Awesome, I know what i'm doing tomorrow night then.
Sounds like a bourbon kind of mood. I know this feel, on one hand it might be positive that you're putting yourself in such a vulnerable place but it's also dangerous, withdraw from her just a little bit. Maybe take some time to do a really wholehearted one on one with her and get some answers for yourself.
Checked, coming around the pass.
kek, I'll be fetching a link for the jukebox in a few minutes though. Don't worry.
Well I should clarify that it wasn't 12 years continuously. They would meet and film for only about a month every year and then go back to their other projects. In fact in the span of all those years the director made a few other movies with some of the same actors.
What are some of your favorite movies?
Damn that nostalgia.This was my shit as a kid. I alos really liked Chance the Rapper's cover of it. I have been jammin' to this all week.
Whats good. Anyone wanna buy some weed, I need to pay my rent and I thought "ayy, I could probz get a few sells here." Also could I bum a smoke from someone, I smoked my dad's last one and i'm fuckin croakin' brah.
I like the Harry potter series of movies. I haven't read the books to them in years though so can't comment on that. Ever heard of the movie Tremors? Idk how popular it was but it's a really nice movie to just kick back and enjoy a drink to.
Why when I am at work I always feel any mistake I make will have me scrutinized by the head chef and consider to fire me for this. Even if it's harmless or easily fixable mistakes.I never fuck up baldly even. I work as hard as I can, and I understand not everyone can be good at everything, I feel I'm good at my job. It makes me anxious to not know whether they look upon me favorably. Am I paranoid? Is it okay to occasionallly make minors mistakes in a fast faced work environment?
Get me a shot of Jack, and another Jack & Coke to chase because I'm fucking losing my mind atm.
>meet grill at my good friends party
>looks very much like Lavren from CHVRCHES, 10/10 grill, drinks like a fish, smokes weed, plays video games and watches anime, totally chill to hang out with
>we hang out a couple of times, just as friends
>my good friend tells me i need to watch out for her because shes not the 'relationship type' and has walls of steel protecting her feelings, obviously a girl thats been hurt bad in the past
>advises best to not try anything with her unless she comes onto me
>basically tells me as far as he can tell she barely even knows i exist
>have no clue if she has any interest in me at all
>my friend has literally said to her he feels like she doesnt have feelings because shes so reserved
>im also mentally ill so i have terrible judgement anyway and literally think that everyone hates me
>she is staying over mine on Friday to smoke weed and bingeplay Fallout 4 all night
>literally have no clue how i should act around her now
>after the advice from my friend i feel like i should be indifferent and act completely platonic and reserved
>but i still like her enough to want to get comfortable around her when we're hanging out
>want to literally hide the fact that i like her until i know for sure she likes me back but she's so closed off i don't know if i'd be able to recognize the signs
also im basically a shut-in apart from my occasional social interactions, so even though i was excited at first that she's coming over, now that i'm radically overthinking it i'm going into full-blown anxious panic mode and considering texting her to cancel
ayy where's all the bitches? Is this a fuckin gay bar or some shit?
I haven't seen Tremors, but I have seen Tremors 2. And coincidentally I think I was pretty drunk at the time.
I oughta watch the rest of the harry potter movies. I think I saw the first five and then stopped for some reason.
Are you a reader nowadays?
You usually won't be laid off for small mistakes, in fact a lot of the time they won't even be noticed. It's still better on principle to avoid them but all I can say is shit happens. If shit is getting to your head just take a step back, go for a deep breath and keep a level head.
Lupe Fiasco, not bad. I like his freestyles.
On one hand at least you know exactly what's going on in your head, anon. You're getting way too anxious. Now that being said, you can definitely be indifferent and reserved and still make someone feel comfortable around you, and if you two get along decently it shouldn't be too challenging getting to that mix.
As an aside, avoid the ones that put up walls that high and that strong. I need not explain why.
Yo, I just came in to ask if anyone's lookin for any. Whatever u need i gotchu. Could someone buy me a 40 and ill hook it back when my welfare arrives? I'm good for it yo
No I'm not much of a reader but I did buy Mr. Mercedez by Stephen King recently. It's pretty enjoyable. You should finish the HP series tho. The end gets pretty grim.
On a different note, how's your week been? My teacher let me cheat off the answers page for my Bio exam, that was the highlight. Wbu bb?
Should I kill myself?
>fail up through high school
>quit early 2004
>do nothing for the rest of the year
>do nothing 2005-2006
>get put on the dole
>shuffled around various job service providers - privatisation is better dontcha know - from 2007-2011
>get diagnosed depression
>get diagnosed autisms
>2011 get shit together
>2011-2012 redo school
>October 2012-March 2013 work at a shitty pretentious wannabe upscale burger joint
>March 2013-May2014 work as kitchen hand at decent restaurant
>2013 cert III patisserie
>2014 cert III commercial cooking
>August 2014-June 2015 work as chef
>August-March veg section, a few bumps but doing okay, don't make the same mistake twice, other two guys on the section are fucking lazy and do just enough to get through their shift and where I leave it with stuff prepared for the coming days they leave it almost completely bare
>another chef is a fucking psycho and bullies me, head chef is always agro and I bare it working next to the pass
>March-June larder section, prep is easier than veg, but Im fucking terrible at it, can't coordinate my shit with mains, can't keep track of dockets, can't get shit up in time, not given training on sections prep list, ordering requests ignored
>chef gives me final written warning
>can't figure out how to do the stuff I am supposed to do and certainly not within 1 week
>email him he should terminate me now and save us another week of grief
>July-now sitting at home doing nothing back on disability
>4 months to wizard
I know the "You'll find happiness eventually, anon" talk. I know it very well.
But in this dream I was in a hotel lobby. lobby was kinda bare, a few stragglers bit nobody of importance; just back ground scenery. I walked up to a bellhop guarding the elevator and I look at him and he smiles and opens the door. The elevator is small, not claustrophobic but just small enough to feel noticeably small.
After the doors close I reach towards the buttons and just before I push a button I shoot upwards faster and faster higher and higher but the jolt doesn't shake me. I look at the door which has seemingly turned to glass and I look down at what appears to be a shopping center, a mall. I see the faces of men and women and children walking with barren faces and sunken souls. I can see they are empty but my elevator keeps ascending.
Up and up and up and then it goes dark. Nothing but darkness but I can feel my continued ascent. Up some more and then crash! Up and out of an immense sea of water. And my elevator and I screech to a halt mere inches from the water.
A light from the elevator turns on and I can see the surface of the water, black and rippled. Small waves flow back and forth. I look around and only see empty space mere yards from the light on my elevator. I know I can only see all around myself a few yards but I know this ocean extends all around, infinitely.
I stare at the water inches below my now rusted and decrepit elevator and I feel immense dread. I feel as if this infinite black ocean wants to swallow me up. I sit in this rusted elevator hanging a foot below a bare, concrete ceiling and inches from and infinite bottomless, black ocean and I stare into my death.
It was a horrid dread. Horrid but yet so beautiful. I don't know what to do with it. Sorry for slow reply.. Slow typer..
Poster of >>24071701 here. Thanks for the drink. Should probably fill in some details I forgot. Fighting one hell of a cold.
When my ex and I broke it off she sold a lot of my stuff I never got back from her and bought a shit ton of sex toys. I guess she accidently sent one to my house instead of where she was staying. Never threw it out, just
kept it in my room as a motivation to not kill myself as they would go through all my stuff.she mentioned wanting a similar designed one and I told her I had one kind of like it. She really wanted it so I won a stuffed animal plushie in one of those crane games, cut a hole in it and stuffed it in, mailed it to her. She used it twice and broke it.
She's known our mutual friend for longer than I've known her, and I guess they're on rocky ground. Didn't bother to ask her why, knew it was a touchy subject.
Ey, another round for everyone, on me, someone should have a good night.
This week was the most hellish in awhile for me. Like I said, I put off a shit ton of work, and I just happened to get sick and really depressed right when I finally had to get shit done.
Also, I'm >>24071338, and that public speaking episode was the low point. I swear at one point I made eye contact with this girl I had been flirting with for the last few weeks and she looked disgusted/astonished that she ever decided to flirt with me. Ugh, christ.
>you can definitely be indifferent and reserved and still make someone feel comfortable around you
Thanks for the advice, I'll keep that in mind when she's over. I know she gets a bit more comfy when she's stoned and she's alluded to the fact that she like me differently to her other friends. One time she was changing out of her jeans into track pants at her friends, and forced the other guys to look away and face the other wall, then looked at me and didn't say the same to me. I didn't turn away and was still facing her direction, but out of respect for her comfort I just smiled at her and started browsing on my phone and she changed. Maybe I'm making importance out of something that could have literally been nothing at all to her, but it was just a funny little situation that got me thinking.
>avoid the ones that put up walls
Opposed to that, I'd agree with you, but I'm not really interested in pursuing a relationship with her. I like her a lot, enough to want to fuck her, but I'd be desperate to keep our relationship 'friends with benefits' if anything, because it would suck to lose her as a friend.
No problem, Anon. I like to think of myself as a writer but I'm somewher between 8 and 10 beers deep so I'm sure their was quite a few mistakes in their and some more exposition that could have been added. I'm gladded you liked my Existential dream.
How are you bartender? I'll have gin and juice please.
Didn't smoke weed, take any of my medication, or fap this whole week just to see if I could do it. My baseline was incredibly shitty and I had to leave several classes due to anxiety attacks.
I've decided that despite being band aid fixes I need medication because my brain doesn't produce dopamine and other things at normal rates (according to my psychiatrist).
Anyone else here dealing with anxiety issues?
Surprise me bartender, any stout of your choosing.
>tfw 21 year old virgin
>tfw ugly but fit
>tfw eastern european engineer chick things I'm cute but is too beta to talk to me
>tfw I'm too beta to talk to anyone
On the bright side I realize it's really fucking stupid of me to >tfw this shit considering it's great enough that someone actually likes me, I'm just worried once she starts talking to me and the cat's out of the bag about my autism she'll leave in disgust.
Have this nice tune https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IA_ubhYgjAc
I could use a stiff drink, barkeep. Give me a scotch, on the rocks.
I'm not sure what happened, but I've lost all of my edge lately. It's good that I'm not very edgy anymore, but it's inconvenient in that now I have no personality or reason to exist.
I get no sexual gratification from hentai images anymore. When I see someone running their cock through a meat grinder on the internet, it disturbs me.
The only upshot is that I did find a waifu recently. That could be why I can't objectify and demean anime girls anymore.
I'm pissed off because I'm too strange to hang out with normies but at this rate I'll be too normal to hang out with strange people either, leaving me stranded between planes, just wandering the earth alone.
Only four months to wizardry, then you can use your cunning and powers to right your wrongs, or something.
Kek'd and check'd. You get his free drink though, that newfag is an obvious normie.
Sounds like something straight out of an acid trip, anon. Also rather poignant. Do you ever have lucid dreams?
Seems a bit contradictory to what you said before, or maybe i'm just misconstruing things. That being said, the problem with friends with benefits is given time, somebody is bound to catch feels that they theoretically shouldn't. Then it ends in one of two ways: What you've got going on tanks, or you two become a bona fide couple. Best of luck with whatever you decide to do though, anon. And you're most welcome for the 2 pence.
Coming around the pass.
Gin and juice coming around. I have.. mild anxiety at best, I can attribute that to just being a sperg though rather than a diagnosed anxiety disorder, ergo no meds.
I haven't dude weed lmao'd in months but I know for a fact I don't have the willpower to do nofap november, so I haven't been bothering. I've got some abstract kind of feels going on, you know?
I'll take a bottle of single malt scotch.
Got a job but it feels like a dead end. I'm gonna keep with it for at least a year so recruiters from somewhere else might possibly take me. In the meantime I guess I have my gun collection, but the daily grind does a good job wearing you down, sucking the humanity out of you. God, I want to move to Montana. If I can't find a job in my field there within the next 18 months, I'm just going to go for a welding certification and move there anyway.
Only depression and decay await me here in the Midwest.
I feel you mane.
It's funny... medication (benzos and beta blockers) don't even take me to normie level, I just become comfortable with being a complete sperg. I lasted 5 days for nofap. Weed is good for me at this point in my life. My thoughts go from "fuck this gay earth" to "I should sing the beach boys and make a PB&J"
One for the jukebox, based barkeep.
I ran out of meds last week and haven't refilled them yet, I should really do that tomorrow.
I can't focus and I feel like killing myself, but I'm just sane enough to keep it completely under wraps and not act on it.
Good job on getting a job ...I guess.I know the grind, I worked retail for a year and it was my first job.It made everything worse to be honest. I thought about more ways to kill myself the whole time until I quit last month because I just couldn't do it.
>Only depression and decay await me here in the Midwest.
I feel like that is the motto out here.
Same anon. Do you think I should add this dream, with a bit more sober exposition and editing to my book of musings? I feel like it has a horrid yet beautiful existential message in it. Don't worry, my book will probably be shit anyways.
Kierkegaard right now, but I'm not the anon trying to make him into a meme in other threads. It's a funny coincidence. Hegel is good but I just need to crack him open a bit more before I can really enjoy him. Descartes had a few fun writings. So did Nietzsche but I don't like the direction he went. Apart from them I can't name anyone that really comes to mind. Surely I have enjoyed other works very much but not enough of the authors full library to press the authors name to memory. Oh, Proudhon was a fun guy. Qu'est-ce que la propriete? C'est le vol!
Interestingly enough I very seldom remember my dreams. And, as a result, I do not lucid dream. When I was a young child I did occasionally after waking up and lying back down but never into my adolescence and adulthood.
I am considering voting for him (if I vote at all) just because the whole system is a rigged fucking joke, so why not vote for the meme candidate?
Worst case scenario the predetermined candidate who spend the most on lobbyists (Shillary) will win, and America is fucked. Best case Trump wins and many keks will ensue
Bartender, get me the most alcohol-loaded drink you've got.
Tbh senpai just try and practice going infront of people as much as you can. Embarassing yourself sometimes is okay, try not to do that too much though. Build up a think skin and act as normie as you can. Have a proud voice and if you mess up, take a deep breath and try again. Practice makes perfect. I must go now bro but heed my word, the darkest part of the night comes right before dawn. Goodbye my friend and goodbye barkeep
I accumulated about 1200 pictures of Pepe and Wojak, only a dozen or so are duplicates. Feel free to download my folder and distribute them or keep them all for yourself.
> Loves Me Like a Rock is incredibly catchy and uplifting for you
> Can't appreciate it because the lyrics imply having a good relationship with your mother
My mom and I are on good terms, definitely not as bad as some of the people who've posted here, but we really don't agree on anything and we're not close at all.
Good taste, anon.
Scotch on the rocks, eh? Existential crises will do that to you I suppose. And I wouldn't say you're drifting some kind of middle plane of existence but there definitely is something odd afoot. A few good nights of sleep and some self reflection (I suggest meditating) might do you a favor.
Feels bad, man. Welding is quite lucrative to my knowledge though, mostly because there appears to be so much that could just ruin your day. Look forward to that if nothing else works.
Cigarettes help mellow me out, and actually lend themselves to make my social life in college not completely shit. My nofap record is also 5 days but i'm hoping to beat it, no pun intended, next time I give it a spin.
Easily the most comedic candidate. I'd vote for him on that alone if I was an Amerikek. I also agree with his policy on immigration, that's really about it. Up north we've got our own political oddities tbqh.
>want to kill self
>also want to live
Can confirm, it's an interesting state of mind. Do refill those meds though.
sleep well puppers
I'm this drunk writer philosophy dream fag >>24072625 and I don't vote out of principle. I hate fags who don't vote cause of laziness but if you firmly believe the system is fucked either way you cut it then just abstain, mate. Had a kid try and rip me a new asshole cause I told him I didn't vote. I say fuck 'em.
Iktfb. My mom and I have a very superficial relationship, but deep down I know I have become something that she despises and I don't think she will ever get over the fact that none of her children grew up the way she would have liked them to.
I know she loves me but I can't help but feel really shitty when I look at things from her perspective.
Cool. I'm more into lit than philosophy personally but I love Camus' stuff. How do you feel about him? Also, I've recently had to read Kant for my ethics class and I found him ridiculously perplexing.
Thanks for the kind words and advice bro. Goodnight.
I have lucid dreams quite often. They're interesting but at times are scary, and extremely disorienting when I wake up for real.
Moonshine coming right up, bratan. What's going on?
The only thing I have voted on in my career as a voter is legalizing weed in Oregon because it directly affected me and I knew it would be close. I have more faith in anything from local to statewide. Federal level is sold to the highest bidder, which is why weed won't become legal.
> want to kill self
> also want to live
That's exactly how I feel. Not a day goes by that I don't think about blowing my brains out, but I want to be around to observe the consequences and do other things.
I don't want to die, I want to get out of where I am right now. I want to just start over but I'm too entrenched in my current life, too much collateral if I just up and vanished.
> None of her children grew up the way she wanted
This. Whether she admits it to herself or not, my mother had a specific way that she wanted her kids to go, and none of them did, and that will always color her view of us, no matter how hard she tries to pretend she's proud of us no matter what.
My siblings and I actually grew up into pretty decent people, but not the kind of people that she wanted to be able to say she raised.
Take care, anon.
Fuck, if I only I still had that image. States colored in blue thought weed was still the "devil's flower", the other states couldn't hear the first set over the sound of chips.
Tbqh I only voted for Trudeau for middle class benefits, dude weed lmao and to get the PM before him the fuck out of office for his incompetence. Mostly the weed.
Fucking this. If I just died tomorrow I can name people off the top of my head who would be devastated, even if only briefly.
jus b urself
Do you like her? If so make this clear to her before things go to far without either of you confessing your feelings.
If she says no, either terminate the friendship or go on accepting that fact. If yes, you have obtained a gf as well as a pass to leave this shithole of a board :)
I know a guy who did six grams of shrooms and entered the fifth dimension.
He learned that there are infinite alternate timelines, each slightly different, and limited communication is possible between them, but no direct interaction or alterations can be made.
So yes, the past is immutable. It's a hard pill to swallow, when even your crazy druggie friend's insane notions of the universe don't enable you to fix your mistakes.
I've been meaning to read a it of Kant. (As an aside; check this: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DC8ioZkb-Sc make's me so damn happy.) But, honestly, I had to quick Google Camus. He's an absurdest and so closely linked to Sartre. Sartre was alright but his ideas were mediocre in my tiny, insecure opinion. By extension I'd presume Camus to have a solid literary style but equally contrite ideas. But, you;ve given me an author to look into and I shouldn't pass judgment so quickly.
I'm sure. That lack of concrete standing in reality. Perhaps both are equally real? *cue Twilight Zone theme*
That's about it. I'd suggest voting in local things but the Fed is up for sale. What can you do? >inb4 violent revolution against drones and nukes
Thanks I think I will now. Also, I like Kierkegaard's use of the Hegelian dialectal. Specifically in the First Stage of his "The Immediate Stages of The Erotic"
I dont know man. Ive recently made friends with my co workers, like legit friends, and most of the time i dont think i deserve to have friends. Then other nights i get so fucking lonely (usually after blowing one of them off). I want friends, and i want to be close to other people but i think im scared. My drinking problem isnt helping things either although there is some junkiealcoholic chick that got sober that seems to REALLY care about me and wants to help me quit. I guess we are going to a meeting. Any way, how do i stop feeling worthless?
>tfw drinking while listening to my feels music
>tfw feels music gets me even sadder because of the songs was good as fuck then the artist released a new shitty version because she turned into a jew
Am I talking to my actual brother right now? Lol. I'm in the exact same situation. All of my siblings are relatively successful and on good tracks in life, but the tracks don't involve going to church, abstaining from weed/booze lmao, and being charismatic sports stars/missionaries. (mormon parents if you couldn't tell). I think I am reading too much into it, I think she has more of a capacity to forgive and forget than I give her credit for.
I'm hoping canada will set the bar for america (first time in history lol) when it comes to cannabis.
That's fucking crazy man. I love hearing people's stories from shroom/acid trips. I have never done enough to have full ego loss or out of body experiences or anything, but I can understand where people that see things like that come from.
Oh shit didn't realize it had only been an hour. How did you meet? If you are able to meet up in person that's when you should let her know. Saying anything through texts is beta as fuck and will get you nowhere.
Close. I had catholic parents. My mother wanted a bunch of good, catholic people who never deviated from things she can understand who never disagreed with her on anything.
To her credit, she's handled it exceedingly well, even accepting my sister being a lesbian, which must have been a huge labor for her.
I love Twilight Zone. But no, there's always something in the dreams that give away that they're dreams, but for some reason despite the fact and despite knowing i'm dreaming and ergo in full control of what happens around me, I never do anything over the top and I still wake up disoriented.
It doesn't help that my dreams are always better than how things are for me in the present day, kind of gives me something to shoot for though.
It'll be interesting what Trudeau has in mind for legal weed across the country. If he's doing something like what Colorado and Washington state have been doing though it'll probably be unquestionably good news from an economical standpoint.
We're almost to the post limit, robots. We can do this. And still no NEETs, you'd think there would've been at least one tonight.
I think you think I'm farther along with this than I am. She's in my class and I talked to her maybe 10 or 15 minutes each class the last few weeks. I don't even have her number yet.
Also, she may not even be into me, she could just be friendly and I'm just bad at reading people.
I was never really much of a fan of her music but I at least kind of respected her first album. I was fucking baffled when I decided to listen to flesh without blood and that other track on a whim. They're so generic and synthetic sounding.
When I was a young child I remember dreaming of playing on my swing set with Winnie the Pooh or wrestling with Eeyore and waking up very early and realizing I was having a wonderful dream so I closed my eyes and put myself back into the dream as hard as I could until I eventually returned to my joyous slumber to continue swinging while Pooh filled my ear with wonderful laughter.
>writing that gave me some feels tbqh familia
A scotch and water my good man. Here are my singles as id.