What even is this thread? I mean we all have our problem rather it be self-hate issues or just being insensitive but we don't go around talking about them publicly or at least I don't I prefer to share that shit to a friend.
/soc/ is a strange place. I think a common misconception is that everyone is a mid 20s virgin but I still think there's got to be something off with all of us. I know I'm a pretty normal, social guy IRL but I come here. I assume it's related to my borderline personality disorder though I'm yet to agree that's even a real thing.
>>22614352 I stopped using after I was around 6, 8 year old alcoholics or druggies for too long. So fucking depressing. Makes me move my life in a better direction. Im doing way better now, sober for three months.
I've been dealing drugs since i was a sophomore in highschool, now im a sophomore in college and i have sold the following and ruined some peoples lives because of it. I feel awful since the profession im going into is neurology...But i need the money for it.
I'm a 30/m living in Canada, and some days consider myself a functional addict, even though all I fuck with is weed. I smoke a doob on the way to work, smoke a couple at lunch, smoke 1 or 2 on the way home. At night I will smoke about 12 joints, give or take. So some days it's like, damn, maybe I should quit so I could save up some serious money, not be 30 living with my mom.
But then I don't, and most days I'm just thinking about how much I love getting high, and fuck people and a life that doesn't involve getting high, realistically I should be quitting my job and just growing weed full time.
OP here. Sorry if I have offended anyone with the title. It was projection more than anything else.
I have been going down a big slope recently. I was prescribed kpins, even after my doc knew of my past in-patient treatments, and now I'm back hunting the streets trying to score better highs.
I started doing cwe's of my parents old ty-3's and now I'm peeking around friends houses to see what they've got.
It really sucks because I began to see a dr. so that I would not have to drink everyday to feel normal and happy. Now, I'm taking shitloads of meds to feel nothing so that I can just shuffle through my day like a robot.
I feel like trash because I am lying to my family and all I am is a walking bag of deceit, manipulation and an unquenchable hunger for "PERFECTION".
I don't want to die. I want to leave everything behind, walk the world 6 times, and if I don't find anything worth living for by then I will already be dead.
I don't have friends. I have tools and I have assets. I don't have family. I have security and money.
Confession here. I've been smoking weed since I was 14. After that, it's been a slippery slope. XTC, speed, acid, shrooms, 2cb, you name it. In daily life, I study at a university, get good grades, and have a parttime job. But at the end of the day, I still need my fix. Lately, I've had to start dealing to be able to pay for my fix. So, anybody around Rotterdam need a fix? I'm your guy
I don't do any hard drugs, but I've been smoking weed pretty much daily for the past few months. Dry right now which sucks. I know you can't get physically addicted to weed but you can definitely get emotionally addicted IMO. Weed helps my anxiety a ton and helps get my mind off of all the usual shitty thoughts I ponder on, especially at night.
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