I'm a fuckin failure.
i love video games too
but honestly working 40 hours a week is not that hard. once i accepted this i got to play my own video games in my own sofa in my own house with my own wife to play video games with
but sometimes you just suck too hard like op and can't be as good as me. seems like you have two options
My mother died when I was in Junior high school, killing all my motivation. My dad looks at me, like I'm supposed to be a savior.
Honestly, I'm sorry /v/, I've been posting here for years and I never thought I would make a post like this. I just...trying to exclude you from bull shit poetry and romanticized bullshit: I think I'm done nigga.
nigga i aint got nothing to say. i know i'm supposed to say something like "yo it gets better" or "think of all the good things" or whatever but i just can't find a reason to go on anyway.
I'm on the other side of op right now... I am in a great place in my career, I'm getting an assload of experience at a great restaurant.
But I'm working fucking 80+ hours a week, six days a week, and my wife works on my only day off. I barely have time to keep my house and car in order, much less play a video game even though I just want to relax.
I'm so fucking depressed right now... I was supposed to have tomorrow off, but I just got a text saying I need to go in tomorrow too...
Drink yourself to death; the coward's way out.
Hope it's ok that I started without you.
Please, please, please don't kill yourself god damn it. Go to the emergency room at your nearest hospital if you're on the verge. But for fuck's sake don't do it.
If you're gonna kill yourself just fucking do it instead of parading around looking for pity you cock sucking faggot. Honestly you probably don't have the balls to go through with it anyway otherwise you wouldn't be here. So hears an idea. Why don't you get your shit together and make something of yourself. It may be hard but every journey begins with a single step. You just have to be stubborn enough to keep moving toward you big faggot.
>Last week the woman of my dreams was willing to give me a chance
>I fucked things up by being too forward
>She thinks all the cuddling we did was a mistake now
I'm trying to fix things and make her see that it wasn't a mistake but I just don't know /v/, I think I might have blown my one chance, any advice is appreciated
i was prepared for a feels thread
this is too much for me to feel
Hang in there.
I was depressed for a long time.
Found a nice girl at age 24 and life turned around.
On average, how many /v/ users do you guys think kill themselves every year?
>Boss calls me to come into work on my day off
>Don't answer the phone
One of the best feels in the world.
>JUEGOS DE VIDEO
>Eggs of videos
What the fuck are you talking about?
I'm surprised this thread is still up. I thought it would be buried under the bullshit threads of yellow journalism/Zoe faggotary. Well /V/, honestly, I fuckin love you guys. I want to participate in more threads in the years. I just can't.
I've had a girl for 8 years, we loved each other but I just had to end it because I couldn't take her or other people serious. I don't know. I literally have no family, all my friends are college faggots.
I have one best friend from 1st grade and he posts randomly on 4chan and barely hangs with me. I don't know. I'm gonna walk to a hospital after this post if it even gets posted.
Suck dick yall
I don't understand how all you depressfags can be so depressed. I have a pretty shitty life, I live in a shit house, have no friends and I pack shelves at a supermarket for a living, but I don't feel depressed like you guys
literally go run into the ocean right now
just fucking go
do not stop
i don't care if you live in a land locked country
i don't care if it's 2000 miles away
go and make me proud
if i hear about you i'll be proud of you
you ran 2000 miles to the ocean
Oh stfu if you're going to kill yourself something tells me you're not all that egotistical
>I'm too good to take medication but not too good to kill myself!
No one is this retarded
Coming from someone who was suicidal, they don't really do much. All they do is numb ALL emotion, so while you won't feel as depressed, you won't feel as happy either. Nothing feels enjoyable, but nothing feels awful either.
Also murders your sex drive.
>complaining about it on a videogame board instead of working on improving yourself or your situation
certainly it won't hurt to try
You could be worse OP I have an inoperable tumor dangerously close to my heart.
I have a friend that owns an anaconda and lives a little out of the way and I have been trying to convince him to let his snake eat me
I have done research and snakes of similar species and smaller than his has been known to be able to eat things nearly the same size as people and my friend is nearly willing to let me do it but the fucker is paranoid about going to jail or shit like that if it gets found out
Depression is caused by chemical imbalance in your brains. It's a disease. You can still get the fucking flu even if you're Bill Gates.
Right there with you though brother. I missed work today because I got drunk on the weekend and left my keys and wallet and bus ticket and everything at my friends house. Two weeks from now I'll be working at a service desk and studying my balls off at the same time. I love it.
I don't care if you were joking, no matter what, you shouldn't do that. Mister Rogers wouldn't want you to do it either.
Remember anon, Mister Rogers believes in you and he loves you. No matter what, he likes you just the way you are.
You're the only one who has control of your life you fucking manchild. Go work out and get a job and stop living in a fantasy world where everyone but you is the problem. If your life sucks it's your God damn fault
your drug nor your therapist worked for you. Not really that uncommon, there's many other therapists or medications that may help, though it is entirely possible that nothing could help you.
download some engines online that work with you to express your ideas and shit. Unity is one. You're going to have to learn how to program if you want to get far. but the studying pays off. read a fucking book. I'd play your game no matter how shitty
It's not about having a shitty life, actual depression and not the "my life sucks" shit you see so often is a legitimate mental disorder and the cause has nothing to do with circumstance.
I can draw
But I don't know shit about
I just want that thing X happening when some one had done YZ, you know what I mean ?
Why such engine not exist ?
>Wario mini game creation mode.
self pity thread nice I can vent my anger here
I just wanna say fuck my life and if I ever reach the point of killing myself I'll probably go to some mosque and massacre as many muslims as I can then kill myself
alright I got that outta me
You know what? Fuck you. I hate you. I hate you so much that I don't want you to kill yourself. I want you to keep living your miserable life and taking meds because you got teh problemz bro.
Please do nothing with your life. Stay sheltered and do nothing but play video games. Become a super elitist. Study game design. Bleat your heart out when you don't get what you want from a hyped game. Make your own fucking game, who knows, you hyperfocused dickface autistic retard. You may have absorbed all of that inspiration from all the vidya, so fucking make a game. Then maybe I'll play it.
So fuck you. If all you ever loved was games, then fucking make one, coward.
My whole life i was told how great my future was going to be. But when the time came that I needed help with putting my future in motion all the help and support I had crumbled away. Now here I am, 2:45 in the morning not looking forward to the time I have to spend away from video games tomorrow.
Thankfully I'm not suicidal, though I don't know what I have to look forward to.
I just don't feel sad man. I get good amounts of sleep, I eat well, I go to work and pack those shelves, then I come home and play vidya. I just feel GOOD man.
Yo, Anons. Whatever you do decide for yourselves, don't fucking kill yourself. If you think there is some paradise or better place waiting on the "other side", you are fucked. There is nothing more than what you make for yourself in this world. I am not gonna say some shit like "it gets better" because, no, in a lot of cases, including mine, it doesn't "get better". But, don't throw away any chance you might have at happiness in the future. You can get your shit together and fucking make something of your life, but for now, do something that distracts you. Play vidya or some shit. Hell, even stay here and keep complaining. You want to feel better, but can't feel better if you are dead, you can't feel fucking anything if you are dead.
I was depressed for 3 years. I remember I was responding to someone on /r9k/ when it suddenly hit me: I don't have to be depressed. I don't know, it was like an epiphany. I don't have to feel empty all the time. I don't have to stay in my room all day. I don't have to sleep because I don't want to think. I can go to the beach if I want, I can talk to friends, I can make money and go to movies and do things. I mean, what was stopping me? I was stopping me.
As soon as I realized that the only person standing in my way was me, I said "fuck that!" and just suddenly felt happy. It was like a weight had been lifted off my shoulder. I don't have to be depressed, it's all in my perception. Now whenever I start to feel a low mood coming on, if I catch myself just lying down and trying to sleep, it's like I slap myself. "Do I seriously want to be like this? No way!".
Depression is like you and everyone you know are walking down a long path called life. You stumble and fall into a pit, and nobody helps you. They just walk by and ignore you while the pit keeps growing deeper and deeper, and you feel emptier and emptier. You just sit there huddled up at the bottom of the dark pit, waiting until something happens and it ends, holding out some hope that you'll get miraculously pulled out. But it doesn't work like that. I just grew frustrated with waiting and realized I could climb up that pit. I was getting the fuck out, fuck everyone who wasn't helping me, I was making this work because I love me. It's that inability to believe in yourself that keeps you down, but you are brimming with potential, you just have to really, TRULY realize that.
I've been on seven different antidepressants and they haven't done shit for me. I'm currently taking 225 MG a day of clomiPRAMINE and I still have zero desire to be alive. I've just given up on ever finding an answer and hope I die sooner than later. I would do it myself but I'm partially a coward and I don't want to make the handful of people who still give a shit about me miserable.
I hung out with a cute girl from 1 to 5 in the morning last night playing video games.
Now I just sit here and wonder what to do next. God, last night was so fucking bizarre.
me too. and now I create them with a great team of devs and artists :)
>You only have to work 40 hours a week
I have a job at Walmart.
Because I actually do mine the managers give me 6 days a week at times, then a 2 day break and after that another 5 day week. 8 Hours a day.
Tuesday and Wednesday, I can't even talk to my Sister, my only friend, anymore.
Can I ask you if you know some easy usage Engine ? Whit basically zero script needed ?
Just for make some protoyps and learn the logic behind the creation of an actual game ?
>sticky says i need to get in the right mindset to get fit
>poster says i need to get fit to get in the right mindset
I just can't win
>blindly killing muslims because the media portrays all of them as terrorists
I hate extremists as much as the next guy and ill admit im a little racist towards them too, but why not try killing a street gang or something
Both my friend and me are confident that any problems for the snake will only occur if we get found out and since my friend lives out of the way in a rural area with enough planning and preparation that has an extremely low chance of happening.
So far like I said the only reason my friend is currently saying no is cause he does not want to risk ending up in jail.
I was talking about being a manchild. I doubt he's too stubborn to stop being depressed. Just too stubborn to make a change. So instead of trying to better himself he puts together pity parties. Like this thread.
>Working at Wally World
I feel for you.
It's like they hire the most cunty managers they can find.
I had a friend that was fired because he had his lunch break at the time he was supposed to.
Honestly, save up that Walmart cash and go to a trade school. I'm currently working a desk job that has a way better work pace than at Wal-mart making 16$ an hour.
Man, I'm a neet right now. I know I'm gunna need to get a job some day, but it bothers me. Not so much because I hate the idea of work, but I already feel like I dont have enough time in the world to do everything I want to do.
We don't even really have many muslims here. I don't see why you'd think they're such a big problem for the country.
And if you want to fix up Australia, you've got bigger damn problems than a mosque.
I don't get lonely, I got empty. Everything felt pointless for 3 years, I just couldn't bring myself to do things. I'd eat and masturbate just because it was a somewhat pleasant sensation. I was so frustrated and unhappy with my lack of energy.
One of the hardest things I did was admitting I was depressed to someone. I couldn't outright admit it at first, and they weren't catching on, and I just kept getting quieter and quieter. "I think I'm... d... d-d..." as soon as I got that word out, the tears just came flowing out, I was so ashamed. But those tears were good for me, because at least I was feeling SOMETHING.
It may sound silly, but yes, you can just snap out of it. Depression is a mental illness that makes you feel hopeless, but you really gotta believe that you are the master of your own perception. It's difficult, but you really can do it, when I realized it, I felt on top of the world. It was 3 AM in the morning and I felt so elated, I'll never forget it. I sent an email to my friends going on about how wonderful the world was and how brimming with potential we all were. They thought I had lost it.
You do know how an anaconda eats its prey right? It strangles you first, then breaks you in half, and then proceeds to swallow you over the course of five or six weeks.
I mean shit man the only death more painful would be burning alive.
I work graveyard shift man and running opposite sleeping hours from my girlfriend makes it really rough, but I always find her the time.
I think you can make time for your sister.
but that type of killing myself implies that I was depressed or something
and besides I will be dead in a few years no matter what so I might as well die fulfilling a fantasy rather than a slow death spending my last few months in a hospital 24/7
Video games don't kill people.
This is SJW bait from the very beginning.
Oh that part was easy. She helped me quietly carry my stuff back from her dorm to mine, we wished each other goodnight and got to bed before things kicked off around campus this morning, but there are so many things about the situation that I'm sorting through for the proper meaning.
You're not gonna wait for GZ and TPP?
What a faggot.
No Shit, it's called Aspergers. Now quit blaming all your misfortunes on Shit that happens in your life and mental illnesses and accept that you're being an immature faggot so you can get crackin on some mother fucking change
>played vidya 24/7 in middle school
>didnt accept 1 girl, didnt go further with 3 others because I DONT NEED IT, LOLVIDYA
>Played vidya 24/7 in highschool
>couple 1 month relationships, never proceeded with 2 others interested in me
>Played vidya 24/7 in college
>dropped out of free ride to state college
>get readmitted because brother has pull
>drop out again because vidya
Now im a 24 year old virgin thats never had a job. At least I prolly have more hours spent in vidya than most people on the planet I bet.
That's the problem. I am not the master of my perception. I can feel myself become irrationally angry and frustrated, and I can't stop it from happening. I have to tell people to not be around me at times or I'll start getting argumentative about meaningless shit.
I have next to zero control over my depression and mood. It's gonna depend on person to person, but depression has a sliding scale, just like shit like schizophrenia and autism.
I'm glad you got over your crap, like, it's hard to do at any level. But it works on very personal and confusing levels to different people. If it's medically diagnosed clinical depression, you've got brain problems, not just bad self control, philosophy or ideals.
It might be. But, there's a chance it's not. Either way, I'd rather risk looking foolish by posting to a SJW faggot Anon, rather than risk letting an actual suicidal Anon off themselves.
south west country victoria
only 4 years ago I saw NO muslims when walking down the main street, now in 2014 I see at least 5. in another 4 years they will be everywhere
don't know the details on those ISIS bombings but I hope burgerland blows those mudslimes off the face of the planet. It gets me giddy just thinking about those scumbags getting vaporized by glorious murican explosives
You miss the part where you just said "it strangles you" first? As in, that part kills you first?
It's not like you feel the rest, you just get a wicked squeeze and that's all. Not supporting the idea anyway, that's way stupid for some obviously fetishy death.
> you and everyone you know are walking down a long path called life. You stumble and fall into a pit, and nobody helps you. They just walk by and ignore you while the pit keeps growing deeper and deeper
If that's not depressing, I don't know what is.
Besides, your analogy boils down to
>decide to stop feeling bad
I do get your point, but it's just not how actual depression works. Actual depression is like having both your legs broken and being asked to start running. You don't suddenly decide to just
git gud[/poiler] and get going, it takes fucking ages to piece yourself together. And even when you think you've done that, there's still going to be lapses of energy that keep you down for days.
How low has my life sunk I'm finding solace on the internet from a stranger I've never met and know nothing about. Fuck me this isn't something for crying over
you guys all need to read Warren Farrell and issues boys face and why they retreat into video games, "failure to launch" phenomenon, all that
boys commit suicide more than four times that of girls, and feminists like Anita and Zoe don't give a shit about that, they don't care about the issues boy face, they want to make male suffering invisible to even less people care
Same. Girlfriend that wants to get married. No job no life no friends and a mountain of debt from failing at college. I have been thinking about it for a while but i know it will never happen because i am just too much of a pussy.
Well, I don't disagree there. That doesn't actually prove any point of yours right, though. It's not like you take your antibiotics and stay warm, you go through years of therapy and drug testing instead.
You may never, ever find the right pill or doc.
>that fucking feel
i don't really want to do anything anymore
everyone i care about wants to die too
i'm considering rounding them up then jumping off a building together but that's too much effort
i can't believe im such a waste of space that i cant even enjoy myself
Exactly. Evolution took this long to get people up and running and we're still filled with all these bullshit problems?
Evolution sucks at his job. I want to hire someone else.
No, you may or may not be. Do you think our rates of depressed people *not* killing themselves would be exactly the same without therapy or medication?
There's a lot of people who could never do it on their own, but did because they had support. You're basically saying your chair only needs one leg because it's technically enough for some people to sit on without falling over.