Alright guys, the fuck is this necklace and what is it doing?What the fuck is this necklace and other questions from a confused anon.2016-01-25 10:26:18 Post No. 17268218
I'll start by saying I'm new to /x/ but have been on 4chan for nearly a decade, forgive my potential lack of understanding of a board that I am new to.
First off, this necklace I'm wearing. Made from warthog tusks and a stone I haven't bothered to identify given to me by my grandfather. Since childhood I've been plagued by fear, in fact I remember the day it started, and I'll give the story briefly.
Before I get to into this I'de ask that you be patient and receive all of my succulent information before commenting or asking questions,... Comment too long. Click here to view the full text.
Since childhood I've been plagued with an irrational fear of something(s) following/observing me. Early childhood it was observable fears like wolves, animals, etc. As a young adult I always felt as though I could feel things. I.e, I always knew when the microwave was running, when my phone was receiving a message, things like that. I hated crowded places and felt like I had a constant radar with thousands of blips on it so to speak. Chalked them up as nonesense and my overactive imagination.
I've always been afraid of... Comment too long. Click here to view the full text.
We talk about it over time and I can feel them just swarming her all the time. Even when we're having sex and such. Eventually I feel the desire to protect her from things, and I learn (with great difficulty) that I can make them fuck off (them being what some on this board have described as grays, shadows) if I become confident I can over power them. Eventually I have what is essentially a barrier around me that will push them away from people. Even other people I don't know. But this fear never leaves me.
I eventually after having forced them away and wielding... Comment too long. Click here to view the full text.
A few years ago I had become Fed up with it while jackhammering alone in an apartment building with no lights. While jackhammering I basically confronted it. I essentially told it to fuck off. And in response, it said (i say said, nothing was audible) aaahh... And shook its head. You're still afraid, son. And for the first time in a while I had a mental perception of something I was feeling. A tall gaunt entity with leathery skin and a ton waits-esque voice.
This presence, although not constant, always appears in situations in which I am frightful. Leads me to think... Comment too long. Click here to view the full text.
It's more than that. I basically straight up fried my brain on MDMA and lack of sleep and MDA a couple nights before the mdma.
This happened 5 months ago and aside from the psychosis lessening after 1 month nothing else has improved much. It's been hell. I think about suicide on a daily basis (not that I would kill myself now, but if I haven't improved within 2-3 years I probably would).
Music doesn't even sound good to me anymore. I used to be a music junkie that would travel... Comment too long. Click here to view the full text.
Is this a fucking ARG by ISIS? They say message at the beginning is fake but they say nothing about the one at the end http://heavy.com/news/2016/01/new-isis-islamic-state-news-pictures-videos-kill-them-wherever-you-find-them-et-tuez-les-ou-que-vous-les-rencontriez-french-english-translation-paris-attacks-full-uncensored-youtube/
Recently I've been interested in the concept of repressing memories.
I think I may be doing this, because I am hugely anxious + depressed + irritable, and am in a mental state of turmoil even though when I look at my life everything is going great and I have no reason to feel so bad. I have horrific nightmares that I have no clue how my sick mind puts together but I'm often left astounded as to how insane and gross these dreams are in the morning.
I also recently got crazy back/sciatic pain and was reading a book on the mind-body connection with regards to pain and came across this quote: >Someone said that every night when we go to sleep we all go quietly and safely insane because that's when the remnants of childish, primitive, wild behavior that are a part of everyone's emotional repertoire can show themselves without being monitored by the waking, conscious mind.
All I remember that set it off is maybe 6 years ago I saw a ghost/demon thing (I feel ridiculous just typing this) in a reflection and shortly after that all my anxiety/depression problems started. I may have suppressed something because I don't remember what I did after I saw it at all, but I remember I've never been so terrified in my life, and when I look in my journal entries and stuff from back then I described the thing that I saw like I had seen in 100%, but obviously logic leads me to be sceptical.
I guess I'm looking for others with similar experiences or how you've dealt with stuff like this.
>>17267753 What did you see OP? I can't really diagnose you based on your testimony of your interpretation over your actual experiences. Especially not if you've repressed your memories of it. It might have been a hallucination or it might not, but I can't say until I know what you actually saw.
>>17267753 There are things that I believe we're just naturally afraid of/distressed by and unless we confronted them head on then it won't change.
For me a big one is the invasion of the U.S. I watched 9/11 happen live in the second grade and from then on I've had nightmares about planes, bombings, foreign soldiers occupying my house, etc. In real life I'm completely rational about the subject but clearly there's repressed fear from my childhood lingering which is just as strong as my rational... Comment too long. Click here to view the full text.
>>17268072 I might have written a post on it here...
Found it in the archives from 2013: "A few years ago I saw this girl that looked like the girl from The Ring, but she had a green dress. She was reflected in this mirror thing, and her hair was oily and in front of her face. Her hands were pale. I looked away because I got that evil feeling that she would look up and just...do something horrible.
I made my family members sleep next to me for half a year and I still keep the light on, it was that fucking... Comment too long. Click here to view the full text.
I know this isn't /r/ but I feel like this would be the best place to ask. Years ago I saw this video that was a news report about a family party where aliens came and it was all on video. From what I remember they recorded the shuttle out in the yard and then the havoc in the house. It ended with the camera on the ground with what I wanna say was aliens in black clothing with blue skin. Thinking about it now I'm sure it was from a movie or something like that but I'd like to watch it again since it scared the shit out of me the first time I watched it. If anyone... Comment too long. Click here to view the full text.
Hi, I started a small hex. Basically, I drew Amon's sigil and then a custom sigil with my will under it in charcoal. I also decorated the image with my menstrual blood. Then I recited a prayer to Amon asking for help. I did a banishing ritual first but haven't done the banishing ritual to close. Is it too late to go back outside and stare at the candles, letting go of any pain this person has caused me and directing it back at him? I wanted to take a break and smoke a bowl, lol. Maybe meditate and focus on destroying this person from my mind completely. Any suggestions?... Comment too long. Click here to view the full text.
>>17267667 This shit doesn't work. I tried similar things.
Just wait and see, nothing will happen besides coincidental stuff that happens all the time and because of confirmation bias/selective perception you might end up thinking it was your roleplaying ritual.
So I'm not very deep into X files. Should I stay off this board until I'm caught up so the rest isn't spoiled for me along with the new episodes? And I know this is a perfect opportunity to spoil stuff for me, but please don't friends.
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